The Others, page 3
“Do you want anything, Mrs. West?” asked Nurse Brand.
Marda West stared beyond them down the corridor. The whole floor was in the deception. A maid, carrying dustpan and brush, coming from the room next door, had a weasel’s head upon her small body, and the nurse advancing from the other side was a little prancing kitten, her cap coquettish on her furry curls, the doctor beside her a proud lion. Even the porter, arriving at that moment in the lift opposite, carried a boar’s head between his shoulders. He lifted out luggage, uttering a boar’s heavy grunt.
The first sharp prick of fear came to Marda West. How could they have known she would open the door at that minute? How could they have arranged to walk down the corridor wearing masks, the other nurses and the other doctor, and the maid appear out of the room next door, and the porter come up in the lift? Something of her fear must have shown in her face, for Nurse Brand, the cow, took hold of her and led her back into her room.
“Are you feeling all right, Mrs. West?” she asked anxiously.
Marda West climbed slowly into bed. If it was a conspiracy, what was it all for? Were the other patients to be deceived as well?
“I’m rather tired,” she said. “I’d like to sleep.”
“That’s right,” said Nurse Brand, “you got a wee bit excited.”
She was mixing something in the medicine glass, and this time, as Marda West took the glass, her hand trembled. Could a cow see clearly how to mix medicine? Supposing she made a mistake?
“What are you giving me?” she asked.
“A sedative,” answered the cow.
Buttercups and daisies. Lush green grass. Imagination was strong enough to taste all three in the mixture. The patient shuddered. She lay down on her pillow, and Nurse Brand drew the curtains close.
“Now just relax,” she said, “and when you wake up, you’ll feel so much better.” The heavy head stretched forward—in a moment it would surely open its jaws and moo.
The sedative acted swiftly. Already a drowsy sensation filled the patient’s limbs.
Soon peaceful darkness came, but she awoke, not to the sanity she had hoped for, but to lunch brought in by the kitten. Nurse Brand was off duty.
“How long must it go on for?” asked Marda West. She had resigned herself to the trick. A dreamless sleep had restored energy and some measure of confidence. If it was somehow necessary to the recovery of her eyes, or even if they did it for some unfathomable reason of their own, it was their business.
“How do you mean, Mrs. West?” asked the kitten, smiling. Such a flighty little thing, with its pursed-up mouth, and even as it spoke it put a hand to its cap.
“This test on my eyes,” said the patient, uncovering the boiled chicken on her plate. “I don’t see the point of it Making yourselves such guys. What is the object?”
The kitten, serious, if a kitten could be serious, continued to stare at her. “I’m sorry, Mrs. West,” she said, “I don’t follow you. Did you tell Nurse Brand you couldn’t see properly yet?”
“It’s not that I can’t see,” replied Marda West. “I see perfectly well. The chair is a chair. The table is a table. I’m about to eat boiled chicken. But why do you look like a kitten, and a tabby kitten at that?”
Perhaps she sounded ungracious. It was hard to keep her voice steady. The nurse—Marda West remembered the voice, it was Nurse Sweeting, and the name suited her—drew back from the trolley table.
“I’m sorry,” she said, “if I don’t come up to scratch. I’ve never been called a cat before.”
Scratch was good. The claws were out already. She might purr to the lion in the corridor, but she was not going to purr to Marda West.
“I’m not making it up,” said the patient. “I see what I see. You are a cat, if you like, and Nurse Brand’s a cow.”
This time the insult must sound deliberate.. Nurse Sweeting had fine whiskers to her mouth. The whiskers bristled.
“If you please, Mrs. West,” she said, “will you eat your chicken and ring the bell when you are ready for the next course?”
She stalked from the room. If she had a tail, thought Marda West, it would not be wagging like Mr. Greaves’ but twitching angrily.
No, they could not be wearing masks. The kitten’s surprise and resentment had been too genuine. And the staff of the hospital could not possibly put on such an act for one patient, for Marda West alone—the expense would be too great. The fault must lie in the lenses, then. The lenses, by their very nature, by some quality beyond the layman’s understanding, must transform the person who was perceived through them.
A sudden thought struck her, and, pushing the trolley table aside, she climbed out of bed and went over to the dressing table. Her own face stared back at her from the looking glass. The dark lenses concealed the eyes, but the face was at least her own.
“Thank heaven for that,” she said to herself, but it swung .her back to thoughts of trickery. That her own face should seem unchanged through the lenses suggested a plot and that her first idea of masks had been the right one. But why? What did they gain by it? Could there be a conspiracy amongst them to drive her mad? She dismissed the idea at once—it was too fanciful. This was a reputable London nursing home, and the staff was well known. The surgeon had operated on royalty. Besides, if they wanted to send her mad, or kill her even, it would be simple enough with drugs. Or with anaesthetics. They could have given her too much anaesthetic during the operation and just let her die. No one would take the roundabout way of dressing up staff and doctors in animals’ masks.
She would try one further proof. She stood by the window, the curtain concealing her, and watched for passersby. For the moment there was no one in the street. It was the lunch hour and traffic was slack. Then, at the other end of the street, a taxi crossed, too far away for her to see the driver’s head. She waited. The porter came out from the nursing home and stood on the steps, looking up and down. His boar’s head was clearly visible. He did not count, though. He could be part of the plot. A van drew near, but she could not see the driver .. . yes, he slowed as he went by the nursing home and craned from his seat, and she saw the squat frog’s head, the bulging eyes.
Sick at heart, she left the window and climbed back into bed. She had no further appetite and pushed away her plate, the rest of the chicken untasted. She did not ring her bell, and after a while the door opened. It was not the kitten. It was the little maid with the weasel’s head.
“Will you have plum tart or ice cream, madam?” she asked.
Marda West, her eyes half closed, shook her head. The weasel, shyly edging forward to take the tray, said, “Cheese, then, and coffee to follow?”
The head joined the neck without any fastening. It could not be a mask unless some designer, some genius, had invented masks that merged with the body, blending fabric to skin.
“Coffee only,” said Marda West.
The weasel vanished. Another knock on the door and the kitten was back again, her back arched, her fluff flying. She plonked the coffee down without a word, and Marda West, irritated—for surely, if anyone was to show annoyance, it should be herself?—said sharply, “Shall I pour you some milk in a saucer?”
The kitten turned. “A joke’s a joke, Mrs. West,” she said, “and I can take a laugh with anyone. But I can’t stick rudeness.”
“Miaow,” said Marda West.
The kitten left the room. No one, not even the weasel, came to remove the coffee. The patient was in disgrace. She did not care. If the staff of the nursing home thought they could win this battle, they were mistaken. She went to the window again. An elderly cod, leaning on two sticks, was being helped into a waiting car by the boar-head porter. It could not be a plot. They could not know she was watching them. Marda went to the telephone and asked the exchange to put her through to her husband’s office. She remembered a moment afterward that he would still be at lunch. Nevertheless, she got the number, and as luck had it he was there.
“Jim … Jim, darling.”
“Yes?”
The relief to hear the loved familiar voice. She lay back on the bed, the receiver to her ear.
“Darling, when can you get here?”
“Not before this evening, I’m afraid. It’s one hell of a day, one thing after another. Well, how did it go? Is everything okay?”
“Not exactly.”
“What do you mean? Can’t you see? Greaves hasn’t bungled it, has he?”
How was she to explain what had happened to her? It sounded so foolish over the telephone.
“Yes, I can see. I can see perfectly. It’s just that … that all the nurses look like animals. And Greaves, too. He’s a fox terrier. One of those little Jade Russells they put down the foxes’ holes.”
“What on earth are you talking about?”
He was saying something to his secretary at the same time, something about another appointment, and she knew from the tone of his voice that he was busy, very busy, and she had chosen the worst time to ring him up. “What do you mean about Jack Russell?” he repeated.
Marda West knew it was no use. She must wait till he came. Then she would try to explain everything, and he would be able to find out for himself what lay behind it. “Oh, never mind,” she said. “I’ll tell you later.”
“I’m sorry,” he told her, “but I redly am in a tearing hurry. If the lenses don’t help you, tell somebody. Tell the nurses, the matron.”
“Yes,” she said, “yes.”
Then she rang off. She put down the telephone. She picked up a magazine, one left behind at some time or other by Jim himself, she supposed. She was glad to find that reading did not hurt her eyes. Nor did the blue lenses make any difference, for the photographs of men and women looked normal, as they had always done. Wedding groups, social occasions, debutantes, all were as usual. It was only here, in the nursing home itself, and in the street outside, that they were different.
It was much later in the afternoon that Matron called in to have a word with her. She knew it was Matron because of her clothes. But inevitably now, without surprise, she observed the sheep’s head.
“I hope you’re quite comfortable, Mrs. West?”
A note of gentle inquiry in the voice. A suspicion of a baa?
“Yes, thank you.”
Marda West spoke guardedly. It would not do to ruffle the matron. Even if the whole affair was some gigantic plot, it would be better not to aggravate her.
“The lenses fit well?”
“Very well.”
“I’m so glad. It was a nasty operation, and you’ve stood the period of waiting so very well.”
That’s it, thought the patient. Butter me up. Part of the game, no doubt.
“Only a few days, Mr. Greaves said, and then you will have them altered and the permanent ones fitted.”
“Yes, so he said.”
“It’s rather disappointing not to observe color, isn’t it?”
“As things are, it’s a relief.”
The retort slipped out before she could check herself. The matron smoothed her dress. And if you only knew, thought the patient, what you look like, with that tape under your sheep’s chin, you would understand what I mean.
“Mrs. West …” The matron seemed uncomfortable, and turned her sheep’s head away from the woman in the bed. “Mrs. West, I hope you won’t mind what I’m going to say, but our nurses do a fine job here, and we are all very proud of them. They work long hours, as you know, and it is not really very kind to mock them, although I am sure you intended it in fun.”
Baa … Baa … Bleat away. Marda West tightened her lips.
“Is it because I called Nurse Sweeting a kitten?”
“I don’t know what you called her, Mrs. West, but she was quite distressed. She came to me in the office nearly crying.”
Spitting, you mean, Spitting and scratching. Those capable little hands are really claws.
“It won’t happen again.”
She was determined not to say more. It was not her fault. She had not asked for lenses that deformed, for trickery, for make-believe.
“It must come very expensive,” she added, “to run a nursing home like this.”
“It is,” said the matron. Said the sheep. “It can only be done because of the excellence of the staff and the cooperation of all our patients.”
The remark was intended to strike home. Even a sheep can turn.
“Matron,” said Marda West, “don’t let’s fence with each other. What is the object of it all?”
“The object of what, Mrs. West?”
“This tomfoolery, this dressing up.” There, she had said it. To enforce her argument she pointed at the matron’s cap. “Why pick on that particular disguise? It’s not even funny.”
There was silence. The matron, who had made as if to sit down to continue her chat, changed her mind. She moved slowly to the door.
“We who were trained at St. Hilda’s are proud of our badge,” she said. “I hope, when you leave us in a few days, Mrs. West, that you will look back on us with greater tolerance than you appear to have now.”
She left the room. Marda West picked up the magazine she had thrown down, but the matter was dull. She closed her eyes. She opened them again. She closed them once more. If the chair had become a mushroom and the table a haystack, then the blame could have been put upon the lenses. Why was it only people who had changed? What was so wrong with people? She kept her eyes shut when her tea was brought her, and when the voice said pleasantly, “Some flowers for you, Mrs. West,” she did not even open them but waited for the owner of the voice to leave the room. The flowers were carnations. The card was Jim’s. And the message on it said, “Cheer up. We’re not as bad as we seem.”
She smiled and buried her face in the flowers. Nothing false about them. Nothing strange about the scent. Carnations were carnations, fragrant, graceful. Even the nurse on duty who came to put them in water could not irritate her with her pony’s head. After all, it was a trim little pony, with a white star on its forehead. It would do well in the ring. “Thank you,” smiled Marda West.
The curious day (dragged on, and she waited restlessly for eight o’clock. She washed and changed her nightgown and did her hair. She drew her own curtains and switched on the bedside lamp. A strange feeling of nervousness had come upon her. She realized, so strange had been the day, that she had not once thought about Nurse Ansel. Dear, comforting, bewitching Nurse Ansel. Nurse Ansel, who was due to come on duty at eight. Was she also in the conspiracy? If she was, then Marda West would have a showdown. Nurse Ansel would never lie. She would go up to her, and put her hands on her shoulders, and take the mask in her two hands, and say to her, “There, now take it off. You won’t deceive me.” But if it was the lenses, if all the time it was the lenses that were at fault, how was she to explain it?
She was sitting at the dressing table, putting some cream on her face, and the door must have opened without her being aware, but she heard the well-known voice, the soft beguiling voice, and it said to her, “I nearly came before. I didn’t dare. You would have thought me foolish.” It slid slowly into view, the long snake’s head, the twisting neck, the pointed barbed tongue swiftly thrusting and swiftly withdrawn, it came into view over her shoulder, through the looking glass.
Marda West did not move. Only her hand, mechanically, continued to cream her cheek. The snake was not motionless: it turned and twisted all the time, as though examining the pots of cream, the scent, the powder.
“How does it feel to see yourself again?”
Nurse Ansel’s voice emerging from the head seemed all the more grotesque and horrible, and the very fact that as she spoke the darting tongue spoke too, paralyzed action. Marda West felt sickness rise in her stomach, choking her, and suddenly physical reaction proved too strong. She turned away, but as she did so the steady hands of the nurse gripped her, she suffered herself to be led to bed, she was lying down, eyes closed, the nausea passing.
“Poor dear, what have they been giving you? Was it the sedative? I saw it on your chart,” said the gentle voice, so soothing and so calm it could only belong to one who understood. The patient did not open her eyes. She did not dare. She lay there on the bed, waiting.
“It’s been too much for you,” said the voice. “They should have kept you quiet the first day. Did you have visitors?”
“No.”
“Nevertheless, you should have rested. You look really pale. We can’t have Mr. West seeing you like this. I’ve half a mind to telephone him to stay away.”
“No … please, I want to see him. I must see him.”
Fear made her open her eyes, but directly she did so the sickness gripped her again, for the snake’s head, longer than before, was twisting out of its nurse’s collar, and for the first time she saw the hooded eye, a pin’s head, hidden. She put her hand over her mouth to stifle her cry. A sound came from Nurse Ansel expressing disquiet. “Something has turned you very sick,” she said. “It can’t be the sedative. You’ve often had it before. What was the dinner this evening?”
“Steamed fish. I wasn’t hungry.”
“I wonder if it was fresh. I’ll see if anyone has complained. Meanwhile, lie still, dear, and don’t upset yourself.”
The door quietly opened and closed again, and Marda West, disobeying instructions, slipped from her bed and seized the first weapon that came to hand, her nail scissors. Then she returned to her bed again, her heart beating fast, the scissors concealed beneath the sheet. Revulsion had been too great. She must defend herself, should the snake approach her. Now she was certain that what was happening was real, was true. Some evil force encompassed the nursing home and its inhabitants, the matron, the nurses, the visiting doctors, her surgeon—they were all caught up in it, they were all partners in some gigantic crime, the purpose of which could not be understood. Here, in Upper Wading Street, the malevolent plot was in process of being hatched, and she, Marda West, was one of the pawns; in some way they were to use her as an instrument.
One thing was very certain. She must not let them know that she suspected diem. She must try and behave with Nurse Ansel as she had done hitherto. One slip and she was lost. She must pretend to be better. If she let sickness overcome her, Nurse Ansel might bend over her with that snake’s head, that darting tongue.
