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  “Colter surprised me by callin’ me by my name,” continued Jean. “Our little talk wasn’t exactly friendly. He said a lot about my bein’ sent for to run sheep herders out of the country.”

  “Shore that’s all over,” replied Blaisdell, seriously. “You’re a marked man already.”

  “What started such rumor?”

  “Shore you cain’t prove it by me. But it’s not taken as rumor. It’s got to the sheepmen as hard as bullets.”

  “Ahuh! That accunts for Colter’s seemin’ a little sore under the collar. Well, he said they were goin’ to run sheep over Grass Valley, an’ for me to take that hunch to my dad.”

  Blaisdell had his chair tilted back and his heavy boots against a post of the porch. Down he thumped. His neck corded with a sudden rush of blood and his eyes changed to blue fire.

  “The hell he did!” he ejaculated, in furious amaze.

  Jean gauged the brooding, rankling hurt of this old cattleman by his sudden break from the cool, easy Texan manner. Blaisdell cursed under his breath, swung his arms violently, as if to throw a last doubt or hope aside, and then relapsed to his former state. He laid a brown hand on Jean’s knee.

  “Two years ago I called the cards,” he said, quietly. “It means a Grass Valley war.”

  Not until late that afternoon did Jean’s father broach the subject uppermost in his mind. Then at an opportune moment he drew Jean away into the cedars out of sight.

  “Son, I shore hate to make your home-comin’ unhappy,” he said, with evidence of agitation, “but so help me God I have to do it!”

  “Dad, you called me Prodigal, an’ I reckon you were right. I’ve shirked my duty to you. I’m ready now to make up for it,” replied Jean, feelingly.

  “Wal, wal, shore thats fine-spoken, my boy.... Let’s set down heah an’ have a long talk. First off, what did Jim Blaisdell tell you?”

  Briefly Jean outlined the neighbor rancher’s conversation. Then Jean recounted his experience with Colter and concluded with Blaisdell’s reception of the sheepman’s threat. If Jean expected to see his father rise up like a lion in his wrath he made a huge mistake. This news of Colter and his talk never struck even a spark from Gaston Isbel.

  “Wal,” he began, thoughtfully, “reckon there are only two points in Jim’s talk I need touch on. There’s shore goin’ to be a Grass Valley war. An’ Jim’s idea of the cause of it seems to be pretty much the same as that of all the other cattlemen. It ‘ll go down a black blot on the history page of the Tonto Basin as a war between rival sheepmen an’ cattlemen. Same old fight over water an’ grass! ... Jean, my son, that is wrong. It ‘ll not be a war between sheepmen an’ cattlemen. But a war of honest ranchers against rustlers maskin’ as sheep-raisers! ... Mind you, I don’t belittle the trouble between sheepmen an’ cattlemen in Arizona. It’s real an’ it’s vital an’ it’s serious. It ‘ll take law an’ order to straighten out the grazin’ question. Some day the government will keep sheep off of cattle ranges.... So get things right in your mind, my son. You can trust your dad to tell the absolute truth. In this fight that ‘ll wipe out some of the Isbels — maybe all of them — you’re on the side of justice an’ right. Knowin’ that, a man can fight a hundred times harder than he who knows he is a liar an’ a thief.”

  The old rancher wiped his perspiring face and breathed slowly and deeply. Jean sensed in him the rise of a tremendous emotional strain. Wonderingly he watched the keen lined face. More than material worries were at the root of brooding, mounting thoughts in his father’s eyes.

  “Now next take what Jim said aboot your comin’ to chase these sheep-herders out of the valley.... Jean, I started that talk. I had my tricky reasons. I know these greaser sheep-herders an’ I know the respect Texans have for a gunman. Some say I bragged. Some say I’m an old fool in his dotage, ravin’ aboot a favorite son. But they are people who hate me an’ are afraid. True, son, I talked with a purpose, but shore I was mighty cold an’ steady when I did it. My feelin’ was that you’d do what I’d do if I were thirty years younger. No, I reckoned you’d do more. For I figured on your blood. Jean, you’re Indian, an’ Texas an’ French, an’ you’ve trained yourself in the Oregon woods. When you were only a boy, few marksmen I ever knew could beat you, an’ I never saw your equal for eye an’ ear, for trackin’ a hoss, for all the gifts that make a woodsman.... Wal, rememberin’ this an’ seein’ the trouble ahaid for the Isbels, I just broke out whenever I had a chance. I bragged before men I’d reason to believe would take my words deep. For instance, not long ago I missed some stock, an’, happenin’ into Greaves’s place one Saturday night, I shore talked loud. His barroom was full of men an’ some of them were in my black book. Greaves took my talk a little testy. He said. ‘Wal, Gass, mebbe you’re right aboot some of these cattle thieves livin’ among us, but ain’t they jest as liable to be some of your friends or relatives as Ted Meeker’s or mine or any one around heah?’ That was where Greaves an’ me fell out. I yelled at him: ‘No, by God, they’re not! My record heah an’ that of my people is open. The least I can say for you, Greaves, an’ your crowd, is that your records fade away on dim trails.’ Then he said, nasty-like, ‘Wal, if you could work out all the dim trails in the Tonto you’d shore be surprised.’ An’ then I roared. Shore that was the chance I was lookin’ for. I swore the trails he hinted of would be tracked to the holes of the rustlers who made them. I told him I had sent for you an’ when you got heah these slippery, mysterious thieves, whoever they were, would shore have hell to pay. Greaves said he hoped so, but he was afraid I was partial to my Indian son. Then we had hot words. Blaisdell got between us. When I was leavin’ I took a partin’ fling at him. ‘Greaves, you ought to know the Isbels, considerin’ you’re from Texas. Maybe you’ve got reasons for throwin’ taunts at my claims for my son Jean. Yes, he’s got Indian in him an’ that ‘ll be the worse for the men who will have to meet him. I’m tellin’ you, Greaves, Jean Isbel is the black sheep of the family. If you ride down his record you’ll find he’s shore in line to be another Poggin, or Reddy Kingfisher, or Hardin’, or any of the Texas gunmen you ought to remember.... Greaves, there are men rubbin’ elbows with you right heah that my Indian son is goin’ to track down!’”

  Jean bent his head in stunned cognizance of the notoriety with which his father had chosen to affront any and all Tonto Basin men who were under the ban of his suspicion. What a terrible reputation and trust to have saddled upon him! Thrills and strange, heated sensations seemed to rush together inside Jean, forming a hot ball of fire that threatened to explode. A retreating self made feeble protests. He saw his own pale face going away from this older, grimmer man.

  “Son, if I could have looked forward to anythin’ but blood spillin’ I’d never have given you such a name to uphold,” continued the rancher. “What I’m goin’ to tell you now is my secret. My other sons an’ Ann have never heard it. Jim Blaisdell suspects there’s somethin’ strange, but he doesn’t know. I’ll shore never tell anyone else but you. An’ you must promise to keep my secret now an’ after I am gone.”

  “I promise,” said Jean.

  “Wal, an’ now to get it out,” began his father, breathing hard. His face twitched and his hands clenched. “The sheepman heah I have to reckon with is Lee Jorth, a lifelong enemy of mine. We were born in the same town, played together as children, an’ fought with each other as boys. We never got along together. An’ we both fell in love with the same girl. It was nip an’ tuck for a while. Ellen Sutton belonged to one of the old families of the South. She was a beauty, an’ much courted, an’ I reckon it was hard for her to choose. But I won her an’ we became engaged. Then the war broke out. I enlisted with my brother Jean. He advised me to marry Ellen before I left. But I would not. That was the blunder of my life. Soon after our partin’ her letters ceased to come. But I didn’t distrust her. That was a terrible time an’ all was confusion. Then I got crippled an’ put in a hospital. An’ in aboot a year I was sent back home.”

  At this juncture Jean refrained from further gaze at his father’s face.

  “Lee Jorth had gotten out of goin’ to war,” went on the rancher, in lower, thicker voice. “He’d married my sweetheart, Ellen.... I knew the story long before I got well. He had run after her like a hound after a hare.... An’ Ellen married him. Wal, when I was able to get aboot I went to see Jorth an’ Ellen. I confronted them. I had to know why she had gone back on me. Lee Jorth hadn’t changed any with all his good fortune. He’d made Ellen believe in my dishonor. But, I reckon, lies or no lies, Ellen Sutton was faithless. In my absence he had won her away from me. An’ I saw that she loved him as she never had me. I reckon that killed all my generosity. If she’d been imposed upon an’ weaned away by his lies an’ had regretted me a little I’d have forgiven, perhaps. But she worshiped him. She was his slave. An’ I, wal, I learned what hate was.

  “The war ruined the Suttons, same as so many Southerners. Lee Jorth went in for raisin’ cattle. He’d gotten the Sutton range an’ after a few years he began to accumulate stock. In those days every cattleman was a little bit of a thief. Every cattleman drove in an’ branded calves he couldn’t swear was his. Wal, the Isbels were the strongest cattle raisers in that country. An’ I laid a trap for Lee Jorth, caught him in the act of brandin’ calves of mine I’d marked, an’ I proved him a thief. I made him a rustler. I ruined him. We met once. But Jorth was one Texan not strong on the draw, at least against an Isbel. He left the country. He had friends an’ relatives an’ they started him at stock raisin’ again. But he began to gamble an’ he got in with a shady crowd. He went from bad to worse an’ then he came back home. When I saw the change in proud, beautiful Ellen Sutton, an’ how she still worshiped Jorth, it shore drove me near mad between pity an’ hate.... Wal, I reckon in a Texan hate outlives any other feelin’. There came a strange turn of the wheel an’ my fortunes changed. Like most young bloods of the day, I drank an’ gambled. An’ one night I run across Jorth an’ a card-sharp friend. He fleeced me. We quarreled. Guns were thrown. I killed my man.... Aboot that period the Texas Rangers had come into existence.... An’, son, when I said I never was run out of Texas I wasn’t holdin’ to strict truth. I rode out on a hoss.

  “I went to Oregon. There I married soon, an’ there Bill an’ Guy were born. Their mother did not live long. An’ next I married your mother, Jean. She had some Indian blood, which, for all I could see, made her only the finer. She was a wonderful woman an’ gave me the only happiness I ever knew. You remember her, of course, an’ those home days in Oregon. I reckon I made another great blunder when I moved to Arizona. But the cattle country had always called me. I had heard of this wild Tonto Basin an’ how Texans were settlin’ there. An’ Jim Blaisdell sent me word to come — that this shore was a garden spot of the West. Wal, it is. An’ your mother was gone —

  “Three years ago Lee Jorth drifted into the Tonto. An’, strange to me, along aboot a year or so after his comin’ the Hash Knife Gang rode up from Texas. Jorth went in for raisin’ sheep. Along with some other sheepmen he lives up in the Rim canyons. Somewhere back in the wild brakes is the hidin’ place of the Hash Knife Gang. Nobody but me, I reckon, associates Colonel Jorth, as he’s called, with Daggs an’ his gang. Maybe Blaisdell an’ a few others have a hunch. But that’s no matter. As a sheepman Jorth has a legitimate grievance with the cattlemen. But what could be settled by a square consideration for the good of all an’ the future Jorth will never settle. He’ll never settle because he is now no longer an honest man. He’s in with Daggs. I cain’t prove this, son, but I know it. I saw it in Jorth’s face when I met him that day with Greaves. I saw more. I shore saw what he is up to. He’d never meet me at an even break. He’s dead set on usin’ this sheep an’ cattle feud to ruin my family an’ me, even as I ruined him. But he means more, Jean. This will be a war between Texans, an’ a bloody war. There are bad men in this Tonto — some of the worst that didn’t get shot in Texas. Jorth will have some of these fellows.... Now, are we goin’ to wait to be sheeped off our range an’ to be murdered from ambush?”

  “No, we are not,” replied Jean, quietly.

  “Wal, come down to the house,” said the rancher, and led the way without speaking until he halted by the door. There he placed his finger on a small hole in the wood at about the height of a man’s head. Jean saw it was a bullet hole and that a few gray hairs stuck to its edges. The rancher stepped closer to the door-post, so that his head was within an inch of the wood. Then he looked at Jean with eyes in which there glinted dancing specks of fire, like wild sparks.

  “Son, this sneakin’ shot at me was made three mawnin’s ago. I recollect movin’ my haid just when I heard the crack of a rifle. Shore was surprised. But I got inside quick.”

  Jean scarcely heard the latter part of this speech. He seemed doubled up inwardly, in hot and cold convulsions of changing emotion. A terrible hold upon his consciousness was about to break and let go. The first shot had been fired and he was an Isbel. Indeed, his father had made him ten times an Isbel. Blood was thick. His father did not speak to dull ears. This strife of rising tumult in him seemed the effect of years of calm, of peace in the woods, of dreamy waiting for he knew not what. It was the passionate primitive life in him that had awakened to the call of blood ties.

  “That’s aboot all, son,” concluded the rancher. “You understand now why I feel they’re goin’ to kill me. I feel it heah.” With solemn gesture he placed his broad hand over his heart. “An’, Jean, strange whispers come to me at night. It seems like your mother was callin’ or tryin’ to warn me. I cain’t explain these queer whispers. But I know what I know.”

  “Jorth has his followers. You must have yours,” replied Jean, tensely.

  “Shore, son, an’ I can take my choice of the best men heah,” replied the rancher, with pride. “But I’ll not do that. I’ll lay the deal before them an’ let them choose. I reckon it ‘ll not be a long-winded fight. It ‘ll be short an bloody, after the way of Texans. I’m lookin’ to you, Jean, to see that an Isbel is the last man!”

  “My God — dad! is there no other way? Think of my sister Ann — of my brothers’ wives — of — of other women! Dad, these damned Texas feuds are cruel, horrible!” burst out Jean, in passionate protest.

  “Jean, would it be any easier for our women if we let these men shoot us down in cold blood?”

  “Oh no — no, I see, there’s no hope of — of.... But, dad, I wasn’t thinkin’ about myself. I don’t care. Once started I’ll — I’ll be what you bragged I was. Only it’s so hard to-to give in.”

  Jean leaned an arm against the side of the cabin and, bowing his face over it, he surrendered to the irresistible contention within his breast. And as if with a wrench that strange inward hold broke. He let down. He went back. Something that was boyish and hopeful — and in its place slowly rose the dark tide of his inheritance, the savage instinct of self-preservation bequeathed by his Indian mother, and the fierce, feudal blood lust of his Texan father.

  Then as he raised himself, gripped by a sickening coldness in his breast, he remembered Ellen Jorth’s face as she had gazed dreamily down off the Rim — so soft, so different, with tremulous lips, sad, musing, with far-seeing stare of dark eyes, peering into the unknown, the instinct of life still unlived. With confused vision and nameless pain Jean thought of her.

  “Dad, it’s hard on — the — the young folks,” he said, bitterly. “The sins of the father, you know. An’ the other side. How about Jorth? Has he any children?”

  What a curious gleam of surprise and conjecture Jean encountered in his father’s gaze!

  “He has a daughter. Ellen Jorth. Named after her mother. The first time I saw Ellen Jorth I thought she was a ghost of the girl I had loved an’ lost. Sight of her was like a blade in my side. But the looks of her an’ what she is — they don’t gibe. Old as I am, my heart — Bah! Ellen Jorth is a damned hussy!”

  Jean Isbel went off alone into the cedars. Surrender and resignation to his father’s creed should have ended his perplexity and worry. His instant and burning resolve to be as his father had represented him should have opened his mind to slow cunning, to the craft of the Indian, to the development of hate. But there seemed to be an obstacle. A cloud in the way of vision. A face limned on his memory.

  Those damning words of his father’s had been a shock — how little or great he could not tell. Was it only a day since he had met Ellen Jorth? What had made all the difference? Suddenly like a breath the fragrance of her hair came back to him. Then the sweet coolness of her lips! Jean trembled. He looked around him as if he were pursued or surrounded by eyes, by instincts, by fears, by incomprehensible things.

  “Ahuh! That must be what ails me,” he muttered. “The look of her — an’ that kiss — they’ve gone hard me. I should never have stopped to talk. An’ I’m to kill her father an’ leave her to God knows what.”

  Something was wrong somewhere. Jean absolutely forgot that within the hour he had pledged his manhood, his life to a feud which could be blotted out only in blood. If he had understood himself he would have realized that the pledge was no more thrilling and unintelligible in its possibilities than this instinct which drew him irresistibly.

  “Ellen Jorth! So — my dad calls her a damned hussy! So — that explains the — the way she acted — why she never hit me when I kissed her. An’ her words, so easy an’ cool-like. Hussy? That means she’s bad — bad! Scornful of me — maybe disappointed because my kiss was innocent! It was, I swear. An’ all she said: ‘Oh, I’ve been kissed before.’”

  Jean grew furious with himself for the spreading of a new sensation in his breast that seemed now to ache. Had he become infatuated, all in a day, with this Ellen Jorth? Was he jealous of the men who had the privilege of her kisses? No! But his reply was hot with shame, with uncertainty. The thing that seemed wrong was outside of himself. A blunder was no crime. To be attracted by a pretty girl in the woods — to yield to an impulse was no disgrace, nor wrong. He had been foolish over a girl before, though not to such a rash extent. Ellen Jorth had stuck in his consciousness, and with her a sense of regret.

 

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