Wicked III, page 17
"You know why I followed you up here Sasha." He said as they walked into the bedroom. "I love you." He reminded her.
"Not today, not here I just really don't feel like it X." She admitted. "I'm tired baby and not like physically tired but like..." She sighed. "I can't explain it right now my mind is not organized like it usually is."
"That's okay baby." X spoke softly hugging her. "We can stay gone as long as you want." He added as his chin rested on top of her head. "Imma finish packing you sit down baby just walk me through everything cause you know imma just throw shit in the suit cases and call it a trip." He said making her laugh. "I love yo laugh."
She chuckled shaking her head, "And that's why I love you, you're so simple and rare Xzander. You're the first guy I've ever been this close to emotionally." She wrapped her arms around his torso and hugging him back.
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Jimmy sat across from Tyrone, the plan failed but neither of them had been exposed. Neither of them trusted each other, but they needed each other in case they did get exposed for their parts in Xzander's kidnapping.
"How I know you ain't gone kill me?" Tyrone asked
"Look I gave you your start man I wouldn't have tried to kill you if you hadn't tried to cross me. We okay now, we continue business like it is I won't cross you, you won't cross me. Deal?" Jimmy responded
"And we never tell anybody what we had to do with X. Aight?" Tyrone says and Jimmy nodded.
They shook hands, "But I will never cross Sasha again for you I won't risk everything I built like that ever again."
"Why you so scared of Sasha man?" Tyrone asked
"She killed my wife, daughters, sons, mom, cousins, and paralyzed my brother from the waist down and that was her last warning to me if I fuck up one more time it's me and while I have the man power to go to war I know I would still end up dead regardless of who won. Sasha's like a cat she always lands on her feet every single time I took a shot at her and I thought I was winning? She came back a million times harder and no man in this game had the guts to do half the shit Sasha did, not even me. She won the war, I fell in line and imma stay there you need to do the same."
"She gone slip up Jimmy and when she do I'm gone be the one to knock her off her square."
"Not with X behind her. You brought them closer and now they don't trust nobody but each other two minds is better than one this plan back fired, she’s more powerful and we just better hope they don't find out what the fuck we did or we gone be dead like them east side boys. That was the problem with them they didn't understand what the fuck they were up against so they didn't know when to stop and got they dumb asses killed, you gone do the same thing Tyrone? I taught you better than that."
"What you mean?"
"Know when to stop before you get yo dumb ass killed."
"I'm chillin man."
"Okay, and I would suggest you get back on X's good side losing him to Sasha would be bad for business."
"Alright, I'm workin on it Imma chill for now and move when the time is right."
"Good man now go make shit right and get back to makin me money." Jimmy instructed, and here Tyrone was back at square still working for someone.
Chapter 22
Compton, California:
"Kels you in charge of the south & north. Jodie the east don't tell nobody where we are got it? As far as they're concerned we're in Houston." Sasha said over the phone as her fingers played with X's curls. He’d cut his hair and his short curls made him even sexier to her, especially with his beard. They were almost to Barbados and Sasha already felt relieved. "Jru is to remain in Compton to watch over True and don't call me unless you really have to, if you had to kill somebody oh well just don't get caught and if you do don't call me."
"Alright Sasha." Both of them responded.
"Be safe boo I'm so happy for you , don't come back with child." Jodie said
"This bitch always wishin pregnancy on somebody.." Kels pushed Jodie and she smacked Kels upside the head. "I'm finna beat yo-" Sasha hung up the phone those two were always fighting she was convinced they were fucking too but that was none of her business.
"Are we there yet?" Xzander asked sitting up stretching his arms.
"Do it look like we there yet?" She asked jokingly and he flicked her off. "Whenever you want baby."
"I ain't never been outside the country." X said turning over on his back keeping his head in Sasha's lap.
"It's so peaceful outside the United States." She responded. "It almost makes me wanna leave, and just give up on everything and get a fresh start."
"So why don't you?" X asked her
"This is all I know I'm comfortable I'm okay with change just not too much change. You already got me all in love and shit no need for anything extra." She joked and he sat up his lips inches away from hers.
"I'm tellin you that's all the reason to be okay with too much change, we can leave together Sash." X said.
"You would leave too?" She asked him, she didn't mind him invading her space. Her eyes glanced down at his lips before her eyes went back to his.
"I did this because I had to if ion have to no more you damn right imma leave, imma go wherever you go Sash."
"I'll think about it." She responded, she placed a soft peck on his lips. For the first time in a while Xzander felt no need to act like he didn't care or to force his emotions out. He had trained himself to do this so well he had forgot how good it felt to love somebody other than himself.
"We gone be different people on this vacation Sash. We gone try to talk about feelings and shit you know? We gotta learn how to be healthy for each other well at least I wanna try, the life we live already fucked up we don’t need to be fucked up too.”
"Of course Xzander why do you think I wanted to leave? I've done some fucked up shit to people so I have a lot of enemies we would never get a peaceful relationship even if we tried. I could never open up to you with so much shit goin on around us."
"Alright so we gone stay gone as long as we need to, when we leave here I want us closer I wanna trust each other, I wanna know everything about you even the fucked up shit."
"You will I promise. This place I got for us is literally isolated just us for a while baby boy."
"Now before this Jet lands imma need you to ride my dick." He said making her laugh.
"You lucky your pull out game is amazing."
Sasha unlocked the door to her hidden home in Barbados that Dave gifted her with, she opened the door walking in turning the light on. "Damn.." X mumbled looking around. As he carried their suit cases in, he kicked the door closed behind him. It was a small place, instead of a wall being in the back, there were huge glass doors that took place instead. It led out onto a dock that had a few motorboats, and her Yatch.
"I love it here, I come here when I'm about to lose my mind." Sasha said as she pulled open the large sliding door stepping out onto the patio breathing in the fresh air. X left the suit cases by the bed, he stepped out onto the dock behind Sasha. His arms wrapped around her from behind and her head rested back against his chest. She felt at peace immediately, she felt safe in his arms.
“My mom had an affair and got pregnant with twins, me and my sister. She played it off like we were her husbands kids and for the longest we were a happy little family in Houston taking trips, family nights, family portraits, we were perfect and then shit changed their marriage was falling apart they argued a lot and they still put us first until my mom got so angry one day and told him that West was his only child. She tried to take it back but he got a DNA test and shit fell all the way apart from there. She left and we were stuck there with him, and West. West was an amazing big brother but when his dad started locking us in our room put bars on our windows, tied us up like animals, beat our asses like we were bitches off the street, he went from loving us for 13 years to hating us all of a sudden. My sister took it worse than I did, she started running the streets, doing any kinda drugs she could, staying gone for days at a time letting any guy fuck just to make herself feel better, she fell apart on me and the guy that got her started in that life killed her and all of a sudden I was alone. More of his anger directed towards me I was so fuckin angry with her at first but she was only 16 tryina figure out where the fuck to run to, she left me all alone and that's when I didn't care too much about anything anymore."
"You're a twin?" X asked and she nodded.
"Nobody knows but you and West."
"So what was the anger directed to West for the other day?"
"His dad would starve me and feed them, beat my ass and West would just walk out the room or leave, I would beg West to help me when his dad would leave and he would shrug me off but he was scared too and I understood that part but I loved him because he was my brother and if anybody were hurting him I would've helped him even if that meant I was getting hurt in the process. I was just trying to understand why this family I cared so much about once just turned on me and I figured shit since they could do it I could too. Left home at 16, I did a lot of things I'm not proud of. I just wanted revenge on anybody who degraded my sister. The things I’ve seen and heard done to her filled me with so much hate. I wanted revenge & I started getting it. Then Dave came along…” She slightly smiled. While she wasn’t in love with Dave she did love him deeply, but she was in love with X.
“You had something with him or something?”
“Almost? He was and still is somebody important to me. He taught me almost everything I know and then supported me every step of the way. We knew we were better off as friends, but the attraction there was always hard to deny, he loved me so much no matter what I said to him. He convinced me to use my power to help and I did. All that revenge and hate turned into just wanting the next little girl to never have to endure what Sabrina endured or what I endured. Some will say I slept my way to the top, I say niggas are weak for a good piece of pussy.”
"So you just know pussy is a nigga weakness and use it?" X joked
"Niggas underestimate women, I keep telling them these bitches can't be trusted either because I was once bitches." She said laughing making him laugh too. "I can admit I slept my way to the top but men tore me down my whole life and while everybody made you seem like some kind of monster who abused women you were the first man to be okay with just standing behind me, every other man wanted what I had, couldn’t handle me emotionally or thought they could take something from me. Everybody made it seem like I was a monster but nobody talks about what they do to me to make me react that way, if people left me alone I wouldn't have to do fucked up shit to make sure I was safe."
"You gone always be safe with me Sasha." He reassured her.
"I know I trust you X." She admitted. "I trust you." She repeated more so to herself letting out a deep breath. It felt foreign coming out of her mouth but she was okay everything was okay with Xzander. "I killed West's dad in front of him, I killed Antonio Medici, I killed Chug, Prez, his family, Jimmy and his family too. I got so much blood on my hands I think everybody is out to get me. West for starters and I don't trust Cash, but he hasn't did anything to prove he wasn't cool. Tyrone he was always cool and then he found out about Jessie and something in him changed. I love him still though, I just don't trust him right now either and you shouldn't trust none of them either."
"I don't Sash. Never trusted anybody I made money with." X responded. "So why did you really move to LA?"
"I run the south, I shouldn't live there everybody knows where to come lookin for me. Their thrown off by me living in California, Houston is my safe space, no need to have it under attack all the time. I’m used to living in warm weather, so why not California?”
"And you never found your mom?"
"Never cared to she ain't give a fuck about me ion give a fuck about her." Sasha shrugged.
Sasha talked all night they had ended up cuddling on the hammock as she vented. Xzander listened and let her talk, he heard everything she said from wanting to leave and maybe have a family. She didn't think she was capable of being a good mother. He just listened and held her close to him the whole night, X was always quiet but Sasha usually was too but he loved how open she was being.
They'd went from outside to showering, and after their shower they'd decided to roll blunts and drink a bottle of Hennessy. They cuddled in bed and passed blunts back and forth, "How many kids would you want?" Sasha asked X.
"Uh two." He said. "But I don't think I'm capable of lovin my kids any better than my pops loved me either. I'm useless as a parent honestly." He admitted
"So let's get a puppy." She said straddling him as he passed her he blunt. They were on their 4th one and half way through the bottle of Hennessy.
"A puppy?" X asked releasing smoke from his mouth watching her puff the blunt.
"Yes perfect practice and dogs stay alive for what like 10 years?" She asked
"13, you wanna have a kid in 13 years?" X asked, he was only 20 and she was 22.
"Something like that? If we're in a good position I would give this shit away easily and move somewhere else so we could."
"And who would you give it to?"
"I got someone in mind she just turned 21 and I want her to finish school right now and she hasn't been tested yet I haven't found the right one for her yet. I'm still getting her." Sasha said puffing the blunt again.
"Look at you hiding people everywhere."
"Always I have people everywhere, even out here. Nobody can enter the perimeter without getting shot in the head immediately. I know owners of the grocery stores, I have connections and I never use them ever. The people out here appreciate real when they see it."
There was a knock on the door, "Didn't we leave Cali so we could be left alone?" Xzander asked as she got off of him passing him the blunt. She made her way to the front door opening it.
"I heard you was in town I got some news you might wanna hear." Dave said leaning against her door frame he had an AR hanging from his shoulder, he was always watching Sasha's back when she stepped into his town. No harm would ever be brought to her and he tortured anybody that tried it. David went by Dave he was born here but raised in New York and came back here to live as soon as he turned 18.
"I'm on vacation."
"I heard you was lookin for Jessie."
"Yeah and?"
"She's here." He said with a smirk, and all of a sudden this vacation wasn't a vacation anymore.
Chapter 23
Porter, Barbados:
"Dave this is my boyfriend X, X this is Dave he's cool he protects this land he runs the islands." Sasha explained
"Wassup man." Dave stuck his hand out. "I heard a lot about you, it's nice to finally meet you."
"I'm good on the handshakes man, I'm not here gone ahead and talk business." X said turning the TV on.
"I can have her picked up and dropped off." Dave said reverting his attention to Sasha.
"No Kels got it." Sasha responded. "Just keep an eye on her, I'm drunk and high right now and I am on vacation so imma let her handle it."
"Alright have her call me when she get here." Dave said, before he let himself out the house.
"You know how to act?" Sasha asked Xzander.
"I'm a man of many talents baby." He responded
"Good I got a plan we can talk about tomorrow." She climbed back in the bed and he passed her the blunt.
"You so damn pretty." He said staring over at her, she couldn't help but smile. He didn't care about her past, he wouldn't hold her accountable for anything that happened before him. Everything she was afraid of didn't happen, he still looked at her the same, loved her the same, wanted her the same way. She knew his love was real after he heard how she got to the top. X sat up on his elbow he reached over grabbing Sasha by her neck.
