Watch Me Burn, page 1
Watch Me Burn
Watch Me, Volume 1
K J Baker
Published by K J Baker, 2022.
This is a work of fiction. Similarities to real people, places, or events are entirely coincidental.
WATCH ME BURN
First edition. June 30, 2022.
Copyright © 2022 K J Baker.
ISBN: 979-8201379506
Written by K J Baker.
Table of Contents
Title Page
Copyright Page
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 1
What the hell am I doing here?
It’s at least the tenth time I’ve asked myself that question tonight. I’m standing at the back of a room filled with strangers. The room hums with mindless conversation, banging music, and something else I can’t quite put my finger on. Desperation?
Of course, it’s the first week of college and everyone is looking to make friends. Or get laid, depending on your disposition.
I take a sip of lemonade and watch the goings-on through my eyelashes, trying hard not to get noticed. In the corner, Maria, my roommate, is pinned against the wall by some guy she’s never met before. Her high-pitched giggle cuts over the din as he leans forward to whisper something in her ear. Whatever he said, she seems to like it as she allows him to press his body against hers and then slip his hand up her skirt. I quickly look away, heat flooding my cheeks.
Ah, dammit. I really should make more of an effort. Talk to people. Make some friends. At the very least, get blasted like everyone else seems so intent on doing. That’s what tonight is about, right?
We’ve got to go! Maria squealed earlier in our dorm room. Everyone’s talking about it. It’s the party of freshman week. Anyone who’s anyone will be there. And the guy hosting it is some big shot football player whose parents’ house is like a mansion. So, you’ll come with me, please?
And so here I am. Painted nails, black dress, and high heels that threaten to turn my ankle every time I move. But the truth is, I’d really rather be at home reading a book. Writing an assignment. Hell, washing my hair would do. I’m not good at social events. Never have been.
I flinch as a thought suddenly strikes me. Nerdy Nancy up to her old tricks, eh? Nerdy Nancy. The nickname followed me all through school. The popular girls would throw it at me like it was a jagged piece of glass. I’d like to say you get used to the taunts and learn to shrug it off. But the truth is, I’m not sure you ever do. You just wear your scars on the inside. Nerdy Nancy wouldn’t have come to this party. She’d have her nose stuck in a book, completing assignments that everyone else hadn’t even bothered to start yet.
I don’t want to be her anymore. Nobody here knows me. College is my new start. So why the hell do I hate this party so much? Why can’t I relax and chat to strangers the way everyone else seems to do so easily? Why can’t I just say fuck it and down the free booze until all my inhibitions evaporate?
I take a deep breath and close my eyes. Count my heartbeat: one, two, three. Open my eyes. Right. Let’s get this party started. The table is piled high with booze you can help yourself to. I think most of us might be underage, but nobody seems to give a shit about that. If no one else cares, why should I? Yep. I’m gonna get myself blasted. I put down my lemonade and weave carefully through the room.
I don’t see the guy until it’s too late. I just have time to register his size before he slams into my side, throwing me against the wall and tipping warm beer down my dress. I gasp, more from shock than pain.
The guy turns toward me, and I realize he’s drunk. The way he staggers is a giveaway and the stench of beer on his breath only confirms it. He’s massive, over six feet tall and built like a brick shithouse. His shirt looks too small for him, buttons stretching and collar tight around his thick neck.
“Hey. Sorry, baby,” he mumbles, stepping closer than I’d like. “You okay?”
He leans in, hands braced on the wall either side of my head, and I realize I’m trapped.
“It’s fine,” I say quickly. “I’ll go get cleaned up.”
His eyes slide slowly up and down my body and a grin spreads over his face. “You take that dress off for me and I’ll towel you down. What do you say?”
He leans closer and I shrink back. “No thanks.”
“Aw, don’t be like that.”
Then, before I can react, his hand is squeezing my breast and the other is running up the inside of my leg. His breath is hot on my neck as he breathes in my ear, “I know how I can make it up to you, baby.”
Options run through my head. I could scream for help. Knee him in the groin. Go along with what he wants and try to enjoy it... Er, no way. I settle for slamming my palms into his chest and pushing with all my strength.
He doesn’t budge. It’s like trying to push a wall. In fact, he seems amused by my efforts, as a grin flashes across his features.
“Playing hard to get, baby. I like that.”
Shit. Now what? His hand is still moving slowly up my thigh, getting close to where I definitely do not want him to go.
“Stop it!” I hiss. “Let me go!” I’m horrified by how weak and whiny I sound. What happened to the new assertive me?
Another voice suddenly cuts in. “What the fuck are you doing, Ryan? She told you to back off!”
The guy looks up and a spasm of annoyance creases his face. “Fuck off, Connor. This bitch is mine.”
There’s a grunt, a smack and suddenly Ryan is gone, and I pull in a breath of sweet, sweet air. I turn to see Ryan facing up to another guy who’s stood in front of me like some knight in shining armor. Right now, I could kiss him. He’s got his back to me, but over his shoulder I can see that Ryan is building up to violence. His face has gone red and his eyes glint with drunken aggression.
“You’re gonna regret that, Connor. Keep your nose out of my fucking business.”
My rescuer spreads his hands wide. “I wouldn’t have to stick my nose in your business if you’d stop behaving like a dick. What the fuck are you playing at?”
“You’re pissed coz I’m doing so much better than you. I’m on four already. How many have you screwed? Zero?” He waves a finger at me. “She was gonna be my fifth.”
“Yeah, well I’m sure there’s plenty of others who’d be more than willing. Why don’t you go find one?”
Ryan is silent for a moment, his bleary eyes flicking from me to my rescuer, and I can see that he’s deciding whether he can be bothered to get into a fight. It seems he can’t. After a second, he shrugs.
“Whatever.”
He staggers off into the crowd and is gone. My rescuer sighs and turns to look at me.
“You okay?”
I open my mouth to speak, but the words die in my throat. Piercing green eyes catch and hold me. This guy is gorgeous. And I mean gorgeous. He’s of average height and build, but I can see through his tight T-shirt that he’s ripped. Messy blond hair falls to his shoulders and frames a face of smooth skin and high cheekbones. His lips are parted slightly, and I can hear his breath softly moving in and out of his chest.
Oh my God. Oh. My. God.
He leans forward, a frown of concern creasing his forehead. “He didn’t hurt you, did he?”
With an effort, I pull myself together. Shaking my head, I mutter, “No. I’m fine. Only a little damp.”
“Yeah, sorry about that. Ryan’s not a bad guy really. Just a bit of an asshole when he’s drunk. I’m Connor, by the way.”
“Nancy,” I croak.
Silence falls. He’s staring at me, that green gaze like a magnet that freezes me in place. There’s something sparking in the air between us. I swear I can feel his heartbeat even though he’s standing more than an arm’s length away. All sounds recede. The party disappears. There’s only him, filling my vision.
Then he looks away and the moment is broken. I blink, feeling foolish. Something like shame makes my cheeks burn. I suddenly need to get away. From him. From this god-damned party. From everyone.
“Nice to meet you, Connor.”
Before he can answer, I push past him and head for the stairs. I tell myself I’m not running away.
I WATCH AS SHE PUSHES through the crowd away from me. And who can blame her? Who wouldn’t run from a guy who stares at her like some drooling idiot, unable to think of anything to say? Sweet Jesus, the most beautiful girl I’ve ever seen, and I go and ruin it!
What the fuck am I doing here? This party is turning out exactly how I thought it would. For a second there, I thought Ryan was going to punch me. He can be a real asshole. Sometimes I wonder why I’m even friends with him. Ryan is a big bastard, sure, but I’m faster and I can take him down if I need to. He knows that which is why he probably doesn’t push me as far as he could. What a dick.
I lift the bottle to my lips and take another swig of beer. It’s damned good, much more expensive than any college student has a right to. I still have no idea how Ryan manages to convince his parents to let him throw these parties. The house gets trashed every time and yet they keep footing the bill. Comes with being a spoiled only child, I suppose. Being a football ace probably helps a bit too.
“Connor!”
I turn at the sound of my name. Ryan is lounging on the sofa, arms spread along the back and
Five! He mouths at me.
I roll my eyes. Sweet Jesus. After three years at college, you’d think I’d be used to this crap. Fuck a Freshman Week. That’s what we call it. Amongst the second- and third-year boys, it’s something of a competition. Trouble is, most of the freshman girls seem only too happy to oblige, like it’s an initiation into college life or some such shit.
“Get a room,” I mouth at Ryan.
He shows me that stupid god-damned grin of his and I turn away, determined not to rise to the bait.
What the fuck am I doing here? Truth is, I’d much rather be at home writing a new song, or down by the river playing whatever comes into my head. That’s where I am most evenings in the summer. I take a couple of tins and my guitar and play until it gets dark. Down there, I can be myself. Down there, I can be just Connor. Unlike here.
I gaze slowly around the room and see a few glances flick in my direction. I know what they’re thinking. That’s him. Connor Black. Senator Black’s son. He’s loaded and single. It won’t take long before one of them comes over, all fake smiles and big eyes. They’ll hope that by sharing my bed they’ll share my fortune. I’ve indulged their fantasies more times than I care to admit and I’m not proud of the fact. Maybe one day I’ll meet a girl interested in me, not my family’s money. Yeah, right.
Except, tonight’s not been all bad. My thoughts keep returning to Nancy, the girl I rescued from Ryan. Holy shit, she was beautiful. I ought to forget her, but I can’t. Her face keeps popping into my head. She’s obviously new. She had that wide-eyed freshman look about her, but there was something else as well. A strange kind of stillness. Serenity? Oh hell. What am I talking about?
Setting down my beer, I set off to find her.
THE FIRST THING I REALIZE is that this place is huge. Upstairs there are long corridors filled with doors. Which one is the bathroom? I have no idea. I pick a door at random and enter only to come to a horrified halt, mouth dropping open.
A huge bed fills most of the room and on it two people are busy having furious sex. Their clothes are strewn over the floor showing their haste and the curtains have been pulled shut, throwing the room into gloomy shadow. The girl is on her hands and knees, long hair falling forward to curtain her face. She’s making high-pitched mewling sounds as a guy nails her from behind. They have their backs to me, thank god, so haven’t seen me standing here watching like some perv.
I’m horrified and fascinated at the same time. All I can see of the guy is his hands gripping her hips and his naked backside bunching and releasing as he fucks her like some kind of pneumatic drill, thrusting over and over. Their bodies are making slapping noises and the bed is creaking so loud I’m sure it must give way any minute.
Slowly, I back out, pull the door shut behind me and lean on it, heart hammering. I wonder if those people have ever met before or ever will again after tonight. Do they even know each other’s names?
Across the landing, a girl comes out of a room and I see with relief that it’s a bathroom. I let myself in and lock the door behind me. Running the faucet, I splash water on my face and do my best to wash out the beer that Ryan spilt down my dress. Tonight is not going well. I should be half drunk by now and chatting to lots of people. Making friends. That had been the plan. But instead, I’m more wound up than ever.
Why didn’t I stay and talk to Connor? Why did I run like some kind of coward? The thought of his handsome face makes my heart pound. Why is he affecting me like this? I only spoke to him for a minute. I’d like to say it’s the booze, but I haven’t had any yet.
I glance at my reflection in the mirror and see a confused little girl staring back at me. My eyes have always been too dark—vampire eyes they used to say at school—and now they’re filled with something. Confusion? Annoyance? Sure, both of those, but something else as well. Frustration, I guess. Why can’t I be like the other girls? This is supposed to be my new start. A new me. Nancy the Nerd dead and buried.
I shake my head at such stupid ideas. I don’t fit in here. I’m a small-town girl from a broken home who worked her ass off to win a scholarship to this place full of rich kids and football jocks. To be honest, I feel like a fraud. I smile wryly at myself in the mirror, watching those god-awful dimples appear in my cheeks. No. This was a bad idea. Definitely time to go home. I turn off the faucet and pull the bathroom door shut behind me with a click.
THERE ARE SO MANY PEOPLE I wonder if I’ll ever find her. I’ve looked upstairs, by the pool, in the sunroom. Nothing. Surely, she hasn’t left already? I push myself through the crowd, nodding greetings, sharing jokes, eyes scanning the crowd. Finally, I spot her. She’s heading toward the back door. I stop and watch. She seems to glide through the press of people. That hair of hers is like a shimmering black blanket falling down her back and her hips sway as she walks, drawing my eyes to her tight little ass.
I can’t help myself. I follow, pushing through the kitchen to the back door and out into the yard. Considering the number of people in the house, it’s amazingly quiet out here. Ryan’s parents’ place is huge, with grounds to match, and before me stretches a huge expanse of lawn and shrubbery and trees, all black in the night.
I gaze around, but she’s not here. I’m sure she came this way, so where could she have gone? Then I see her. Or rather, I see her silhouette over by the ornamental pond. She’s standing with her back to me. I hesitate. I want to go over. I want to talk to her, but what kind of an asshole sneaks up on a girl in the dark when she clearly wants to be alone?
I chew my bottom lip and then shrug. Okay, so I’m an asshole. I make my way across the lawn, scuffing my feet in the grass so she can at least hear me coming. I halt two paces behind her.
“Hi.”
She turns, startled, and I realize she was so lost in thought she hadn’t heard my approach after all. As her gaze flicks to my face, her pupils dilate, making her eyes seem like two pools of ink that I could fall into. Sweet Jesus. A shot of arousal flashes through me and my cock hardens, pushing against my jeans so tight it’s almost painful. I hope to god she doesn’t notice.
She says nothing, just stands there staring at me. I shift uncomfortably.
“Nice out here, huh?”
“Yes. I came out for some air.”
Silence settles between us. She seems to be breathing a little hard, like she’s been running or something. Her chest heaves in the little black dress and I can’t help myself as my eyes travel down her white neck to the crack in her cleavage between her high, round breasts. I swallow, forcing myself to look at her face, even as my cock stretches further.
“So, did you get yourself cleaned up?”
She nods. “Although I stink like a brewery.”
She smiles and two dimples appear in her cheeks. The sight makes my heart pound. God, she’s beautiful. I mean, really beautiful. I want to take that face in my hands and kiss those soft lips. I want to lay her down in the grass, her naked body under mine. I want to...
Shit. I need to get a grip. I cast around for something to say, but my mind seems full of fog.
“So, your first year at college?”
“Yep. English Literature. You?”
“Third year. Music Tech,” I lie.
Why did I say that? I’m not a music student, I’m studying business like my father decreed, so why did I tell her otherwise?
Her eyebrows raise and she cocks her head to one side. “You’re a musician?”
“Yeah, kind of. Or at least, I’d like to be. You know, professionally I mean. I play guitar in a couple of bands. It makes a few extra bucks.” This at least is true although my father would soon put a stop to it if he found out.
Those huge dark eyes focus on me and I can tell from the expression on her face that she’s reappraising me. With a jolt, I realize that she has no idea who I am. Who my father is. I want to say more, keep her talking, but she thrusts out her hand.
“Well, I better get going. See you around, Connor.”
