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Aaron shakes his head. “It looked open and shut.”
“Ironic. That was the only one I was sweating because I forgot to wipe the glass I put the fentanyl in. I was good about wiping down every other scene and rubbing out footprints. It also helped that I wore the club high heels. It’s amazing how my own boyfriend didn’t recognize the flat smoothness of high heels on the carpet at these guys’ houses.”
“Space shoes,” Aaron mumbles, closing his eyes.
“I’ve never been arrested or held a job that required fingerprints on file. I’m not in the system even if you found some DNA or prints. If I left fibers behind for your forensics, I’m sure they put them aside to see if they could compare them to someone with a motive, but who suspected me?”
He pulls back from me a little, his face turning from blind rage to sheer exhaustion.
“As for Cannon’s goons in the middle of all that, I took care of them in the order you found them, except for Geoffrey, of course. He’s a tough guy to find since he spells his name with a G instead of a J. I didn’t figure that one out until after he attacked us and I saw the news report.”
Aaron looks at the floor, and I keep going. He asked to hear everything. “They had to go, too. I couldn’t have them point a finger at me as a person Cannon was after. I was worried that they may start looking around for people who had reason to take out Cannon. Sure, I’m a woman. A stripper. I’m sure I wouldn’t have been their first choice as a suspect because a lot of men don't think strippers have two brain cells to rub together. That's total bullshit. I walked into work with stained shorts the day I killed Todd Daniels, but I quickly threw those away as soon as I could. Peter didn’t notice the blood on them when I sat in his office and talked to him. I also waited three months before making a move on any of the men. Most people think a suspect would act immediately after being threatened. No, I took my time. Geoffrey sure didn’t suspect I was capable of anything at the turtle gala. I was so used to biding my time to get away from Beck that I turned into a patient woman, and a patient woman is a dangerous and powerful force to reckon with.”
“Why kill Murphy? He didn’t know you were involved.”
“Why the fuck not?” I close my eyes for a moment. “He’d bring whatever girlfriend he was seeing into the club and make us girls go down on each other while he watched. Maybe he thought it was fun to have power over his cousin’s estranged wife. I’m sure that was part of it. He bullied the other women and made them sell his trash, taking Sheri’s tips like he was her pimp. Once Cheryl told me he was threatening her kids and that he had raped Sheri, I was done hemming and hawing about killing him. I am so done fucking around with every piece of shit like them.”
Aaron rolls his neck like his body doesn’t know what to do with the adrenaline rush.
“Anyway, I was done with him after I knew everything I needed to know about Cannon and his dudes. Does anyone really miss him?” I ask. “I know he trafficked and moved drugs. He pissed off a lot of people. Threatened kids. Spoiler alert, zero people have missed that piece of shit since I took care of him. I knew you were on to him, so he was an easy setup. Then, when you got close, it was easy to make it look self-inflicted.”
“You should have let me get him.”
“Should have. Would have. Could have. He’s not a player in the game now. You should really thank me.”
“Someone will fill his shoes, and I’ll have to start from scratch to build a case, Lucy.”
“True. But you’re a good cop, Aaron. Your detectives are good. Everything will unfold as it should. Besides, once you got him, someone would fill those shoes. It doesn’t matter which way he was taken out.”
Aaron lets go of me but runs his finger over my lips as he backs away. “Did you get a taste for it? Is this who you are now?”
I snort and rub my neck, laughing. “Are you really asking if I’m a serial killer now?”
He gives a short nod, and his eyes flick to the ceiling, probably worried about Ruby and Pearl being around a serial killer. The tear that’s been in his eye finally spills over, and he doesn’t wipe it away. My fingers itch to touch it, but would he even let me?
“I did what I did to protect myself, Aaron. That’s it. Protect myself. Protect Peter. Love him or hate him, he’s the only family I have left, and they threatened to hurt my family. I couldn’t have anything with you with those men alive. That’s why I fought us and pushed you away until I just couldn’t anymore. Beck would never have let me leave if I hadn’t killed him. You would have been in danger from Cannon. The girls would have been in danger. Hell, with those men in the world, every woman and girl would be in danger.”
“We would have dealt with it like we did when Geoffrey showed up. Together.”
I snort laugh. “I told you, Aaron Dwyer, I’m bad news. I’ve tried to tell you all along. When I told you I’d done bad things, did you just think I meant the dancing? I kill awful men. I’m angry, Aaron. I’m still angry about being beat on for years. Then, when I get some fucking peace, some mafia henchmen show up at my door and threaten me. I am done being a punching bag, and I am done being a victim.”
“You don’t regret it? Do you consider yourself some sort of vigilante?”
I don’t blink, and I lift my chin, straightening my shoulders until I’m at my full height. “I regret nothing. I’m what happens when men fuck around. They find out. I woke up one day and realized I could either cower and cringe for the rest of my life or I could fix the problem. I righted some wrongs for myself. For Ellen. For all of the women and girls trafficked and hurt by Murphy. For any other woman that would have been beat on by Beck in the future. For every person, male or female, who was scared for their lives and their families by George Cannon and his band of little bitches. So, you ask if I have a taste for it – fuck yes, I do. I have a taste for justice. I won’t go looking for a fight, but if someone starts shit with me, I’ll fucking finish it. The legal way of doing things and the people that were supposed to help let me down too many times.” I pause and take a breath. "Present company excluded."
His chin quivers, but he clears his throat, trying to get control of his voice. “Will you ever hurt me if you get mad at me? If we argue or this doesn’t work out?” His eyes flick to the ceiling again, probably worried about leaving his daughters alone in the world. Is he having second thoughts about bringing a child into the world with me?
I hope not. I want a life with him more than anything.
“Never,” I whisper, meaning it with all my heart. “I would die first. I’d never hurt you. You’re everything to me, and you’re a good man. Even if you break my heart twenty years from now, you’ll never be akin to Murphy, Cannon, or Beck.”
A tear comes out of my eye at the very thought he can even think I'd hurt him. Something about crying with him in his basement over our future moves me. I want to wrap my arms around him. Not in a sexual way. I want to hold him, rock him, and tell him it will be OK.
“I need to know if you want to do this again!” he yells, pointing to the floor. “Is it a compulsion?”
I step forward and finally wipe the tear trail off his face. Surprisingly, he doesn’t flinch at my touch. “I’ll only do it again if trouble comes for me. And I’ll damn well do it if trouble ever looks in the direction of your girls or any child of ours. I love you. I love your girls, and I’ll do whatever the universe says to do to protect everyone in this house. Consequences be damned, Aaron. But you’ll need to tell me what those consequences are.” I back away and hold my hands out like they’re ready to be cuffed. “After all, you’re the law in this county.”
Chapter 26
Aaron
I fixed the drywall that night. My father was a drywall and construction contractor, so I learned drywall at age fifteen when my first summer job was working for my father. Ironically, it was also the summer I worked up the nerve to ask a beautiful, auburn-aired girl with a few freckles across her nose to the movies.
I taped my basement wall just like my father showed me and covered the hole, finally finishing at two in the morning, tears running down my face the entire time.
I still don’t know why I cried. I bawled like a child for days when we broke up in college. I cried harder the other night for the innocence she lost. She’s no longer my sweet Lucy with nothing staining her life. Blood will forever stain her hands, but now we’ll both have to live with it.
Does it make me culpable? An accomplice? Maybe. Either way, the toolbox was in my house. The killer was in my bed all along.
In my heart all along.
The toolbox is still in my house, and it’ll stay there. My heart still belongs to Lucy, and that won’t change, either.
What was I going to do that day in the basement when she came clean? Cuff the woman I’ve loved for over half my life? Take in and question the girl I lost my virginity to because she offed her shit ex-husband, killed a child trafficker, and took care of some mafia henchmen that threatened her life? She also told me that Geoffrey threatened my girls. That shook me to the core, and a shaken man doesn’t take any shit when his daughters are at stake.
In the end, George Cannon, Beck Lenin, and Murphy Beckett were boils on the ass of humanity. If you look it at from a societal standpoint, my girl saved innocent lives down the road. She also saved the taxpayers of this county and state from having to pay for life imprisonment, death penalty fees, lawyer fees, and appeal costs. The lawman in me knows vigilantism is wrong. But when it’s your own girl killing the feces of my county, especially when it’s to protect my own children, I’ll sure as shit turn a blind eye.
I should have been her hero a long time ago. She was bent and broken by Beck, and she put herself back together again as her own hero. How can I fault her for that?
I went to bed with her that night – climbed into bed next to a woman who brutally murdered five men without a drop of remorse. She rolled over and asked if I was going to turn her in the next day, a tear trailing down her face.
I didn't even think twice about it with her in my arms.
The answer is never. I whispered that word into her ear and then fucked her raw. I fucked a killer, this time knowing she was a killer when I did it. Over and over, I thrust into her that night, and I loved every inch of her. My hands roamed every place on her body. Her hips. Her ass. Every crease and crevice I could touch. I came hard, moaning the name of the woman I love more than my own life and career.
I’ve forgiven her for all of it. I knew I would eventually, but I can’t be mad at her for Beck, and I can’t be mad at her for the others. Hell, I wanted to kill Beck. The only emotional butthurt I have about it is that I feel stupid for not seeing it earlier, but that’s just my ego talking. She did what she had to do, and I don’t, for one second, think she’d hurt me or my kids. I saw her protect Ruby that night in the kitchen. She’ll scoop a man’s intestines out with a spoon before she lets someone hurt the family she finally has.
The family she deserves.
“What you got there?” Mitchell asks, knocking on the door frame of my office. He’s holding a stack of folders. “Jewelry?”
I look down at the small black box I’ve been turning over in my hands. It’s the same black box I bought two weeks ago. I was saving it for a special night. The special night I had in mind involved flowers and getting down on one knee on the Chicago lakefront on a star-filled night. Who knew a special night of finding my girlfriend’s murder weapons in my drywall would happen before then?
“I was going to ask Lucy to marry me.” I say it deadpan, finally saying the words I’ve thought for weeks out loud.
Mitchell leans against the door frame. “Was? Shit, boss, you make it sound like you changed your mind. Everything OK?”
“Fine. What you got for me?” I nod to the folders tucked into his armpit.
“Todd Daniel’s case.”
I straighten in my chair. Did Coleson find something? Then again, they won’t find a murder weapon unless they look through their boss’s basement wall, and Lucy doesn’t have a clear motive for anything. The only thing linking George Cannon and Beck Lenin was some borrowed money no soul alive, save Lucy and me, knows about. Without Beck’s body and with Lucy’s texts and calls to his phone over months trying to find him, would anyone really question her? She reported him missing. To say nothing of Jalen Quarry willing to tell everyone that Beck talked about leaving all the time. I often wonder exactly how much he really knows. Has Ellen ever cracked and told him everything?
“What do you think about this case?” He hands me the top folder, and I open it like I’m actually looking for something. “I’m fascinated by it. I don’t think I’ve ever seen Coleson so turned around. He has some minuscule evidence, but we can’t do much without a suspect to get a warrant to check their clothes and shoes. Nothing in the system. Pretty scary, if you ask me.”
I’m not scared at all. Mitchell and Coleson have nothing to fear from a five-foot-seven stripper who was only protecting herself and the people she loves.
“I’m at a loss. Talk through it with him.”
“I want to hear your opinion. You’re the sheriff. Coleson still doesn’t know what to do with it, and we need direction here, sir.”
I bite my lip and stare at my desk, crossing my arms in front of me. “I think Murphy Beckett either killed or had those men killed. They all had ties to him. Maybe he had remorse. I don’t know, and I don’t give a shit. He offed himself, and we haven’t had a dead body show up in this county since he slit his wrists. That tells me all I need to know. It’s not a coincidence.”
“Coleson mentioned the same theory, but it’s the evidence that’s bothering him.”
“We can’t get a warrant to go through the closets and carpet of every citizen in the county to look for some collected fibers that could have been completely benign. It’s a witch hunt, and it’s a waste of taxpayer money and a waste of resources. We have no murder weapon, no matching prints in the system, no matching DNA in the system, no video evidence, and no suspect with a motive other than the one dickhead that killed himself. We had a warrant for Murphy because of his ties. This case is shut as far as I’m concerned. Done.”
Mitchell sighs and leans against the door frame. “It was lucky, really.”
“What was?” I ask.
“That a bunch of trafficking, drug-dealing dickheads took each other out, and the head fucker of them all killed himself. It’s kind of a neat little bow. Practically a gift from the universe.”
The universe is a dark-haired beauty that scrambled my eggs for breakfast this morning and made our little family matching cereal bowls with our names on them at a paint-your-own pottery joint last week.
I flip the folder closed and hand it to Mitchell, smiling. “Tell Coleson to file this with the other unknown open cases. Put it in the basement.” The basement is what we call still active cold cases where we have no idea where to look. It’s reserved for cases we’ll get to if we notice a pattern in other crimes. The basement refers to the old manilla folders in filing cabinets in the literal basement from the time before computers. Now, we have a cloud file by that name.
Lucy’s told me she won’t kill again unless it’s self-defense. Nobody seems to give two shits about the whereabouts of Beck Lenin, and I can’t say I’m surprised. They’ll have nothing to connect Lucy to any of this except for a lone hair from Todd Daniel’s house that will never be matched with her unless she’s arrested and has a sample of her DNA taken.
I took the hair out of pending evidence without anyone seeing it. Sure, they can still see the results in the system, but there will be nothing to hold up for the jury to prove there was ever a hair. There’s nothing tangible to show. I could lose my job for it. It would be a huge scandal, and I could even go to prison for it, but I don’t think anyone will ever piece any of this together. Given the fact the victims were all criminals, it’ll blow over in a few weeks when another crime is committed or something newsworthy happens.
I don’t regret driving to another suburb and throwing the bag that contained the hair into a dumpster behind a bakery. The hair itself floated away in the same alley after I released it from the bag. Why I didn’t notice it was a gorgeous copper color when I looked at it before, I don’t know. Maybe I noticed, but my brain wouldn’t let me connect the dots. I’m obviously blind to a lot when it comes to that woman.
If this is the worst thing I do in my career, come after me. If someone asked what happened to the evidence, I’ll say it’s a damn shame the evidence was lost.
The only other person who knows anything is Ellen Quarry, and to point her finger at Lucy would be to expose her own role in Beck’s disappearance. Lucy assured me that Ellen has no desire to upset her marriage with Jalen and go looking for trouble. She didn’t break that day I went to her house and questioned her. If I placed bets, I’d bet she’ll never speak of word about it for the rest of her life unless she tells Jalen. Lucy and I wish nothing but happiness and a quiet life with plenty of children for them both.
The only other soul that may suspect something is Cheryl because Lucy borrowed some fentanyl from her the day Murphy died. If she suspects something, she’s not talking. Her twin boys are safe.
“The basement? You sure, boss?”
“Given who he was, are we really going to dedicate resources to this? We’ll keep it open until we notice a pattern and can get more evidence. Otherwise, let Chicago or the feds handle it if they ever get a hair up their asses. In my opinion, it’s already been taken care of.”
I get up from the seat, grab the box off my desk, and shove the ring in my pants. I stretch like I don’t have a care in the world. And I don’t. Even if I was blind to Lucy’s charms, Mickey sleeps at our feet every night and loves Lucy. If my dog is sure about her, that’s all I need.
“Where are you going?” Mitchell asks with a smile.
