The Dark-Hunters, page 627
The first haven Noir had stolen from him.
Now she wanted to be the one who gave him comfort and took away his pain. To show him that he didn’t need a bird’s wings to escape what was happening around him. That there was pleasure to be had in his own body.
Let me love you, Seth …
But would her stubborn demon lord ever accept that from anyone? Even her. Or was he so badly damaged that nothing would ever make him whole again?
Seth ground his teeth as Lydia leaned forward to run her tongue over his swallow mark. It was the first time since it’d appeared that he didn’t hate it and what it signified.
Closing his eyes, he surrendered himself to her mouth and warm touches that reached far below his skin and soothed him on levels he’d never imagined he possessed. His senses on fire, he was actually dizzy from the pleasure of finally having her in his arms.
He ran his hands under her shirt and over her back, delighting in how warm and soft her skin was. How good it smelled. Everything around them faded as he surrendered himself completely to her caresses. Caresses that were far sweeter than anything he’d imagined them to be.
And how could he? No one had ever touched him like this.
Like he mattered.
There was no pain in her gentle touch. No fingernails shredding his skin.
But her top was beginning to frustrate him as he tried to feel more of her. “No fair,” he whispered in her ear. “You still have a shirt on.”
It vanished instantly.
Seth sucked his breath in at the sight of her perfectly formed breasts. Her skin tone was so pale compared to his. Something that didn’t make any sense since she was from the world of bright sunlight and he’d lived in darkness for so long that he could barely tolerate the sun at all.
His mouth watering, he cupped her breasts that overfilled his hands and smiled at the bounty of them. He lifted her up so that he could run his tongue over the tight nipple of her right breast and finally taste her.
Mmm … she was even more succulent than his best fantasy, and he wanted to taste every inch of her body until he was drunk from it.
Lydia shivered at the way Seth’s tongue played against her breast as he rolled her over onto her back without withdrawing from her.
Then he moved from breast to breast, tickling her nipples with his tongue and then his whiskers in turn. Something that made her entire body convulse with unbelievable bliss. Who knew a man could do that? Her demon lord was extremely talented. So much so that she actually came a few minutes later just from that alone.
Throwing her head back, she laughed in ecstasy as her world exploded.
Seth smiled as he felt her shuddering against him. The sound of his name on her lips …
It was the sweetest of songs and he was so grateful he’d given her that voice.
He’d never taken delight in pleasing his partners before. In the past, he’d developed that particular skill as a way to get them off him quicker so that he could find his own release and be done with them.
But with Lydia, he wanted it to last and he wanted her to be pleasured like she’d never been pleasured before. He was desperate to make sure that when she left this bed, she didn’t regret a single minute of being with him.
Lydia licked her lips as her body settled back down and Seth continued to run his hands over her breasts while he gently nipped her skin with his teeth. She lifted herself up to kiss him.
He pulled back again.
“Seth—”
“I’m sorry,” he whispered. Staring at her, he swallowed hard, then lowered his lips toward hers. His entire body was tense and rigid. He all but cringed in expectation of her kiss.
Lydia ran her finger over his mouth while he watched her. “A kiss isn’t supposed to hurt, Seth.”
He frowned as if he thought she was insane.
“Trust me.”
Seth nodded, even though he didn’t believe her for an instant. Kisses didn’t hurt women. But they always hurt him. No matter who gave them, the result was ever the same.
He braced himself for the coming pain as she pressed her lips to his. She buried her hands in his hair while she lightly tongued his lips, sending chills all over him. And when she slipped her tongue into his mouth to stroke his tongue and tease his teeth, he swore he saw stars from it.
Lydia smiled as she felt him relaxing against her, and getting more into the kiss, until he finally took control of it.
Now it was her turn to be amazed. While she’d had her share of boyfriends and dates over the centuries, none of them had ever kissed her like this.
Like she was the air he breathed. She sank her hands into his soft curls and let them wrap around her fingers in the sweetest of caresses. She didn’t know why, but those curls always made her smile. Probably because hair like his was rare. Not just the unusual color of it, but also the silkiness of his curls. The way they spiraled in a mad chaos that was unruly and yet controlled and formed. Ever a contradiction.
Just like him.
And in that one moment, as their breaths mingled and he groaned against her, she made the most startling discovery of all.
She loved him.
Truly. Deeply.
And with the whole of her heart.
Yes, he made her crazy. He had a way of infuriating her to the highest level of madness and motivating her into wanting to murder him.
And at the same time, he broke her heart and made her crave his touch even while she was trying to figure out where to hide his body.
But most of all, whenever he looked at her, she felt like a goddess. Pure and simple. And when he held her like this, she could almost believe she was beautiful.
I love you, Seth.
If only she dared say that out loud. Yet she knew better. He wasn’t ready to believe her. He’d been too hurt. But in time, she was going to make him see it. Somehow.
Seth’s head swam at the way Lydia held on to him and kissed his lips without hurting him in the least. Never had he imagined anything sweeter. More succulent.
Now he understood why people craved this. Why they were willing to die and to kill for it.
And as he breathed her in, a need came from the darkest part of his soul.
Love me …
He was desperate for her heart and he had no idea why. But whenever he was with her …
Nothing else mattered. He felt no pain.
Only her. Her smile warmed him all the way to the coldest part of his soul. And she had no idea how much power she had over him. Noir may have owned his body.
But she owned his heart and his beleaguered soul.
In her arms, he had the ability to dream again. To believe that maybe, just maybe, he wasn’t a worthless piece of shit to be used and discarded.
That maybe for once, he was worth keeping.
In that moment, he felt more exposed and vulnerable than he ever had before. Because he knew a truth he could never deny.
Lydia was the one person on this earth, above or beyond, who could destroy him with one single word.
How could he have done this to himself? He knew better than to let anyone close to him. Yet he couldn’t keep her out. She was too vital, too sweet, and the way she looked at him …
Like he mattered.
In her eyes, he saw the man he’d always wanted to be and he never wanted to disappoint her.
Lydia playfully rolled him over so that she could stare down at that gorgeous body that rippled with raw power. She kissed her way from his chest to the juiciest hipbone ever made.
But when she brushed her hand lightly against his cock, he jerked away from her and grabbed her wrist to keep her from stroking him.
That reflex caught her completely off guard. She’d never had a man do that to her before. Usually they begged to be touched.
Once again, he surprised her.
Mystified, she met his uncertain gaze.
He pulled her hand up and laid it against his chest before he finally explained. “I can perform a lot better for you if you wait until the end to hurt me there.”
She didn’t know what made her hurt the most, the sincere honesty in his voice or the expectation of pain she saw in his eyes. He spoke as if he were nothing more than a trained monkey with no other purpose than service her and go.
Her hand trembling, she brushed his curls back from his forehead. “Has no one ever made love to you?”
Scowling, he cocked his head. “Made love? I don’t know what that is.”
Of course, he didn’t. Because no one had ever touched him with a loving hand. They had used him, abused him, and then thrown him away his entire life.
But that was going to change.
She smiled up at him. “You’re about to find out, but you have to trust that I’m not going to hurt you.”
“I don’t know if I can.”
The saddest part was that she believed him. “Then I’m going to teach you.”
Seth had no idea what she meant by that until she manifested five silk scarves. She looped one about his wrist, then tied it to the bed.
Panic gripped him at her intent. “What did I do to displease you?”
She laid her head on his chest and shook it. Then she locked gazes with him so that he could see the sincerity in her eyes. “Baby, this isn’t about punishment. It’s about pleasure. Your pleasure. Trust me.”
She kept saying that.
Did he dare?
Trying to make her happy, he forced himself to submit to what she was doing even though it terrified him.
Once she had his arms and legs tied down, she hesitated. “Are you okay?”
He wasn’t sure. He hated this feeling of vulnerability. Of being at anyone’s mercy. Ever.
But he’d made her a promise.
“I think so,” he lied.
She narrowed her gaze at him as if she sensed his dishonesty. “Trust. Me. You really are going to enjoy this.” And with that she blindfolded him.
Seth held his breath as he feared what she’d do to him now that he couldn’t protect himself at all.
Until he felt her long soft hair on his chest. Ever so light, it teased his flesh like a butterfly’s kiss. His eyes rolled back in his head as she gently beat him with it. But there was no pain.
Only sweet torture.
Slowly, teasingly, she began kissing him again. First his lips, then his neck and ears. Ears that she licked and blew into until his body was on fire from it. Her naked breasts were plastered against his skin while she slid herself down his body, nibbling his flesh the whole way.
Okay, this was good.
Actually, it was far beyond good. Anytime Lydia wanted to tie him down and torture him like this, he would be her most willing slave.
Then he felt her warm breath against his cock. He tensed involuntarily.
Her fingers started dancing over the tip of him, until he was leaking from it. His breathing ragged, he bit his lip as blind pleasure consumed him. Slow and easy, she rubbed his moisture down his shaft until she played with the curls at the center of his body. Her fingernails brushed through them ever so lightly and then she slid her hand down until she cupped him in the gentlest caress he’d ever known.
Arching his back, he growled at how good it felt.
Then he felt something even better.
She took him into her mouth and tongued him until he thought he’d die from it. More than that, he heard her murmurs of pleasure. She actually enjoyed tasting him.
He couldn’t believe it.
No one had ever done that to him before. No one.
He tried to hold himself back so that he could please her in return. But she was relentless with her mouth, tongue, and hand as she licked, sucked, and stroked every inch of him.
Before he could stop it, he came.
Still, she didn’t pull away. Rather she continued to taste and please him until she’d sucked the last shudder from his sated body.
Only then did she let go of him. With a gentle hand, she slid his blindfold off and smiled. “You still alive, baby?”
He would never get used to the way endearments for him rolled off her tongue. “No, sšn.” How could he be after that?
She jerked back as if he’d slapped her. Then her eyes darkened with a fury he didn’t understand the source of. “Um … um … Seth?”
That icy tone made him extremely wary. Especially since he was still tied down and at her mercy. “Lydia?”
“Did you just call me Su-san?”
He scowled at the foreign word. “Susan? What’s that?”
Her voice was still coated with icy venom. “A woman’s name.”
“I’ve never heard of such a name.”
“Then what did you just call me a minute ago?”
It took him a minute to figure it out. “You mean sšn?”
Lydia narrowed her gaze as he said it again. And as before, it made her want to kick him because it sounded kind of like Ses-sahn—the way someone with his accent might say the name Susan or Suzanne. “Yes. Who is that?”
“Not a who. It means lily in Egyptian.”
“Lily? Really?”
He nodded.
What an odd thing to call her. “Why lily?”
“It’s the most sacred and beautiful of all flowers in Egypt. They bloom in mud and shine in the darkness like a gift from the gods to remind you that no matter how bad something is, it will get better. That no matter how dark the night, the light will come for you. If you partake of them, they have the power to calm and soothe you, and to heal your wounds.” When he spoke his next words, they were laced with emotion and sincerity. “You are, and will always be, my sšn.”
Lydia pressed her lips together as tears gathered in her eyes. Those words set her heart pounding as she realized that sšn was so much more than a random endearment that he’d tossed at her.
He’d given it thought and chosen it with purpose.
Seth writhed on the bed as if he was trying to reach her. “I didn’t mean to sadden you, Lydia. I’m sorry if I did. If you’ll untie me, I’ll please you now.”
She sniffed back her tears and offered him a shaking smile. “You haven’t made me sad. Not at all.” She moved his necklace aside so that she lick his nipple again. “This isn’t about you pleasing me. It’s about me giving you pleasure. And baby, I’m about to rock your world.”
* * *
Hours later, Seth lay on the bed with Lydia curled against him while she slept. He’d wrapped himself completely around her so that her hips pressed against his groin and her breasts rested on his arms.
All he could smell or feel was her, and it was all he wanted.
He still couldn’t believe all the incredible things she’d done to him this day.
It was …
Words failed him.
Now he was completely sated and calm in a way he’d have never thought possible. Everything was right in the world and he didn’t possess hardly a single god power.
Who would have ever thought that could happen?
He, the most feral of Guardians, the only one who had withstood the worst torture Noir could dish out, was tamed by the tiniest woman he’d ever seen.
And she hadn’t done it with beatings or insults.
She’d broken him with a single kiss.
It didn’t make a bit of sense. He’d been sold to Noir against his will and had fought that possession every day since. But he’d willingly given himself to her. Without question or regret.
Seth rubbed his cheek against her hair and smiled. This day had been the only happiness he’d ever known. And unlike her, he was afraid to close his eyes and sleep.
He was terrified that if he did, he’d awaken to find it all a dream. Or worse, have it all snatched away from him again.
Never had the gods allowed him to be happy. Why should that change now?
Suddenly, Lydia jumped up in the bed as if something had shocked her. Her breathing ragged, she reached for him and started searching his bare body.
Her actions worried him. “What are you doing?”
She clenched the necklace Ma’at had given him in her palm, and finally calmed down a degree. “Why didn’t this work?”
“I don’t understand.”
She tightened her grip on it. “Remember what your aunt said when she gave it to you? That it would protect you—and yet it didn’t. The Dream-Hunters attacked you and hurt you while you wore it.”
He pulled on the chain until she released it and it fell back on his bare chest. “But only in my dream was I hurt. The one Dream-Hunter told me before she started to stab me that I should have been harmed outside the dream, too, but I wasn’t. So maybe it did work.”
Lydia calmed down a degree as she considered that. Perhaps he was right.
And yet, she couldn’t shake the bad premonition she’d just had while she was sound asleep. It was of Seth being dragged back into Azmodea by Noir and put in a room like the one she’d found Solin in.
Over and over, she saw his abuse so clearly …
In every detail.
The last time this had happened to her, her mother had died just days later.
And in the exact manner she had foreseen.
CHAPTER 17
Lydia laughed as she watched Seth trying to figure out how to work her iPod. Only he could look that sexy with a frown so stern while wearing a set of black in-ear headphones that trailed down both sides of his head.
“This was made by a demon, too, wasn’t it?” His voice thundered in the room.
Lydia pulled out one of the earphones. “You’re talking really loud. You should always take one of these out when you speak so that you don’t accidentally shout at people.”
“Oh. Sorry.” He sighed in frustration. “I don’t get how this plays music.”
“Well, it doesn’t just play music. You can use it for all kinds of things. I have pictures in here, games, even movies.”
“What kind of pictures?”
Lydia shrugged. “I have some of my house in England.” She scrolled through her album until she found one of her living room, then she held it out to him so that he could see.
Seth studied the sedate room that was decorated in greens and yellows. It was very understated and yet also feminine. “It’s nice.”
