Touch Me Gently, page 16
Shock wound its way through Kaden at Logan’s words, and tears stung his eyes at the gentle giant’s sweet confession. He brought his arms up, winding them around Logan’s shoulders and deepened the kiss. They lay there, slowly kissing, without lust or passion, just simple, loving kisses.
Even though Kaden didn’t say the words back, Logan felt in his heart that the boy cared for him in the same way he cared for the boy. It would just take time for him to voice his feelings.
Another turning point in their relationship came that night, much to Logan’s surprise and absolute delight. After dinner, Shea left to go on another date with Ty, telling them not to wait up for her, to which Logan growled that she had better be joking. She’d laughed that tinkling laugh she gave sometimes before winking and racing out of the house before he could stop her.
Chapter 14
Happy that he and Logan had the house to themselves, Kaden tried to ignore the churning in his stomach. Something had changed inside him that morning. When Logan had uttered those words to him in the hayloft, the final chip of ice on his heart had given way, melting away to nothing. He knew that he’d fallen in love with the big cowboy, a head over heels, fireworks-exploding-in-the-air kind of love. The realization left him with the desire to be closer to him, to explore another side of their relationship in the physical sense. His fear hadn’t just disappeared, and his hands shook as he washed the dishes from their dinner. Could he go through with it? It wouldn’t be fair to Logan if he started and had to stop in the middle. Determination to show Logan that he held complete trust in him stiffened Kaden’s spine, and he refused to allow his past to keep them from being together. He would just remind himself that Logan loved him, and would never hurt him, abuse him, or touch him with the intention of causing pain.
Logan could sense Kaden’s nervousness and wondered if his confession that morning had upset him. It caused him to doubt his certainty that Kaden felt the same, and as always, he couldn’t let Kaden brood over whatever had upset him, so Logan asked, “Is something wrong?”
“Hmm?” Kaden looked up from the dish he was drying only to find Logan’s eyes studying him intently. “N… no. Nothing’s wrong. Why would you think that?”
“You seem awfully jumpy if nothing’s wrong,” Logan commented.
Logan reminded Kaden of a detective. He had a way of seeing things most people wouldn’t. Or maybe he wore his emotions on his face like a coat on his body. Kaden had never been good at hiding his feelings. So he sighed and said, “Let me finish these, and then I’ll show you what’s wrong.”
Logan’s brow furrowed at the boy’s choice of words, but he shrugged and stood up to help him finish the dishes. Once they’d been put away, Logan took Kaden by the hand and led him into the living room. “Now, tell me what’s wrong.”
Kaden didn’t know quite how to put it, but he supposed he should just come out with it. Taking a deep breath, he looked Logan in the eyes and said, “I want you to make love to me.”
“No,” Logan refused stiffly, standing up to move restlessly around the room.
“B-but why? Don’t you… want me?” Kaden asked hoarsely, fingering the hem of his T-shirt, his heart pounding hard and fast. He didn’t understand the cowboy’s denial of his request. Did Logan really mean everything he’d said? Or did Logan say those things about his body being beautiful just to give him confidence?
“Kaden, I want you more than anything else in this world, but I won’t let you force yourself into something that you aren’t ready for,” Logan said heatedly, fiercely. His green eyes flashed, and his lips were turning white around the edges with how tightly he pulled them in.
“How do you know I’m not ready?” Kaden demanded, standing up straighter and glaring at Logan. “Why do you get to decide that? It’s my body and my choice. I….” He softened his words, looking down at his shoes. “I want you, Logan. Truly, sincerely want you. Please.” His voice had dipped to a mere breath of a whisper, and he blinked furiously, twisting his fingers in the hem of his shirt further.
Logan warred with his inner mind. He wanted to accept Kaden at his word so badly that it hurt, but how could the younger man truly know what he wanted? Sighing, he moved closer to Kaden, taking him gently into his arms and cradling him close to his chest. He rested his chin on top of the kid’s head lightly. “Are you sure? Absolutely sure?”
“Yes.”
He pulled back to gaze down at Kaden, a stern expression dominating his face. “If you feel afraid or uncomfortable, you are to tell me, immediately. Do you hear me?”
Nodding, Kaden beamed up at Logan, the grin beginning to fade as the emerald eyes darkened with passion. He licked his lips, wetting them and drawing those jewels to stare at his mouth. A squeak emerged from Kaden’s throat when Logan suddenly swept him up in his arms and started up the stairs to his bedroom. Logan slowly set Kaden on his feet, brushing a lock of dark hair back from his face before lowering his lips to cover Kaden’s. Kaden reached up to wrap his arms around Logan’s neck, his fingers twining in the sandy blond hair as they kissed.
Heat started building inside Kaden, spiraling from his lips to his belly and lower still. He gasped at the sensation, his head falling back as Logan’s mouth locked onto the sensitive skin at the base of his neck. He felt a tug in his groin at the feel of Logan’s slick tongue flicking over his flesh. Logan’s hands roamed down his back to slide beneath Kaden’s shirt, the rough skin of his palms slid over his bare back, sending a shaft of desire through Kaden. Nothing else existed, just them and the fire rising higher with each tender kiss and soft caress. Logan lifted Kaden in his arms again, and carried him to the bed, carefully laying him down and leaning back to gaze at him. He perched on the edge of the bed, cupping Kaden’s cheek and stroking the skin there with his thumb.
He helped the teenager remove his shirt, baring his upper body to Logan’s parched gaze. Logan dropped light kisses along Kaden’s collarbone, traveling lower to capture a stiff nub between his lips, tearing a gasp from Kaden. His tongue laved the nipple, swirling around the hard little button before he suckled slowly, enjoying the sounds issuing from the boy’s throat. He moved his attentions to the other, running his hand down the muscles on Kaden’s chest.
A split second of panic spiked inside Kaden when he felt Logan’s hands working on the button and zipper of his jeans, but he buried it deep in his mind. He wanted this, and refused to allow the memories to ruin it for him. Pleasure zipped through him at the feel of the calloused palms on his skin, and then Logan carefully removed the last articles of clothing separating him from the cowboy. A flush invaded Kaden’s cheeks at suddenly being so bare in front of Logan, but when he felt the bigger man tenderly slide his hands down his left leg and then up the right one, caressing and massaging as he moved, he forgot his embarrassment quickly. He sucked in a deep breath when the back of Logan’s fingers brushed against his erect cock, and his eyes slid closed in rapture.
A cry escaped his lips at the feel of the wet, hot heat that closed around the tip of his shaft, and the cry faded into groans of lust as Logan sucked him deep inside his mouth. The feel of Logan’s tongue on his cock sent bolts of lightning zipping up his spine. He’d never felt anything like it before. The cowboy flicked the tip of his tongue along the bottom of his stiff prick as Logan’s mouth rose and fell on him. Kaden felt something spiraling inside of him, begging for release, and he let out several mewling cries, his hips jerking slightly. Logan pinned his hips to the bed and sucked harder and faster, coaxing Kaden to the edge. As Kaden reached that peak, Logan probed gently at the entrance to Kaden’s body, feeling the tight heat that gripped his finger as the teenager’s back arched from the bed, a cry of ecstasy resounding in the room. Warm liquid splashed into Logan’s mouth, and he swallowed instinctively, moaning at the taste of Kaden’s essence.
He continued to lap Kaden’s softening flesh until no trace of his little one’s orgasm remained, releasing it to fall back onto Kaden’s soft belly. He licked his lips and moved up to rest beside Kaden, lazily trailing his fingers over the soft skin of the teen’s chest. Kaden lay there in a daze. Never having believed another’s touch could bring him such pleasure, it left him reeling. A multitude of emotions raced through him: happiness, wonder, and the most important one of all, love. He turned his head to gaze at Logan, his eyes glistening with tears. Logan frowned. “What’s wrong?”
“N-nothing. I just never… knew it could feel so good. I’ve… never felt like that before,” Kaden managed, his eyes lowering to lock onto the cowboy’s broad chin.
Logan smirked in satisfaction, leaning forward to kiss Kaden’s forehead. “Well, it’s not over yet. That was only the appetizer.” He slipped from the bed, smiling reassuringly at the hesitant expression on Kaden’s face. He padded barefoot into the bathroom to get a condom and the small tube of KY Shea had passed to him in the kitchen a few days ago. He could still feel the heat that crawled up his neck when he’d seen the tube. She’d laughed uproariously at the discomfort on his face before slapping him on his shoulder and walking away.
He set them on the nightstand, and slowly removed his clothing, slipping back into the bed beside Kaden. “I’m going to let you control whatever we do, Kaden. It’s up to you how far you want this to go.”
Kaden’s hand trembled as he reached out to place it lightly on the muscular chest, running his fingers experimentally over the tan flesh. The light dusting of blond hairs on Logan’s chest tickled his palm, eliciting a small smile from Kaden. He sat up, moving closer to Logan’s side, gazing down at him in wonder. Their skin contrasted deeply against one another. From his days spent in the sun, Logan’s body was a dark tan, while Kaden’s gleamed like white alabaster in the light thrown across the bed from the lamp on the nightstand. He ran the tip of one finger over the man’s nipple, watching Logan’s reaction and the way the man’s lips parted on a soft sigh. He did it again, lingering this time. He wanted to make Logan feel as good as he had. Bending down, he took that little brown nub into his mouth, swiping his tongue over it. A groan rumbled in Logan’s chest, causing the skin in his mouth to vibrate against his tongue.
He took his time, leisurely touching and exploring the man’s body, learning the firm contours, and the velvety skin inside Logan’s thighs. He found a birthmark in the shape of a strawberry on Logan’s inner thigh, and it fascinated him so much that he couldn’t help but taste it. Kaden tentatively licked at the smudge on his lover’s body, enjoying the sound Logan made.
Sweat beaded on Logan’s forehead as he strained to keep from grabbing Kaden and taking him roughly. The kid was driving him crazy with lust—the delicate, fluttery touches of his fingers, the tongue that now laved at the skin on his thigh, and the warm breath that passed over his swollen sac. “Kaden, you’re driving me insane,” he growled, arching his hips from the bed.
Kaden grinned, looking up at Logan from beneath his eyelashes. “But I like learning every inch of you. You’re so beautiful.”
For the first time in ages, Logan actually felt self-conscious and had to fight off a blush rising in his cheeks. But he quickly forgot his chagrin when Kaden’s fingers wrapped around his aching shaft, and those slender fingers began to explore the silk-sheathed, engorged cock. Logan’s breath hissed from his lungs when the kid tentatively swiped at the large tip with his tongue, tasting him. It took every ounce of willpower he possessed not to fill Kaden’s mouth with his seed when the boy suddenly took him into his mouth and slid down to the bottom, taking him deep into his throat. It surprised him that the kid could take all of him so easily, and before he could explode at the erotic act, he lifted Kaden away from his dick and brought him up onto the bed beside him.
Logan fumbled for the tube of KY, his breathing heavy with desire and the strain of keeping himself in check. “Turn on your side facing away from me,” he instructed calmly, and Kaden hesitantly rolled to his side.
A shudder wound its way through Kaden’s body when he felt a large hand caressing his back, slipping down to grip his ass lightly. Kaden stifled a gasp when he felt Logan pressing a finger covered in a cold substance against his entrance. Terror rose to the surface, and he closed his eyes, praying it would recede as Logan began to push inside him. Once inside to the second knuckle, Logan retreated and pushed his finger back inside, repeating this until he felt Kaden begin to relax.
Adding a second finger to the first, he began to loosen Kaden’s channel, scissoring his fingers and spreading him open. Panting gasps were coming from Kaden’s mouth, and he bent forward to murmur into the teen’s ear, “Are you all right?”
“Yes,” Kaden sighed, pain and pleasure becoming one at the invasion of his body, but the pain had begun to fade away.
Two fingers became three, and Kaden began to push back on those fingers, his cock once again hard with need and dripping with wetness. Logan couldn’t take any more and withdrew his fingers. He ripped open the condom wrapper, rolling it over his straining flesh before slathering it with lubricant. He felt Kaden tense anew when the head pushed against his hole, and he caressed the younger man’s hip, soothing him as he began to push inside, his eyes locked on the sight of his thick cock slowly penetrating Kaden’s body.
Kaden bit his lip as tears sprung into his eyes and a couple escaped to soak into the pillow beneath. It burned as he opened to the invasion, but it also felt good. The longer Logan remained inside of him, the more the pain dissipated. He instinctively huddled into Logan’s chest, taking reassurance in the warmth at his back.
Logan stayed still, resisting the primal need to thrust in and out. He placed a tender kiss to Kaden’s thin, pale shoulder. “Does it hurt?”
“No. It… feels… good,” Kaden breathed, reaching back to grip Logan’s hip, and arching his back.
The cowboy let out a small grunt at the way the snug entrance grew even tighter around him at the movement, and he began to thrust, pulling back until he remained partway inside Kaden and then shoving forward. He repositioned Kaden’s leg until his knee rested against his thin chest, opening him wider for Logan. Logan lined his lover’s shoulder and neck with kisses, carefully thrusting in and out of the hot canal gripping his cock. Kaden’s slim fingers dug into his skin but it only added to the intense pleasure he felt.
“Kaden, I love you so much,” Logan moaned, sinking his teeth lightly into the pale skin on Kaden’s shoulder as he closed his eyes in ecstasy.
Heat spiraled higher inside Kaden, his stomach clenching almost painfully, and when Logan brushed against something deep inside him, he gave a small keening cry as the heat threatened to consume him. Their groans filled the room, sweat dampening their skin and the scent of sex heavy in the air as they undulated against each other. Kaden felt so hot, like his body had been consumed by fire, tiny flames licking at his skin, burning him deep inside. He could feel Logan inside him, filling him and emptying him again and again. The deeper Logan went, the better it felt. His own hips began to thrust back against Logan, increasing the pleasure tenfold.
“Kaden… ah… I need you to come for me, Kaden. Please… come for me,” Logan bit out between clenched teeth, reaching around Kaden’s body to grip the hard length of him, tugging on it in time with his own hard thrusts.
That was all that Kaden needed, sending him over the edge with a loud cry of Logan’s name, his seed spilling across the sheets and Logan’s fingers. Logan felt Kaden convulsing around his cock, milking him, and it sent him flying, his own fluids pumping into the latex sheathing his flesh. He roared through his climax, thrusting himself deep inside Kaden one last time before coming to a halt. They lay there, gasping for breath, and slowly descending back to earth.
Logan gripped the base of the condom, pulling out of Kaden’s body to strip it from him and tie it closed before tossing it into the garbage can nearby. He turned back to pull Kaden into his arms, nuzzling at the teen’s ear. He felt the trembling in Kaden’s body, and tilted the boy’s face in order to see his eyes. Tears were spilling down Kaden’s cheeks, and Logan made a sound of alarm. “Kaden? Did I hurt you? Or scare you?” he asked in a panic, sitting up to gather Kaden into his lap.
Kaden couldn’t respond. Words were lost to him. He shook his head profusely. He wrapped his arms around Logan’s neck and held on tight to keep from flying apart. That had been incredible. Nothing had prepared him for it to be that way, and he felt cherished and loved by Logan. His own heart swelled up inside his chest, pounding hard and fast. No matter what happened, he loved the big, strong cowboy and nothing would ever change that. Once he’d managed to bring himself under control, giving an occasional hiccup, Kaden lifted his head to flash Logan a watery smile. “I didn’t mean to cry all over you.”
Logan wiped at the boy’s tears and asked, “What was that all about? You had me scared. I thought I’d hurt you or frightened you.”
“No. I’m sorry. I just never knew it could feel like that.” Wonder and awe rang out in his voice. “And to be connected to you in such an intimate way was the most incredible thing I’ve ever felt, Logan. And it made me realize… how much I love you.”
