Collected Works of Zane Grey, page 560
By and by the narrow valley opened into a park, at the upper end of which stood a log cabin. A few cattle and horses grazed in an inclosed pasture. The trail led by the cabin. As Wade rode up a bushy-haired man came out of the door, rifle in hand. He might have been going out to hunt, but his scrutiny of Wade was that of a lone settler in a wild land.
“Howdy, stranger!” he said.
“Good evenin’,” replied Wade. “Reckon you’re Blair an’ I’m nigh the headwaters of this river?”
“Yep, a matter of three miles to Trapper’s Lake.”
“My name’s Wade. I’m packin’ over to take a job with Bill Belllounds.”
“Git down an’ come in,” returned Blair. “Bill’s man stopped with me some time ago.”
“Obliged, I’m sure, but I’ll be goin’ on,” responded Wade. “Do you happen to have a hunk of deer meat? Game powerful scarce comin’ up this valley.”
“Lots of deer an’ elk higher up. I chased a bunch of more ‘n thirty, I reckon, right out of my pasture this mornin’.”
Blair crossed to an open shed near by and returned with half a deer haunch, which he tied upon Wade’s pack-horse.
“My ole woman’s ailin’. Do you happen to hev some terbaccer?
“I sure do — both smokin’ an’ chewin’, an’ I can spare more chewin’. A little goes a long ways with me.”
“Wal, gimme some of both, most chewin’,” replied Blair, with evident satisfaction.
“You acquainted with Belllounds?” asked Wade, as he handed over the tobacco.
“Wal, yes, everybody knows Bill. You’d never find a whiter boss in these hills.”
“Has he any family?”
“Now, I can’t say as to thet,” replied Blair. “I heerd he lost a wife years ago. Mebbe he married ag’in. But Bill’s gittin’ along.”
“Good day to you, Blair,” said Wade, and took up his bridle.
“Good day an’ good luck. Take the right-hand trail. Better trot up a bit, if you want to make camp before dark.”
Wade soon entered the spruce forest. Then he came to a shallow, roaring river. The horses drank the water, foaming white and amber around their knees, and then with splash and thump they forded it over the slippery rocks. As they cracked out upon the trail a covey of grouse whirred up into the low branches of spruce-trees. They were tame.
“That’s somethin’ like,” said Wade. “First birds I’ve seen this fall. Reckon I can have stew any day.”
He halted his horse and made a move to dismount, but with his eyes on the grouse he hesitated. “Tame as chickens, an’ they sure are pretty.”
Then he rode on, leading his pack-horse. The trail was not steep, although in places it had washed out, thus hindering a steady trot. As he progressed the forest grew thick and darker, and the fragrance of pine and spruce filled the air. A dreamy roar of water rushing over rocks rang in the traveler’s ears. It receded at times, then grew louder. Presently the forest shade ahead lightened and he rode out into a wide space where green moss and flags and flowers surrounded a wonderful spring-hole. Sunset gleams shone through the trees to color the wide, round pool. It was shallow all along the margin, with a deep, large green hole in the middle, where the water boiled up. Trout were feeding on gnats and playing on the surface, and some big ones left wakes behind them as they sped to deeper water. Wade had an appreciative eye for all this beauty, his gaze lingering longest upon the flowers.
“Wild woods is the place for me,” he soliloquized, as the cool wind fanned his cheeks and the sweet tang of evergreen tingled his nostrils. “But sure I’m most haunted in these lonely, silent places.”
Bent Wade had the look of a haunted man. Perhaps the consciousness he confessed was part of his secret.
Twilight had come when again he rode out into the open. Trapper’s Lake lay before him, a beautiful sheet of water, mirroring the black slopes and the fringed spruces and the flat peaks. Over all its gray, twilight-softened surface showed little swirls and boils and splashes where the myriads of trout were rising. The trail led out over open grassy shores, with a few pines straggling down to the lake, and clumps of spruces raising dark blurs against the background of gleaming lake. Wade heard a sharp crack of hoofs on rock, and he knew he had disturbed deer at their drinking; also he heard a ring of horns on the branch of a tree, and was sure an elk was slipping off through the woods. Across the lake he saw a camp-fire and a pale, sharp-pointed object that was a trapper’s tent or an Indian’s tepee.
Selecting a camp-site for himself, he unsaddled his horse, threw the pack off the other, and, hobbling both animals, he turned them loose. His roll of bedding, roped in canvas tarpaulin, he threw under a spruce-tree. Then he opened his oxhide-covered packs and laid out utensils and bags, little and big. All his movements were methodical, yet swift, accurate, habitual. He was not thinking about what he was doing. It took him some little time to find a suitable log to split for fire-wood, and when he had started a blaze night had fallen, and the light as it grew and brightened played fantastically upon the isolating shadows.
Lid and pot of the little Dutch oven he threw separately upon the sputtering fire, and while they heated he washed his hands, mixed the biscuits, cut slices of meat off the deer haunch, and put water on to boil. He broiled his meat on the hot, red coals, and laid it near on clean pine chips, while he waited for bread to bake and coffee to boil. The smell of wood-smoke and odorous steam from pots and the fragrance of spruce mingled together, keen, sweet, appetizing. Then he ate his simple meal hungrily, with the content of the man who had fared worse.
After he had satisfied himself he washed his utensils and stowed them away, with the bags. Whereupon his movements acquired less dexterity and speed. The rest hour had come. Still, like the long-experienced man in the open, he looked around for more to do, and his gaze fell upon his weapons, lying on his saddle. His rifle was a Henry — shiny and smooth from long service and care. His small gun was a Colt’s 45. It had been carried in a saddle holster. Wade rubbed the rifle with his hands, and then with a greasy rag which he took from the sheath. After that he held the rifle to the heat of the fire. A squall of rain had overtaken him that day, wetting his weapons. A subtle and singular difference seemed to show in the way he took up the Colt’s. His action was slow, his look reluctant. The small gun was not merely a thing of steel and powder and ball. He dried it and rubbed it with care, but not with love, and then he stowed it away.
Next Wade unrolled his bed under the spruce, with one end of the tarpaulin resting on the soft mat of needles. On top of that came the two woolly sheepskins, which he used to lie upon, then his blankets, and over all the other end of the tarpaulin.
This ended his tasks for the day. He lighted his pipe and composed himself beside the camp-fire to smoke and rest awhile before going to bed. The silence of the wilderness enfolded lake and shore; yet presently it came to be a silence accentuated by near and distant sounds, faint, wild, lonely — the low hum of falling water, the splash of tiny waves on the shore, the song of insects, and the dismal hoot of owls.
“Bill Belllounds — an’ he needs a hunter,” soliloquized Bent Wade, with gloomy, penetrating eyes, seeing far through the red embers. “That will suit me an’ change my luck, likely. Livin’ in the woods, away from people — I could stick to a job like that.... But if this White Slides is close to the old trail I’ll never stay.”
He sighed, and a darker shadow, not from flickering fire, overspread his cadaverous face. Eighteen years ago he had driven the woman he loved away from him, out into the world with her baby girl. Never had he rested beside a camp-fire that that old agony did not recur! Jealous fool! Too late he had discovered his fatal blunder; and then had begun a search over Colorado, ending not a hundred miles across the wild mountains from where he brooded that lonely hour — a search ended by news of the massacre of a wagon-train by Indians.
That was Bent Wade’s secret.
And no earthly sufferings could have been crueler than his agony and remorse, as through the long years he wandered on and on. The very good that he tried to do seemed to foment evil. The wisdom that grew out of his suffering opened pitfalls for his wandering feet. The wildness of men and the passion of women somehow waited with incredible fatality for that hour when chance led him into their lives. He had toiled, he had given, he had fought, he had sacrificed, he had killed, he had endured for the human nature which in his savage youth he had betrayed. Yet out of his supreme and endless striving to undo, to make reparation, to give his life, to find God, had come, it seemed to Wade in his abasement, only a driving torment.
But though his thought and emotion fluctuated, varying, wandering, his memory held a fixed and changeless picture of a woman, fair and sweet, with eyes of nameless blue, and face as white as a flower.
“Baby would have been — let’s see— ‘most nineteen years old now — if she’d lived,” he said. “A big girl, I reckon, like her mother.... Strange how, as I grow older, I remember better!”
The night wind moaned through the spruces; dark clouds scudded across the sky, blotting out the bright stars; a steady, low roar of water came from the outlet of the lake. The camp-fire flickered and burned out, so that no sparks blew into the blackness, and the red embers glowed and paled and crackled. Wade at length got up and made ready for bed. He threw back tarpaulin and blankets, and laid his rifle alongside where he could cover it. His coat served for a pillow and he put the Colt’s gun under that; then pulling off his boots, he slipped into bed, dressed as he was, and, like all men in the open, at once fell asleep.
For Wade, and for countless men like him, who for many years had roamed the West, this sleeping alone in wild places held both charm and peril. But the fascination of it was only a vague realization, and the danger was laughed at.
Over Bent Wade’s quiet form the shadows played, the spruce boughs waved, the piny needles rustled down, the wind moaned louder as the night advanced. By and by the horses rested from their grazing; the insects ceased to hum; and the continuous roar of water dominated the solitude. If wild animals passed Wade’s camp they gave it a wide berth.
Sunrise found Wade on the trail, climbing high up above the lake, making for the pass over the range. He walked, leading his horses up a zigzag trail that bore the tracks of recent travelers. Although this country was sparsely settled, yet there were men always riding from camp to camp or from one valley town to another. Wade never tarried on a well-trodden trail.
As he climbed higher the spruce-trees grew smaller, no longer forming a green aisle before him, and at length they became dwarfed and stunted, and at last failed altogether. Soon he was above timber-line and out upon a flat-topped mountain range, where in both directions the land rolled and dipped, free of tree or shrub, colorful with grass and flowers. The elevation exceeded eleven thousand feet. A whipping wind swept across the plain-land. The sun was pale-bright in the east, slowly being obscured by gray clouds. Snow began to fall, first in scudding, scanty flakes, but increasing until the air was full of a great, fleecy swirl. Wade rode along the rim of a mountain wall, watching a beautiful snow-storm falling into the brown gulf beneath him. Once as he headed round a break he caught sight of mountain-sheep cuddled under a protecting shelf. The snow-squall blew away, like a receding wall, leaving grass and flowers wet. As the dark clouds parted, the sun shone warmer out of the blue. Gray peaks, with patches of white, stood up above their black-timbered slopes.
Wade soon crossed the flat-topped pass over the range and faced a descent, rocky and bare at first, but yielding gradually to the encroachment of green. He left the cold winds and bleak trails above him. In an hour, when he was half down the slope, the forest had become warm and dry, fragrant and still. At length he rode out upon the brow of a last wooded bench above a grassy valley, where a bright, winding stream gleamed in the sun. While the horses rested Wade looked about him. Nature never tired him. If he had any peace it emanated from the silent places, the solemn hills, the flowers and animals of the wild and lonely land.
A few straggling pines shaded this last low hill above the valley. Grass grew luxuriantly there in the open, but not under the trees, where the brown needle-mats jealously obstructed the green. Clusters of columbines waved their graceful, sweet, pale-blue flowers that Wade felt a joy in seeing. He loved flowers — columbines, the glory of Colorado, came first, and next the many-hued purple asters, and then the flaunting spikes of paint-brush, and after them the nameless and numberless wild flowers that decked the mountain meadows and colored the grass of the aspen groves and peeped out of the edge of snow fields.
“Strange how it seems good to live — when I look at a columbine — or watch a beaver at his work — or listen to the bugle of an elk!” mused Bent Wade. He wondered why, with all his life behind him, he could still find comfort in these things.
Then he rode on his way. The grassy valley, with its winding stream, slowly descended and widened, and left foothill and mountain far behind. Far across a wide plain rose another range, black and bold against the blue. In the afternoon Wade reached Elgeria, a small hamlet, but important by reason of its being on the main stage line, and because here miners and cattlemen bought supplies. It had one street, so wide it appeared to be a square, on which faced a line of bold board houses with high, flat fronts. Wade rode to the inn where the stagecoaches made headquarters. It suited him to feed and rest his horses there, and partake of a meal himself, before resuming his journey.
The proprietor was a stout, pleasant-faced little woman, loquacious and amiable, glad to see a stranger for his own sake rather than from considerations of possible profit. Though Wade had never before visited Elgeria, he soon knew all about the town, and the miners up in the hills, and the only happenings of moment — the arrival and departure of stages.
“Prosperous place,” remarked Wade. “I saw that. An’ it ought to be growin’.”
“Not so prosperous fer me as it uster be,” replied the lady. “We did well when my husband was alive, before our competitor come to town. He runs a hotel where miners can drink an’ gamble. I don’t.... But I reckon I’ve no cause to complain. I live.”
“Who runs the other hotel?”
“Man named Smith. Reckon thet’s not his real name. I’ve had people here who — but it ain’t no matter.”
“Men change their names,” replied Wade.
“Stranger, air you packin’ through or goin’ to stay?”
“On my way to White Slides Ranch, where I’m goin’ to work for Belllounds. Do you know him?”
“Know Belllounds? Me? Wal, he’s the best friend I ever had when I was at Kremmlin’. I lived there several years. My husband had stock there. In fact, Bill started us in the cattle business. But we got out of there an’ come here, where Bob died, an’ I’ve been stuck ever since.”
“Everybody has a good word for Belllounds,” observed Wade.
“You’ll never hear a bad one,” replied the woman, with cheerful warmth. “Bill never had but one fault, an’ people loved him fer thet.”
“What was it?”
“He’s got a wild boy thet he thinks the sun rises an’ sets in. Buster Jack, they call him. He used to come here often. But Bill sent him away somewhere. The boy was spoiled. I saw his mother years ago — she’s dead this long time — an’ she was no wife fer Bill Belllounds. Jack took after her. An’ Bill was thet woman’s slave. When she died all his big heart went to the son, an’ thet accounts. Jack will never be any good.”
Wade thoughtfully nodded his head, as if he understood, and was pondering other possibilities.
“Is he the only child?”
“There’s a girl, but she’s not Bill’s kin. He adopted her when she was a baby. An’ Jack’s mother hated this child — jealous, we used to think, because it might grow up an’ get some of Bill’s money.’
“What’s the girl’s name?” asked Wade.
“Columbine. She was over here last summer with Old Bill. They stayed with me. It was then Bill had hard words with Smith across the street. Bill was resentin’ somethin’ Smith put in my way. Wal, the lass’s the prettiest I ever seen in Colorado, an’ as good as she’s pretty. Old Bill hinted to me he’d likely make a match between her an’ his son Jack. An’ I ups an’ told him, if Jack hadn’t turned over a new leaf when he comes home, thet such a marriage would be tough on Columbine. Whew, but Old Bill was mad. He jest can’t stand a word ag’in’ thet Buster Jack.”
“Columbine Belllounds,” mused Wade. “Queer name.”
“Oh, I’ve knowed three girls named Columbine. Don’t you know the flower? It’s common in these parts. Very delicate, like a sago lily, only paler.”
“Were you livin’ in Kremmlin’ when Belllounds adopted the girl?” asked Wade.
“Laws no!” was the reply. “Thet was long before I come to Middle Park. But I heerd all about it. The baby was found by gold-diggers up in the mountains. Must have got lost from a wagon-train thet Indians set on soon after — so the miners said. Anyway, Old Bill took the baby an’ raised her as his own.”
“How old is she now?” queried Wade, with a singular change in his tone.
“Columbine’s around nineteen.”
Bent Wade lowered his head a little, hiding his features under the old, battered, wide-brimmed hat. The amiable innkeeper did not see the tremor that passed over him, nor the slight stiffening that followed, nor the gray pallor of his face. She went on talking until some one called her.
Wade went outdoors, and with bent head walked down the street, across a little river, out into green pasture-land. He struggled with an amazing possibility. Columbine Belllounds might be his own daughter. His heart leaped with joy. But the joy was short-lived. No such hope in this world for Bent Wade! This coincidence, however, left him with a strange, prophetic sense in his soul of a tragedy coming to White Slides Ranch. Wade possessed some power of divination, some strange gift to pierce the veil of the future. But he could not exercise this power at will; it came involuntarily, like a messenger of trouble in the dark night. Moreover, he had never yet been able to draw away from the fascination of this knowledge. It lured him on. Always his decision had been to go on, to meet this boding circumstance, or to remain and meet it, in the hope that he might take some one’s burden upon his shoulders. He sensed it now, in the keen, poignant clairvoyance of the moment — the tangle of life that he was about to enter. Old Bill Belllounds, big and fine, victim of love for a wayward son; Buster Jack, the waster, the tearer-down, the destroyer, the wild youth at a wild time; Columbine, the girl of unknown birth, good and loyal, subject to a condition sure to ruin her. Wade’s strange mind revolved a hundred outcomes to this conflict of characters, but not one of them was the one that was written. That remained dark. Never had he received so strong a call out of the unknown, nor had he ever felt such intense curiosity. Hope had long been dead in him, except the one that he might atone in some way for the wrong he had done his wife. So the pangs of emotion that recurred, in spite of reason and bitterness, were not recognized by him as lingering hopes. Wade denied the human in him, but he thrilled at the thought of meeting Columbine Belllounds. There was something here beyond all his comprehension.
