Time Travel Omnibus, page 1168
That he recognized me was obvious. I reached under my kirtle for the burner that I kept handy if I came across him. I’d shot men before. No. I’d shot simulations of men before, in exercises. I’d brought in all my captured Breachers alive. I didn’t want to shoot him. I wanted to capture him. But he was a difficult one.
“Seth Cowden,” I said. “You are under arrest for stealing a time device, for violating the ban on unauthorized time travel, for trying to change the past in order to—”
He grinned at me. He made no effort at all to go for his burner. “Am I, Iset? Is that your name?”
“I am Mary,” I said. “Mary Deven.”
He smiled a little. “Ah, Mary,” he said, testing out my name as though it were an exotic confection upon his tongue. “I must have forgotten.”
His smile, his lack of concern with my trying to arrest him disturbed me. “Seth Cowden,” I repeated. “You are under arrest. You can let me hold your wrist for transport, or else I will terminate—”
“Yes, yes,” he said. He made a gesture with his hand as though dismissing the burner I was pointing at him from under the folds of my kirtle. He had to know it was there, and also that I could shoot through fabric and burn him through the heart. But his eyes were unconcerned. And though I was tall for an Elizabethan woman, he was a giant, as he was tall even for the twenty-third century. He was in fact every bit a Satrap, tall and broad-shouldered, with perfect teeth and a look of complete self-possession. “But first let’s walk in this garden. Let me tell you why I did it.”
I hesitated. “Tell me—” I said, and then, decidedly. “I don’t need to know!”
He shrugged. “Oh, perhaps not. But don’t you want to know? You know who I am. The Cowdens have been in charge of the government of Earth and the twenty worlds for centuries. Why would I throw it all away?
“You are disturbed. Your mind—”
“Do I look like a madman to you? Give me your arm, Mary, and I shall walk with you in the garden.”
“It is raining!”
“So, you are not a real Elizabethan, whose clothes will be ruined by a little rain, and who can be killed by a cold. Walk with me, Mary. I will tell you why I did what I did, and if you still think I deserve arrest, you can take me back. Or shoot me for all I care. If I still exist when we’re done talking.”
“If you still exist?”
“Ah, in the multi-universe each individual’s life is such a small thing, isn’t it? So little and so light. It counts for very little even under the empire, does it not? And the slightest shift can make it vanish.”
It was madness of course. What can I tell you, but that Hunters are human too? Aye, and in my case a woman. A woman who had never been rich or connected or, for that matter, beautiful.
I’d been born to a clerk in the Imperial administration, and my rank in life was restricted. That a Satrap wished to speak to me was a little intoxicating. That he’d called me beautiful had to be a ruse, or a trap. But there are traps so seductive we would fall into them willingly. I followed him to the garden, under the fine rain, and he put my arm in his. I could have held his wrist. I could have activated the transport. To this day I don’t know why I didn’t.
The garden was sad under the rain, but you could tell where things had been planted that when green would make the place delightful. We walked down paths I didn’t very well mark, and he talked. “Have you never thought, Mary, that the Empire perhaps cares a little too little about people? About each person?”
“The empire preserves people,” I said. “Lines, families, groups of people. Surely individuals are preserved too as part of it.”
“But only as part,” he said. “And only in their proper ranks.”
“The empire is stable,” I said. “Over the generations, the families have perfected their peculiar specialties. Each of them is good at what it was born to do, clerks and Satraps, commanders and planners.”
He gave me a look, sly, out of the corner of the soft grey eyes. “So, Mary, how many Hunters in your family?”
I shrugged and blushed. “Does it matter then?” I said. “The Hunters are not a clan nor a family specialty. They come from every family and every class, provided they have a taste for adventure, an interest in history, a quick mind.”
He grinned. “Aye, then, Mary, from every class. And have you thought, perhaps, that in every class, in every specialized family, there are individuals born whose talents differ from that of their family, that if they were allowed to use their talents, to create their own path, the world might be unimaginably richer?”
“No,” I said. “That is madness. Anarchy.”
“When I was younger,” he said. “I was a Hunter. And on a field mission after a Breacher, I pursued a man who created so much instability that for a few . . . moments? Days? Years? However you measure inexistent time, a society was allowed to exist where the empire had never come about. In it, men were free. Individuals. It was a beautiful—Oh, it was scary,” he said, probably having seen my expression, “and maddening and fast and chaotic, but that world, as it was, was also beautiful. No ordered ranks, no classes, no exams for advancement.” He sighed. “Their interactions were mad things, with no rhyme or reason. Then the repairers and tracers from headquarters got to cleaning up the time line, and reestablishing it, and I was brought back, and I became one of the planners, and I never saw—” He paused suddenly, both in speech and as though his feet had brought him to an unexpected place. “We,” he said. Then stopped again, as though that beginning had no end. He sighed. “When I saw you, the first time you came into the center, a Hunter, newly minted, I realized—” He paused again. “But no, I could never explain it to you, could I?”
And I realized we were standing in the middle of the kitchen garden, where vegetables, stunted by the cold of winter, still remained enough to see what they had been. “I didn’t know there was a kitchen garden here,” I said.
Which was when the screams echoed, loud, from the main part of the palace, and suddenly, as suddenly as my startled wheeling around to look at him, Seth wasn’t there, and there was just me, standing, under the fine rain, my French hood plastered to my hair, my gown sodden, my heart thudding, thudding, thudding.
He’d done something. He’d evaded my careful surveillance. He’d—
I ran. I ran in the direction of the screams, to stand outside the Queen’s bedroom. From inside came the screams, the sound of a woman sobbing.
Suddenly the crowd parted, and the king, King Henry VIII in all his majesty, came thundering down the corridors of Greenwich, and into the door of the Queen’s room before we had so much as time to curtsey. From inside the crying of a woman stopped, and now came the voice of a man—the king—raised in scolding.
Minutes only, and he came out, saying at the door, “You’ll get no more boys from me.”
The crying resumed then, quieter. And then minutes later a woman came, carrying something in a folded towel. She looked at us, and she looked at the floor, and she said, “Queen Anne has had a miscarriage of her savior.”
I blinked, realizing in shock this was Henry IX, the Great Harry of English history, the ancestor of most of our Satraps. And he’d died. He’d died unborn.
History was tilting on its axis, and I knew the Breacher had done it, but I didn’t know how, and I reached for my bracelet and pressed to return to control center.
I was in a room. A broad room, wide round, that looked a little like Time Command Center, and yet wasn’t. I looked up, and there was no inscription around the door.
And then Seth Cowden appeared, from an internal door, and smiled at me, “Back so soon, my darling,” he said. He extended both hands to me, and took me in his arms. “How was the expedition? Did you find what you wished?”
I was mute for a moment because my first thought was to tell him I knew how he’d done it. Henry IX had died in utero due to something added to his mother’s food. I’d monitored the food itself, from the kitchens on, but not what had grown in the kitchen garden. Some fruit, some herb, some winter vegetable had grown with the nanites already upon them that would stop that life, before it was born, that would send history into a different path.
The other part of my brain told me it was all no sense. There was no Time Command Center. There was no Henry IX. England had remained the excommunicated child of Europe, separate. Because of its less rigid adherence to religion, it had spawned a much different culture, one that tolerated different kinds of thought.
The empire that united all the lands of Europe had never coalesced. There was some thought too that a certain rigidity of Egyptian religion, encased in millennia of tradition had never occurred, and the thought that the England itself was very different from the land of Saxons. It all flitted through my mind, like a whirlwind, like scraps of a dream half-remembered. And then it crashed into the thought that I’d been sent to retrieve Seth, that Seth—
But there was no Time Command Center. Time travel was regulated, in a way, in the sense that it was overseen by several scientific bodies, and that people had to be trained before going back. But the time stream was free to archeologists and sociologists, to investigators and historians.
I was an historian. I’d just gone back to study the Tudor period and to copy some documents relating to Anne Boleyn’s trial for witchcraft.
Looking up at Seth, my world solidified. He was my husband of three years, and a chair of history in the University of New America, a planet in Alpha Centauri. It was a new colony, funded after the old Earth country, a free colony that took all those wishing to join it from the heart, and willing to contribute to its mad whirlwind of invention and innovation.
“I found the documents,” I said. “And copied them.” I removed the French hood and the dress. This was our very own antechamber. Seth was quite wealthy, being older than I and famous in his field, and he had built a time-travel chamber onto our house.
Naked, I allowed Seth to envelope me into his arms, feeling his red beard tickle my face. “I’m so glad we live in a world where I can’t have arbitrary charges brought against me, and everyone will go along with a despotic king. I’m so glad that the rights of the individual count for more.” I frowned, as a feeling of uneasiness persisted. “It could so easily have been different,” I said.
“Very easily,” he said, and gently kissed my forehead.
“And in a different world, I might never have met you, even,” I said. “Our families being from so different a level of wealth.”
“Oh, what does wealth matter, or class,” he said, and kissed me again, this time intently, as though kissing me were the only thing of importance in the universe.
Then he took me within, by the hand, into our chamber.
Hours later, we were lying together on our bed, dozing. “I had a dream,” I told him. “I think it was a dream. But it is so strange. And the world was quite different. I was hunting you down because you were bent on . . .”
“On?”
“Disrupting the time stream.”
He laughed. “Foolishness. Disruptions tend to heal.”
“Yes, but not for a while, and I remember it was odd that you . . . I have an idea you killed your own ancestor, in that dream.”
“That is madness,” he said. Amusement made him narrow his eyes, an expression I knew well. “And quite impossible. Given that women are women, which man can be sure who his ancestor was?”
Just then the communicator played a sharp note, calling our attention. Seth groaned. “Alvin,” he said.
Alvin was his assistant, the man who kept all the paperwork in order, the man who made sure that all the events of the day happened on time. Not brilliant, not innovative, but faithful and exact. I had a feeling he bored Seth a little.
Seth pressed a button and a hologram of Alvin appeared in the middle of the room. He was dressed very oddly, in a golden tunic, and strange molding pants, not at all like the loose, informal clothes favored in New America.
He glared at Seth, too, for what I’m sure must be the first time. “You thought you’d been so clever,” he said.
Seth sat up straighter, and said, in a tone of deep loathing, “Oh, it is you!” and I got a feeling he wasn’t talking about Alvin, or not the Alvin I knew at all. “Very clever sending her after me. You knew I would not hurt her.”
“And very poor planning, very unworthy of a Satrap,” Alvin said. “To change the whole world for a woman. And a common, low born woman at that.”
I opened my mouth to protest, and I might have said something about Alvin needing counseling. But neither of the men paid attention to me.
Alvin said, “Fortunately I found your real ancestor, the Lute player. Did you think I didn’t know? Your ancestor looked just like him.” He spoke in a low, vicious tone, and I remembered a lute player accused of consorting with Queen Anne, but Queen Anne had been executed and—
Seth grabbed at my wrist. “Whatever happens,” he said. “Remember that I love you.” He put something in my hand. It felt solid and small. And he closed my fist over it.
Alvin didn’t notice the small gesture; he was ranting, “Fortunately I retain my memory. It will take centuries for us to clean up the time stream, but until we do, you will be punished for your actions. Even now, the assassins are destroying your true ancestor, before he can—”
There had been as though a sick twist in my guts, a momentary dizziness. I lay in bed in my small apartment, which overlooked Kansas, the capital city of New America. Outside my window the bustle of the largest city in the system went on. A reflection of light from a passing flyer sent lights chasing into my room.
And I opened my hand and found I was clutching a ring. It was so wide, it would only fit my thumb. I slid it on, hesitantly.
Suddenly I remembered. Hastings and Egypt and Tudor England. But with it came a feeling of Seth, too. And I realized he’d worn this ring that created a bubble of stability in the time stream, a mental barrier against the changes to the past, and allowed you to remember all the adjustments.
An expensive bauble, but then, in the original world we both came from, Seth had been a Satrap. Wealthy beyond the dreams of common people.
And he’d had this bubble, and he’d become a Breacher . . . for love of me.
The memory came with the ring, of the world accidentally created in which we were lovers, and of his despair, until he’d seen me again, in the real? Original world.
I got up from bed and went to the window, and looked out at the tumultuous world outside that would never have happened but for Seth’s meddling.
In that first world, it had been ordered, with palaces and slums in very different areas, with castes, with rituals, with rigid control of every individual action.
Individuals. So little and so light in the stream of time, in the pageant of history, in the swirl of the worlds.
But he had roiled time and history for me.
And I remembered too, this world, and our three years together, and the way he laughed, and his teasing look, and the sudden, unexpectedly vulnerable glances he gave me, that spoke of love.
So little and so light.
I clutched my hand in a fist around the ring on my thumb. Alvin had missed something when he’d not destroyed me, when he’d not seen this ring being given to me.
I remembered.
How hard could it be to go back in time and save a man from death? Oh, sure, I knew that scanners and fixers, planners and reweavers of time would all be at work even as I spoke.
But there was a good chance Alvin himself was gone, and any number of his helpers. Satraps had all been descended from Henry IX and who knew how many times Henry IX’s wife, Queen Catherine, had been unfaithful.
And yet, even if they all still existed and arrayed themselves against me, they couldn’t stop me. Sure, there were many of them, but that just meant I must fight them all.
I remembered our love and our marriage that had only existed in that world created by Breaching the past. Our love for which he had sacrificed all.
I must plunge into the time stream and from it rescue and bring back the one life that mattered to me.
So little and so light. It outweighed all the possible worlds.
AN AMATEUR’S GUIDE TO TIME TRAVEL
Marian Rosarum
***Editor’s Note: This is a work of fiction. Please don’t attempt time travel in this way***
The best way to time travel is to fall.
You must be brave. Jumping from a swing or down the last three steps on a stairwell will only take you back a few seconds. You may have the sense that you have been here, in this moment, before. But you will dismiss the feeling and go about your day as if nothing extraordinary has happened.
A bridge is, by far, the best tool at your disposal. The drop is much further than any mere window ledge has to offer. The more momentum you build as you plummet, the more years will slip between your fingers like rainwater.
More importantly, you must have faith that your bones will remain unbroken when you jump, but you must also be prepared for your heart to shatter with the force of the impact. You see, time travelers often have broken hearts—or no hearts at all. You cannot walk through history and remain untouched by wars, disease, random acts of human kindness and cruelty.
Do not worry.
Time travelers have long since forgotten how to cry.
Time travelers do not make good lovers. But it is only natural that you should want companionship; you are still somewhat human.
Your first lover will be a girl, the strength of her city fading as enemy tanks creep towards it, their process slowed only by the harsh winter winds. You will be captivated by the snowflakes collecting on her flushed cheeks, each as bright as the promises she makes to you. You do not understand that the red star stitched on her cap is the same shape as the bullet wound that will soon steal her from you.
Your second lover will pull you on to the dance floor without warning, his dark hand engulfing yours. You will be drunk on forbidden gin and the impossibility of your own survival. You have come through a siege now and want to be closer to the living than to the dead that night. He will gladly comply.
