Wicked III, page 19
"Yo that's the first time he looked away from that TV since I got here." Cali joked, she was right Xzander hadn't even looked at Cali, he didn't speak to anyone and everybody in the room knew how distant he was from the world and he wanted it that way.
X patted his lap, and Sasha walked around to the front of the couch straddling Xzander's lap. Her arms wrapped around his neck and he went back to playing his game the moment she went back to talking. "Dave just make sure Cali is safe she ain't got no rules but keep an eye on Jessie."
"Yes ma'am." Dave responded
"Y'all can go don't call unless you have to." Sasha dismissed them before she took Xzander's face between her hands making him look at her. She had never been so clingy, she had never wanted to do everything she could to please a man but Xzander was different. She actually cared about what he thought and she wanted to be perfect for him. She didn't want to ever be away from him, and he loved it.
He was just as clingy, he had never had nobody understand him like Sasha. She knew just what he needed, she was just what he needed. Once everybody was out the house Xzander tossed his controller to the side. "Tyrone love Jessie babe, how you gone get him to just let her go easily?" X asked
"He won't ever find her."
Dave opened the door to his mansion letting Cali and Jessie in. "Make yo self at home, Chance!" Dave shouted looking for his 16 year old little brother.
"He went to Lori's house." Jessie answered, she had been staying with the two guys for two weeks. She immediately fit in, his little brother absolutely adored her. She had never felt so complete family wise. Yeah her brother and sister were all about having each other's back but never did they just all cook together, watch movies, chase each other around, they never just had fun. She did with Dave and Chance, and being here with them felt normal.
"You need to sit down get off yo feet you gone be poppin lil man out any day now." Dave places his hand on Jessie's lower back and grabbed her hand helping her over to the couch to sit down.
"Cali you mind if we start after I have the baby?" Jessie asked
"Uh uh boo you need to ask Sasha that ion got time to be on her bad side." Cali had the same southern accent as Sasha.
"You must be from Texas as well." Jessie replied.
"I'll call and ask her, you hungry or some?" Dave asked Jessie, Cali looked back and forth between the two. She could tell they liked each other. Dave couldn't stop staring and Jessie wouldn't stop blushing.
"So you gone go cook her some food or be her food?" Cali asked making them both chuckle, Dave unwillingly tore his gaze away from her and made his way into the kitchen.
"Question." Jessie said
"What?" Cali asked
"How do you know Sasha?"
"Why you bein nosey?" Cali asked side eyeing Jessie.
"I'm not stupid enough to cross her again if you thinkin like that."
"Lost my mama a year before I lost my daddy, I had nobody to take care of me and I wasn’t going to foster care, I fell in with Chug and I owed him money. He was probably about to make me one of his hoes but Sasha stepped up." Cali answered
"Really? Sasha?" Jessie asked not believing it, seeing this side of Sasha where she actually helps people other than use them for her own selfish reasons was new to Jessie.
"Yes Sasha bitch ain't that who we talkin about?"
"Cali you hungry?" Dave asked from the kitchen
"Always!" Cali replied
"The Sasha I know is completely different from the Sasha I've been shown the past month she's been here."
"She's different when she's here, I won't say nice but just not as mean. She's away from work, Kels and Jodie always hold shit down for Sasha when she's on vacation so that she can get the break she needs. Had we been back home? She would've killed you her mindset is different." Cali explained, Cali was the closest thing to a daughter Sasha was getting so Cali knew how Sasha operated. Sasha was all about tough love, you knew she loved you when she fussed at you about everything you did, she just wanted you to be good at everything you did and because Sasha was like that Cali was successful.
"Yeah she didn't kill me. Xzander wants to." Jessie mumbled looking down
"That nigga ain't even look at me he ain't say not one word to me he might kill you I can't speak for him." Cali joked making Jessie laugh.
"I've known him since we were younger, he never smiled, was never nice, he was a little nicer to my sister because he was attracted to her but he was still an asshole to her. I think I seen him smile for the first time today and I know he loves Sasha. I regret pushing Gia to fight for him I should've told her to leave and maybe I would still have my sister. Cruise was gonna get himself killed I tried talking him out of shit but it didn't work. Maybe if I was a better sister at some point in their lives they would still be alive."
"Honestly in that situation from what I know you were a good sister, you had the balls to step to Sasha to protect her. She hid things from you that you should've knew because then you would've knew how to really keep her safe. You can't help nobody without knowing the whole truth. They made the stupid decision and they plan ain't work and they got themselves killed."
"And now I'm helping y'all kill the father of my kid this life is getting to be too much it's wicked man and I want out." Jessie said
"You gotta do what you gotta do for you and your child boo ain't nothing wrong with that it's a cold world, kill or be killed." Cali shrugged.
"Yeah Sasha definitely rubbed off on you."
"I'm just sayin the nigga killed your sister be happy to do something about it."
Chapter 25
Compton, California:
"Nah nigga do you got my money or what?" Tyrone asked, somehow over this past year he had gained so much but lost so much too. Jessie wasn't in Barbados, and he was losing sleep trying to find her. He asked around but nobody saw her and he assumed Sasha and X had something to do with it but everybody he asked said that they hadn't left Sasha's mansion in Houston.
"Tyrone I-"
"You ain't gotta answer this fool Jerry." Someone said coming from an impala with a pistol out in front of them. "Man Tyrone gone with that shit we gone have yo money next week."
"I want my money this week." Tyrone said turning to look Jerry's older brother in his eyes. "You better pull that trigger cause if you don't imma kill you." Tyrone spoke truthfully, but when he heard gun shots and the man in front of him fell to the ground he seen Xzander. Same cold look on his face as he put his gun back on his waist. "Damn man you ain't tell a nigga you was coming back today."
"I'm back." X replied grabbing Jerry up by his neck.
"Okay okay X I got the money-"
"Oh now you got the money nigga?!" Tyrone asked in disbelief, Jerry's whole demeanor changed the moment Xzander stepped on the scene. Xzander didn't talk he did his dirt and cleaned up the evidence. The fact that Jerry was willingly giving into Xzander without a fight pissed him off a bit. He had worked hard this past year to get more than half the west on lock he would be ready to push Jimmy out eventually and he would run the west and after that? He would go take the South from Sasha. He was going to prepare and prepare slowly and smartly to take her down.
"In the house check in the coffee container." Jerry answered immediately.
"Yo man X kill this nigga." Tyrone instructed and Xzander pulled his gun from his waist and sent a bullet through Jerry's head without even flinching at the blood splatter on his face. "How you know I was here?" Tyrone asked as X popped his trunk stuffing Jerry in his trunk before he picked up his brother tossing him in the trunk too.
"Cash said you went to go pay Jerry a visit. I was just comin to check on you." X said, he didn't like Tyrone but Sasha asked him to protect Tyrone and help him gain more power, the way Sasha had everything set up was perfect and he wouldn't be the one to fuck anything up. "Look the way you stepped to me like you could beat my ass when I was fucked up got me lookin at you different Bruh, Imma do my job you do yours and we ain't gone have no issues I got yo back but I'm serious about Sasha. She not gone step on yo toes don't step on hers cause if you ever do? I will kill you." X said stepping to Tyrone looking him in his eyes so that he knew how serious he was.
Tyrone smiled, "Man you think I'm stupid enough to cross Sash? Man I'm good on that, imma stay in my lane. Now let's go get this money and go turn up at the house damn nigga you been gone a year wassup? You married? Kids?"
Xzander stood behind Sasha, "You look so damn good." He spoke softly resting his chin on her shoulder as they stood in the mirror.
"I love you." Sasha said looking over her shoulder at Xzander.
"I love you." He placed a kiss on her lips, she leaned over connecting their lips. She turned around wrapping her arms around his neck, as she allowed his tongue to slip inside her mouth. She unbuckled his belt pushing his pants down along with his boxers. He kicked his pants and boxers off his ankles and picked Sasha up without breaking the kiss. Her legs wrapped around his waist, she allowed her eyes to close as they made out deeply.
He carried her into the bedroom, and the moment he laid her down on the bed breaking away from the kiss he pulled her pants off. She sat up as he pulled her shirt off, he pulled her panties off. She grabbed a handful of his shirt pulling him down on the bed climbing on top of him straddling him. "I don't want you to pull out." She spoke softly against his lips.
"That's that liquor talkin or maybe the weed shit maybe both." He said chuckling
"Maybe but I trust you." She mumbled he reversed their position and she pulled his shirt off.
"Whatever you want Sasha.." he spoke softly against her lips. He slipped inside her she knew that maybe she was just living in the moment she hated how no matter what she still didn't have control over her life. She knew him not pulling out would lead them somewhere they didn't need to be, but she wanted it. Hopefully she didn't get pregnant and if she did they could cross that bridge when they got there. She yearned for more with Xzander and she couldn't have that right now.
Xzander couldn’t help but get sad all of a sudden, things were different in Barbados, he was different. Memories replaying in his mind over and over, on that trip he had experienced so many emotions he had never experienced before. It was always anger, but out there he felt everything. He and Sasha had even went through things that only Dave, and Jessie knew about…
"I'm pregnant Xzander." Sasha mumbled after the third pregnancy test.
"Them things don't be accurate-"
"Baby I took three I'm pretty sure it's accurate."
"Okay so what you wanna do? I'll do whatever you want." He said as she tossed the pregnancy test in the trash, she washed her hands as she thought about what she wanted.
"I want so badly to have this with you Xzander, I want so badly for this to be the right time for us." She started as she sighed, she turned to look at him.
"We not ready baby, ain't nothin wrong with that." He reassured her. "I'm here, if you wanna go through with this we can baby-"
"We can't I don't have it in me right now to care about you and a baby X, that's too much to protect. I'll always have to look over my shoulder I can't right now." She teared up and he pulled her into a hug. "I didn't mean to sound harsh, but we really can't do this right now. I'm not strong enough mentally to do this right now. Is that okay with you?" She asked looking up at him.
"It's okay Sash, and we gone be okay I'm here for you every step of the way." He said kissing her forehead before she rested her head on his chest.
"Thank you for understanding."
"Thank you for including me. I love you so much girl." He said hugging her tightly.
"I love you too." She responded.
All those late nights they held each other crying, they had regretted the decision immediately after but it was the right decision and they both knew it. It only brought them closer, they opened up a lot more and it was now to the point to where they had each other's trust completely. Sasha wasn't afraid to answer questions about herself when he asked and he wasn't afraid to show her his sensitive side anymore.
They kept business as business and their person lives to themselves. Sasha was the boss when it came to business and he wouldn't cross any lines but he would argue with her all day long if it were a personal matter.
"Why did you let me do that!" She screamed at him and he sighed putting his hands up as she hit him in his chest repeatedly.
She was hurt, this abortion was harder on her than she thought. She was starting to second guess everything, she was all over the place emotionally and this is not what she came out here for. She blamed Xzander and he knew it, "I love you.." was all he said as he grabbed her up in his arms holding her closely so that she wouldn't hit him anymore. "This hurtin me too Sasha don't push me away."
"I hate my life, I fuckin hate myself.." she spoke softly but he still heard her.
"Don't you ever man." He spoke sternly. "We had to do what we had to do for our safety, we couldn't guarantee this baby’s safety Sash. Don't sit here and beat us up over this! Keep yo head up baby don't let that crown fall man." He said wiping her tears.
"I thought I could but it hurts a lot worse than I thought it would." She mumbled
"For once, let it hurt let's learn how to let something hurt and deal with it together Sasha. We can do this together baby."
"Don't play with me boy my pull out game is excellent." X said making Tyrone laugh as he took the money from the coffee container. X had to get out of his head, the memories were starting to break his heart all over again.
"So you married?"
"Nah we just got to know each other." He said keeping it simple. "Wassup with you?"
"Man been lookin for Jessie. Y'all had any luck?" Tyrone asked as they exited the house.
"To be honest we wasn't even lookin but now that we back at it I'm pretty sure Sasha gone be on top of it." X lied knowing exactly where Jessie was.
"Jessie bitch don't you have that baby on my floor!" Sasha shouted
"She can't help it nigga what you gone do push the baby back in?!" Cali shouted and Jessie yelled out in pain again.
"I ain't gettin down there." X said
"Yeah me either." Dave said, Jessie's head was rested on his lap and he was using a towel to wipe the sweat from her face. He occasionally ran his fingers through her hair.
"Cali gone ahead."
"Noooo you older you go ahead." Cali said nudging Sasha toward Jessie.
"I don't even like this bitch and y'all want me to help her?" Sasha asked as she kneeled down sighing.
"Hopefully she do, you know I still love her and I wanna say my goodbyes before Sasha kill her." He spoke up sadly.
"Better ask her-"
"I was thinking maybe you could ask her?"
"When it come to Sasha and her business? Ion ask for favors for me or nobody else we not about to mix our relationship up in this shit."
"Understood bruh, I'll see you at my house in a few hours? We throwin you a welcome home party finna have a huge ass party might turn that shit into a block party." Tyrone said as Xzander opened his car door. He was known for his house parties turning into block parties
"Yeah nigga imma see you inna few." X replied before he got in his car.
"You look amazing boo." Sasha complimented Jessie.
