The Valkyrie Novels Box Set, page 2
part #1 of Valkyrie Series
He still glowed and I was still helpless.
My fingers uncurled their desperate grip on the rose and it fell, tilting, to drop head first onto the coffin, twirling as it descended into the eerie depths. It hit the lid and shattered. Petals flew in all directions and everywhere yellow scraps of the dismembered flower reflected Joshua’s iridescent light.
I turned, eager to flee.
Not possible. Not in heels, which sank into the mushy soil as if the soft earth itself yearned to claim me. Not when mourners had risen from their seats and were lining up to toss soil and tributes onto the casket. I struggled for breath, my heart knocking double, triple time like an angry jackhammer abandoned in my chest.
I steered a path through the crowd. Ignored a young man in the middle row whose skin held the first yellow specks of iridescence. Who was he? Did it even matter who he was? I sighed. It wouldn’t be much longer for him anyway. I ignored the woman with the red-rimmed eyes, holding onto his arm. I didn’t want to see him patting her pale hand and giving her that watery smile.
Will she be alone, like me, when he’s gone? Who will pat her hand then?
Turning away, I kept walking. Didn’t want to look anymore. Didn’t want to see any more glowing people.
I breached the throng and paused to breathe.
To wait for my erratic heartbeat to slow down.
To forget I left my friend behind, alone in the unforgiving ground.
Chapter 2
The first time I’d laid eyes on Joshua, he’d already begun to glow. What a way to kick off week one at Craven’s only high school. At the time, I had no idea what the aura meant, and there was no one I could talk to about it.
Not in Craven. Not anywhere.
I was the new kid in town, an outsider. New towns unnerved me. No surprise since I encountered a new town every few months, running the foster circuit, pushed around by funding cuts and just plain burnt-out foster parents who were never real parents anyway. And Craven was no different.
My foster mom, Ms. Patricia Custer, had tried to make me feel welcome, even insisting I call her Mom. Her big, broad smile matched her generous hips—tacit proof of her scrumptious cooking. Enormous white teeth in a mouth curved in a permanent smile, even when she scolded. But if Ms. Custer threw some sunshine onto my life at Craven, then North Wood High epitomized the dark zone. North Wood’s warm, redbrick buildings were at odds with the aloofness of the student body, the distant teachers and the near-vicious vice principal.
Arriving just in time for senior orientation didn’t help at all. Not as if I would fit in anyway. So I kept a low profile. Steered clear of the popular crowd, the jocks and the smart kids. Mouth shut. Head down. Waste of effort making friends. Even if they stuck around, they ended up turning on you. And if they didn’t turn, you left.
Two days later, the arrival of an unexpected package disturbed my usual process of new town assimilation. Lawyers handling my father’s estate had finally tracked me down. An official-looking letter confirmed it as a much-delayed sixteenth birthday gift. I moved around too much, wouldn’t have been easy to find.
I escaped to my room to unwrap the shoebox-size cardboard package. A flat rectangular box, covered in a deep green fabric, lay buried within piles of foam chips. I’d never received mail before. Giant butterflies fought for space in my stomach and I wondered what the box could possibly contain. I fiddled with a tiny gold wire clasp holding the lid shut tight, jiggling it, careful not to destroy the intricate filigree. At last the clasp gave and I lifted the heavy lid.
Within the box, on a bed of black satin, lay a pendant so exquisite, so entrancing, it stole the breath from my lungs. A warm, ethereal glimmer emanated from the elegant amber teardrop, as wide at its base as a dollar coin and encased by silver filigree lacework.
The gemstone sat in my palm, a little shining sun, warm and tingly and entrancing. The thick leather string should have clashed with the elegance of the silver filigree, yet it meshed. Richness tempered by the earthiness of the raw cord. I tied it around my neck and stood before the mirror, staring. The pendant sat in the hollow of my throat as if made and measured to fit, and after that day, it never left my neck. Its warmth soothed a little of the loneliness within the heart that beat beneath it.
The comfort of the amber jewel hadn’t taken my mind totally off of my new-school blues, but it certainly made things easier in the first few days. I could deal with the sideways glances, the up-and-down inspections, even the solitary lunchtimes.
I managed well enough on my own until I ran into Joshua. Yeah, I managed.
Until the day star quarterback Joshua O’Connell radiated the first dustings of gold. Sprinkled on his cheeks, shimmering in the sunlight and growing brighter each time I saw him.
A glow only I could see.
A glow that kept my eyes trained on him throughout our first Biology class together. I stared. And he noticed. He frowned at first, then grinned and winked. I paid little attention to the lesson, distracted by the glow on his skin and the clear warmth in his eyes.
After class I fumbled in my locker until the rather loud sound of a throat being cleared drew my head out of the metal space. Surprised, I looked into the eyes of the glowing boy.
“Hi,” he said. His cheery grin hadn’t faded. “You must be new. I’m Joshua.”
I stared at the hand he’d stuck out, then reluctantly grasped it. My first real welcome. Wow.
At least he didn’t assume I was stalker material. We hung out after school that day, and every day. He was safe. Safe because Joshua and I didn’t have the whole chemistry thing going on. Just friends. He wasn’t my type; I knew that much even though I hadn’t yet defined a personal type, romantic or otherwise. And my height posed a problem. Hardly the best start to a romance, towering over a guy.
So we talked. A lot. I assumed he’d never understand me, but Joshua surprised me. He understood being different. He was beige. Not quite black enough, not quite white enough; his mom was Indian and his dad one hundred percent Irish, straight off the plane.
He was awesome enough to look at, with all that naturally tanned skin and black, black eyes. The ebony hair made him look all the more bad-boy. Which he totally wasn’t.
But it didn’t take long before I couldn’t bear to be in his company for more than a few minutes at a time. Looking at his ever-brightening face hurt my eyes, bringing on strange, persistent headaches. Avoiding Joshua rocked the foundations of our friendship. I had hurt him, but he didn’t take my sudden aloofness lying down.
He insisted on walking me home one day, ignoring the fact that I was ignoring him. “Why are you avoiding me?” he demanded, a dark scowl wrinkling his good looks. I didn’t look at him, just put one foot in front of the other and gritted my jaw against the headache gnawing at my temples.
I couldn’t tell him that it hurt to look at him. I couldn’t tell him that I had this weird gift. The ability to see strange auras around random people wasn’t exactly useful, and I’d learned the hard way to be careful who I told.
I’d seen the glow before. Had seen it since forever. No amount of psychiatrists could make it go away. For some strange reason my father understood and accepted my weird visions. I remained grateful until he was no longer there to stand by me. After that, I never spoke of it again.
Even if I told Joshua he’d never believe me. And I would’ve been fine staying silent if it hadn’t been for Aimee Graham. I’d seen her around school, on and off. The short, dark-haired girl had glowed and brightened, soon matching Joshua’s glowing intensity, until she stopped coming to classes altogether. I’d had no idea what the golden auras meant until she returned to school one fall morning, and the rumors began.
Cancer, they said. Some sort of leukemia that ate away at her body like a woodborer munching on old furniture. I’d stared at her as she walked by my locker, then looked away, looked anywhere except at the rainbow patchwork headscarf covering her bare scalp. She shone with such radiance, blazing like a small sun, so bright that my eyes teared. She’d turned and met my gaze. And smiled.
And never smiled at me again.
Aimee had made it back to school for only a single day. The next morning, Mr. Freeman addressed the class, his voice soft and subdued, as if a loud voice would be disrespectful.
Aimee had died during the night.
That day I knew for sure. I’d lost control of my tears then. They fell in huge, mocking drops. I stared at Joshua through those bitter tears, my heart missing beats as I tried to remember to breathe.
I finally knew what the glow meant.
I was a freak and Joshua was going to die.
Chapter 3
It started and ended with the Camaro. Joshua’s dad messed around with his ‘85 Camaro in his garage, passing the passion to his eldest, to his wife’s utter dismay. One day at school, when I’d finally regained control of my constant urge to either stare or burst into tears, we’d launched into an argument.
“You reek like an engine.” I scrunched up my nose. He didn’t really reek though. I smiled at the random grease stains, which flecked his jeans and gave him away. “What are you working on?”
He chuckled, ignored the insult. “Camaro Z28,” he said with a fluid twist to his head. All challenge, brooking no argument.
“Ha! A Camaro? Now if you’d said Mustang Cobra I’d have been impressed.” I stared him down, squashing the laughter that threatened to spoil my macho stance.
Two foster homes ago, I’d had a foster dad much like Joshua’s dad. Real speed freak. Loved his Cobra like a child, not that he ever allowed me to ride. Nope, he took his foster responsibility seriously. Fast cars meant danger, so I’d been relegated to watching him work on those gleaming machines.
I never forgot the acid spike of the spirits he used to clean the chrome or the dull tone of the oil when he changed it and droplets spilled on the bare concrete. And when Joshua spoke of his baby, I knew I’d get a ride in it, no matter what. Beneath the banter lay the bet. He eventually gave in. What would it hurt anyway? Just one ride.
When he came to pick me up, Ms. Custer frowned as I sped to the door.
“He coming in then? Or is he gonna let that monster growl outside like a hell hound?”
“Nope, we’re going out for a ride.”
The frown deepened. “Now, Bryn. I . . .” She paused. She was so going to stop me. I held my breath but the frown smoothed and her eyes crinkled. Wrong. Perhaps she trusted me. “Be careful, and wear your seatbelt.”
She followed me out onto the wraparound porch just to be sure, and stood watching while I jumped into the gorgeous red machine, adjusted the strap and fastened the seatbelt as she’d instructed. Joshua had cursed its bum clasp to no end but thankfully the darned thing chose this night to lock loudly. We both sighed.
I curled my arms around my midriff, unsure what to do with them. Folding them in my lap would appear silly, especially when we sat within a growling machine so far from demure as to be ridiculous.
Excitement and nerves warred inside me. Beside me and beneath his leather jacket, Joshua glowed brighter than yesterday. More radiant than last week. My heart stuttered and I forced those thoughts away. How could I change the inevitable? Was it possible that I could influence his life? Prevent his death? Who could I go to? Who could help me?
Nobody.
The best answer I’d come up with.
I was all out of luck and so was Joshua.
A moonless night and a patch of oil were never meant to be friends. Not anywhere and certainly not within the dark embrace of Craven. A black and angry cloud hung over the town, permeating the spirit of the place, hiding behind closed doors and beneath masks of pleasantry. Paranoia? Maybe.
I blamed my jaded opinion on the ache in my heart. The first time I understood that the damned glow was synonymous with death, it happened to be coming from the first friend I’d ever made.
Joshua grinned at me, teeth glinting in the lights from the streetlamps, mischief and self-satisfaction plastered across his face. I’d gotten what I’d wanted. But he’d gotten more. He revved the engine and I could have sworn the hefty laughter coming from the vicinity of the veranda belonged to Ms. Custer. Taking off at a walking pace, we slid along the darkened streets.
I closed my lids, absorbing the throb of the engine through the reconditioned leather, resting them from the ever-present radiance of Joshua. I bore the pain of meeting his eyes, because I longed for one more smile. I had no idea when his laughter would embrace me for the last time, or if the next silly, girlish giggle he gave, when a joke happened to be unconstitutionally funny, would be his last.
We turned onto Main and headed uphill, through the empty streets. Up ahead a pair of lights turned into Main and rode toward us.
Nothing ever happened in Craven. Nothing to get tongues wagging. Not until our night in the Camaro.
The oil patch appeared in the split second between Joshua’s gasp and the crunching of metal. The rainbow at its center caught my eye. The shimmering, bland menace of it; a warning too late. A second, meant to be the shortest of moments, was enough. A blink in time filled with Joshua’s grimace of fear, filled with hopeless desperation, as he wrenched the wheel against the spin of the car. Filled with the stark horror on the faces of the couple in the other car as we spun toward them.
The crunch of metal.
The barely audible click of my seatbelt as it came undone.
Metal tasted metal.
The two cars crumpled into each other, the force of the impact flinging me across the street. Slamming my body into the light pole outside Joe’s Barbershop. Any normal person would have broken in half, spine crushed from the impact of vertebrae to steel pole. Not me.
Coming away from the accident with a head wound, no matter how serious, wasn’t enough for Craven. I should have died like Joshua. The couple in the other car was still in the hospital.
But I was still walking.
Still breathing.
They hated me for that.
Chapter 4
I skidded out of my memories and walked back alone from the funeral, away from the eyes.
The wind blustered and thin silk was no match for its icy tentacles. My feet dragged me back toward Ms. Custer’s, the silent afternoon keeping me company. I was thankful for the solitude. Thankful for the subtle warmth soaking into my body from the amber at my neck.
One block to go. An engine suddenly growled behind me, throbbing closer and closer, raucous laughter raising the hair on my neck. A car tailed me; its honking brought goose bumps to my skin. A bunch of nasty, dumb kids voicing their displeasure at my survival. I kept walking. Exhaled only when they whined past. The driver thrust his arm out the window and raised his middle finger. Strident laughter followed. I flushed, embarrassed, furious at his nerve.
My heart stuttered as the twin red eyes disappeared into the gathering shadows ahead. Sighing, I turned into Elm Wood, seeking the lights of home. Bright lights beckoned in the dusk like so many welcoming flames. The house promised warmth and comfort. A blessed haven in which to hide away.
But only a temporary home. I’d learned not to grow too fond, not to get too comfortable.
Three other kids occupied the loving home of Ms. Custer, laying claim to foster-hood more than I had the right to. All orphans. Simon Harper and Brody Stevens were both ten and cute as a pair of unmatched buttons could be cute. Simon, pale and blond, in contrast to Brody’s dark skin and sooty hair. Otherwise, they were the same. Boisterous, cheeky, funny and a handful. Ms. Custer called them “Ebony and Ivory.” Most appropriate.
Isabel Martin was elegant, sweet and very, very quiet for a twelve-year-old. But all three accepted me, drew me into their little family despite my discomfort and constant protests.
I let myself into the house, expecting Brody and Simon to be in the living room pretending to do their homework, and Izzy in the kitchen peeling vegetables or laying the large dining table. I craved peace and quiet and knew I wasn’t going to get it.
The living room’s silence greeted me, while the kitchen simmered with cheerful chatter amidst the clinking of utensils. As I stepped inside the kitchen a second of peace reigned before Brody and Simon spoke over each other, asking how Joshua’s brother was doing. Izzy smiled, waiting for her turn to question the life out of me.
Ms. Custer stood at the sink, drying a dish that looked dry to begin with, her smile a faded copy of her usual toothy blessings.
“Come on, kids, get to your chores. Boys, help Izzy set the table please. Use the good dinner service and be careful. Anyone break anything and they’ll be scooping horse poop at McGregor’s Farm for the whole of spring break.”
They groaned and flashed out the door, bickering comfortably as they worked.
“It’s dry, you know?” I lifted an eyebrow at the dish.
She huffed, laid it on the table and proceeded to fill it with steaming mashed potatoes. The food should have assaulted my taste buds, but not a particle within me did any sort of dance at the prospect of eating. Not anymore. It’d been weeks since food had last satisfied me and I longed to eat the roast just for the sake of recalling the taste and sensations on my tongue. It would no doubt do no good. These days food equated to tasteless sludge.
“When was the last time you ate a proper meal?” Ms. Custer’s eyes narrowed, as if she possessed some kind of inner lie-detecting radar. She had no idea how long it had been and I didn’t intend to tell her I survived on air and water these days. Just about anything could get a foster kid moved.
“A proper meal you mean?” I received a curt nod and a further narrowing of her eyes. “Around the time Aimee Graham died.”
The truth was the last thing I’d intended but it slipped out of my mouth anyway. The queen of avoidance was also an awful, awful liar.
Ms. Custer nodded. The skin around her eyes softened. “That was three weeks ago, young lady. How are you surviving?” I waited as she yelled for Izzy, who hauled the mashed potatoes to the dining table.
