Ruffled Feathers, page 1
RUFFLED FEATHERS
BY THE SAME AUTHOR
Artist, Undone
Virgin Gingelly
The Third Squad
A Tamil Month
RUFFLED FEATHERS
Stories
V. SANJAY KUMAR
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CONTENTS
1 The Forecaddie
2 The Magic Door
3 The Writer
4 The Scarecrow
5 Forbidden
6 The Accountant
7 Penalty
8 Grooming Asok
9 Long in the Tooth
10 Acid
11 Old Vine Zinfandel
12 Looking for a God
Acknowledgements
About the Author
THE FORECADDIE
‘Will you ever buy a house?’ asked his friend Mano.
Yuva saw stars. ‘No,’ he said.
‘There is one for sale—cheap. My neighbour, the driver, needs money for an operation.’
Yuva thought about it. ‘How much? Actually, don’t tell me. I might kill someone. Or sell a kidney.’
‘Nobody will buy your kidney,’ said Mano.
‘We will see. How much?’
‘Ten lakh. Cash. It has a toilet.’
A private toilet was worth something. ‘I don’t have the money,’ said Yuva. ‘I have never seen ten lakh rupees in my life.’
‘Why don’t you rob a bank?’ said Mano.
Yuva thought about it. There was a big bank next to the jewellery store. People came in Mercedes cars and bought diamond necklaces for ₹2–3 lakh. Cash. Every day the store sent sackfuls of notes to that bank. Yuva imagined the heist. The guard would be seated outside with his big antique rifle. There would be a few customers, old men and women who still visited the bank. And some middle-class wimps who served as bank officers. All Mano and Yuva had to do was wear masks, knock the guard down and threaten people. Nobody inside would be brave enough to resist.
His stomach made a noise. When things were really quiet, Yuva could hear it. It had a mind of its own, and near McRennett’s pastry shop, it growled. The smell of fresh baking came through the door. His insides contracted. A man walked past carrying hot buns in a brown paper bag, the butter stains showing.
‘Go in first,’ he told Mano. ‘I will follow.’
He walked in behind him. The place was cool, and the smell was heavenly. Yuva asked the salesgirl the price of a few items. He pretended he couldn’t make up his mind. Mano hated this charade. He pulled at Yuva’s sleeve. ‘Let’s go, machan,’ he said. The salesgirl smiled at Yuva. She reached into the counter, pulled out a fresh cream pastry and offered it to him. ‘Take it,’ she said. It was soft and it had a white creamy layer on which were two juicy pieces of pineapple and one red cherry. His stomach lurched as he held it. Outside, he took a big bite and gave the rest to his friend. The fresh cream melted in his mouth. The pineapple had been dipped in sugar syrup. He licked his lips.
How did she know? How did she guess he had no money? Was it obvious?
‘She likes me,’ he told Mano.
‘Machan,’ said Mano, ‘you look hungry.’
‘She felt sorry for me?’
‘Yes,’ said Mano. ‘You are lucky you look hungry.’
He felt hungry all the time. His mother said it was because he was growing. He knew it wasn’t just about food.
The first time they stole, it was a packet of chips from a store. Yuva refused to open it. The next day he wanted to return it. ‘Don’t,’ said Mano. A day later the packet was still there. They ripped it open and ate the chips, one by one. ‘You shouldn’t think so much,’ said Mano. Yuva stopped thinking. He flicked pencils and pens in the Corporation School. He left his old slippers outside a temple and wore someone else’s. He stole savouries as he walked past street vendors and burnt his fingers once. A couple of times he had to run. He was fast and he knew the city well. Once, he ducked into a house while being chased and in a split second he straightened, walked slowly up to the door, picked up a milk packet from the floor, bit its corner, drank it and left.
‘We have to stop looking like rowdies,’ said Mano. ‘Otherwise, we will get caught. The police will take one look at us and put us in the lock-up.’
‘How?’ asked Yuva. ‘Should we steal some clothes?’
‘Look at yourself,’ said Mano. They stood beside a car, bent and looked at themselves in the side mirror.
‘What’s wrong?’
‘Your face is pinched, your cheeks are hollow and your eyes.’
‘What about my eyes?’
‘You look like you just ran away from a Home.’
Yuva used his fingers to brush and flatten his hair. He widened his eyes and stuck his tongue out. ‘What should we do?’
‘Eat properly for ten days. Our look will improve.’
A week later they went to a pavement shop, the kind that popped up unexpectedly and shut before the constabulary arrived. The vendor spread his wares, set up a board that declared a cut-price, and a crowd gathered in no time. Yuva picked up a showy shirt. ‘No,’ said Mano.
‘Not that belt,’ said his friend. Yuva put back the shiny belt.
‘Here, wear these glasses.’ They had clear lenses. ‘Glasses make you look honest,’ said Mano.
‘Why?’
‘Because thieves don’t wear spectacles.’
That evening they wore their new clothes and went mad.
‘Gana, gana, gana,’ shouted Mano, shaking his hips. He was twisting into a rope, and he was leaping the length of the room. The Tamil song was on speaker and it went thud, thud, thud. ‘Yuvan Shankar Raja,’ said Mano, shouting out the name of their favourite music composer. Yuva got started. He could dance. Parts of his body that did nothing for a week came alive. He shifted from toe to toe and soon his hands were moving, his eyes slanted, his knee bent stylishly.
‘Thalaiva,’ shouted Mano, ‘what a pose!’
Yuva pumped his shoulders, fluidly skated to the wall and halted. ‘Dai Michael,’ he yelled, turned once, twice and twirled the hat on his head. Thump, thump, thump.
‘Go, go, go,’ said his friend.
They had been drinking. Yuva danced harder, beating himself with his hands, throwing his head from side to side. He saw stars. The music kept playing and he couldn’t stop. He was sweating profusely, and he felt thirsty. He drank more beer. The angels came, soft, white and fluffy. They settled into his arms. ‘Machan, can you see them?’ he said. The song slowed; the beat petered out. A ballad began to a slow rhythm. His horny friend hugged him, thrusting his bony hips into Yuva’s back. They fell on their backs, exhausted.
Yuva remembered his first possessions. His first golf ball had no maker’s name because it had been erased by use. It was egg-shell white many months ago, now its colour was mud. His first golf club was a broken five iron that he had repaired. Its grip was hard, and his fingers had blisters for a month.
The Gymkhana was his home course. He had grown up in it as a forecaddie. During practice sessions, players stood in a line and teed off, shouting fore. Yuva and his young friends ran holding their heads, picked up the balls and placed them in buckets. He liked going on rounds as a forecaddie. The Gymkhana was a links course with evil rough, tall, unkempt grass where balls could easily get lost. Yuva stood a hundred yards ahead of the players and tracked where the ball went. Golfers employed a forecaddie because the cost was lower than the cost of a new golf ball. A lost ball also meant a penalty, and on occasion a penalty meant a lost bet.
Yuva had started at the age of five. He ran fast during practice and kept his eyes peeled. If a ball went missing, he got cuffed behind the ear by the caddie master. Those days he had one proper pair of shorts tied to his waist by a thin rope. He had a T-shirt that was big for him. All his shirts were bigger than him till he was in his teens. They wore sponsor logos and were made of synthetic material. They were hand-me-downs from playe
Some afternoons, in summer, the course was empty, and no one was around to stop him and his three friends from entering the place. They carried a club each and some old balls. He had his trusty five iron. He played the entire course with one club, putting with it as well. He learnt the game without caring for style or technique. He had an athletic, free-flowing swing. His ball flight was long, and he could chip the ball in ten different ways. He learnt how to read greens. The big slope and the small slopes. The grain of the grass. The way it had been cut.
His father was a senior caddie. He would mimic the players he had caddied for. He would mimic their English. ‘Golf teaches you how to be honest,’ he said, with a straight face. He would laugh uproariously and then very solemnly he would say in Tamil, ‘But God teaches you how to make a living.’
Yuva learnt to help out players. He learnt how to improve the lie of the ball so that it could be hit better. He could do this with his feet. His toes curled around the ball and moved it. He would place the ball on a tuft of grass or a patch of upraised soil. In the tall grass called rough, he learnt how to shift the ball into shorter grass. He would pretend to search even after finding the ball. He would place the ball where it could be hit easily, move away, then come back and shout as if he had just found it. He learnt to walk with the ball in his toes. He walked many a yard with it, and old players began to brag about how long they were hitting the ball. With him as the caddie, the members scored better. He received fat tips.
His mother was extremely unhappy when he followed his father to the golf course. She shouted at both of them.
‘Don’t you have any dreams?’ she asked Yuva.
‘Only dreams,’ he said.
He was so young nothing could be better than going with his old man to this huge, open playground where he could run around on green grass with his friends, and occasionally play a game for free.
‘Your son will become a jobless drunk, just like you,’ shouted his mother. Old Man stood in the doorway, his cap in his hand, his teeth showing. He had a wicked grin. He was past caring about anything, least of all his son. His wife hated that he was on retainer because it made him lazy and he carried the bag just three times a week and refused to do so on other days. She hated that he got a lump sum every month because he ran out of money in the middle and ate into her earnings.
‘Go and stand in line with the rest of them every morning and carry the bag.’
‘No,’ he said. ‘I am tired of running after cars, tired of bribing the caddie master, and bloody tired of fighting for tips.’
‘Why? You think you are superior to the rest? Know your place. You are a daily wage earner. You have no pension. I won’t be around to take care of you when your liver says get lost.’
Old Man was the caddie for Big Man. Big Man was an addict who spent big money on golf. He bought a home in the hills in Kodaikanal next to the golf course. He travelled to exotic locations to scenic courses with his friends. He bought the latest clubs when they hit the market. And he engaged the best coaches to improve his game. Big Man was a poor player, a hacker, who moved heaven and mostly earth in his earnest attempts to be a good golfer. Large chunks of soil got thrown about when he played, and after he finished a round in Kodaikanal, it seemed the bison had invaded the course again and left their hoofmarks in the fairways.
He played thrice a week, alone if he had to. Single ball, it was called. A bird, a view of the setting sun, a tree in bloom, soft grass under his feet, a cross breeze, a dog at rest in a sand bunker, these were things that evoked feelings in him. Was nature the only reason he spent five hours sweating and burning up in the heat that Chennai produced every day?
‘It is a game of half-truths,’ he said when asked. ‘I feel this is what brings people in and keeps them hooked.’
The whole truth, like a tournament prize, eluded him.
‘You chase a small ball through hill and dale, rough and fairway, sand and grass, over water, under trees. You shape your shots, sometimes inadvertently.’ He remembered fondly a high fade over branches onto a hidden flag. How could he forget that sudden low draw around a tree that hit the flag and went into the hole?
‘You are called an amateur because that is an honourable status, not a comment on your ability,’ said his uncle. ‘The correct term for you is hacker.’ His uncle was a good player, a scratch golfer in his heyday, and a stickler for rules.
Big Man was hurt. He joined a gym and worked on his core, hoping it would improve his game. The hacking continued.
‘It is a mental game,’ said his uncle.
Old golfers like his uncle were a pain. They were full of pithy statements and horny jokes. They were rule-bound, waiting to pounce on newcomers who hadn’t memorised the Royal and Ancient’s bible.
‘We are a necessary curse,’ said his uncle, ‘because most newcomers are illiterate and uncouth.’
Big Man tolerated his uncle because the latter had helped in getting him a membership. He remembered standing in the bar waiting for his admission interview. He was wearing a suit. The trousers were tight because he sat on his arse longer than he should. He was nervous. He wasn’t sure he had survived the test round. Despite having played the game for many months he could not play a round of 18 or under. His uncle had played with him on his test round and marked his card.
‘Years of study have done me no good,’ he told his uncle, after the round. ‘I have studied the game. I have studied my swing. And I have learnt the rules.’
‘And?’
‘Truth is life sucks.’
His honesty struck a chord. There could be no other reason for his uncle giving him a leg-up in the committee meeting.
Yuva grew into his old man’s sandals, became a full caddie, got a retainer from Big Man, and most evenings he drank himself into a stupor.
‘The cheapest liquor is the best. I don’t care how it is packed, what the bottle looks like, how it is poured and whether I am seated or standing. Usually, I am standing.’
It was a busy place, there were two-wheelers and cycles, people wearing helmets, the road smelling of piss. There was a concrete counter and booze was slapped down on it, money appearing from inside shorts which were inside veshtis, the notes grubby and wet. The shopkeeper was old and behaved like he was doing Yuva a favour.
‘I am a regular and he does not recognise me.’
A half cut lemon turned its face, its two eyes were seeds. Salt was on the counter, a little wet, still good enough. Nearby was the sound of frying. Potatoes, banana fritters, aubergine slices, tomatoes. Red-brown coated, carrying the latest headline from the newspaper they were served in. Everybody was smoking. The labourers smoked unfiltered beedis, the office-goers smoked cigarettes.
‘What happened to your father?’ asked the shopkeeper, out of the blue.
‘He died,’ said Yuva, startled that the shopkeeper knew who he was all along.
Old Man had a large and forgiving liver that soaked the booze and his kidneys worked overtime and they chugged along for three decades till one small ulcer built up, gradually, into an abscess. The day it burst, the bleed could not be stemmed. Nobody was around to help him as his wife was woman enough to have dumped him. Old Man called Yuva, but by the time he arrived, his father had croaked. He left nothing behind by way of money or possessions. Whatever was of value was inside a safe in a pawnbroker’s shop. Yuva went there looking to retrieve the stuff but was chased away.
Yuva was at his worst behaviour on the days Big Man did not play. Like his father, he refused to stand in line with the daily wage earners and carry the bag for someone else. The daily wage business was stressful. Some days you got stuck with badly behaved golfers who cursed the caddie for every mishap. Some days you were allotted the misers that most caddies avoided. Some days you rushed with the others to every car that came, and others got chosen. Each time you returned to the group, you either cursed or pretended to be crestfallen so others could laugh. Yuva and Mano, the ones with monthly retainers, would arrive just to watch. They would chat with the rest, crack some jokes and while away the morning.
Early afternoon was booze time. There would be standing space next to a six feet by six feet opening in the wall. A board hung by a nail and a couple of letters had erased themselves. What remained was ASMA BAR. T and C were missing from TASMAC.
