Playing the Part, page 4
As she gained back her breath, I pulled away from her warm heat and looked up at her. I could still feel her wetness on my face but I was in no hurry to wipe it away. Quite the contrary. I liked having her smell on me.
Still breathing hard, weak arms helped her sit up on the bed. For the longest time, neither of us spoke. She was back to being Dani and I was simply Levi.
Eyes lost in hers, I didn’t know what to say. I was afraid she’d feel bad about what we had just done now that the moment had passed. I was scared we would drown in awkward silence but that was forgetting who I was facing.
“Damn, Levi, you don’t need hockey to be a champion. You already eat pussy like one.”
CHAPTER 4
Levi
I stared at the phone in my hand, blinking, once, twice and three times before the words could work their way into my brain.
In the two years since she started tutoring me, not once had Dani canceled on me. Actually, I vividly remembered a time where she was sick with the flu and still came to our session. She was a sniffling mess but somehow, her red nose and rosy cheeks were cute and made her look all the more endearing.
The fact that she went out of her way to help me study because my exam was only a couple of days away and I couldn’t afford to miss a session meant a lot to me. Of course, I had insisted she stay in her room and rest but yeah, Dani wasn’t the type to simply listen. Once she set her mind on something, she went for it.
So when I blinked a fourth time and the words “sorry, can’t come tonight, see you next week” were still very much present on my phone screen, I started to get anxious.
I hoped against hope that her suddenly dipping on me had nothing to do with what happened two days ago but, deep down, I knew it did.
She seemed okay after we were done. A little awkward, sure, but that was a common occurrence with her. Dani was always awkward. In an adorable way.
After basically saying I was a pussy-eating champion, she just fell back on the bed, regaining her breath. I had laughed, letting my head fall against the mattress. We stayed that way for a few seconds before she remembered she was naked and started covering herself with the sheets.
Then I’d gotten a text from Kane, my roommate, saying there was a problem with the shower back at our dorm. So there wasn’t much talking involved after that. I just smacked a kiss on Dani’s cheek, pulled the shirt out of my pants so it would hang over my crotch and at least hide the wet cum stain on it. I had never been so uncomfortable walking around campus and actually had to go to the dorm next door to shower when I got home because there was a problem with ours.
I hadn’t heard from Dani until today. I knew we would need to talk about the logistics of this agreement eventually, and I had hoped we could have done that during today's tutoring session.
Seemed like that was out of the question now.
Fuck, I truly hoped I didn’t screw everything up between us. Everything in me demanded I go back to her dorm and ask if we could talk, but I was actually scared it would only put her off further.
So I settled for a text instead.
Levi: Are we good?
Pinching my lips together, I stared at my phone for a few seconds, hoping that maybe she would see my text and respond in the next moment, but when no dots appeared, I gathered she didn’t have her phone on her. That made me decide to swing by her place later if no answer came through. Not even to talk about everything that went down between us, simply to see if she was okay.
I was already at the library since I had thought coming in early would give us enough time to talk before we had to focus on our study sesh. I was just studious like that.
Since I was already there, I decided I would simply sit my ass on a table and study alone for a bit. Walking to the back of the building, I was about to pick a table when the door to the private room where Dani usually held her tutoring sessions swung open.
And imagine my surprise when little miss Last-Minute-Cancellation walked out of there awkwardly laughing with no other than Jace fucking Garriz. That asshole.
So that was the reason why she didn’t want to see me. Jace had finally accepted her deal and since he’d been her first choice anyways, she went with it.
I couldn’t really be mad at her. What happened between us was hot as fuck–it really was— but she didn’t owe me anything. If she preferred his icy majesty's freezing penis to mine, then so be it. Fuck, I wish I didn’t sound as bitter as I felt.
I was about to quietly get the fuck away from them when Dani suddenly looked up, still listening to whatever Jace-hole was saying.
Her eyes caught mine and they widened a bit. Shit, I hoped I didn’t look too pathetic, standing in the middle of the History aisle, hand still clutching my phone. Who was I kidding? I looked as pathetic as I could have.
Swallowing the ball of nerves that had gathered in my throat, I turned my back on them and walked away to a more secluded table. Tossing my bag on top of it, I slumped on the chair and started digging my stuff out.
Honestly, I hated myself a little bit for feeling so down. After all, no words were exchanged, no promises were made.
That thought made me stop in my tracks.
Fuck.
No words were exchanged.
What if–
The sudden realization made my blood freeze. What if Daniella had felt pressured by me? What if she didn’t think she had a choice in the matter?
Oh my God, of course she didn’t want to see me! I had barged into her room, violated her privacy by reading her dirty blog. She seemed to have enjoyed herself afterwards but what if the regrets had come after I left?
I needed to get out of here, find her and apologize. Of fuck, I needed–
“Levi?”
My head turned so fast I thought I gave myself whiplash for a second.
Dani stood there, one hand clutching her tote bag while the other played with the hem of her sweater. I immediately stood up.
“Dani–”
“–I’m so sorry.” The fact that we said that simultaneously brought a frown to my face.
“What? What the hell would you be sorry for?”
She bit her lip. “I canceled on you at the last minute and then you saw me with Jace just now and I really didn’t want you to think I was… I don’t know, avoiding you or something.”
Well, I couldn’t deny it was how I felt.
“You would have every right to. I– I’m really sorry if I made you feel uncomfortable the other day, I just…” I exhaled a breath, not wanting her to believe I was looking for excuses. “I saw how much you cared about your blog and I thought I would help you out, you know? Surprise you, be spontaneous. I’m sorry if you felt pressured into doing anything with me.” Fuck I wanted to barf.
“Oh my God, Levi!” Her brown eyes went round and she took a step towards me. “You didn’t pressure me into anything, I swear.” The sincerity in her eyes made it a little easier to breathe.
But then nervousness and dread were replaced by rejection. It stung knowing she had gone to Jace at the first chance she got even after the mind-blowing orgasm she rode to on my face.
“Are you sure?”
“Of course. I know you would have stopped and gone back to your dorm had I demanded it.” She gave me a small smile, her plump lips pinched together. “If anything, I’m sorry. I can see how ridiculous this idea was now and I know you probably didn’t even enjoy anything we– we did.” Her cheeks were getting deliciously pink and I felt a small smile tugging at my lips.
That girl was so clueless. She had no idea how fucking pleasurable that night was for me. I had come in my pants, for God’s sake! Without her even touching me, just thrusting against the side of her bed while my lips were sucking on her clit. Fuck, just remembering the silky wetness made me hard.
“And quite frankly, I’m kind of ashamed too. I know you probably think less of me now, so I guess I was kind of avoiding you earlier. I just– I didn’t want you to think I was weird.”
Where the fuck were these thoughts coming from? Where was the confident girl who blurted out anything she could think of?
“Hold on, Dani. You do not think I would look down on you because you enjoyed having sex, right?”
“Well, not having sex per se. Just the… you know. The role-play thing. I don’t want you to think I’m a freak.” She looked down, fingers still nervously playing with the hem of her sweater.
“Dani, I loved what we did that night.” My voice was low and I took a step towards her. I didn’t like the way she was… what? Kink shaming or slut shaming herself? That wouldn’t do. “I think the role-play made everything a thousand times hotter. And if you still want to give your idea a chance… if you still don’t have anyone you’d like to try it with– I’m here. I would love to do that again.”
It seemed I had done the impossible. I had made Daniella Vega speechless.
And I didn’t know what to do about that silence.
Her cheeks were crimson by now and her mouth was slightly ajar.
“I– really? You didn’t think it was weird that we called each other by other names? That I was bossing you around?”
“Not gonna lie, I would prefer we stuck to our regular names most of the time but I didn’t mind that much.” I was glad it was my name she had moaned when that climax had hit, though. “As for the bossing around, you can do that whenever you want as long as I get to do it too, sometimes.”
I had never had a girl tell me what to do in the bedroom, it was usually the other way around, actually. But when she called me a good boy the other day? Fuck if that didn’t make my cock hard.
Daniella’s eyes stared deep into mine as she bit her lip, as if trying to gauge whether I was telling the truth or not.
“Levi, if you're making fun of me right now I won’t be able to forgive you.” Her small voice wiped any trace of a smile off my lips.
Fuck, what the hell happened in the last two days for her to rethink her idea to this point?
“Kitten, I would never make fun of you on a subject I know you care so deeply about. Listen, I know we don’t really talk or anything outside of our study sessions, but I like you, Dani. I’ve always liked you. You’re a nice girl, you’re funny and I consider you a friend. We’ve known each other for two years and I think you’re a great person. I’m not gonna lie and say my interest here is totally selfless though, because although I really want to help you improve your stories, I’m also really attracted to you.”
I was breathless and nervous by the time I finished speaking. I hadn’t planned on laying my innermost thoughts out on the table like that but shit, might as well come clean.
“So… you would really do that for me?” head tilted on the side, she looked adorable. Seriously, did that girl not realize how hot she was?
“Not just for you, honestly. I’ve been dying to taste you again since I rushed out of your dorm the other day.” My hand came up to rub at my nape, a bit embarrassed.
Truth be told, it had been a while since I had a real conversation with a girl before I engaged with her in a sexual way. It had also been a while since I’d had sex.
I know there were a lot of clichés regarding jocks and hockey players in particular. And while these were mostly true, I tried not to make it a habit to sleep around. Well, not anymore at least.
I wasn't really into the whole girlfriend thing. I think my last relationship was when I was a sophomore in high school and even then I’d learned she was only dating me because her dad was a fan of mine and wanted bragging rights.
So yeah, one night stands and puck bunnies were the best option for me. I had indulged a great deal once I started college, but at the end of last year, I found myself kind of bored and disgusted with the lifestyle. One day I had picked up a chick at a bar in town and we made it back to my place. Imagine my surprise when she said “I’m so glad I get to have you again.”
Again.
I had already slept with her the month before. A month. And I had already forgotten all about her.
That’s when it clicked for me. I didn’t want to live like that anymore.
I didn’t want to settle down either so I decided to simply go abstinent for a few months. Or on a sex diet as Kane would say.
Daniella looked like a deer in the headlights, staring in surprise.
“So… what do you say, kitten? Do you want to do this with me?”
Daniella
It was insane.
This whole thing had been my idea but now that someone actually agreed to go with it, I realized how totally insane it was. Levi stared at me with hopeful eyes, we were standing so close to one another that I could actually smell his cologne and it made me want to put my head in the crook of his neck and inhale deeply.
Yeah. Not creepy at all.
Truth was, I was dying to say yes, but after the little conversation I’d just had with Jace, I didn’t know what to do.
“By the way, you weren’t serious the other day, right?” His question was followed by an awkward laugh and uneasy eyes.
My gut told me it was best not to say the truth.
“O-of course not.” I lied, giving him the best fake smile I could muster.
His shoulders sagged in relief and he laughed again.
“Damn, Dani, that wasn’t funny.” he shook his head, “you know I could never do that to you, anyways. I respect you too much.”
That got me frowning. “You can’t fuck and respect a girl?”
He looked uncomfortable all of a sudden.
“Of course I can. But, just a regular fuck. Not all that kinky stuff you mentioned. Good girls aren’t supposed to be freaks. And you’re a good girl, Dani. You’re the kind of girl a guy marries, not the one he has fun with, if you know what I mean.”
That was all it took for my blood to start boiling in my veins.
What. The. Actual. Fuck.
I liked Jace. He was a good friend growing up but if that was the kind of guy he became, then I was glad we didn’t hang out anymore. What a sexist jerk.
I hated that his words brought a part of fear into me, though. Because I liked being a good girl. That’s who I’d always been and what I'd always known. But I also loved what had happened in my dorm two days ago. And I didn’t think both of those were incompatible.
Maybe I was wrong. After all, I had no experience regarding these things. Dread settled in the pit of my stomach as Jace resumed writing in his notebook. Did Levi think less of me because of what happened between us?
I didn’t believe in that ‘I can only respect good girls’ bullshit, but I also didn’t want to be with a guy who didn’t respect me based on the type of sex we were having.
Plus, I hadn’t heard from him since the day he came into my dorm. He'd received a text and then all but hightailed it out of there after smacking a kiss onto my cheek. He hadn’t contacted me since then.
Fuck, I was so stupid.
Grabbing my phone, I opened his contact and fired a quick text, canceling our session. It was the first time I did that, but honestly I needed to think. Alone.
“You know what, I actually don’t feel so good. I think we’ll cut today’s session short.” I started gathering my stuff without waiting for an answer.
He looked speechless for a second or two before putting his things away too. We stood and walked to the door together. I think he said something but I can’t be too sure. My ears were ringing with how much I was overthinking everything right then.
We walked out of the room and he spoke again, giving me an awkward smile. I laughed as well as I could but the sound was so fake to my ears that it irritated them. I just couldn’t wait to get far away from him and his stupid point of view.
I tried really hard to tell myself that Levi didn’t think like that. That just because we’d done ‘freaky stuff’, as Jace called them, didn’t mean he saw me as a sort of promiscuous hussy ready to throw herself at anyone.
My God, what if he did think that?
Speaking of the devil. Just when I was about to turn around and head out of the building, my eyes caught sight of him.
He was an aisle away from me, but there was no mistaking those wide shoulders and huge frame. Levi looked from me to Jace and to me again before turning around and heading for the back of the library.
Fuck.
Not wanting him to believe I was avoiding him– I wasn’t really, I just needed time to think, I said goodbye to Jace, not caring about whatever the fuck he was babbling about, and speed walked in the direction he had just disappeared in.
