Works of Ellen Wood, page 1075
The church stood on the right between Timberdale Court and the village. A regular mob of children seemed to be pressing round the gate of the churchyard. I went to look, leaving Mrs. Coney standing.
Charles Ashton was coming out of the church in his surplice, and the clerk, old Sam Mullet, behind him, carrying a little coffin. The grave was in the corner of the burial-ground, and Mr. Ashton went straight to it, and continued the service begun in the church. If it had been a lord’s child, he could not have done it all in better order.
But there were no mourners, unless old Mullet could be called one. He put the coffin on the grass, and was in a frightful temper. I took off my hat and waited: it would have looked so to run away when there was no one else to stand there: and Mrs. Coney’s face, as cross as old Mullet’s, might be seen peering through the hedge.
“It’s come to a pretty pass, when tramps’ brats have to be put in the ground like honest folks’s,” grunted Sam, when Mr. Ashton had walked away, and he began to fling in the spadefuls of earth. “What must he needs go and baptize that there young atom for? — he ain’t our parson; he don’t belong to we in this parish. I dun-no what the world be a-coming to.”
Mr. Ashton was talking to Mrs. Coney when I got up. I told him what a way Sam Mullet was in.
“Yes,” said he. “I believe what I did has not given satisfaction in all quarters; so I waited to take the service myself, and save other people trouble.”
“In what name is the dead child registered, Charles?” asked Mrs. Coney.
“Lucy Bird.”
“Lucy Bird! Bird?”
“It was the name the mother gave me in one of her lucid intervals,” answered the clergyman, shortly.
He hastened away, saying he must catch a train, for that his own parish was wanting him; but I fancied he did not care to be further questioned. Mrs. Coney stood still to stare after him, and would have liked to ask him how much and how little he knew.
Lucy Bird! It did sound strange to hear the name — as if it were the real Lucy Bird we knew so well. I said so to Mrs. Coney.
“The impudence of the woman must pass all belief,” she muttered to herself. “Let us get on, Johnny? I would rather run a mile any other way than go to see her.”
Leaving me on the wooden bench outside Jael Batty’s door, she went in. It was remarkably lively: the farrier’s shop opposite to look at, five hay-ricks, and a heap of children who strolled after us from the churchyard, and stayed to stare at me. Mrs. Coney came out again soon.
“It’s of no use my remaining, Johnny. She can’t understand a word said to her, only lies there rambling, and asking people to bring her baby. If she had any sense left in her, she might just go down on her knees in thankfulness that it’s gone. Jael Batty says she has done nothing else but wail for it all the blessed morning.”
“Well, it is only natural she should.”
“Natural! Natural to mourn for that baby! Don’t you say stupid things, Johnny. It’s a great mercy that it has been taken; and you must know that as well as any one.”
“I don’t say it isn’t; babies must make no end of noise and work; but you see mothers care for them.”
“Don’t be a simpleton, Johnny. If you take to upholding tramps and infants dying in sheds, goodness knows what you’ll come to in time.”
At the end of a fortnight, Ashton of Timberdale and his wife came home. It was a fine afternoon in the middle of January, but getting dusk, and a lot of us had gone over to the Court to see them arrive. Jane looked as happy as a queen.
“Johnny,” she whispered, whilst we were standing to take some tea that Mother Broom (with a white cockade in her cap) brought in upon a silver tray, “how about that poor woman? She is not dead, I hope?”
I told Jane that she was better. The fever had gone down, but she was so weak and reduced that the doctor had not allowed her to be questioned. We knew no more of who she was than we had known before. Mrs. Coney overheard what I was saying, and took Jane aside.
There seemed to be a bit of a battle: Mrs. Coney remonstrating with a severe face, Jane holding out and flushing a little. She was telling Jane not to go to Jael Batty’s, and representing why she ought not to go. Jane said she must go — her heart was set upon it: and began to re-tie her bonnet-strings.
“Mother dear, don’t be angry with me in this the first hour of entering on my new home — it would seem like a bad omen for me. You don’t know how strongly I have grown to think that my duty lies in seeing this poor woman, in comforting her if I can. It cannot hurt me.”
“What do you suppose Robert would say? It is to him you owe obedience now, Jane, not to me.”
“To him first, and to you next, my mother; and I trust I shall ever yield it to you both. But Robert is quite willing that I should go: he knows all I think about it.”
“Jane, I wouldn’t have said a word against it; indeed I had made up my mind that it was a good wish on your part; but now that we have discovered she is in some way connected with — with the Birds — why, I don’t think Robert will like you to meddle with it. I’m sure I shrink from telling him.”
Jane Coney — Ashton I mean: one can’t get out of old names all at once — looked down in distress, thinking of the pain it would cause her husband for his sister’s sake. Then she took her mother’s hand.
“Tell Robert what you have told me, mamma. He will still let me go, I think; for he knows how much I wish it.”
They had their conference away from us; Mrs. Coney, Robert Ashton, and Jane. Of course he was frightfully put out; but Jane was right — he said she should go all the same. Mrs. Coney shut her lips tight, and made no further comment.
“I promised her, you see, Mrs. Coney,” he urged. “She has an idea in her head that — I’m sure I scarcely know what it is, except that her going is connected with Gratitude and Duty, and — and Heaven’s blessing. Why, do you know we might have stayed away another week, but for this? I could have spared it; but she would come home.”
“I never knew Jane take a thing up like this before,” said Mrs. Coney.
“Any way, I suppose it is I who shall have to deal with it — for the sake of keeping it from Lucy,” was Robert’s answer. “I wish with all my heart Bird had been at the bottom of the sea before his ill-omened steps brought him to Timberdale! There’s not, as I believe, another such scamp in the world.”
Jane waited for nothing else. Shielded by the dusk of the evening, she went hastening to Jael Batty’s and back again.
“I’ll go down for her presently,” said Robert. But she was back again before he started.
“I came back at once to set the misapprehension right,” said Jane, her eyes bright with eagerness, her cheeks glowing. “Mother dear — Robert — Johnny — listen, all of you: that poor sick woman is George Bird’s sister.”
“Jane!”
“Indeed she is. Captain Bird used to talk to Lucy of his little sister Clara — I have heard you say so, Robert — in the old days when he first came here. It is she who is lying at Jael Batty’s — Clara Bird.”
The company sat down like so many lambs, Mrs. Coney’s mouth and eyes alike opening. It sounded wonderful.
“But — Jane, child — there was still the baby!”
“Well — yes — I’m afraid so,” replied Jane, in an uncomfortable hurry. “I did not like to ask her about that, she cries so. But she is Clara Bird; Captain Bird’s sister, and Lucy’s too.”
“Well, I never!” cried Mrs. Coney, rubbing her face. “Poor misguided young thing — left to the guardianship of such a man as that, he let her go her own way, no doubt. This accounts for what Broom heard her say in the fever— ‘George, you should have taken care of me.’”
“Is she being taken care of now in her sickness, down at Jael Batty’s?” spoke up Robert.
“Yes. For Jael, though three-parts deaf, is a kind and excellent nurse.”
Robert Ashton wrote that night to Worcester; a sharp letter; bidding Captain Bird come over and see to his sister. The poor thing took to Jane wonderfully, and told her more than she’d have told any one else.
“I am twenty,” she said, “and George is six-and-thirty; there is all that difference between us. Our father and mother were dead, and I lived with my aunt in Gloucestershire: where George lived, I did not know. He had been adopted by a wealthy relative in London, and went into the army. My mother had been a lady, but married beneath her, and it was her family who took to George and brought him up a gentleman. Mine was a hard, dull life. My aunt — she was my father’s sister — counted ever-so-many children, and I had to nurse and see to them. Her husband was a master plumber and glazier. One day — it is fifteen months ago now — I shall never forget it — my brother George arrived. I did not know him: I had not seen him since I was thirteen, and then he was a fine handsome gentleman in an officer’s regimentals. He was rather shabby now, and he had come to see if he could borrow money, but my aunt’s husband would not lend him any; he told him he had much ado to keep his own family. I cried a good deal, and George said he would take me to London to his wife. I think he did it to spite them, because of their not lending the money, as much as to please me — he saw that I should be a loss there. We went up — and oh how nice I thought his wife! She was a kind, gentle lady, formerly Miss Lucy Ashton; but nearly always ailing, and afraid of George. George had gay acquaintances, men and women, and he let me go to theatres and balls with them. Lucy said it was wrong, that they were not nice friends for me; but I grew to like the gaiety, and she could do nothing. One night, upon going home from church, I found both George and Lucy gone from the lodgings. I had been spending the Sunday with some people they knew, the quietest of all their friends. There lay a note on the table from Lucy, saying they were obliged to leave London unexpectedly, and begging me to go at once — on the morrow — back to Gloucestershire, for which she enclosed a sovereign. I did not go: one invited me, and another invited me, and it was two months, good, before I went down. Ah me! I heard no more of George; he had got into some trouble in London, and was afraid to let it be known where he was. I have never heard of him or his wife to this hour. My aunt was glad to see me for the help I should be to her; but I felt ill always and could not do so much as I used. I didn’t know what ailed me; I didn’t indeed; I did not think it could be much; and then, when the time went on and it all happened, and they knew, and I knew, I came away with the baby because of the reproach and the shame. But George ought not to have left me to myself in London.”
And when Jane Ashton repeated all this to Robert, he said Bird deserved to be hanged and quartered.
There came no answer from Captain Bird. Perhaps Ashton of Timberdale did not really expect any would come.
But on the Sunday afternoon, from the train that passed Timberdale from Worcester about the time folks came out of church, there descended a poor, weak woman (looking like a girl too) in a worn shawl that was too thin for the weather. She waited until the roads should be clear, as if not wanting to be seen, and then wrapped the shawl close around her arms and went out with her black veil down. It was Lucy Bird. And she was so pretty still, in spite of the wan thin cheeks and the faded clothes! There were two ways of getting to Jael Batty’s from the station. She took the long and obscure one, and in turning the corner of the lane between the church and Timberdale Court, she met Robert Ashton.
But for her own movement, he might never have noticed her. It was growing dusk; and when she saw him coming, she turned sharp off to a stile and stood as if looking for something in the field. There’s not much to stare at in a ploughed field at dusk, as Ashton of Timberdale knew, and he naturally looked at the person who had gone so fast to do it. Something in the cut of the shoulders struck him as being familiar, and he stopped.
“Lucy! Is it you?”
Of course it was no use her saying it was not. She burst into tears, trembling and shaking. Robert passed round her his good strong arm. He guessed what had brought her to Timberdale.
“Lucy, my dear, have you come over from Worcester?”
“Yes,” she sobbed. “I shall be better in a minute, Robert. I am a little tired, and the train shook me.”
“You should have sent me word, and I would have had a fly at the station.”
Sent him word! It was good of Robert to pretend to say that; but he knew that she wouldn’t have presumed to do it. It was that feeling on Lucy’s part that vexed him so much. Since Bird had turned out the villain that he had, Lucy acted, even to her own family, as though she had lost caste, identifying herself with her husband, and humbling herself to them. What though she was part and parcel with the fellow, as Robert said, she was not responsible for his ill-doings.
“Lean on me, Lucy. You must have a good rest.”
“Not that way,” she said at the bottom of the lane, as he was turning to the Court. “I am going to Jael Batty’s.”
“When you have had some rest and refreshment at home.”
“I cannot go to your home, Robert.”
“Indeed but you can; and will,” he answered, leading her on.
“I would rather not. Your wife may not care to receive me.”
“Come and try her.”
“Robert, I am not fit to see any one: I am not indeed. My spirits are low now, and I often burst into tears for nothing. I have been praying, all the way over, not to meet you. After what was done to you at our house but a week or two ago, I did not expect ever to have been noticed by you again. Jane must hate me.”
“Does she! Jane and I have been concocting a charming little plot about you, Lucy. We are going to have your old room made ready, and the sweet-scented lavender sheets put on the bed, and get you over to us. For good, if you will stop; long enough to recruit your health if you will not. Don’t you remember how you used to talk in the holidays about the home sheets; saying you only got them smelling of soap at school?”
A faint smile, like a shade, flitted over Lucy Bird’s face at the reminiscence.
“I should not know the feel of fine white linen sheets now: coarse calico ones have had to content me this many a day. Let me turn, Robert! For my own sake, I would rather not meet your wife. You cannot know how I feel about seeing old friends; those who — who — —”
Those who once knew me, she meant to say; but broke down with a sob. Robert kept walking on. Lucy was a great deal younger than he, and had been used to yield to him from the time she was a child. Well for her would it have been, that she had yielded to his opinion when Captain Bird came a-courting to Timberdale.
“You have company at your house, perhaps, Robert?”
“There’s not a soul but Jane and me. The Coneys asked us to dine there to-day, but we thought we’d have the first Sunday to ourselves. We went to church this morning; and I came out after dinner to ask after old Arkwright: they fear he is dying.”
She made no further opposition, and Robert took her into the Court, to the warm dining-room. Jane was not there. Robert put her into the arm-chair that used to be their father’s, and brought her a glass of wine.
“No, thank you,” she faintly said.
“You must take it, Lucy.”
“I am afraid. My head is weak.”
“A sign you want something good to strengthen it,” he urged; and she drank the wine.
“And now take off your bonnet, Lucy, and make yourself at home, whilst I go to seek Jane,” said he.
“Lucy is here,” he whispered, when he had found his wife. “The merest shadow you ever saw. A wan, faded thing that one’s heart bleeds to look upon. We must try and keep her for a bit, Jane.”
“Oh, Robert, if we can! And nurse her into health.”
“And deliver her from that brute she calls husband — as I should prefer to put it, Jane. Her life with him must be something woeful.”
When they got in, she was leaning forward in the chair, crying silently. In the clear old room, with all its familiar features about her, memory could only have its most painful sway. Her grand old father with his grand old white hair used to sit where she was sitting; her brothers had each his appointed place; and she was a lovely bright child amongst them, petted by all; the sentimental girl with her head as brimful of romance as ever the other Lucy Ashton’s had been, when she went out to her trysts with the Master of Ravenswood. Which had been the more bitter fate in after-life — that Lucy’s or this one’s?
Mrs. Ashton went quietly up, put her arms round Lucy, and kissed her many times. She untied the bonnet, which Lucy had not done, and gave it with the shawl to Robert, standing behind. The bright hair fell down in a shower — the bonnet had caught it — and she put her feeble hand up as if to feel the extent of the disaster. It made her look so like the sweet young sister they had all prized, that Robert turned to the window and gave a few stamps, as if his boots were cold.
How she cried! — tears that came from the very heart. Putting her face down on the arm of the chair, she let her grief have its way. Jane held her hand and stroked it lovingly. Robert felt inclined to dash his arms through the dark window-panes on which the fire-light played, in imaginary chastisement of the scamp, Bird.
“Could you lend me a shawl of your own, Jane?” she asked, by-and-by, when Robert said they would have tea in — and she glanced down at her shabby brown gown. “I don’t wish the servants to see me like this.”
Jane flew out and brought one. A handsome cashmere of scarlet and gold-colour, that her mother had given her before the wedding.
“Just for an hour or two, until I leave,” said Lucy, as she covered herself up in it.
“You will not go out of this house to-night, Lucy.”
“I must, Robert. You can guess who it was I came to Timberdale to see.”
“Of course I can. She is going on all right and getting stronger; so there’s no immediate haste about that. Mr. Bird would not — not come, I suppose.”
Lucy did not answer. Robert was right — Bird would not come: his young sister might die where she was or be sheltered in the workhouse, for all the concern he gave himself. For one thing, the man was at his wits’ end for money, and not too sure of his own liberty. But Lucy’s conscience had not let her be still: as soon as she had scraped together the means for a third-class ticket, she came over.
