The Red Lamp, page 1
The Red Lamp
Mary Roberts Rinehart
Contents
June 30, 19--
June 16th.
June 17th.
June 18th.
June 19th.
June 20th.
June 21st.
June 22nd.
June 23rd.
June 24th.
June 25th.
June 26th.
June 27th.
June 28th.
June 29th.
June 30th.
July 1st.
July 2nd.
July 3rd.
July 4th.
July 5th.
July 6th.
July 7th.
July 8th.
July 9th.
(On board the sloop) July 10th.
July 11th.
July 12th
July 13th.
July 14th.
Sunday, July 15th.
July 16th.
July 17th.
July 18th.
July 19th.
July 20th.
July 21st.
July 22nd.
July 23rd.
July 24th.
July 25th.
July 26th.
July 27th.
July 28th.
July 29th.
July 30th.
July 31st.
August 1st.
August 2nd.
August 3rd.
August 4th.
August 5th.
August 6th.
August 7th.
August 8th.
August 9th.
August 10th.
August 11th.
August 12th.
August 13th.
August 14th.
August 15th.
August 16th.
August 17th.
August 18th.
August 20th.
August 21st.
August 22nd.
August 23rd.
August 24th.
August 25th.
August 26th.
August 27th.
August 28th.
August 31st.
September 1st.
September 2nd.
September 3rd.
September 4th.
September 5th.
September 6th.
September 7th.
September 8th.
September 9th.
September 10th.
CONCLUSION
CHAPTER I
CHAPTER II
CHAPTER III
CHAPTER IV
June 1, 19—
Introduction to the Journal of William A. Porter, A.B., M.A., Ph.D., Litt.D., etc.
June 30, 19--
A FEW WEEKS AGO, at a dinner, a discussion arose as to the unfinished dramas recorded in the daily press. The argument was, if I remember correctly, that they give us the beginning of many stories, and the endings of as many more. But that what followed those beginnings, or preceded those endings, was seldom or never told.
It was Pettingill, of all persons, who turned the attention of the table to me.
“Take that curious case of yours, Porter,” he said. “Not yours, of course, but near your summer place two years ago. What ever happened there? Grace and I used to sit up all night to see who would get the morning paper first; then—it quit on us. That’s all. Quit on us.” He surveyed the table with an aggrieved air.
Helena Lear glanced across at me maliciously.
“Do tell us, Willie,” she said. She is the only person in the world who calls me Willie. “And give us all the horrible details. You know, I have always had a sneaking belief that you did the things yourself!”
Under cover of the laugh that went up, I glanced at my wife. She was sitting erect and unsmiling, her face drained of all its color, staring across the flowers and candles into the semidarkness above the buffet. As though she saw something.
I do not know; I never shall know, probably. I saw little Pettingill watching her unobtrusively, and following her eyes to the space over the buffet behind me, but I did not turn around. Possibly it was only the memories aroused by that frivolous conversation which made me feel, for a moment, that there was a cold wind eddying behind my back—
It occurred to me then that many people throughout the country had been intensely interested in our Oakville drama, and had been left with that same irritating sense of noncompletion. But not only that. At least three of the women had heard me make that absurd statement of mine, relative to the circle enclosing a triangle. There were more than Helena Lear, undoubtedly, who had remembered it when, early in July, the newspapers had announced the finding of that diabolical symbol along with the bodies of the slain sheep.
It seemed to me that it might be a duty I owed to myself as well as to the University, to clarify the matter; to complete the incomplete; to present to them the entire story with its amazing climax, and in effect to say to them and to the world at large, “This is what happened. As you see, the problem is solved, and here is your answer. But do not blame me if here and there is found an unknown factor in the equation; an X we do not know what to do with, but without which there would have been no solution. I can show you the X. I have used it. But I cannot explain it.”
As will be seen, I have taken the portion of my journal extending from June 16th, to September 10th of that year. Before that period, and after it, it is merely the day-by-day record of an uneventful life. Rather more fully detailed, since like Pepys I have used it as a reservoir into which to pour much of that residue which remains in a man’s mind over and above the little he gives out each day. Rather more fully detailed, too, since I keep it in shorthand, an accomplishment acquired in my student days, and used not to ensure the privacy of the diary itself, although I think my dear wife so believes, but to enable me, frankly, to exercise that taste for writing which exists in all of us whose business is English literature.
Show me any man who teaches literature, and I will show you a man thwarted. For it is our universal, hidden conviction that we, too, could write, were it not for the necessity of earning our daily bread. We start in as writers, only temporarily sidetracked. “Some day—” we say to ourselves, and go to our daily task of Milton or Dryden or Pope as those who, seeking the beauties of the country, must travel through a business thoroughfare to get there.
But time goes by, and still we do not write. We find, as life goes on, that all the great thoughts have already been recorded; that there is not much to say that has not been already said. And, because we are always staring at the stars, we learn the shortness of our arms.
We find a vicarious consolation in turning out, now and then, a man who is not daunted by tradition, and who puts his old wine into new bottles. We read papers before small and critical societies. And we sometimes keep journals.
And so—this journal. Much the same as when, under stress of violent excitement or in the peaceful interludes, I went to it as one goes to a friend, secure against betrayal. Here and there I have detailed more fully conversations which have seemed to bear on the mystery; now and again I have rounded a sentence. But in the main it remains as it was, the daily history of that strange series of events which culminated so dramatically on the night of September 10th in the paneled room of the main house at Twin Hollows.
Of this house itself, since it figures so largely in the narrative, a few words should be said. The main portion of it, the hall which extended from the terrace toward the sea through to the rear and the drive, the paneled den and the large library in front of it are very old. To this portion, in the seventies, had been added across the hall, by some long-forgotten builder, a dining-room opposite the library and facing the sea, pantries, kitchen, laundry, and beyond the laundry a nondescript room originally built as a gun room and still containing the gun cases on the walls.
In later years the gun room, still so called, had fallen from its previous dignity and served divers purposes. In my Uncle Horace’s time old Thomas, the gardener, used it on occasion as a potting-room. And on wet days washing was hung up in it to dry. But it remained the “gun room,” and so figures in this narrative.
In the rebuilding considerable judgment had been shown, and the broad white structure, with its colonial columns to the roof, makes a handsome appearance from the bay. It stands on a slight rise, facing the water, and its lawn extends to the edge of the salt marsh which divides it from the sea.
This is Twin Hollows. A place restful and beautiful to the eye; a gentleman’s home, with its larkspurs and zinnias, its roses and its sundial, its broad terrace, its great sheltered porch, and its old paneling. Some lovely woman should sweep down its wide polished staircase or, armed with basket and shears, should cut roses in the garden with its sundial—that sundial where I stood the night the bell clanged. But it stands idle. It will, so long as I live, always stand idle.
Of my Uncle Horace, who also figures largely in the journal, a few words are necessary. He graduated from this University. He had died suddenly in June of the year before the journal takes up the narrative, presumably of cardiac asthma, from which he had long suffered. A gentleman and a scholar, an essential solitary, there had been no real intimacy between us. Once in a while I passed a week-end in the country with him, and until the summer of the narrative, my chief memory of him had been of a rather small and truculent elderly gentleman, with the dry, sharp cough of the heart sufferer, pacing the terrace beneath my window at night in the endless search of the asthmatic for air, and smoking for relief some particularly obnoxious brand of herbal cigarette.
Until the summer of the narrative—
Ever since I have been considering the making public of the journal, I have been asking myself this question, as one which will undoubtedly be asked when the book is published. What effect have the events of that summer had on my previous convictions?
Have I changed? Do I now believe that death is but a veil, and that through that veil we may now and then, as through a glass, see darkly?
I can only answer that as time has gone on I find they have exerted no permanent effect whatever. I am still profoundly agnostic. My wife and I have emerged from it, I imagine, as one emerges from a seance room where the phenomena have been particularly puzzling; that is, bewildered and half convinced for the moment, but without any change in our fundamental incredulity.
The truth is that if these things be, they are too great for our human comprehension; the revolution demanded in our ideas of the universe is too basic. And, as the journal will show, too dangerous.
All houses in which men have lived and suffered and died are haunted houses, I have written somewhere in the journal. And if thoughts are entities, which may impress themselves on their surroundings, perhaps this is true.
But dare I go further? Restate my conviction at the time that the solution of our crimes had been facilitated by assistance from some unseen source? And that, having achieved its purpose, this force forthwith departed from us? I do not know.
The X remains unsolved.
But I admit that more than once, during the recent editing of this journal for publication, I have wakened at night covered with a cold sweat, from a dream in which I am once more standing in the den of the house at Twin Hollows, the red lamp lighted behind me, and am looking out into the hall at a dim figure standing at the foot of the staircase.
A figure which could not possibly be there. But was there.
(Signed)
WILLIAM A. PORTER.
June 16th.
COMMENCEMENT WEEK IS OVER at last, thank heaven, and with no more than the usual casualties. Defeated at the ball game, 9—6. Lear down with ptomaine, result of bad ice cream somewhere or other. Usual reunions of old boys, with porters staggering under the suitcases, which seem to grow heavier each year.
Nevertheless, the very old ’uns always give me a lump in the throat, and I fancy there was a considerable amount of globus hystericus as Uncle Horace’s class marched onto the field on Class Day. Only eight of them this year, Uncle Horace being missing. Poor old boy!
Which reminds me that Jane thought she saw him with the others as they marched in. Wonderful woman, Jane! No imagination ordinarily, meticulous mind and only a faint sense of humor. Yet she drags poor old Horace out of his year-old grave and marches him onto the field, and then becomes slightly sulky with me when I laugh!
“I told you to bring your glasses, my dear,” I said.
“How many men are in that group?” she demanded tensely.
“Eight. And, for heaven’s sake, lower your voice.”
“I see nine, William,” she said quietly. And when she stood up to take her usual snapshots of the alumni procession she was trembling.
A curious woman, Jane.
So another year is over, and what have I to show for it? A small addition to my account in the savings bank, a volume or two of this uneventful diary, some hundreds of men who perhaps know the Cavalier Poets and perhaps not, and some few who have now an inkling that English literature did not begin with Shakespeare.
What have I to look forward to? Three months of uneventful summering, perhaps at Twin Hollows—if Larkin ever gets the estate settled—and then the old round again. Milton and Dryden and Pope. Addison and Swift.
“Mr. Sims, have you any idea who wrote the Ancient Mariner? Or have you by chance ever heard of the Ancient Mariner?”
“Wordsworth, I believe, sir.”
Yet I am not so much discontented as afraid of sinking into a lethargy of smug iconoclasm. It is bad for the soul to cease to expect grapes of a thistle, for the next stage is to be “old and a cynic; a carrion crow,” like the old man in Prince Otto, with rotten eggs the burthen of my song.
Yet what is that I want? My little rut is comfortable; so long have I lain in it that now my very body has conformed. I fit my easy chair beside my reading lamp; my thumbs are broadened with much holding of books. I depend on my tea.
Yesterday, calling on Lear, I must have voiced my uneasiness, for he at once suggested a hobby. His bed was littered with mutilated envelopes.
“Nothing like it,” he said. “It’s the safety valve of middle life, and the solace of age.”
“I’m not quite sure I want a safety valve,” I said, and I fancied he looked at me suspiciously.
A hobby! Shall I gather postage stamps, and inquire of a letter not from whom it comes, but from where? Or adopt Jane’s camera, and take little pictures of unimportant folk doing uninteresting things? Or go, as Lear finally suggested, afishing? Is it to be my greatest adventure to pull a fish out of the water and watch it drown with wide-opened mouth, in the air? Ah, me!
“Greatest rest in the world for the brain,” Lear said. “Fishing.
“I’m not sure I want a rest for my brain,” I protested. “I dare say what I need is a complete change.”
“Well, try ptomaine,” he said dryly, and with that I went away.
But I dare say Lear is right. The prospect of my three months vacation has gone to my head somewhat. And I dare say, too, that I am much like the solitary water beetle Jock found on the kitchen floor last night. That is, willing enough to leave my snug spot behind the warm pipes of life until danger threatens, or discomfort, and then all for scurrying back, atremble, into unexciting security again.
June 17th.
AFTER ALL, SECURITY HAS its points.
I am the object of a certain amount of suspicion today on the part of my household! There is no place in the world, I imagine, for a philosopher with a sense of humor, a new leisure, and an inquiring turn of mind! In fact, I sometimes wonder whether any philosopher belongs in the present day and generation. These are times of action. Men think and then act; sometimes, indeed, they simply act.
But a philosopher, of course, should only think.
And all this because last night I set Jane’s clock forward one hour. Because, forsooth, I had determined to cease casting my eyes out on the world, and to study intensively that small domain of my own which lies behind the drain pipe!
During some nine months of the year I bring home to Jane from the lecture room the mere husk of a man; exhausted with the endeavor to implant one single thought into a brain where it will germinate, I sink into my easy chair and accept the life of my household. Tea. Dinner. A book. Bed. And this is my life. My existence, rather.
But with the close of the spring term I find a faint life stirring within me.
“Isn’t this a new tea?” I will say.
“You have been drinking it all winter,” Jane will reply, rather shortly.
Yesterday was my first free day, and last night I wandered about the house, looking over my possessions and rediscovering them.
“You’ve had the sofa done over, my dear.”
“Before Christmas,” Jane replied, and glanced at me. In return I glanced at Jane.
It dawns on a man now and then that he knows very little about his wife. He knows, of course, the surface attributes of her mind, her sense of order—Jane is orderly—her thrift, and Jane is thrifty. She has had to be! But it came to me suddenly that I knew very little of Jane, after all.
She is making one of those endless bits of tapestry, which some day she will put on the seat of a chair, and thereafter I shall not be expected to sit in that chair. But it is not a work which requires profound attention. She was working at it at the moment, her head bent, her face impassive.
“What are you thinking about, Jane?” I asked her.
“I really wasn’t thinking at all.”
I dare say from that I fell to speculating on Jane’s mind, and that does not imply a criticism. Rather on the contrary, for Jane has an excellent mental equipment. But I am sometimes aware that she possesses certain qualities I do not possess. For example, it would be impossible for me to imagine, as Jane did on Class Day, that I saw Uncle Horace. Although, like all men with defective vision, I have occasional optical illusions. But it is equally impossible for me to deny that she did see Uncle Horace, and there has been a certain subtle change in her since which convinces me of her sincerity.
