No Filter, page 25
“We’re done talking. Let’s go.” Noah started walking, hauling Indy with ease. “Josh, my man, we’ll be busy upstairs for a while. We’ll let you know when it’s safe.”
Indy slapped Noah’s ass with both his hands since it was so easily within reach. “Put me down, you big brute.”
“Erm, no. Not a chance. Not letting you go now. Not ever.”
Indy’s heart warmed at the playful words that rang so true. Forever with this wonderful man, now there was a dream he could get behind. It was a pipe dream, but oh, damn, it was a good one. He stopped struggling, allowed Noah to carry him if only because it made him feel all gooey inside to be hauled off.
“Have fun!” Josh yelled after them, laughter in his voice.
Noah didn’t stumble once carrying him upstairs into the big bedroom, kicking the door shut behind him. He lifted Indy off his shoulder, laid him down on the bed on his back.
When Noah towered over Indy, panic rose for a second. He pushed it down hard. This was Noah. This was the man who had held him naked in the shower and had not lifted a finger. This was the man whose first concern had been that he’d hurt Indy when he’d given him a blow job. This was the man who had respected his boundaries every step of the way. He had nothing to fear, nothing.
Noah stilled, as if sensing Indy needed a second to calm himself. “Remember what I promised you. A simple ‘no’ is enough, at any time.”
Indy nodded at Noah’s soft words, felt them in the deepest depths of his heart to be true. “I trust you.”
“What do you want, Indy? You have to tell me. Do you want to go slow? Do you need some time to adapt?”
Indy shook his head. “No, I’m done waiting. I want you now.”
Indy sat up and whipped off his own shirt, gripped by the powerful need to feel Noah’s skin on his, nothing between them. His pants came off next, then he yanked off his socks and stripped down his boxers. The fear and shame he’d half-expected to pop up at being naked in front of Noah never came. Fuck, he wanted this more than anything.
“Hurry the fuck up, would you?” he said, climbing over the bed toward Noah. Noah’s eyes radiated such want and desire it made Indy shiver.
He kneeled on the bed and pulled at Noah’s shirt until the man moved with something resembling urgency and undressed.
“Yes!” Indy let out a token sound of appreciation when Noah stood naked in front of him. Damn, that body of his. He was so fucking hot. Every single muscle perfect, every inch of skin strong and masculine. And oh, that thick cock ready for action, pointing straight at him. Every sliver of fear Indy had ever entertained about never being able to enjoy sex ever again disappeared as his mouth watered at the thought of taking this man in.
Without taking his eyes off Indy, Noah unhooked his prosthesis and let it drop on the floor.
“How do you want us?” Noah asked.
The strangest feeling flooded Indy. It was a warm buzz that pulsed through his entire body, made him tingle from his toes to the top of his head. It dizzied him, made it hard to think over the overwhelming sensation of…love. This had to be what love felt like.
Damn, he loved Noah. Completely. He loved this man who always put him and his needs first, never his own.
“I want to see you,” he whispered.
Noah nodded. “Get on your back, put some pillows under your butt.”
Indy complied without hesitation, scooting backward on the bed and propping two soft pillows under his ass. He spread his legs wide, pulling his feet up. Now that he’d made the decision to give in to what he’d wanted all along, he couldn’t wait.
Noah threw a bottle of lube from the nightstand drawer on the bed, then sat down between Indy’s legs. He trailed his index finger from Indy’s ankle all the way up to his thigh. Indy shivered in response.
“You’re so beautiful,” Noah said reverently. “You have no idea how badly I want you.”
Indy took a deep breath. Noah had said it himself, he had to say what he wanted. “Noah, as much as I appreciate your words and everything, can we do the slow stuff another time? I want you. I need you, and the longer you wait the more time I have to get scared, so could you maybe hurry the fuck up, please?”
Much to Indy’s delight, Noah let out a relieved sigh and smiled. “Fuck, baby, that’s music to my ears. I wasn’t sure if I had the patience to go slow.”
He grabbed the lube, squirted out a glob, and settled himself between Indy’s legs. “Open wide for me, baby.”
Indy let his legs fall open even wider and scooted down lower on the pillows so Noah had free access. He was wide open, vulnerable, about to surrender to this powerful man who could hurt him if he wanted to. But the panic never came. Instead, there was trust, anticipation, a wave of sheer desire that licked at his insides like a starting fire, ravenous to burn brighter.
Noah’s index finger found his hole and probed. Indy breathed in, out, and let him in.
The heat roared higher as Noah circled his finger, pushed it in and out. Fuck, the mere sensation of Noah’s finger gave Indy goose bumps, and a low moan stirred in his throat. He wanted more, needed so much more.
“More,” he whispered.
Noah smiled, pulled out and added a second finger. Indy bore down, let them in with ease. It stung when Noah pushed in deep, but it also intensified the liquid heat in his belly. Pleasure was already assailing him, making his cock grow even harder. He closed his eyes and focused on relaxing his muscles, giving Noah the access they both so desperately wanted.
Noah would take care of him. The thought kept circling in his head, pushing all other thoughts out. There was no room for bad memories, fear, or even the mention of Duncan. His body, mind, and soul were tuned in to the man between his legs.
“How are you doing, baby?” Noah asked huskily. He widened his fingers, and Indy let out a soft moan as the man grazed a sensitive spot inside him. The flames inside him licked at his cock, his balls, setting them on fire.
“Good, I’m good.”
Noah hummed. He pulled out again, then added a third finger. Indy froze for a second as the intrusion breached his outer ring. Noah stopped immediately. Indy let out a shuddering breath, relaxed again.
Noah resumed his movements, but slowly. The man was focused on every minute signal Indy’s body emitted to make sure he was all right.
Love. It really was a fucking miracle, wasn’t it?
Noah twisted his hand, rotating it so his fingers pointed upward. He pushed in deep, stretching Indy farther open. It was that strange mix of pain and pleasure where the sting of the burn and the stab of pleasure intertwined, both sending electric shocks through his ass, radiating to his cock and nuts. He shivered, impatient for more.
“You’re so damn tight.” Noah’s voice rang with concern.
Indy understood. Noah was scared of hurting him. “Imagine how good that’s going to feel around your cock,” he teased.
“Oh, I can imagine just fine. I’ve had my eye on that perfect ass of yours since the day I met you.”
This was it. His body was ready. And fuck, his mind was ready too. He wanted this, wanted Noah. “What are you waiting for, then? I’m ready.”
Noah’s hand stopped. “You sure?”
“More than anything.”
Noah pulled back his hand.
“I’m tested and negative,” Indy whispered.
Noah nodded. “Good. I want nothing between us when I make you mine.”
He sat up straight, poured more lube in his hand and coated his cock. He hesitated, so Indy grabbed his arm, pulled him. Noah lowered himself on top of Indy, letting his weight rest on his arms.
Indy looked up. Noah’s eyes shone with love and want. Indy’s heart stumbled, then went into free fall.
Damn, the sensation of a big, strong man on top of him intoxicated him. He was born for this, to be with this man. He didn’t say anything, wasn’t capable of forming words, but nodded.
Noah’s cock lined up against Indy’s hole, Noah guiding it into position with one hand. As soon as Noah pushed, Indy breathed out and bore down, welcoming him in. Noah slid in as if they’d done it a thousand times before, as if his dick knew the way home.
“Oh, fuck,” Noah breathed when he inched in deeper, past the snug entrance. “Oh…fuck.”
Indy smiled. It wasn’t the most eloquent of expressions, but it sure as hell was sexy to see his man throwing his head back in ecstasy.
Noah pushed in a little deeper, Indy’s ass adjusting quickly. Oh, it burned all right, but nothing he couldn’t handle. Nothing that didn’t bring pleasure as much as discomfort. He closed his eyes, squirmed a little. God, his muscles were squeezing Noah’s cock like a vise. Even halfway in, Indy felt deliciously full.
“Keep going,” he encouraged Noah, who had stopped moving.
“Give me a second,” was the quick reply.
“I’m fine!”
“I’m not,” Noah bit out. “You’re so fucking snug around my cock that I’m gonna blow my wad if I don’t stop.”
Indy opened his eyes. Noah’s jaw was tight, his teeth clamped down and his brows furrowed. Every muscle in his body was on full alert. It was clear he was fighting as hard as he could.
It was an unbelievably arousing sight. To know he had this effect on this strong man, that he could bring him to his knees—Indy had never felt sexier in his life.
“So let go. You have another round in you.”
Noah’s eyes opened. Narrowed with a solid dose of stubbornness and pride. “No. You have to go first.”
Indy remembered what Josh had told him, how Noah always made sure Josh came first and how Noah’s sense of guilt played into that. Was Noah somehow feeling guilt toward Indy as well? He didn’t want this beautiful experience with Noah sullied by a false sense of guilt.
“I’m not Josh, Noah.”
His words were steel wrapped in velvet. He was willing to go to war over this. What he and Noah had, it had to be right from the start. He couldn’t allow it to get burdened with destructive patterns they’d never get rid of again.
“Damn it, Indy, I know.”
Noah kept holding still, their eyes locked in a battle of wills.
“Then why do I have to come first?”
“Because I want to make it good for you.”
“Yeah, so? Who says you can’t do both, allow yourself to come first and make me come afterward?”
Noah stubbornly shook his head.
Fuck, this was a deeper issue than Indy had anticipated. And here he’d thought he was the one who was all fucked up about sex. “Pull out.”
Noah didn’t hesitate even a second, but drew back—letting out a groan as the sensation undoubtedly brought him even closer to the edge.
Indy felt empty inside when that wonderful thick cock left him, leaving him cold and yearning for that fullness and friction. As soon as Noah was out, Indy hooked his leg around him, put Noah’s arm in an arm bar and flipped him on his back with ease. He unhooked himself and stretched out on top of Noah, their faces a breath apart.
“I need you to listen. I know that my notion of sex is pretty fucked up, considering my past. But so is yours. You’ve created this pattern where you associate sex with guilt. Somehow, you feel guilty for taking pleasure, so you compensate by making Josh or me come first. You fucking refuse to let go until then. Even today when I was blowing you, you were fighting it. You have to stop this. If you want to be with me, it can't only be about me, what I want, and my pleasure. You have to be able to take as much as you give, or this won’t ever work.”
“I need to take care of you,” Noah said, a hint of desperation in his voice. “I can’t help it, it’s how I’m wired.”
“First, that’s bullshit. You always have a choice, no matter how you’re wired. But more importantly, that’s a narrow view you have of what taking care of someone means. Don’t you realize how much joy it brings me to know I can pleasure you, make you lose control, make you come minutes after being inside of me? You’re robbing me of that experience if you always want to delay your pleasure for mine. How’s that taking care of me?”
Noah was quiet for a long time, studying Indy with eyes that seemed to peer deep into his soul.
“You’re right,” he said. “I never looked at it that way.”
“Okay, then,” Indy said, relieved. “Now, where were we?”
Noah’s eyes widened. “You still want to…?” His voice betrayed his insecurity.
Indy didn’t say anything, just moved his body downward until he’d lined up with that thick, gorgeous cock. He raised himself on his knees, took Noah’s shaft in his hand and lowered himself.
Noah’s eyes closed, his hands white-knuckling the sheets as Indy took him in, inch by inch.
Indy breathed calmly, easing downward on the exhale, never once tensing or panicking until he had every inch of that glorious dick inside of him. He let out a deeply content, “Fuck, yes!”
Noah’s hands gripped his hips as the man angled his hips to slide in even deeper. Noah’s balls bumped against his ass and wasn’t that the most erotic sensation ever? Hot damn, he’d never thought it could feel this good.
He raised his hips, came down again in an experimental move. This was a new position for him as he’d always been fucked either doggy style or on his back—never on top. He loved the control it gave him—though there was something to be said for having a strong, big body towering over you—but also how deep he could take Noah in this way.
Indy rose up again, surged down in a controlled move. He moaned as Noah’s cock hit a sensitive spot inside that made him tingle all over. Oh, he’d discovered the perfect angle! Indy lifted his hips, rose and lowered, rose and lowered, setting a steady pace, his face drawn in fierce concentration. Hot damn, his ass was loving the shit out of Noah’s cock, the tip tagging that spot inside that made him fucking dance with pleasure.
Beneath him, Noah groaned and tensed, his fingers digging hard into Indy’s hips. He never pulled or pushed. It felt like his hands were there to steady them both.
Indy leaned backward, changing the angle just so and moved up and down faster.
“Ungh!” Noah let out. He spasmed, that big chest heaving as he panted.
Indy smiled. The man had to be close. He could feel the powerful muscles trembling beneath him.
“You ready, big guy?” he teased, before lifting his ass and slamming down hard.
“Oh, fuck!” Noah shouted.
Another slam. Indy let out a curse, his pulse racing. Damn, he hit that spot again and a full-body tremor tore through his body, his legs nearly giving out. He had to angle to the right to get there. But first, he wanted to get Noah off so they could both take their time for the next round. A few fast and hard moves should do the trick.
Indy pulled up, moved down hard and deep. Noah’s legs pulled tight under him, the muscles of his stomach taut. Noah sucked in air, gasped. Indy’s chest squeezed tight, watching his man in the throes of pleasure. He did this to him.
Another deep thrust.
Noah bucked, came halfway off the mattress, spasmed again, then released with a shout. He held Indy’s hips as he shot his load deep into Indy’s ass, his eyes pinched closed, his head in his neck.
Indy lowered himself on top of his man, wanting to be held while Noah recuperated. The strong arms came around him, pulling him close. Noah’s chest rose and dipped under Indy’s cheek, the muscles still contracting every now and then with the aftereffects of his powerful release. Their torsos were slick with perspiration.
“Damn, baby, your ass is heaven. It’s like a constant compression sleeve that fits my cock perfectly, and when you move—I’m seeing stars.”
Noah’s words made Indy’s heart sing. What a rush it was to bring this man to his knees.
Noah’s cock slipped out of his ass, and Indy let out a soft protest.
“Do you want to switch?” Noah asked, his breathing returning to normal.
Indy frowned. “What do you mean? You want me to lie on my back again?”
“No, I mean do you want to switch…fuck me, I mean.”
The question was so unexpected, Indy was floored. Noah had said he’d be fine with Indy topping him, but somehow the reality of that option hadn’t sunk in yet until now. He’d meant it. He was serious about letting Indy be top.
Indy considered it. It had been an amazing experience fucking Josh. The sensation of his cock in that tight, velvet heat had been beyond anything he’d ever experienced. But it had also been nerve-racking and had fueled his insecurities about the size of his dick and the responsibility of making it a good experience for the bottom. Was that what he wanted right now?
He’d felt so full with Noah inside of him. So complete. Like he was whole for the first time, part of something bigger and better than only himself. Nothing had ever made him feel like that, not even close. Even now, despite being so close to Noah, his body felt strangely empty. Maybe it was because he hadn’t come yet, but he was craving Noah. Craving his cock, more precisely.
“No,” he said, his voice strong. “But thank you for offering.”
He inched up higher on Noah’s chest, lifted his head and found the man’s soft lips, that delightful stubble sanding his skin. He licked Noah’s lower lip, sucking on it before entering his mouth with his tongue. Noah growled against his mouth, his hands dropping to Indy’s ass to knead both cheeks.
Cum dripped out of his hole, and the sensation reminded Indy of that conversation he and Noah had in the shower. He pulled back his mouth.
“I have something you need to see,” he said, his voice husky.
“What could possibly be so important that I need to see it right now?” Noah all but whined.
Indy chuckled. “Trust me. You don’t want to miss this.”
He rolled off Noah onto the bed.
“Sit up,” he told him.
Noah’s curiosity was piqued, judging by his quick response to Indy’s order. He obeyed, looked at Indy with brows raised.
Indy climbed on all fours, then turned so his ass faced Noah, pushing it back and widening his legs to give his man an unobstructed view.
