Personal Possessions, page 26
“Say the words, Elleny.”
Not happy with my request, which including no movement on my part, Elle started to become…irate.
“Goddammit Trevor, I’m fucking begging you… don’t stop now. I’m not glass baby, please…”
I looked down at her again without saying a word…I was not about to repeat myself. Elle was about ready to either punch me or scream.
“What the fuck do you want to hear…tell me… I’ll say it.”
I stood still and didn’t say a word. Slowly, Elle began to move up and down using the wall to bring herself back up quickly. She laid her head back and I could feel her tense around my cock; she was going to come.
“Fuck you! You don’t get to come! You say the words and I make you to come! It belongs to me, you hear me, Elleny?” I demanded. Her orgasms belonged to me…I was the one who gave them to her.
I could see when she realized what I wanted her to say…it was as if a light bulb went off over her head. Elle’s face turned pink and then a beautiful shade of red. She was livid.
“Get off of me” Elle whispered as she began to push me back to set her feet down.
“No, say the words.”
I was still inside of her but I wasn’t moving, which again, pissed her off. I wondered how she liked what it felt like to have blue balls. I pulled away from the wall, I knew what she was going to try…she thought she was going to attempt what I just warned her not to do. Elle began going up and down on top of my shaft, but she couldn’t build up the resistance like she had up against the wall.
“Tell me the words, baby and I will get you off.”
Elle didn’t answer me, she just kept attempting to move up and down. I thought I would add my own attempt at teasing, see how she liked it. I pulled her shirt down and removed her breast and began to suck on the hard peak, she was trying as hard as she could not to show that she was enjoying the torment, but I could see it.
“Elleny, your pussy’s so wet, it’s dripping down my sac baby. Say the words and let me get you off.”
I watched as she closed her eyes, not responding, I began to nibble and suck harder. I pulled off and went to show some love to the other breast. Elle was about to explode she was so turned on so I reached down between us and ran my fingers collecting what I could of her that was dripping down me, I brought them up to my mouth and sucked off her delicious nectar.
“Baby, this is all you.”
I closed my eyes and concentrated on the taste that surrounded my mouth.
“I could eat you for dinner every night. My cock is ready to bust here Elleny, say the words and I will move.”
“Fuck you!!! I’m not saying it again!!! I won’t be able to survive this time goddammit!!!”
This time…so what she thought I went on about my day last time? I asked myself quietly. I had to get passed what happened that night…why was she not able to. I was not bringing that up at the specific point in time. I just needed to let it go for her sake…and mine.
“I can’t say any more than what I’ve said to you, Elleny, I told you how I feel last night, I need something from you, baby.”
I positioned myself to connect with her again. Entering her slowly, I watched the satisfaction wash over her face. Elle was so beautiful in this light with that look on her face, I wanted to keep that mask on her face for the rest of her life.
“I want the words baby doll. I need the words.”
I sped up my movements. Elle’s eyes came to mine and I caught it. The glimmer was back…it was a dull sparkle but it was there. I needed to keep this up, it wouldn’t be long…she’d give me what I wanted.
“Ride my cock, Elleny, you love it.” I had begun to build up friction.
“I do love it…do it faster.”
I gave her exactly what she wanted…I rolled faster.
“You love my cock… don’t you, Ellie-bean, you only come for me don’t you?”
“Yes…only for you.”
I was thrusting hard and deep now. I could feel myself approaching my orgasm. I cleared my mind, I began to concentrate on my breathing. This was about her, not me…I repeated quickly through my mind.
“That’s it baby, come all over me. I want you to have my mark, you’re not washing me off neither. I want to smell you and know that you are covered in me.”
“Oh God….fuck, Trevor I’m coming…don’t stop!!!”
I felt her begin to tense around me, I could literally feel her orgasm around my cock. I looked in her eyes and saw her mouth open, changing the look on her face to one of ecstasy when I completely stopped.
“Say the fucking words, Elleny!!!!”
“I love you!!!! Fuck, Trevor, I love you so much, I’ve never stopped loving you. I can’t see anyone else but you. I’ve been dead these last seventeen years and I can’t go back to that…I won’t go back!!! Is that what you want to hear…is it you sadistic mother fucker?”
That was exactly what I wanted to hear. The truth. For years I wondered what I did to make her stop loving me, I took all the blame for ruining a relationship that was indestructible, just to find out that she was in the same boat all these years.
“That’s what I wanted to hear, Wife!”
Elle grasped me around her tighter than I had ever been gripped. Her screams told me that her orgasm was following the same route. I came right behind her. I laid my forehead against hers but only for a minute as Elle started to push me back. Hearing her cry, I wouldn’t move, we needed to talk about this. She continued pushing me away, seeing that I wasn’t budging, her head came down to my shoulder.
“Elle…baby don’t-“
“No you don’t, Trevor!”
I let her go…I pushed her too far this time and I felt bad for the methods I used, but I did not feel bad for the outcome; that shit needed to come out. We needed to know where each other lied and now we did. I never would’ve known that she still loved me seventeen years later, this discussion was not over.
I didn’t chase her because I started to put pieces of the puzzle back together. If she loved me all this time, why did she go and marry Bear? Did he hold something over her that he used as leverage…maybe she knew something about him and he forced her into the marriage.
Grabbing her clothes quickly she headed to the bathroom, of course I followed her.
“Don’t what, Elleny? Let’s be honest here, what is it you’re not telling me…why can’t we be together?”
Elle dropped what was in her hands and started laughing. I never did like that laugh…it always made me nervous.
“Honesty, I don’t even know what that word means anymore.”
“Look if it’s about Bear, I understand.”
Elle crooked her eyebrow up and looked at me with a quizzical look on her face. I was missing something here.
“You do…you understand….”
“Yes, I understand that you have children with him and just because you two don’t get along, you don’t want to pull the kids out from him….you’re a good mom and you don’t want your kids to suffer. But they won’t suffer darlin’… they’ll grow to love me.”
She didn’t say anything, just stood there looking in the mirror as though she was thinking. Suddenly, the only response I got was…
“Let’s go, I have work to do.”
Arriving at work, I thought maybe the quiet time in the car would be good enough for her to clear her mind. Obviously it wasn’t because she thought she was going to run off from me on the walk up to the building and that was not fuckin’ happening. Coming up to the elevators, I came to the conclusion that she will talk when she’s ready…she really had no choice.
Stepping in, I walked up to the back of the car so that I put my back up to the glass, Elle never turned to look at me. Standing right in front of the doors, it took until we passed the fifth floor for her to open her mouth.
“I’m here to work Trevor, I’m not here to fuck my boss. I’m finishing my job and I will leave as soon as the last contract is signed. I will be finishing up the memory sticks this morning, this afternoon I will get the clients scheduled for the next several day’s signings and I will be out of here before you leave for lunch.”
She could make up her own agenda all she wanted…in her head, but she wasn’t going anywhere. Elle was right on one thing, she was a changed woman. She ran away from everything. Well, she wasn’t running away from this…I lost her once, I wasn’t going to do it again.
“You done?”
“You won’t leave until I say you leave. If you remember, your boss Mr. Stevens is depending on you.”
She turned quickly and came nose to nose with me; this was my Elle, maybe I was wrong…my Elle had just been buried away deep. I just needed to bring her back out.
“Don’t you fucking dare threaten me with that shit. I was called here to do a job of collecting and storing two hundred and fifty signed contracts, I just told you, that will be accomplished. Don’t you fucking think you can toy with me McHale, I’m not the kinda bitch to be toyed with.”
Yep, she was down there, buried real deep.
I smiled a thin smile at the revelation but didn’t say a word. That was until we got off of the elevator. If I had to piss her off to get my Elle to come out to play, then that was what I would do.
As I stepped out of the doors I turned around and made circles around my face as I mouthed to her “nice mask”, she didn’t find that amusing.
I walked to my office leaving Elle back there to pout.
Walking in, my desk was a mess. I had fucked off for days now with Elle, the move and Kip…I had forgotten about the other shit that was going on in my life. I picked up a file that had been on an investor that I was really wanting to work with when I heard Sam’s voice bust through my office.
“McHale!”
It took me a moment, but I lifted my eyes in Sam’s direction. I really wasn’t in the mood this morning to hear about how he bagged some secretary from three floors down.
“I really need to teach you some etiquette on how to treat the ladies…dude.”
Did he really just say dude and what the fuck is he talking about.
I thought to myself. I had no idea what he was referring to, as the walk down the hallway popped back into my head. Elle wasn’t behind me, I left her at the elevators.
Shit…
“Really…well, why don’t you inform me on what you are referring to, Sam?”
I didn’t smile, I had a shit morning and I really wasn’t in the mood to hear his bullshit. Quickly, Sam swung his head out towards the lobby, I followed his neck jerk and saw Elle standing there cowering…until she caught my eyes and immediately straightened as though jolts of self-confidence were plugged directly into her.
“She’s here in town and I’m gonna show her how northern gentlemen behave and take her down to the Coffee Cabana for a cup, we’ll be right back”
I had a vision. It was quick, but I saw it clear as a bell. It started out with me jumping over my desk and knocking Sam to the floor before sitting on him and removing all his teeth.
I couldn’t move, I couldn’t smile…all I did was stare at him. I wasn’t sure what was going through his mind, I was hoping for ways to back out of what he had said.
He placed a smile back on his face. “Great…well, we will be back in about twenty, have fun.”
I would be counting the minutes. I thought.
I had to get my mind off of what had just happened, so I took the opportunity to make some phone calls.
“Hey…everything going ok?”
I heard Rachel’s voice on the other end.
“Why didn’t you say something to me, Rach?”
I heard her blow her breath out, more than likely looking for the words to answer yet calm me down with.
“Trev, it wasn’t for me to tell you. It’s Elle’s life, sweetie…her choice on who knows. I love you and I love her but for the safety of her and these kids…I just couldn’t. I know you, hun…you would’ve crashed down her door, guns blazing…”
She was right, I would’ve and thought about the consequences later. This was one of those times where that would have been very inappropriate. Rachel’s voice got quiet as she spoke.
“I tried to clue you in…that day of the picnic…remember when I told you to bring her back…”
I caught on now. Rachel was under the impression that I was going to make Elle who she used to be. That was im-fucking-possible. It took me threatening Elle to get her to appear, I refused to be the bad guy when it came to Elle. I was not willing to take that chance on losing her.
“Not gonna happen, Rach…I think she’s too far gone.”
“No!! Don’t you fucking say that, Trevor! She’s in there and you’re the only one in this goddamn world that can bring her back to life…do you understand me? I have tried from the moment you left town to get her to be Elle again and I don’t hold the power…none of us do, not Curt, not Lils…it’s you. Heal her, Trev…fix her.”
“I’ll call you back, Rach.”
I couldn’t talk about this anymore. This was a lot to take in and I wasn’t even sure if I held this so called power that she was certain I possessed.
I needed time to think, so I opened up my laptop and got back to work.
Phone calls needed to be made, paperwork needed to be signed. I made sure that I got caught up on all things that needed my direct attention ASAP, but Elle was planted firmly in the back of my mind. What was she doing with Sam, where were they…
Finally, out of the corner of my eye, I saw her walk pass my office heading to her own. I took a breath of relief as I knew that she was back safely, but what had happened and where they went, was the first questions that would leave my mouth.
I continued working most of the morning until I heard a small knock on the door, raising my head I was surprised to see Sarah standing there.
“Have you had lunch?”
Lunch…already, it seemed as though I had just had my cup of coffee.
“No, I’m a bit busy to worry about lunch, thank you though.”
I replied as I put my face back into the computer screen.
“Come on, Trev…you have to eat.”
I have no clue why she thought it professional to call me by my first name. I hated it, in fact…I despised it.
She walked in with two Styrofoam containers of takeout and planted herself on the couch across from my desk. She hiked up her skirt so that she could lay her feet up underneath her as though she was at home in front of the television watching a football game.
“It’s a bacon cheeseburger…with the works and fries. I can tell you how it’s going with Elleny.”
Sarah smiled as she flipped the top open revealing a huge, juicy burger. My stomach rumbled at the sight of it. I pushed my seat back and approached as Sarah held up the box.
“Why don’t you have a seat right here, and we can discuss Elle and I’s progress.”
I took the box and headed back over to my desk.
“Thank you for the lunch, Sarah but right now is not a good time. I am in the middle of some reports that need my full attention. Maybe the three of us can meet later today and discuss your progress.”
The smile quickly left her face. She didn’t look too happy about being turned down, but I had learned… to never mix business with pleasure; it can turn into an ugly crime scene.
I worked while we ate, Sarah stared as though she was thinking of something to say and I worked on reports and made phone calls. I finished and headed into the bathroom to wash up and noticed that I had dropped something on my shirt. I reached into the closet that held my extra shirts and put the new one on while I threw the dirty one on the closet floor. Tucking my shirt in, I heard voices out in my office. I stepped out to see Sarah sitting on the couch, replacing her lip gloss back into her bag and Elle standing eyes glued to me, face three shades of red.
“Obviously, I have interrupted something, I’ll come back later.”
“Elle, wait.”
This was not what it looked like and I was taken back that she would even think that. I followed her out into the hallway where Mary sat, luckily she was at lunch.
“Elle, let me explain.” I said as she continued her quick stride down the hallway.
“I was just looking for Sara, I have to have her put these up so that they don’t get lost. I actually took some time and arranged them alphabetically so that she would have an easier job at putting them away.”
I caught up with her and tried to take the box from her, she made her grip tighter. Was she really going to challenge me, because if need be, I could always take her back in my office and show her who’s boss.
“Elle, let me have the box and let’s go back in the office and talk for a minute.”
“Talk about what, TJ? There’s nothing to talk about. Look, I’m really busy, I have phone calls to make and papers to file. I need to get this back to Sara and…“
Just at that moment, I felt as though the odds were actually in my favor. I took the box from Elle just as Sara was walking from my office.
“Sara, go files these and keep them organized just as they are….now.”
The look on her face was priceless. The thought of her making implications to Elle of something happening between us made her deserving of filing, plus it was going to give her a nice start on her new position within the company. Her eyes were huge as she pursed her lips, she was using every swear word she could come up with as she cussed me out mentally…I could tell, it was written all over her face.
Sara headed off in the direction of the file room while I took Elle by the hand leading her back into her office. I saw Mary coming back from lunch as we passed her desk, I lifted my hand in acknowledgement as she pasted a huge smile across her face.
I opened the door and allowed Elle to enter before me. I pointed to the couch, I was losing my patience and they were nowhere to be found.
“Sit!”
“Fuck you, I’m not a dog!”
I closed my eyes and drew in breath, I was trying so hard not to lose my temper as well.
“Elleny, don’t start this shit again. We’re both aggravated and I have something I need to say to you so please….don’t fight me on this.”
