Time Travel Omnibus, page 616
The years between dimmed but never vanished. As before, she was not certain as to how the decision of marriage was reached so quickly. Her parents were startled, but agreed with surprising readiness.
Had ever such a marriage been? She knew him, and as if in reflection he seemed to know her as well. She had indeed come virgin to him, but from his period of their life she drew comparisons that confirmed the joy she found in their sex together.
She could share his hobbies—spelunking, rockhounding, ham radio—she knew them from his life. And the companionship, the talking—I talk to myself, she thought—yes, but I love that self and its answers.
She found she had to be careful not to answer questions before he asked them. It was not that her memories over fifty-plus years were so detailed, but that empathy built upon her recalls, almost to a semblance of precognition.
Absorbed in her present, she forgot to expect pregnancy. And she realized that since meeting Ralph she’d also forgotten to look for ways to test the shape of the future. How many chances she’d wasted, she couldn’t know. Well, there was time enough yet, and now was no time to take risks with a small life for the later sake of her own. No, not now.
Tiny events, she thought, are less certain. What if I have conceived a daughter? Then—God, no! I can’t give up Carl. We both loved him so much.
That night and several more, her sleep was troubled.
Pregnancy was more difficult than she expected, but she didn’t complain. One day she realized that her reticence, seen by Ralph as sign that all was well with her, had misled her into expecting an easier time. She could almost laugh, but came to dread the birth itself.
It was neither as easy as she hoped nor as bad as she feared. At the last moment she was put under by the anesthetist; she could not recall clearly the moment she saw the baby and felt it laid onto her collapsed belly. Relaxed, still to a great extent under the effects of the drug, she heard Ralph’s congratulations and reassurances from a far distance. There was something . . . why couldn’t she remember?
She had complications, dangerous and painful. The sedatives did not allow her mind to clear. Dazed, she came partially awake at intervals, to be allowed to cuddle her baby. Was it Carl? She could not summon energy to ask.
One day she awoke almost fully, knowing, somehow, that now she would live. The baby was brought to her. “You can nurse the little one now, Mrs. Ascione.” What a sweet ache it was!
Then the baby lay at her side, her arm around it and its hand tightly gripping her finger, then relaxing, rhythmically. No, not quite rhythmically. In fact, not rhythmically at all.
Squeeeze, squeeze. Squeeeze, sqmeeze, squeeeze. Squeeeze. Pause. Squeeeze, squeeze, squeeze. Squeeze, squeeze. Squeeze. Pause . . .
Something old memories surfaced. Squeeze, squeeeze.
Dot-dash. Morse code! The sedatives had given her strange thoughts before this . . .
The patterns resonated with Ralph’s memories. Letters, words, came to her.
. . . not die . . . freeway . . . more years . . . I know . . . as you will . . . hello myself . . .
Elizabeth hugged herself to her, still wondering if it were daughter or son she held.
But either way, she thought, I know where I’m going.
12:01 P.M.
Richard A. Lupoff
There was the echo of that single, loud sound resembling the crashing implosion of air into a shattered vacuum tube or the report of a small-caliber firearm. The clock on the Grand Central Tower said 12:01, as it always did at resumption time, and Castleman knew that the dateline on the newspapers being hawked at the corner of Lexington and 46th would be the same that it always was.
He waited for the familiar grime-crusted, green-and-silver bus to make its turn onto short Vanderbilt Avenue, dodged the usual yellow taxi while crossing Vanderbilt himself, and passed between the two Cadillac limousines waiting at the curb for their passengers to return from whatever errand detained them.
On the west side of Madison he stopped in front of Finchley’s and waited for the middle-aged window dresser to set up the full-length mirror at the back of the display, as he did every time, and perfunctorily inspected himself in its shiny surface. Same tweed suit, striped button-down shirt and modishly broad tie, same hair-comb with one stubborn lock sticking out above his left ear. He put a hand to his chin and rubbed vigorously, but there was no particular evidence of stubble.
Not that he could have grown much stubble in an hour, but if the effect of the hours was cumulative for him, it should become apparent after a dozen or two resumptions.
Strolling casually toward the West Side, he decided to stop at the first convenient restaurant and get himself a snack. The sky was blue and unusually clear for midtown, the air warm and slightly moist with the moisture of a balmy spring day rather than the sticky humidity that used to come later in the year. A good thing, Castleman thought, that the resumptions had come on such an afternoon rather than in the middle of a midwinter cold snap with the streets full of dirty slush and everyone sneezing and coughing flu bugs at one another.
He stepped into Hamburger Heaven and surveyed the situation vis-à-vis seating. There were no vacancies but only a handful of people waited ahead of him. No point in waiting in a long line or trying to dine in a fancy restaurant where a fancy lunch could take two hours to consume. If he couldn’t get served and finish his meal by one o’clock, it was a waste.
Which is not to say that it wasn’t one anyhow. At the next resumption he’d be back on the sidewalk gazing up at the Grand Central Tower anyway; he’d have a pleasant appetite anyway; if he took off his tie and flushed it down the toilet in the basement washroom of Hamburger Heaven, he’d find it back knotted around his neck, clean and dry. Or at least he was confident that he would; that might prove an interesting experiment to try sometime, but the result was pretty well a foregone conclusion.
The hostess had come over to the small group of customers waiting for seats and was holding up two fingers in a V sign. Castleman looked beside him and found, to his surprise, that he had reached the head of the line. He turned to the person beside him and asked if she would mind sharing a table.
“It’ll save time,” he said, stifling an urge to laugh at his own line.
The woman nodded agreement, and the hostess showed them to a tiny wooden table near the back of the restaurant. They contorted themselves onto the fixed wooden seats and received oversized ketchup- and coffee-stained menus. Castleman decided quickly what he wanted and lowered his menu, letting his eyes take in his impromptu companion.
She was obviously a working girl—or woman, more accurately. Slightly overage and overweight for the blouse and modish-length skirt she affected, with her hair done up in an elaborately curled style that almost suited her oval face. She put her menu down, clearly having made her own choice of food, and looked at Castleman.
“Do you eat here often?” she said.
Castleman said, “Not very.”
“I didn’t think so. I come here every day. There are so many regulars, so many transients. As soon as I didn’t recognize you, I knew who you were.”
“Makes sense,” Castleman said. He looked around the room for a wall clock, wishing that he’d had a watch at resumption time, knowing that he could get one easily enough now but that it would be gone at the end of the hour anyway.
There was a clock at the back of Hamburger Heaven. It was nearing half past. Castleman wished that the resumptions came further apart, really an hour wasn’t long enough to do much. But then, he thought philosophically, it could be a lot worse. Hung up at a period of five minutes, he’d never get anything done. And if it were really short—say, a second or less—it would be a living hell.
You could get a fair amount done in an hour. In fact, in some ways, it was an ideal situation to be in. Anything you do, you can mess up, anything, and get another chance in an hour. On the other hand it wasn’t so ideal to do something worthwhile knowing that it would be totally wiped out, but then the positive and negative aspects of reality often balanced that way.
He looked at the plump woman sitting opposite him at the little wooden table. “Say, my name is Myron Castleman,” Castleman said. “I work for Glamdring and Glamdring up in the Stoebler Building on Forty-ninth.”
The plump woman looked at him, surprised at the breach of Manhattan anonymity. Then she seemed to decide that he was all right, that she could give him information without his using it in some unspecified way to take advantage of her. “Dolores Park,” she said. “I’m a legal secretary. Sometimes I have lunch with friends, but I came out alone today.”
A waiter arrived and they ordered. Castleman nodded in self-confirmation when Dolores asked for French fries with her Roquefort-baconburger. He also noted that she wore no ring on her left hand, not that that meant much nowadays.
“Do you live in the city, ah, Miss Park?” he asked her.
She shook her head. The flesh on her cheeks and neck, although excessive, was still firm. It did not wobble as she moved. “No, I come in on the Long Island. I live in Roslyn.” She paused as if surveying Castleman closely. “With my mother.”
Castleman said, “Oh.”
“And you?” Dolores Park asked.
“Oh,” Castleman said again, “yes, I live up in the Seventies, East Seventy-third.” He looked at the clock again. This was getting him nowhere, and his stomach was beginning to gnaw at him. It was already twenty minutes to one.
Dolores Park said, “What do you do for Glamdring and Glamdring, Mr. Castleberg?”
“Man,” said Myron.
“Man? I don’t understand.”
“Castleman. Not Castleberg.”
“Oh, I’m sorry,” Dolores said. She seemed to wilt.
“It’s all right,” Myron comforted her. “Don’t think of it, names aren’t important, you’ll forget all about it in a few minutes anyhow.”
“I’m a personnel manager. In charge of corporate recruiting and career development.”
“Oh,” said Dolores, “that sounds very exciting.”
“A daily bacchanal,” Myron said, “look, here comes our food.”
The waiter dropped Myron’s cheeseburger in the middle of the table, threw Dolores’ lunch at her, and dropped a single check into the jar of piccalilli relish that festered in the middle of the table.
“Ooh,” squealed Dolores, “that waiter was terrible! I ought to report him to the manager. I’ve never had such rude service in this place.”
“Never mind,” Myron told her. “Better eat your food quick or it’ll be too late.” He dumped a glob of ketchup onto his cheeseburger and took a large bite of it. He savored the mixture of flavors, the toasted bun, the spicy seasoning, the rare meat and hot, melted cheese. As he chewed he let his eyes rove the room.
A cake tray on the counter held a delicious-looking devil’s food cake with dazzling white icing and mahogany-brown chocolate shavings scattered across the top. Maybe I should have ordered cake instead, Myron thought. Maybe I’ll have the cake instead of the cheeseburger next time I come in here. Maybe on the next resumption, maybe not, but soon.
He swallowed his cheeseburger and smiled at Miss Park. She was chomping on a length of raw carrot. “Enjoying your food?” Myron asked.
She nodded yes.
“Good,” Myron said. He began to hear the familiar crackling, splitting sound that preceded each resumption. “I’m glad you like it. Dolores, since you’ll get to have it again. Good-by,” he said.
Dolores looked at him, surprised and puzzled by his remark.
There was a single, loud sound resembling the sound made by the implosion of air into a shattered vacuum tube or the report of a small-caliber firearm. Castleman experienced a confusing instant during when he was never able to tell whether there was a flash of light or of darkness, a rush of sound or an instant of total silence, a full-capacity loading of all the senses of a total deprivation of sensation.
Then there was the echo of that single, loud sound. The clock on the Grand Central Tower said 12:01, as it always did at resumption time, and Castleman knew that the dateline on the newspapers being hawked at the corner of Lexington and 46th would be the same as it always would.
He checked his personal appearance briefly, using a plate-glass window in a House of Cards shop as an impromptu looking-glass; as he expected, it was the same as always. He licked the heel of his left hand to get a little moisture onto the skin, then used it to try and make that stubborn lock of hair lie down.
The day being as pleasant as it was, he decided that it would be pleasant to spend his hour strolling down to the library and relaxing on the steps in the warm sunshine.
He walked toward Fifth, planning to stroll down to 42nd Street that way. A little past Madison Avenue he stopped and looked in through the front window of a Hamburger Heaven. Inside, a short line of patrons waited for seating. He could see a familiar figure standing at the end of the line, a woman slightly overdressed and overweight, but still fairly smart looking. Hi there, Dolores, he thought to himself.
For a moment the notion of entering the restaurant and making conversation with her flitted through his mind, but he rejected it with hardly a moment’s consideration and walked on toward Fifth. As far as Dolores Park was concerned, she’d never laid eyes on him in her life. She would be puzzled at the stranger’s talking to her, calling her by name. It would only spoil her hour, and even though it would be wiped out at the next resumption, Castleman didn’t have the heart to do that to an innocent stranger.
He reached Fifth Avenue and walked downtown toward the library. He went past the Israel Bank, stopped and examined the window display at Record Hunter, then waited for the lights to change and made his street crossings, to the downtown side of 42nd and then to the west side of Fifth.
He glanced at the newspapers on sale at the corner. There was the Times with its staid front page, the News with its screaming headline and a photo of a train wreck near New Brunswick, and the first edition of the Post with a blue banner proclaiming another chapter in the inside biography of Yosef Tekoah. The news stories of all three dealt with the prediction of Nathan Rosenbluth that a disfiguration of time would shortly take place, with the entire world snapping backwards for the period of an hour, to resume normal progress as if nothing had ever happened.
Castleman laughed bitterly at the front pages and their different approaches to the story, then ambled down the broad sidewalk, stopped in front of the giant neo-Grecian library and began to ascend the long flight of steps toward its portico.
Near the top of the stairs a small group of young people were seated, talking. An intense young man was holding forth, his eyes glaring through tiny, wire-rimmed glasses as he waved his arms with each sentence.
Castleman stopped a couple of steps below the group and listened.
“Rosenbluth is absolutely right,” the young man was saying. “The world has come to a state of affairs where things cannot go on any longer. We have to repair the social order to get things going again, or we’ll soon be stopped at one place; we’ll have to go back. The administration in Washington . . .”
He got no further, cut off by another young man, a round-faced individual sitting patiently with a spiral notepad and pencil in his lap. “You don’t understand, Oswald,” he interrupted the intense man with the beard. “Rosenbluth isn’t talking about the social order at all. He’s a physicist, and he’s talking about purely physical phenomena.”
“Besides,” put in a slim, short-haired girl with faded jeans and a moderate case of acne, “LIU, I mean, a physicist from LIU. If he was from Columbia or even City College . . .”
“With imperialists forces threatening all people’s progressive movements on every continent,” the first speaker resumed, “how can you waste your energy quarreling about physics? Radical and revolutionary elements in every stratum of society . . .”
The round-faced man said, “If you’ll just stop emoting and listen for a minute, I have the figures right here.” There was a brief silence as he brandished his notebook. Castleman saw that the page was indeed covered with finely penciled mathematical calculations.”
“From LIU,” the girl in jeans said.
“Look,” the round-faced man said, “Rosenbluth claims that the total energy content of the universe we live in is mirrored by a counteruniverse made of antimatter, coexisting with our universe in terms of three-dimensional space but separated from us by a fourth dimension or vibrational plane.”
“Betrayal of laboring masses by yellow-dog sellout trade union bosses,” put in the intense man.
“Yes, Oswald,” the round-faced man continued. “Rosenbluth claims that by random but not acausal processes the two universes, moving in opposite temporal directions, attempt to emerge from their states and merge. If this should come about, they would cancel each other because of their opposite energy polarities, but the phenomenon of opposing time-vectors prevents this, and they will instead rebound from each other, each universe snapping backwards into its own past—that is, the other universe’s future—and . . .”
“How far?”
“Hah?”
The girl in jeans said, “How far will it bounce?”
“Oh,” said the round-faced man, “Rosenbluth claims an hour.”
“Just like daylight-savings,” said the girl. “We bounce back an hour then. Or do we go forward an hour?”
“Spring ahead in spring, fall back in fall,” Castleman put in, inserting himself into the conversation.
“Yeah, thanks, mister,” the girl said.
Castleman hunkered down on the step between the girl and the intense man with the beard, facing round-face. “You don’t think Rosenbluth is right?” Castleman asked the mathematician.
“No, I don’t. If Rosenbluth were right, what would happen after the bounce. We’d resume normal temporal processes and so with the counteruniverse. But since our bounce into our own past would put us in their future and their bounce would put them in our future, what would happen next?”
