Long Live Evil, page 47
Eventually I pass out, thank God. When I wake up, there’s a teenage girl in the uniform of the palace healers, the glow of green thaumite leaking between the clenched fingers of her shaking hand. A small pool of vomit by the door marks where she lost her lunch at the sight of me. I wonder what the wilders have threatened her with.
She grows back most of my missing bits, but leaves me with a few open wounds just for shits and giggles. Dark Lord’s orders, presumably. Fucker likes to twist the knife, figuratively and distressingly literally. At least when he killed Johann, my poor beautiful himbo boyfriend, he didn’t have time for any of this sadistic bullshit.
Now that I can think without being completely submerged in white-hot agony, I’m getting pissed off. I know you’re thinking, Davi, just now you’re getting pissed off ? And it’s true, this anger has been building for a while. It’s taken some time to bubble to the surface, but it’s been stewing down there in the acid swamps of my subconscious.
To put it bluntly: I am about done with this shit. The whole being-tortured-to-death thing, obviously, but also the rest. Finished. Kaput. No more. Fuck every last little bit of it. I have a new plan and it’s time to get started.
Fun fact: Did you know that snakes lose their teeth and constantly grow more, like sharks? Actually I have no idea if snakes do that, what the fuck do I know about snakes, but snake-wilders do. I know this, as of today, because I have one of Sibarae’s fangs embedded in my palm.
The healer has grown the skin back over it, but it’s merely the work of an excruciatingly painful eternity to dig it out with my fingernails. The fang has a nice curved shape and a vicious point, and I grip it between two fingers and press it against my wrist, right on the artery. I don’t have much leverage, so the best I can do is work the point back and forth, sawing through the skin. Hurts like a motherfucker, but sometimes a girl’s just gotta die, you know?
When the artery finally pops, the spatter of blood hitting the floor is like music to my ears. I keep tearing at the cut, opening it wider, willing my stupid heart to pump harder and get my whole blood supply out before someone notices. The fang slips through my fingers about the time my vision starts to go gray, but by then I can taste victory. Also blood.
I slip into the sweet embrace of death with a contented sigh. So long, #237. Go fuck a porcupine.
Life #238
“Well now.” The voice is frustratingly familiar. “That won’t do at all.”
Chapter One
I sit up out of the cold water of the pool, gasping for breath. Again.
Twelve seconds.
Done done done with this shit, for real. No more.
Still naked, of course. Death, birth, nudity, very mythic. Frankly if it has to be that way, I’d rather die in bed during an epic fuck1 than bleeding out after weeks of torture in my own fucking dungeon, but beggars, choosers, you know.
Ten seconds.
Anyway. Naked in a rancid pool of chilly water at the top of a hill. Edge of the Kingdom, right up against a wilder-haunted forest. I’m healthy and hale of limb once again, and also about three years younger, with a lot less muscle tone and a ghastly sort of pixie cut. Same as always. I figure it’s what I looked like when all of this kicked off, when whatever happened happened and I got here from Earth some-fucking-how.
Six seconds.
I focus on breathing. Calm and centered, that’s me.
Four seconds. Sound of someone scrambling up the rocks.
Take a deep breath. Hold it. Let it out.
Two. One.
“My lady!” Tserigern says. I mouth the lines with him. My timing is perfect. “So it’s true, then. Gods preserve us. We have a chance.”
I look over at him with my best expression of doe-eyed innocence. He climbs the last few feet, dusts off his motley robe, and approaches reverently.
Tserigern is a wizard, a very old and famous one. Everyone says he’s the most powerful wizard in the Kingdom, but frankly I’ve never seen him do magic for shit. Light the way in caves and get cryptic messages, that’s about it. You could replace him with a flashlight and a walkie-talkie. But he at least looks the part: He’s a bony old motherfucker with a beard you could lose a sheep in, like Santa Claus after a debilitating illness. He has kind, crinkly eyes and a sly grin, a weathered, avuncular voice perfect for laying out the mysteries of the universe for an awestruck young naïf. Just the guy you want on your side when you wake up all nudie in a weird fantasy universe with no idea what the fuck is going on.
He bends to one knee and offers me his gnarled hand.
“My lady,” he says as I wrap my fingers around his, “I—”
He doesn’t get to finish, because I grab the back of his head with my other hand and slam his face into the fucking rocks. I hear his nose break with a crunch, and my heart sings, it’s so goddamn cathartic. He lies out flat and I swing astride his back, both hands in his hair, and start pounding his stupid fucking face into mush against the stone edge of the pool.
Seeing as how he’s a little occupied, I say his lines for him.
“I know you must be frightened”—crunch—“but I swear to you, I mean you no harm”—crunch, you fucking liar—“I have hoped against hope for your coming, and I thank the gods my reading of the texts was true”—crunch, they didn’t predict this, did they, motherfucker?—“you must come with me, the fate of the Kingdom is balanced on the blade of a knife”—ca-crunch.
Holy fuck, it’s better than sex. I don’t stop until long after his legs have quit kicking and bits of blood and brains are floating in the water.
“I’m done,” I tell the body, leaning back and breathing hard. “Hear me? Done. I’m not some holy savior here to protect your fucking kingdom.” I’ve been doing that for, hold on, let me check my watch, fucking ten centuries, and where the fuck has it gotten me? A fucking snake-woman eating my goddamn fingers, that’s where.
I strip off his nasty-ass robe and wrap myself in it. He’s wearing trousers, too, but I’m not touching them without a hazmat suit.
“What am I going to do instead?” I say in response to an inaudible question. “I will tell you what I am going to fucking do. We have an expression back home concerning what course of action to take if you find yourself under no circumstances able to beat ’em. I intend to follow its advice.”
I tie the corners of the robe under my chin, plant my hands on my hips, and let it flap behind me like the cape of an extremely inappropriate superhero.
“I,” I announce to the world, “am going to become the fucking Dark Lord.”
Footnotes
1 He seriously never takes it off. How does he poop? I have to know how he poops.
2 The tongue would be fucking weird, right? Dunno. Maybe I’m into it.
3 This isn’t really true. I’m just trying to piss her off. No offense to my flatchested sisters!
1 Managed it once!
Sarah Rees Brennan, Long Live Evil
