Broken like me : A Dark College Romance, page 23
I slowly push myself into a sitting position, moving closer to Dav, I lift my hand and gently brush the back of my hand against the side of his face.
His eyes pop open and he immediately looks down at me. “Are you okay?” He asks softly but I see the concern in his eyes.
I move closer to him, needing him to hear me.
“I’m okay, are you?” I ask calmly, looking over his gorgeous face.
“Yeah,” he states softly.
His eyes search mine for a moment making my heart race. This man sitting in front of me has completely changed my entire world, all three of them have, the least I can do is to say the words. They deserve to know that I feel the same way they do.
I know the three words mean everything to them, I know that they said them to me because they mean it, they meant every single word. I know that they are afraid, and I am afraid. But it’s time that I stop being afraid of what I want. I deserve this, I deserve them, and even if I don’t believe my words right now fully, one day I will.
“I love you,” I whisper.
He moves forward and grabs onto me and forces me onto his lap. My knees are now firmly planted on the cold ground on either side of him and the only clothing I’m wearing is one of their jackets, I am completely naked underneath it.
He grabs onto my hips keeping me in place.
“Say it again,” he begs me. I see the desire, passion, and hope in his eyes.
“I love you,” I tell him confidently.
He leans in and smashes his lips to mine, taking my breath away.
His hard dick is pressing against his jeans, making my pussy pulse, I lift up my hands and place them on either side of his head on the wall, I open my mouth for him, his tongue sweeps into my mouth causing me to moan and I close my eyes. Our kiss rushed on the verge of desperation while we ravaged each other’s mouth.
He lets go of my hips nudging me up so he can reach between us to free himself from the confines of his clothes, not once breaking our kiss. I feel him nudge against my already wet opening, my stomach fills with butterflies, I never want this feeling to go away.
I open my eyes and I break the kiss. I search his eyes for a moment before I slowly lower myself onto his hard dick. I can feel the cold metal of his piecing as they stretch me a bit more than his already massive thickness. They rub against the walls of my pussy causing me to shudder against him when I am fully filled and pressed against his groin.
We both moan in pleasure with the feeling of us coming together. He grabs onto my hips, I know I will have the marks from his fingertips in the morning but it turns me on more with that little bite of pain. He leans up and crashes his lips around mine once again taking my breath away. I have no fucking idea what I am doing but that doesn’t matter, he starts rolling his hips his grip on me tightens guiding me telling me what to do.
It’s not long before my hips start to roll with his motion and I’m riding his dick and he matches my motion as I chase the orgasm that is just on the edge just out of reach. I need more of what I don’t know.
I feel one of them come up behind me and start to remove the jacket. I lower my arms as Hest rips the jacket off of me. I know it’s him when he starts to nip and kiss my skin as he exposes it. Dav leans back against the wall and Hest grabs my arms forcing them behind my back, he pushes between my shoulder blades bringing my chest against Dav. The motion brings my ass up and it’s then that I know what he wants. No, I know this is what he needs.
He grips my wrists with one hand keeping them in place, he starts to run his dick up and down from my core to my ass gathering my juices that Dav has wrung out of me. I feel him press against my ass and I tighten up and hold my breath. I open my eyes when he doesn’t press in and find Lin standing beside us. He reaches down and grabs my throat pulling me from Dav, my pussy grips tighter onto Dav causing him to groan. Hest takes that moment of my distraction and pushes his dick into my ass making me scream out in extreme pain but it slowly turns into pleasure with the fullness that I feel having both of them inside of me.
I keep my eyes on Lin, his eyes are filled with need and desire. I clench my pussy making both men inside me to swear under their heavy breathing. Dav and Hest take that moment to start to push in and out of me, finding their rhythm, and all I can feel is the strength that both of these men have and how much they are holding themselves back while they send sensations throughout my body that I have never experienced before.
Lin stands beside me and he undoes his pants letting them fall to his ankles. His cock bounces in front of my face and I lick my lips. I’ve never done this before but I desire to taste him, to pleasure him. He steps into me and tightens his grip on my throat.
“Open, sweetheart,” he whispers in a dark sexy voice.
I do as he asks, I will always do as they ask. He steps closer, I look at his hard dick that is throbbing in front of my eyes. He grabs ahold of himself and strokes from base to tip squeezing a bead of pre cum on the tip. I lean toward him and swipe my tongue across the head tasting the saltiness that is all Lin. I open my mouth and he slowly pushes his dick inside my mouth. I have to stretch my jaw to take him fully, when he pushes in and hits the back of my throat I gag and start to cough. He pulls out, letting me catch my breath before he pushes back between my lips. Tears start to blur my vision when he starts to press in and out of my mouth.
I wrap my lips around my teeth the best that I can but the few times I scraped across his smooth skin he growls out in pleasure. I look up at him and watch his face as I start to explore with my tongue and sucking on him. It seems that no matter what I try he enjoys it, and the power that I feel having this kind of control over this man’s pleasure spurs me on. I’m in a state of bliss having all three of these powerful men filling me, owning me, all at the same time.
I’m caught between two men as they ravish my body while I take the third down my throat, I feel my stomach start to tighten with the approaching orgasm that these men are wringing from my body. They all are moving in rhythm with each other and my pussy starts to pulse. I am lost to sensations of their hands all over my body, exploring my body while giving me more pleasure than I have ever felt. Sweat is rolling down my body adding to the growing wetness between my legs, I never thought feelings like this were possible.
Lin’s head falls back as he moans my name, so I increase my ministrations, sucking him, running my tongue up and down his length. I take him as far as I can down my throat. His cock throbs in my mouth with each new touch. The way he’s falling apart for me makes me want to continue to please all of them, all the time, for the rest of my life.
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Heston
Itighten my grip on her wrists while I find my groove fucking her ass while my brother fucks her pussy. She’s relaxing making it easier for me to move in and out of her ass. I know she’s sore, and I know she will bleed.
I want to see my cum mixed with her blood coming out of her ass, I want her to know who she belongs to, I want her to know that no one will ever have her the way we are right now. I want her to know that her words mean everything to all of us.
We have never been good with words, we have never been good at explaining our desires, but we can fucking show her, right now we can all show her just what she means to us. Anyone can say words, words don’t mean shit if your behaviors don’t match up. Our behaviors will fucking match up. We love her, and she has now confessed that she loves us too. We will never ever fucking let her go.
I look at Dav, he is leaning his head against the wall as we both continue to work together to bring Nicki the most pleasure that we can. We both smile when she moans around Lin’s cock. He growls reaching down and wraps her hair around his fist and starts to pull hard. He tilts his head back with a growl when he starts to hit his peak. There’s no way we will last long with all of us sharing her like this, the sensations are too intense.
I can already feel my balls starting to tighten, and no matter how hard I try to hold back I know that it won’t be long before I shoot my release deep into her tight ass. I used to not want to be touched. I used to be afraid of women. But with Nicki. She makes me no longer afraid. She makes me want to touch her and desire her touch more than I have desired anything else in my life. She is our drug, our obsession, our fucking queen.
I lean down and gently kiss her spine, her body shaking between us when Dav and I pick up our pace. Lin shouts out his release as he cums down her throat, she gags and coughs as she tries to take his cum.
Dav and I both groan each time she coughs, her pussy and ass tighten around our cocks. The last big cough is all it takes and Dav and I are both growling out our release. Nicki screams or at least she tries to when she finally tips over, her orgasm making her body shake between us. I lick the sweat that has rolled down her spine. I needed to taste her.
I need to feel her scars, I need to feel her pain. We all do. We all need her in this way, in every fucking way.
I can hear the thunder in the distance, the storm is coming, and we won’t be leaving this room for a while. Fucking good, we want her again and again and fucking again, just like this. The three of us switching positions, ensuring that we fill her mouth, pussy, and ass with all of our cum. We will mark her with our hands, lips, our words, our cocks, we will mark her in every fucking way that we can.
She’s the first female I have fucked in the pussy in a very long time, she is the first one for all of us in a lot of ways. Seeing her like this does something to us that we can’t explain into words. There are no words to explain our craving for her, our desire, the sin that builds deep inside of us for her. We all feel unworthy, but that is starting to change.
She’s making us feel worthy and we are making her feel worthy. We deserve her and she deserves us. And we will make sure every fucking day for the rest of our lives that we continue to earn her.
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I bend down and pull Nicki off Lin. We have been going for hours now, each of us making sure to mark her. Her body is shaking when I take her into my arms. I hold her tightly and when I turn around, Dav quickly gets up and places one of our jackets around her. She rests her head against my chest, and she wraps her arm around my neck. I love the feeling of her touch, her gentle tender touch. No one has ever touched any of us the way she has, not just physically but also emotionally and psychologically, she understands us more than any other person has been able to.
She makes us question everything, she makes us unhinged and crazy. She makes us want to become better than what we are. She makes us want to be fucking more than what we have been for years. We thought we were fine with who we are, we accepted who we are. But with her and only for her we will be more because that is what she deserves.
I take a deep breath, the scent of sex thick in the small area, I reluctantly walk through the room and push the door open with my shoulder. It’s raining, but the wind has finally died down, another storm is well on its way, making the decision easy. We’d rather stay here instead of going to class or fucking therapy.
What happened with her father can’t fucking happen again. It fucking can’t and the only way that we can ensure that it doesn’t, we need to leave here. We need to fucking escape and get as far away from this place as we can.
I walk around to the side of the wooden shed and lean my back against it, I slide down the wall and sit down on the grass. Nicki’s breathing has started to slow down and her body isn’t shaking like it was before. She lifts her head from my chest and looks up at me, I look down at her, her eyes search mine, there is so much pain and suffering in her eyes, but there is also love, passion, and desire. The three things I never thought I would see in a woman’s eyes directed at us.
“What are you thinking about?” she asks me softly.
That is a loaded question, I don’t even know where to start with answering it, but I will try for her. If we want her to be open and honest with us, we have to do the same for her.
“How we need to leave this place,” I say calmly.
Her eyes rapidly start to search mine. “Because of my father?” she asks in a guilty and ashamed voice.
I nod. “Yes.”
“He will never stop trying to find me,” she says, allowing the fear to take over her voice. I know what she states is true. He desires her, he wants her, and he made that very fucking clear in her dorm room. The memory of what happened in that room with him makes me sick.
“I know love, we know,” I whisper.
She takes a deep shaky breath, “I’m sorry.”
“You have nothing to be sorry for,” I state, trying to reassure her, but I can see her defenses starting to go up again. She has only ever had her own defenses to keep her safe, but now she has us and we aren’t fucking going anywhere.
“I do, you guys are in this position because of me,” she snaps at me.
“No love, it’s not your fault,” I state calmly.
She quickly wiggles out of my hold and stands up quickly putting on the jacket Dav placed on her body.
I stand up and stay still while I watch her wrap her arms around herself.
“How can you say that Heston?” She asks me in a scared voice. I hate fucking hearing that tone on her.
“Because it’s true, none of this is your fault Nicki, it is your fathers' fault, not yours,” I state with as much confidence as I can. She needs to understand that she is the victim in this. He’s the one that has caused all of this, not her. This is not her fucking fault, and I am not going to let her fucking believe that it is.
Her eyes rapidly search mine for the truth of my words. She takes a step back but before she can fucking make any more space between us, I am right on her. I pull her into my chest, she’s panting trying to take a full breath. She’s on the verge of a panic attack. I tighten my hold on her, giving her the stability that she needs to keep her from falling into the depths of her pain.
She lifts her head. “I can’t ask you guys to do something that might hurt you guys,” she whispers.
“We would do anything for you love,” I state calmly. There is nothing we wouldn’t do for her and soon she will see that for herself. She will understand how much she means to all of us and there will be no doubt in her mind. We will do everything in our power to make all of them fucking disappear.
“I know, that’s the problem. You guys would, and my father, you don’t understand,” she says, shaking her head at me. It makes my heart ache, I don’t know everything he has done to her, but we can guess, and all of them are pretty fucking dark.
I lift up my hand and place it gently against her face. She closes her eyes and leans into my touch.
“Then help us to understand,” I whisper, unable to hide the weariness in my voice. We want to be here for her, we want to experience her emotions with her, but we can’t if she doesn’t fucking let us in.
“He will kill you,” she states as a tear escapes her closed eyes and rolls down her face.
“We aren’t that easy to kill love,” I whisper in a low dark voice. Many people have tried to kill us and no one has been able to even come close. He can try but at the end of the day it will be him that dies not us and sure as fuck not her. We will make damn sure of that.
“What’s going on?” Lin asks. Nicki opens her eyes and pulls away from me taking several steps back making me nervous, very fucking nervous.
Dav and Lin both stop at my sides, all three of us are watching Nicki as her eyes look at each of us. “I can’t ask you guys to leave this place, I won’t.” She starts shaking again, her anxiety building.
“Baby girl,” Dav reaches out his hand to her, but she shakes her head at him and takes another step back.
“I swear to fucking God if you take another step,” I growl through gritted teeth.
“I rather him take me, use me, and do whatever the fuck he is going to do, than leave here and all of you be in danger,” she pleads. Her words hurt all of us, including her. We can guess what he has planned for her, and what he would do if he ever actually got his hands on her. If that happens there would be no one there to stop him, he made it very clear what his intentions are, and we would never let her go through that, especially not for us.
My heart stops and drops with her words. There is no fucking way in hell we would let her give herself to that motherfucker for us. That is never going to fucking happen even if that means we have to fucking tie her up and watch over her. She is never going back to her father.
She takes several steps back, making me shake my head. “Please love don’t do this,” I beg her.
We all watch the tears fall from her eyes and roll down her face. I see it in her eyes, it’s clear exactly how she feels about us, and she would give up herself for us, just like I know we would all give ourselves for her. It’s what you do for the ones you love, and we do love her, and she loves us, and we are all fucking terrified.
“Please,” I plead, taking a small step forward. She stands still for a moment.
“Don’t run from the pain, the pain is what makes us stronger,” she whispers.
The tears I have been holding back escape my eyes and roll down my face when she quickly turns around and takes off running into the blackness. But this time, this fucking time, we aren’t going to lose her. Without needing to think about it Dav, Lin, and I take off running after her. We will catch her and we will suffer with her, because we do in fact love her.
65
When it rains... it pours.
2 YEARS AGO
66
Nicki
Iwake up on the ground again, but this time I feel something on my neck. I slowly pull myself up and lean my shoulder against the bed frame. I lift my hands up to my neck and there is a leather collar wrapped around my throat. I can feel my heart beating out of my chest while I feel around in the darkness, it’s there that I find the chain that is connected to the collar. I follow the length of the chain to my bed, motherfucker fucking chained me to the bed.
