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My mother, who sat with her back to the window, would always consider it due to Mrs Booch to turn about and regard the evening in the act of elongation or contraction, whichever phase it might be.
A brisk discussion of how long we were to the longest or shortest day would ensue, and die away at last exhausted.
Mrs Mackridge, perhaps, would reopen. She had many intelligent habits; among others she read the paper – the Morning Post. The other ladies would at times tackle that sheet, but only to read the births, marriages and deaths on the front page. It was, of course, the old Morning Post that cost threepence, not the brisk coruscating young thing of today. ‘They say,’ she would open, ‘that Lord Tweedums is to go to Canada.’
‘Ah!’ said Mr Rabbits; ‘dew they?’
‘Isn’t he,’ said my mother, ‘the Earl of Slumgold’s cousin?’ She knew he was; it was an entirely irrelevant and unnecessary remark, but still, something to say.
‘The same, ma’am,’ said Mrs Mackridge. ‘They say he was extremelay popular in New South Wales. They looked up to him greatlay. I knew him, ma’am, as a young man. A very nice pleasant young fella.’
Interlude of respect.
‘‘Is predecessor,’ said Rabbits, who had acquired from some clerical model a precise emphatic articulation without acquiring at the same time the aspirates that would have graced it, ‘got into trouble at Sydney.’
‘Haw!’ said Mrs Mackridge, scornfully, ‘so I am tawled.’
‘‘E came to Templemorton after ‘e came back, and I remember them talking ‘im over after ‘e’d gone again.’
‘Haw?’ said Mrs Mackridge, interrogatively.
‘’Is fuss was quotin’ poetry, ma’am. ‘E said – what was it ‘e said? – ‘They lef’ their country for their country’s good’, 22 which in some way was took to remind them of their being originally convic’s, though now reformed. Everyone I ‘eard speak, agreed it was takless of ‘im.’
‘Sir Roderick used to say,’ said Mrs Mackridge, ‘that the First Thing’ – here Mrs Mackridge paused and looked dreadfully at me – ‘and the Second Thing’ – here she fixed me again – ‘and the Third Thing’ – now I was released – ‘needed in a colonial governor is Tact.’ She became aware of my doubts again, and added predominantly, ‘It has always struck me that that was a Singularly True Remark.’
I resolved that if ever I found this polypus23 of Tact growing up in my soul, I would tear it out by the roots, throw it forth and stamp on it.
‘They’re queer people – colonials,’ said Rabbits, ‘very queer. When I was at Templemorton I see something ov ‘em. Queer fellows, some of ‘em. Very respectful of course, free with their money in a spasammy sort of way, but – Some of ‘em, I must confess, make me nervous. They have an eye on you. They watch you – as you wait. They let themselves appear to be lookin’ at you….’
My mother said nothing in that discussion. The word ‘colonies’ always upset her. She was afraid, I think, that if she turned her mind in that direction my errant father might suddenly and shockingly be discovered, no doubt conspicuously bigamic and altogether offensive and revolutionary. She did not want to rediscover my father at all.
It is curious that when I was a little listening boy I had such an idea of our colonies that I jeered in my heart at Mrs Mackridge’s colonial ascendency. These brave emancipated sunburt English of the open, I thought, suffer these aristocratic invaders as a quaint anachronism, but as for being gratified—!
I don’t jeer now. I’m not so sure.
§5
It is a little difficult to explain why I did not come to do what was the natural thing for anyone in my circumstances to do, and take my world for granted. A certain innate scepticism, I think, explains it – and a certain inaptitude for sympathetic assimilation. My father, I believe, was a sceptic; my mother was certainly a hard woman.
I was an only child, and to this day I do not know whether my father is living or dead. He fled my mother’s virtues before my distincter memories began. He left no traces in his flight, and she, in her indignation, destroyed every vestige that she could of him. Never a photograph nor a scrap of his handwriting have I seen; and it was, I know, only the accepted code of virtue and discretion that prevented her destroying her marriage certificate and me, and so making a clean sweep of her matrimonial humiliation. I suppose I must inherit something of the moral stupidity that could enable her to make a holocaust of every little personal thing she had of him. There must have been presents made by him as a lover, for example – books with kindly inscriptions, letters perhaps, a flattened flower, a ring or suchlike gage. She kept her wedding-ring of course, but all the others she destroyed. She never told me his Christian name or indeed spoke a word to me of him, though at times I came near daring to ask her; and what I have of him – it isn’t much – I got from his brother, my hero, my Uncle Ponderevo. She wore her ring; her marriage certificate she kept in a sealed envelope in the very bottom of her largest trunk, and me she sustained at a private school among the Kentish hills. You must not think I was always at Bladesover – even in my holidays. If at the time these came round, Lady Drew was vexed by recent Company, or for any other reason wished to take it out of my mother, then she used to ignore the customary reminder my mother gave her, and I ‘stayed on’ at the school.
But such occasions were rare, and I suppose that between ten and fourteen I averaged fifty days a year at Bladesover.
Don’t imagine I deny that was a fine thing for me. Bladesover, in absorbing the whole countryside, had not altogether missed greatness. The Bladesover system has at least done one good thing for England, it has abolished the peasant habit of mind. If many of us still live and breathe pantry and housekeeper’s room, we are quit of the dream of living by economizing parasitically on hens and pigs…. About that park there were some elements of a liberal education; there was a great space of greensward not given over to manure and food grubbing; there was mystery, there was matter for the imagination. It was still a park of deer. I saw something of the life of these dappled creatures, heard the belling of stags, came upon young fawns among the bracken, found bones, skulls and antlers in lonely places. There were corners that gave a gleam of meaning to the word forest, glimpses of unstudied natural splendour. There was a slope of bluebells in the broken sunlight under the newly green beeches in the west wood that is now precious sapphire in my memory; it was the first time that I knowingly met Beauty.
And in the house there were books. The rubbish old Lady Drew read I never saw; stuff of the Maria Monk type, 24 I have since gathered, had a fascination for her; but back in the past there had been a Drew of intellectual enterprise, Sir Cuthbert, the son of Sir Matthew who built the house; and thrust away, neglected and despised, in an old room upstairs were books and treasures of his that my mother let me rout among during a spell of wintry wet. Sitting under a dormer window on a shelf above great stores of tea and spices, I became familiar with much of Hogarth in a big portfolio, with Raphael – there was a great book of engravings from the stanzas of Raphael25 in the Vatican – and with most of the capitals of Europe as they had looked about 1780, by means of several big iron-moulded books of views. There was also a broad eighteenth-century atlas with huge wandering maps that instructed me mightily. It had splendid adornments about each map title; Holland showed a fisherman and his boat; Russia a Cossack; Japan, remarkable people attired in pagodas – I say it deliberately, ‘pagodas’, There were Terrae Incognitae26 in every continent then, Poland, Sarmatia, 27 lands since lost; and many a voyage I made with a blunted pin about that large, incorrect and dignified world. The books in that little old closet had been banished, I suppose, from the saloon during the Victorian revival of good taste and emasculated orthodoxy, but my mother had no suspicion of their character. So I read and understood the good sound rhetoric of Tom Paine’s Rights of Man, and his Common Sense, excellent books, once praised by bishops and since sedulously lied about. Gulliver was there unexpurgated, strong meat for a boy perhaps, but not too strong I hold – have never regretted that I escaped niceness in these affairs. The satire of Tral-dragdubh made my blood boil as it was meant to do, but I hated Swift for the Houyhnhnms and never quite liked a horse afterwards. Then I remember also a translation of Voltaire’s Candide, and Rasselas; and, vast book though it was, I really believe I read, in a muzzy sort of way of course, from end to end, and even with some reference now and then to the Atlas, Gibbon – in twelve volumes.28
These readings whetted my taste for more, and surreptitiously I raided the bookcases in the big saloon. I got through quite a number of books before my sacrilegious temerity was discovered by Ann, the old head-housemaid. I remember that among others I tried a translation of Plato’s Republic29 then, and found extraordinarily little interest in it; I was much too young for that; but Vathek – Vathek was glorious stuff. That kicking affair! When everybody had to kick!30
The thought of Vathek always brings back with it my boyish memory of the big saloon at Bladesover.
It was a huge long room with many windows opening upon the park, and each window – there were a dozen or more reaching from the floor up – had its elaborate silk or satin curtains, heavily fringed, a canopy (is it?) above, its complex white shutters folding into the deep thickness of the wall. At either end of that great still place was an immense marble chimney-piece; the end by the bookcase showed the wolf and Romulus and Remus, with Homer and Virgil for supporters; the design of the other end I have forgotten. Frederick, Prince of Wales, 31 swaggered flatly over the one, twice life-size, but mellowed by the surface gleam of oil; and over the other was an equally colossal group of departed Drews as sylvan deities, scantily clad, against a storm-rent sky. Down the centre of the elaborate ceiling were three chandeliers, each bearing some hundreds of dangling glass lustres, and over the interminable carpet – it impressed me as about as big as Sarmatia in the storeroom Atlas – were islands and archipelagoes of chintz-covered chairs and couches, tables, great Sevres vases on pedestals, a bronze man and horse. Somewhere in this wilderness one came, I remember, upon a big harp beside a lyre-shaped music-stand, and a grand piano….
The book-borrowing raid was one of extraordinary dash and danger. One came down the main service stairs – that was legal. Illegality began on a little landing when, very cautiously, one went through a red baize door. A short passage led to the hall, and here one reconnoitred for Ann, the old head-housemaid – the younger housemaids were friendly and did not count. Ann located, came a dash across the open space at the foot of that great staircase that has never been properly descended since powder went out of fashion, and so to the saloon door. A beast of an oscillating Chinaman in china, as large as life, grimaced and quivered to one’s lightest steps. That door was the perilous place; it was double, with the thickness of the wall between, so that one could not listen beforehand for the whisk of the feather-brush on the other side. Oddly rat-like, is it not, this darting into enormous places in pursuit of the abandoned crumbs of thought?
And I found Langhorne’s Plutarch32 too, I remember, on those shelves. It seems queer to me now to think that I acquired pride and self-respect, the idea of a state and the germ of public spirit, in such a furtive fashion; queer, too, that it should rest with an old Greek, dead these eighteen hundred years, to teach me that.
§6
The school I went to was the sort of school the Bladesover system permitted. The public schools that had come into existence in the brief glow of the Renascence had been taken possession of by the ruling class; the lower classes were not supposed to stand in need of schools, and our middle stratum got the schools it deserved, private schools, schools any unqualified pretender was free to establish. Mine was kept by a man who had had the energy to get himself a College of Preceptors33 diploma, and considering how cheap his charges were, I will readily admit the place might have been worse. The building was a dingy yellow-brick residence outside the village, with the schoolroom as an outbuilding of lath and plaster.
I do not remember that my schooldays were unhappy – indeed, I recall a good lot of fine mixed fun in them – but I cannot without grave risk of misinterpretation declare that we were at all nice and refined. We fought much, not sound formal fighting but ‘scrapping’ of a sincere and murderous kind, into which one might bring one’s boots – it made us tough at any rate – and several of us were the sons of London publicans, who distinguished ‘scraps’ where one meant to hurt from ordered pugilism, practising both arts, and having, moreover, precocious linguistic gifts. Our cricket-field was bald about the wickets, and we played without style and disputed with the umpire; and the teaching was chiefly in the hands of a lout of nineteen, who wore ready-made clothes and taught despicably. The headmaster and proprietor taught us arithmetic, algebra and Euclid, and to the older boys even trigonometry, himself; he had a strong mathematical bias, and I think now that by the standard of a British public school he did rather well by us.
We had one inestimable privilege at that school, and that was spiritual neglect. We dealt with one another with the forcible simplicity of natural boys, we ‘cheeked’ and ‘punched’ and ‘clouted’; we thought ourselves Red Indians and cowboys and suchlike honourable things, and not young English gentlemen; we never felt the strain of ‘Onward, Christian soldiers’, nor were swayed by any premature piety in the cold oak pew of our Sunday devotions. All that was good. We spent our rare pennies in the uncensored reading matter of the village dame’s shop, on the Boys of England and honest penny dreadfuls – ripping stuff, stuff that anticipated Haggard and Stevenson, 34 badly printed and queerly illustrated, and very very good for us. On our half-holidays we were allowed the unusual freedom of rambling in twos and threes wide and far about the land, talking experimentally, dreaming wildly. There was much in those walks! To this day the landscape of the Kentish weald, 35 with its low broad distances, its hop gardens and golden stretches of wheat, its oasts and square church towers, its background of downland and hangers, has for me a faint sense of adventure added to the pleasure of its beauty. We smoked on occasion, but nobody put us up to the proper ‘boyish’ things to do; we never ‘robbed an orchard’ for example, though there were orchards all about us, we thought stealing was sinful; we stole incidental apples and turnips and strawberries from the fields indeed, but in a criminal inglorious fashion, and afterwards we were ashamed. We had our days of adventure, but they were natural accidents, our own adventures. There was one hot day when several of us, walking out towards Maidstone, were incited by the devil to despise ginger beer, and we fuddled ourselves dreadfully with ale; and a time when our young minds were infected to the pitch of buying pistols, by the legend of the Wild West. Young Roots from Highbury, came back with a revolver and cartridges, and we went off six strong to live a free wild life one holiday afternoon. We fired our first shot deep in the old flint mine at Chiselstead, and nearly burst our eardrums; then we fired in a primrose-studded wood by Pickthorn Green, and I gave a false alarm of ‘keeper’, and we fled in disorder for a mile. After which Roots suddenly shot at a pheasant in the high road by Chiselstead, and then young Barker told lies about the severity of the game laws and made Roots sore afraid, and we hid the pistol in a dry ditch outside the school field. A day or so after we got it again, and ignoring a certain fouling and rusting of the barrel, tried for a rabbit at three hundred yards. Young Roots blew a molehill at twenty paces into a dust cloud, burnt his fingers and scorched his face; and the weapon having once displayed this strange disposition to flame upon the shooter, was not subsequently fired.
One main source of excitement for us was ‘cheeking’ people in vans and carts upon the Goudhurst road; and getting myself into a monstrous white mess in the chalk pits beyond the village and catching yellow jaundice as a sequel to bathing stark naked with three other Adamites, old Ewart leading that function, in the rivulet across Hickson’s meadows, are among my memorabilia. Those free imaginative afternoons! how much they were for us! how much they did for us! All streams came from the then undiscovered ‘sources of the Nile’ in those days, all thickets were Indian jungles, and our best game, I say it with pride, I invented. I got it out of the Bladesover saloon. We found a wood where ‘Trespassing’ was forbidden, and did the ‘Retreat of the Ten Thousand’36 through it from end to end, cutting our way bravely through a host of nettle beds that barred our path, and not forgetting to weep and kneel when at last we emerged within sight of the High Road Sea. So we have burst at times, weeping and rejoicing, upon startled wayfarers. Usually I took the part of that distinguished general Xenōphon and please note the quantity of the ō. I have all my classical names like that, – Socrates rhymes with Bates for me, and except when the bleak eye of some scholar warns me of his standards of judgement, I use those dear old mispronunciations still. The little splash into Latin made during my days as a chemist washed off nothing of the habit. Well, – if I met those great gentlemen of the past with their accents carelessly adjusted I did at least meet them alive, as an equal and in a living tongue. Altogether my school might easily have been worse for me, and among other good things it gave me a friend who has lasted my life out.
This was Ewart, who is now a monumental artist37 at Woking, after many vicissitudes. Dear chap, how he did stick out of his clothes to be sure! He was a long-limbed lout, ridiculously tall beside my more youthful compactness, and, except that there was no black moustache under his nose blob, he had the same round knobby face he has today, the same bright and active hazel brown eyes, the stare, the meditative moment, the insinuating reply. Surely no boy ever played the fool as Bob Ewart38 used to play it, no boy had a readier knack of mantling the world with wonder. Commonness vanished before Ewart, at his expository touch all things became memorable and rare. From him I first heard tell of love, but only after its barbs were already sticking in my heart. He was, I know now, the bastard of that great improvident artist, Rickmann Ewart; he brought the light of a lax world that at least had not turned its back upon beauty, into the growing fermentation of my mind.
