The combinations, p.38

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  All, all, all — to end here, among the martyrs & heretics, the real &

  metaphysic monuments to the Eternal Momentary, excommunicating the hours:

  * Here the text breaks off. What might follow is a matter of pure speculation, all logical inferences

  not withstanding — a view which has been strenuously contested, but the details of this dispute

  have already been sufficiently recorded elsewhere (the reader is referred to Smutná & Hovno,

  Heterochora Paradoxicum (). [:]

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  the procession of Father Death & his Apostates, the moon months, the pre-

  Copernican universe on a dial — Rome a thousand years deceased & last Dark-

  Age antipopes futurshocked as Šindel’s mechanical astrolabe (scaled replica of

  the Real Thing, the Proxy’s proxy, Time in the abstract if not the abstract in

  Time) becomes a proto-causality machine — dark, iridescent cogs, wheels, mills

  producing timespace, quantum relativity weirdness disturbing the God-sleep,

  celestial entropy, anachronic glitches in the very stuff of Creation: catastrophe if

  the Clock failed, though not for lack of trying.*

  * The Nazis shot it to pieces during the ’ uprising — it took three years to get it turning again.

  Too late — by then, figured by the history book, the shadows had lengthened irreversibly & the

  Time really had stopped. [:]

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  ___________

  ENCULER LES MOUCHES

  According to these principles we may advance without temerity —

  st. That angels & demons have often appeared unto men, that souls

  separated from the body have often returned, & that both the one & the

  other may do the same thing again.

  nd. That the manner of these apparitions, & of these returns to earth,

  is perfectly unknown, & given up by God to the discussions & researches

  of mankind.

  rd. That there is some likelihood that these kinds of apparitions are

  not absolutely miraculous on the part of the good & evil angels, but that

  God allows them sometimes to take place, for reasons the knowledge of

  which is reserved to himself alone.

  th. That no certain rule on this point can be given, nor any

  demonstrative argument formed, for want of knowing perfectly the nature

  & extent of the power of the spiritual beings in question.

  th. That we should reason upon those apparitions which appear in

  dreams otherwise than upon those which appear when we are awake;

  differently also upon apparitions wearing solid bodies, speaking, walking,

  eating & drinking, & those which seem like a shade, or a nebulous &

  aërial body.

  th. Thus it would be rash to lay down principles, & raise uniform

  arguments, & all these things in common, every species of apparition

  demanding its own particular explanation…

  Augustine Calmet, Dissertations sur les apparitions

  des Anges, des Demons et des Esprits, etc., etc. ()

  In the half-light Němec almost failed to recognise him.

  The Prof’s ghost was sitting on the edge of the windowsill, fidgeting with

  the curtains. Flashback to a figure in the snow, somewhere that didn’t exist — a

  zone on the other side of Reality, the cancellation of Time, the Gleichschaltung

  of Space. What was an optical illusion anyway? A flaccid premonition of the life-

  to-come? (Call it a breakdown in the integrated G.O.D.-circuit: the

  inframundo, the mega-cortex, the synapse nebula. A window in the meshwork

  opens & you stick your head through to see how the weather looks on the other

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  side. Maybe when you pulled your head back in, everything will’ve changed, the

  world might’ve stopped. It’s a risky business, messing with the control grids.)

  Who knew if the whole of Creation wasn’t just papered-over with pictures to

  make things look the way they did & not some other way, blocking-out the

  image-flux like a Japanese waterfall on digital replay. The Cosmo-Synchronicity

  Machine. Possibly one day a circuit glitch, a code erased from the programme,

  would cause the whole System to reboot — & suddenly there you’d be, on the

  other side of the waterfall, in a stateless limbo, an anteroom, a threshold of

  thresholds…

  Like now.

  Staring at the shape of equivocation itself taking bodily form: the Old

  Man of the Mountain, windswept forehead as if he’d been out in the celestial

  elements contemplating the insignificance & misery of man, or simply the ends

  of his fingernails, supplicant of the Goddess of the Crossroads, banishing the

  image of the lost world from his mind, by degrees, by facets, spiralling in limbo

  till disburdened & sent off upon some transgallactic wormhole vector like a

  quasar in full flight. Outside, an airraid siren wailed in an indeterminate

  distance, like hundreds of others all across the City. The drone reached its

  crescendo & continued for a full minute, then began winding down, like a

  dynamo going flat. A relic of Cold War civic defence drills, death-from-the-sky

  paranoias. The street groaned, settling down for the slide into entropy, the

  abortive hours that followed midday like a shadow falling in a heap & slowly

  dragging itself back up again.

  ‘Are you real?’ Němec asked, unable to think of anything better, knowing

  it was a dumb question even before the words were out of his mouth.

  Well, you’d have to be delusional to see a ghost in the first place, right kiddo? Or

  fire-up just enough fuse and ozone to produce a passable impression? To fool the eye?

  ‘What does it matter,’ the Prof said, ‘as long as you think I’m real?’

  Well, he had a valid point there. But could a man who was dead appear in

  his own body?* Or if not his actual body, a more approximate one? What did it

  matter, if it was there to be seen, or if it was just seen to be there? What was

  more real, the thing or the seeing of the thing?

  Mmm, Němec took some time out to ponder that one. Conclusions?

  * “Nequam hominis cadaver post mortem dæmone agente discurrere.” [:]

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  of everything / in any case / = just H

  LES: no

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  substance, if substance

  = e.g. a ft concrete wall (then) you could bang yr head against (it). Just a

  question of ⚖.* A blackhle could be ≤ the  in the middle of your eye & fit

  stars & planets & whole galaxies inside, squashed down to the size of an A* — a

  micro-mini∥universe (on the spooky “other side”) — & it’d be like that submarine in

  Fantastic Voyage & just pass right through you, skin & bones & brain (& don’t forget the kidneys, too), the intestinal tract, the  in the anus, shot out into the great toiletbowl of timespace

  & not even a blip on the x-ray monitor to show for it…

  R

  The Prof gave Němec one of those abstracted looks you get when people are

  unable to decide if you’re pulling a con or are just plain stupid — a variation on

  the “hairless Mexican” — like two images superimposed on glass & slightly out

  of sync, the way they’d be if you were trying, for example, to reconcile a man’s

  head with a Klein bottle… Well how d’you think they fit all them con-cepts in there?

  Doctor Who stuff. But a concept wasn’t the same class of bureaucratic

  phenomenon as a neutron star, there were civic ordinances against bending

  someone’s head around a kink in timespace. Never know what might come out.

  Watching the Prof’s face change shape against the window turned Němec

  crosseyed like some revenant Duchamp, to be looked at from the other side of the

  glass (with one eye, close to, for almost an hour). What did the ghost want? What

  did any ghost want? Appearing out of nowhere, a message from the Great

  Primeval, perturbed spirits haunting the night & all that — but suddenly

  everything’s wrong because you’re part of the future & whatever the ghost puts in

  an appearance everything around you looks different: reality gets

  desynchronised, time-out-of-joint, like you’ve just been zapped to Planet X

  where all the inhabitants have been turned into robots obeying the commands of

  an artificial intelligence called G.O.D.2 & only ghosts are free to come & go as

  they please, being of the spirit &, mutatis mutandis, of the flesh also but

  contrariwise…

  R

  * “Scale[s].” [:]

  * “Atom,” you ignoramuses. [:]

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  Yep. Light’s on, kiddo, but you sure anyone’s home?

  Němec fidgeted with his bottom lip. The Prof’s ghost, meanwhile,

  perched there looking at him, as patient as a man with all the time in the world.

  The idea of conducting a conversation with something that, strictly speaking,

  wasn’t really there, wasn’t even a thing, & in the full awareness of what he was

  doing, struck Němec as… Well, he’d done stupider things. Better just to play

  dumb, he decided, & see how the situation pans out. Keep his cards close to his

  chest & pull out the aces when the time’s right. Stay cool. Let the ghost make

  the first move…

  The ghost grinned —

  ‘All around,’ he said, reading Němec’s thoughts apparently (a most subtle

  vapour), ‘are things the naked eye can’t see yet they exist. Can’t see yer own

  mind, now, can you? Time? Bacteria? Once upon, people’d think you were nuts

  just to suggest such a thing. Gravity? Electrons? Hell, electrons? Hoowee! X-ray

  visions of naked bodies, you might as well say. Call it what you like, Invisible

  Man stuff, but the universe is full of ghosts.’

  Němec pictured a man in a room conversing with his own thoughts, given

  shape, corporeality, naming them (Thought , Thought , Thought …) like

  the Earth’s first administrator, Adam in his copse, This little worm of an idea I

  baptiseth… Becoming quite philosophical about it all as he gets down to the

  minutiae, not a grain of sand unturned, not a louse, crab or ringworm, all no

  sooner Christened than emphatically more “real,” a word with some meat on it,

  living & breathing so to speak. And now, if from the fact alone that I can draw from

  my thought the idea of a thing…

  Němec ogled the shape in the window. His mind, meanwhile (invisible as

  it was) had gone blank. He felt suddenly exhausted. World’s full of ghosts? Mmm,

  just wait till news gets out about that one! Spectres from other worlds weaving the

  wind like draughts of air, or light printed onto celluloid, or birds in flight over endless

  tundra. For by mine eye I do not know what I see!

  And how about androids? Did they turn to ghosts when they “died” (or were

  retired, or expired, or whatever)? And if they did, did the other androids believe in

  them, those ghosts? And if they didn’t believe, if they refused, egged on by their

  God of Reason, did the poor ghosts wither & die? Was that what was wrong with

  the world — they’d all been duped into conniving in the murder of their own

  ghosts? Still, Němec couldn’t see the crime in that. Why get all sentimental about

  the old smoke? No shortage of doom on the horizon. Ghosts aplenty…

  ‘Did you find out the answer to your book?’ Němec said, trying to

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  manoeuvre things in the right direction.

  ‘What book?’

  ‘That Voynich book…’

  ‘ Ach, you can’t expect me to be worried about that anymore. It’s your

  problem now. Can’t take it with you, you know.’

  ‘…’

  ‘…’

  ‘By the way, d’you happen to remember someone called Faktor?’

  ‘Never heard of him,’ the ghost said.

  ‘He’s heard of you.’

  ‘Don’t believe it. Who ever heard of me?’

  ‘…’

  ‘…’

  ‘My fingernails stopped growing. D’you think it means something?’

  ‘It’s just because you chew them in your sleep,’ the ghost frowned. ‘My

  wife used to do the same thing. Couldn’t stop. Psychotherapists, hypnosis, you

  name it. She was ashamed for anyone to look at her hands, what she did to

  them, ja, but still couldn’t make herself give it up. Like cigarettes. Hardest thing

  to kick, they say. You could explain a lot from that, nicht wahr? Look at

  Veenston Churchill — you think History’d be the same without those cigars of

  his? My mother, God rest, used to smoke while she was in bed, just like that

  Mae West in the movies — it was very unusual for a woman to smoke in those

  days, even in bed. More than once she set herself on fire, but refused to change

  her ways. They said it was diphtheria that took her in the end…’

  R

  As long as Němec had known him, the Prof had always had the look of one of

  those Social Credit types who keep a soapbox under their beds in case of

  emergency, ever-ready to split hairs or crank-out a lecture at a moment’s notice.

  The ills of the world & all that. Man’s betterment. Brotherhood of the Carpet

  Slipper, the Bowtie & Eightply Knitted Cardigan. But death had worked a

  wondrous transformation, like an alter ego suddenly given free rein. Besides, it

  was hardly fair to begrudge a deadman his favourite cardigan. All that said, did

  the Prof think he was doing anyone any favours turning up like this & nothing

  useful to say for himself? Or was it somehow incumbent on Němec to do the

  Old Man’s talking for him? Bring the ghost up-to-date with his “investigations”?

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  Let him in on the score?

  ‘Ghost, it’s not going as well as we’d hoped.’

  ‘Hoped? Speak for yourself, mein kleiner Freund. It was a lost cause

  before it even started. Believe me, I’ve seen it all with my own eyes…’

  But the ghost had stopped talking & began to whistle quietly to himself,

  something from Mahler. Why Mahler? He seemed to be waiting for Němec to

  say something. Němec took a stab in the dark —

  ‘Does God exist?’

  ‘Beats the hell out of me. You think they give you all the answers just

  because you ran out of time down here without figuring it out for yourself? Not

  a chance. D’you remember what Karl Rahner used to say?’

  Němec shook his head. Who was Karl Rahner? Evidently the Old Man

  still had some wisdom to impart.

  ‘He said the world, & humanity with it, is the possibility of becoming the

  material history of God. ’

  The Prof’s ghost waved his hand at the world outside the window —

  ‘Which is a fancy way of saying there aren’t any real mysteries, just

  unknowables. Like the missing part of a paradox,’ he grinned widely. ‘But let’s

  not complicate matters more than they already are.’

  Well you could have all the explanations of reality you liked — & after

  reality expired? In this life, what was easier than being an alien in the midst of

  conformity? You begin to doubt the explanations & they send people to check up

  on you, teleported right through your TV set — schedule you for a bit of the old

  rehab — Not having politically suspect thoughts are we, sunshine? They find out

  you’re conversing with random ghosts — oh, boy. Zap, crackle, pop! Cure you

  fast. You learn to choose the available options, just tick the box beside the

  number — there’s plenty to pick from — an apple for every eye.*

  R

  * Been the same story since Eve, or Lilith, or Pandora, or whatever you wanted to call her — “Hope,”

  maybe — the well-greased pipedream that keeps you queuing up for more — an avatar for every pain

  — tuned-in to the TV-evangelised Confessions of a Love Doll. Be careful what you wish for. A woman spurned, kiddo, it ain’t a pretty sight. Could androids have souls? Some hidden biotic component that could evolve into the ether & do without them, fly the microelectric coop & become alpha waves on

  the cosmic neural bandwidth, the way a mudman dreams of becoming extraterrestrial dust? The

  visible & the invisible? But how could you tell you weren’t already one of them…? [:]

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  ‘D’you know the story of Odysseus & the Horse?’

  The gloom was making his head hurt. Němec edged up from his armchair

  & regarded the ghost doubtfully —

  ‘What horse?’

  ‘Mister Ed, what d’you think?’

  ‘Oh, right, the wooden one. Trojans & all that…’

  ‘Not a wooden horse, a machine, giving birth to men.’

  ‘…?’

  ‘Things aren’t always what they seem.’

  The Prof’s eyes appeared unbalanced. They glowed. The gloom grew

  more oppressive. Němec could taste metal, the muscles in his jaw were knotting

 

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