Collected Works of Zane Grey, page 462
“Lenore, I’d like to see you,” said her father, at last, as he laid down his napkin and rose. Almost he convinced her then that nothing was amiss or different, and he would have done so if he had not been too clever, too natural. She rose to follow, catching Kathleen’s whisper:
“Don’t let him put it over on you, now!”
Anderson lighted a big cigar, as always after supper, but to Lenore’s delicate sensitiveness he seemed to be too long about it.
“Lenore, I’m takin’ a run to New York — leave to-night at eight — an’ I want you to sort of manage while I’m gone. Here’s some jobs I want the men to do — all noted down here — an’ you’ll answer letters, ‘phone calls, an’ all that. Not much work, you know, but you’ll have to hang around. Somethin’ important might turn up.”
“Yes, dad. I’ll be glad to,” she replied. “Why — why this sudden trip?”
Anderson turned away a little and ran his hand over the papers on his desk. Did she only imagine that his hand shook a little?
“Wheat deals, I reckon — mostly,” he said. “An’ mebbe I’ll run over to Washington.”
He turned then, puffing at his cigar, and calmly met her direct gaze. If there were really more than he claimed in his going, he certainly did not intend to tell her. Lenore tried to still her mounting emotion. These days she seemed all imagination. Then she turned away her face.
“Will you try to find out if Kurt Dorn died of his wound — and all about him?” she asked, steadily, but very low.
“Lenore, I sure will!” he exclaimed, with explosive emphasis. No doubt the sincerity of that reply was an immense relief to Anderson. “Once in New York, I can pull wires, if need be. I absolutely promise you I’ll find out — what — all you want to know.”
Lenore bade him good-by and went to her room, where calmness deserted her for a while. Upon recovering, she found that the time set for her father’s departure had passed. Strangely, then the oppression that had weighed upon her so heavily eased and lifted. The moment seemed one beyond her understanding. She attributed her relief, however, to the fact that her father would soon end her suspense in regard to Kurt Dorn.
In the succeeding days Lenore regained her old strength and buoyancy, and something of a control over the despondency which at times had made life misery.
A golden day of sunlight and azure blue of sky ushered in the month of June. “Many Waters” was a world of verdant green. Lenore had all she could do to keep from flying to the slopes. But as every day now brought nearer the possibility of word from her father, she stayed at home. The next morning about nine o’clock, while she was at her father’s desk, the telephone-bell rang. It did that many times every morning, but this ring seemed to electrify Lenore. She answered the call hurriedly.
“Hello, Lenore, my girl! How are you?” came rolling on the wire.
“Dad! Dad! Is it — you?” cried Lenore, wildly.
“Sure is. Just got here. Are you an’ the girls O.K.?”
“We’re well — fine. Oh, dad …”
“You needn’t send the car. I’ll hire one.”
“Yes — yes — but, dad — Oh, tell me …”
“Wait! I’ll be there in five minutes.”
She heard him slam up the receiver, and she leaned there, palpitating, with the queer, vacant sounds of the telephone filling her ear.
“Five minutes!” Lenore whispered. In five more minutes she would know. They seemed an eternity. Suddenly a flood of emotion and thought threatened to overwhelm her. Leaving the office, she hurried forth to find her sisters, and not until she had looked everywhere did she remember that they were visiting a girl friend. After this her motions seemed ceaseless; she could not stand or sit still, and she was continually going to the porch to look down the shady lane. At last a car appeared, coming fast. Then she ran indoors quite aimlessly and out again. But when she recognized her father all her outward fears and tremblings vanished. The broad, brown flash of his face was reality. He got out of the car lightly for so heavy a man, and, taking his valise, he dismissed the chauffeur. His smile was one of gladness, and his greeting a hearty roar.
Lenore met him at the porch steps, seeing in him, feeling as she embraced him, that he radiated a strange triumph and finality.
“Say, girl, you look somethin’ like your old self,” he said, holding her by the shoulders. “Fine! But you’re a woman now.… Where are the kids?”
“They’re away,” replied Lenore.
“How you stare!” laughed Anderson, as with arm round her he led her in. “Anythin’ queer about your dad’s handsome mug?”
His jocular tone did not hide his deep earnestness. Never had Lenore felt him so forceful. His ruggedness seemed to steady her nerves that again began to fly. Anderson took her into his office, closed the door, threw down his valise.
“Great to be home!” he exploded, with heavy breath.
Lenore felt her face blanch; and that intense quiver within her suddenly stilled.
“Tell me — quick!” she whispered.
He faced her with flashing eyes, and all about him changed. “You’re an Anderson! You can stand shock?”
“Any — any shock but suspense.”
“I lied about the wheat deal — about my trip to New York. I got news of Dorn. I was afraid to tell you.”
“Yes?”
“Dorn is alive,” went on Anderson.
Lenore’s hands went out in mute eloquence.
“He was all shot up. He can’t live,” hurried Anderson, hoarsely. “But he’s alive — he’ll live to see you.”
“Oh! I knew, I knew!” whispered Lenore clasping her hands. “Oh, thank God!”
“Lenore, steady now. You’re gettin’ shaky. Brace there, my girl!… Dorn’s alive. I’ve brought him home. He’s here.”
“Here!” screamed Lenore.
“Yes. They’ll have him here in half an hour.”
Lenore fell into her father’s arms, blind and deaf to all outward things. The light of day failed. But her consciousness did not fade. Before it seemed a glorious radiance that was the truth lost for the moment, blindly groping, in whirling darkness. When she did feel herself again it was as a weak, dizzy, palpitating child, unable to stand. Her father, in alarm, and probable anger with himself, was coaxing and swearing in one breath. Then suddenly the joy that had shocked Lenore almost into collapse forced out the weakness with amazing strength. She blazed. She radiated. She burst into utterance too swift to understand.
“Hold on there, girl!” interrupted Anderson. “You’ve got the bit in your teeth.… Listen, will you? Let me talk. Well — well, there now.… Sure, it’s all right, Lenore. You made me break it sudden-like.… Listen. There’s all summer to talk. Just now you want to get a few details. Get ’em straight.… Dorn is on the way here. They put his stretcher — we’ve been packin’ him on one — into a motor-truck. There’s a nurse come with me — a man nurse. We’d better put Dorn in mother’s room. That’s the biggest an’ airiest. You hurry an’ open up the windows an’ fix the bed.… An’ don’t go out of your head with joy. It’s sure more ‘n we ever hoped for to see him alive, to get him home. But he’s done for, poor boy! He can’t live.… An’ he’s in such shape that I don’t want you to see him when they fetch him in. Savvy, girl! You’ll stay in your room till we call you. An’ now rustle.”
Lenore paced and crouched and lay in her room, waiting, listening with an intensity that hurt. When a slow procession of men, low-voiced and soft-footed, carried Kurt Dorn into the house and up-stairs Lenore trembled with a storm of emotion. All her former agitation, love, agony, and suspense, compared to what she felt then, was as nothing. Not the joy of his being alive, not the terror of his expected death, had so charged her heart as did this awful curiosity to see him, to realize him.
At last a step — a knock — her father’s voice: “Lenore — come!”
Her ordeal of waiting was over. All else she could withstand. That moment ended her weakness. Her blood leaped with the irresistable, revivifying current of her spirit. Unlocking the door, Lenore stepped out. Her father stood there with traces of extreme worry fading from his tired face. At sight of her they totally vanished.
“Good! You’ve got nerve. You can see him now alone. He’s unconscious. But he’s not been greatly weakened by the trip. His vitality is wonderful. He comes to once in a while. Sometimes he’s rational. Mostly, though, he’s out of his head. An’ his left arm is gone.”
Anderson said all this rapidly and low while they walked down the hall toward the end room which had not been used since Mrs. Anderson’s death. The door was ajar. Lenore smelled strong, pungent odors of antiseptics.
Anderson knocked softly.
“Come out, you men, an’ let my girl see him,” he called.
Doctor Lowell, the village practitioner Lenore had known for years, tiptoed out, important and excited.
“Lenore, it’s to bad,” he said, kindly, and he shook his head.
Another man glided out with the movements of a woman. He was not young. His aspect was pale, serious.
“Lenore, this is Mr. Jarvis, the nurse.… Now — go in, an’ don’t forget what I said.”
She closed the door and leaned back against it, conscious of the supreme moment of her life. Dorn’s face, strange yet easily recognizable, appeared against the white background of the bed. That moment was supreme because it showed him there alive, justifying the spiritual faith which had persisted in her soul. If she had ever, in moments of distraction, doubted God, she could never doubt again.
The large room had been bright, with white curtains softly blowing inward from the open windows. As she crept forward, not sure on her feet, all seemed to blur, so that when she leaned over the still face to kiss it she could not see clearly. Her lips quivered with that kiss and with her sob of thankfulness.
“My soldier!”
She prayed then, with her head beside his on the pillow, and through that prayer and the strange stillness of her lover she received a subtle shock. Sweet it was to touch him as she bent with eyes hidden. Terrible it would be to look — to see how the war had wrecked him. She tried to linger there, all tremulous, all gratitude, all woman and mother. But an incalculable force lifted her up from her knees.
“Ah!” she gasped, as she saw him with cleared sight. A knife-blade was at her heart. Kurt Dorn lay before her gaze — a man, and not the boy she had sacrificed to war — a man by a larger frame, and by older features, and by a change difficult to grasp.
These features seemed a mask, transparent, unable to hide a beautiful, sad, stern, and ruthless face beneath, which in turn slowly gave to her startled gaze sloping lines of pain and shades of gloom, and the pale, set muscles of forced manhood, and the faint hectic flush of fever and disorder and derangement. A livid, angry scar, smooth, yet scarcely healed, ran from his left temple back as far as she could see. That established his identity as a wounded soldier brought home from the war. Otherwise to Lenore his face might have been that of an immortal suddenly doomed with the curse of humanity, dying in agony. She had expected to see Dorn bronzed, haggard, gaunt, starved, bearded and rough-skinned, bruised and battered, blinded and mutilated, with gray in his fair hair. But she found none of these. Her throbbing heart sickened and froze at the nameless history recorded in his face. Was it beyond her to understand what had been his bitter experience? Would she never suffer his ordeal? Never! That was certain. An insupportable sadness pervaded her soul. It was not his life she thought of, but the youth, the nobility, the splendor of him that war had destroyed. No intuition, no divination, no power so penetrating as a woman’s love! By that piercing light she saw the transformed man. He knew. He had found out all of physical life. His hate had gone with his blood. Deeds — deeds of terror had left their imprint upon his brow, in the shadows under his eyes, that resembled blank walls potent with invisible meaning. Lenore shuddered through all her soul as she read the merciless record of the murder he had dealt, of the strong and passionate duty that had driven him, of the eternal remorse. But she did not see or feel that he had found God; and, stricken as he seemed, she could not believe he was near to death.
This last confounding thought held her transfixed and thrilling, gazing down at Dorn, until her father entered to break the spell and lead her away.
CHAPTER XXX
IT WAS NIGHT. Lenore should have been asleep, but she sat up in the dark by the window. Underneath on the porch, her father, with his men as audience, talked like a torrent. And Lenore, hearing what otherwise would never have gotten to her ears, found listening irresistible. Slow, dragging footsteps and the clinking of spurs attested to the approach of cowboys.
“Howdy, boys! Sit down an’ be partic’lar quiet. Here’s some smokes. I’m wound up an’ gotta go off or bust,” Anderson said, “Well, as I was sayin’, we folks don’t know there’s a war, from all outward sign here in the Northwest. But in that New York town I just come from — God Almighty! what goin’s-on! Boys, I never knew before how grand it was to be American. New York’s got the people, the money, an’ it’s the outgoin’ an’ incomin’ place of all pertainin’ to this war. The Liberty Loan drive was on. The streets were crowded. Bands an’ parades, grand-opera stars singin’ on the corners, famous actors sellin’ bonds, flags an’ ribbons an’ banners everywhere, an’ every third man you bumped into wearin’ some kind of uniform! An’ the women were runnin’ wild, like a stampede of two-year-olds.… I rode down Fifth Avenue on one of them high-topped buses with seats on. Talk about your old stage-coach — why, these ‘buses had ’em beat a mile! I’ve rode some in my day, but this was the ride of my life. I couldn’t hear myself think. Music at full blast, roar of traffic, voices like whisperin’ without end, flash of red an’ white an’ blue, shine of a thousand automobiles down that wonderful street that’s like a canon! An’ up overhead a huge cigar-shaped balloon, an’ then an airplane sailin’ swift an’ buzzin’ like a bee. Them was the first air-ships I ever seen. No wonder — Jim wanted to—”
Anderson’s voice broke a little at this juncture and he paused. All was still except the murmur of the running water and the song of the insects. Presently Anderson cleared his throat and resumed:
“I saw five hundred Australian soldiers just arrived in New York by way of Panama. Lean, wiry boys like Arizona cowboys. Looked good to me! You ought to have heard the cheerin’. Roar an’ roar, everywhere they marched along. I saw United States sailors, marines, soldiers, airmen, English officers, an’ Scotch soldiers. Them last sure got my eye. Funny plaid skirts they wore — an’ they had bare legs. Three I saw walked lame. An’ all had medals. Some one said the Germans called these Scotch ‘Ladies from hell.’ … When I heard that I had to ask questions, an’ I learned these queer-lookin’ half-women-dressed fellows were simply hell with cold steel. An’ after I heard that I looked again an’ wondered why I hadn’t seen it. I ought to know men!… Then I saw the outfit of Blue Devil Frenchmen that was sent over to help stimulate the Liberty Loan. An’ when I seen them I took off my hat. I’ve knowed a heap of tough men an’ bad men an’ handy men an’ fightin’ men in my day, but I reckoned I never seen the like of the Blue Devils. I can’t tell you why, boys. Blue Devils is another German name for a regiment of French soldiers. They had it on the Scotch-men. Any Western man, just to look at them, would think of Wild Bill an’ Billy the Kid an’ Geronimo an’ Custer, an’ see that mebbe the whole four mixed in one might have made a Blue Devil.
“My young friend Dorn, that’s dyin’ up-stairs, now — he had a name given him. ‘Pears that this war-time is like the old days when we used to hit on right pert names for everybody.… Demon Dorn they called him, an’ he got that handle before he ever reached France. The boys of his outfit gave it to him because of the way he run wild with a bayonet. I don’t want my girl Lenore ever to know that.
“A soldier named Owens told me a lot. He was the corporal of Dorn’s outfit, a sort of foreman, I reckon. Anyway, he saw Dorn every day of the months they were in the service, an’ the shell that done Dorn made a cripple of Owens. This fellow Owens said Dorn had not got so close to his bunk-mates until they reached France. Then he begun to have influence over them. Owens didn’t know how he did it — in fact, never knew it at all until the outfit got to the front, somewhere in northern France, in the first line. They were days in the first line, close up to the Germans, watchin’ an’ sneakin’ all the time, shootin’ an’ dodgin’, but they never had but one real fight.
“That was when one mornin’ the Germans came pilin’ over on a charge, far outnumberin’ our boys. Then it happened. Lord! I wish I could remember how Owens told that scrap! Boys, you never heard about a real scrap. It takes war like this to make men fighters.… Listen, now, an’ I’ll tell you some of the things that come off durin’ this German charge. I’ll tell them just as they come to mind. There was a boy named Griggs who ran the German barrage — an’ that’s a gantlet — seven times to fetch ammunition to his pards. Another boy, on the same errand, was twice blown off the road by explodin’ shells, an’ then went back. Owens told of two of his company who rushed a bunch of Germans, killed eight of them, an’ captured their machine-gun. Before that German charge a big shell came over an’ kicked up a hill of mud. Next day the Americans found their sentinel buried in mud, dead at his post, with his bayonet presented.
“Owens was shot just as he jumped up with his pards to meet the chargin’ Germans. He fell an’ dragged himself against a wall of bags, where he lay watchin’ the fight. An’ it so happened that he faced Dorn’s squad, which was attacked by three times their number. He saw Dorn shot — go down, an’ thought he was done — but no! Dorn came up with one side of his face all blood. Dixon, a college football man, rushed a German who was about to throw a bomb. Dixon got him, an’ got the bomb, too, when it went off. Little Rogers, an Irish boy, mixed it with three Germans, an’ killed one before he was bayoneted in the back. Then Dorn, like the demon they’d named him, went on the stampede. He had a different way with a bayonet, so Owens claimed. An’ Dorn was heavy, powerful, an’ fast. He lifted an’ slung those two Germans, one after another, quick as that! — like you’d toss a couple of wheat sheafs with your pitchfork, an’ he sent them rollin’, with blood squirtin’ all over. An’ then four more Germans were shootin’ at him. Right into their teeth Dorn run — laughin’ wild an’ terrible, Owens said, an’ the Germans couldn’t stop that flashin’ bayonet. Dorn ripped them all open, an’ before they’d stopped floppin’ he was on the bunch that’d killed Brewer an’ were makin’ it hard for his other pards.… Whew! — Owens told it all as if it’d took lots of time, but that fight was like lightnin’ an’ I can’t remember how it was. Only Demon Dorn laid out nine Germans before they retreated. Nine! Owens seen him do it, like a mad bull loose. Then the shell came over that put Dorn out, an’ Owens, too.
