Under Pressure, page 26
It wasn’t her proudest moment. But, every time she’d stressed about it, she’d just remind herself that it was all who you knew, not what you knew. And if it got her the job, then all the better.
And, anyway, it wasn’t as if her connections could get her the job. She’d still needed to impress them. And she had.
She had gotten an A in every single one of her sports classes. Not to mention, cheering at a collegiate level for three years, her father being a coach, her brother being a star collegiate quarterback, and well…her boyfriend being an NFL quarterback…it all helped her. And she’d landed the job.
Pace had moved her out to his house in Oklahoma, but she had to spend much of her time on the road and in the ESPN studios. So, frankly, they saw each other less than they had when she was still in college. It was tough. Something she had only marginally considered. And she understood why a lot of sideline reporters would strive to get a job as an anchor; it had more stability. She couldn’t deny that she loved her job though. The traveling, the excitement, the football.
And, today, of all days, was a special day.
After working nearly an entire season as an NFL sideline reporter, she had finally been scheduled to one of Pace’s games. That meant she had gotten to spend a few days ahead of time with him when he wasn’t practicing. And she would get to see him for a day or two afterward.
Watching him never got old. He was as magnetic as he had been in college. Maybe more so. The way he had changed to play in the NFL really suited him. He was more consistent, and it showed in his fandom.
She still couldn’t get over the sheer number of people who were obsessed with her boyfriend. She had thought it was bad in college, but this was something else entirely. Half of the stadium was filled with people wearing his jerseys, and girls were everywhere.
But he never wavered. Not once. Not ever.
If she had been wary of all of this in college, she had no reason to doubt now. The man he had grown into put the boy he’d been to shame.
“We should get into position,” her cameraman, Chuck, said.
“Yeah, all right.”
But she didn’t budge. She waited another moment as Pace threw a rocket downfield and got the team another first down.
“Stacia,” Chuck groaned, “I know he’s your boyfriend, but…”
“All right, I’m coming. Let’s move.”
She marched down the field and got in position next to Chuck on the sidelines. The game only had a minute left, so she and Chuck strategized their post-game procedures. She turned to face Chuck just as the clock ran out, and she waited until she got her cue.
“Well, that’s the final. It’s mayhem down here with an Oklahoma Tornadoes win of twenty-four to ten over the Jacksonville Jaguars,” she said into the camera.
She talked for another minute before they cut back to the game. That was when Stacia and Chuck hurried into the crowd to get to the Tornadoes’ coach. Chuck caught him shaking hands with the Jaguars’ coach, and then he turned to give another interview.
“Damn,” Stacia muttered. She would have to wait her turn.
That was when she felt a presence next to her.
Pace pulled his helmet off and smiled down at her. “Hey, Pink.”
She blushed at the attention. “Hey. You up for an interview?” she only half-joked.
“With you? Of course.”
“Okay. Here we go,” Stacia said to Chuck.
He counted down, and then they were live.
“This is Stacia Palmer, here with the Tornadoes’ quarterback, Pace Larson. Pace, you had an excellent game tonight.”
“Thank you, Stacia,” he said, smiling down at her.
“Pace, you went thirty for thirty-two with two touchdowns and zero interceptions. How does it feel to beat the Jaguars on their home turf?”
Pace smiled down at Stacia and then said into the camera, “It feels incredible. We’ve been preparing for this game for a long time, and it’s nice when everything works out in your favor.”
“As a young quarterback still finding your place in the league, how do you feel your integration into the Tornadoes lineup has changed their program?”
“When I was drafted to the Tornadoes, I said I wanted to find a home with them, and I’ve done so. We’ve all had to make adjustments, working with new players and a new playbook, but I respect everyone who has given me this chance to help take the Tornadoes into a more competitive spotlight.”
“Excellent,” Stacia said.
“Do you mind if I ask you one question before we go?” Pace asked.
Stacia furrowed her brow and then remembered to smile and just go with it. “Of course.”
Pace dropped down onto one knee right then and there. Stacia’s hand flew to her mouth, and she nearly forgot the microphone in her hand. He pulled a box seemingly out of nowhere. She had no idea where he had been hiding it or if he had gone to get it when she was distracted. Tears welled in her eyes.
“Will you, Stacia Palmer, be my wife?”
“Oh my God,” she gasped. Her eyes stayed glued to his, and for all the world to see, she nodded. “Yes! Oh my God, yes!”
Pace laughed and then stood. He retrieved the ring and then slid it onto the finger on her left hand. It was a gorgeous circular diamond with a halo of diamonds and then a tiny band of diamonds that went all the way around the band. It was stunning. Her hand was shaking as she stared down at it in shock.
“Stacia,” Chuck hissed.
She came out of her trance long enough to realize she was still live. She held her hand up to the camera. “I’m getting married. And that’s all. Back to Mick in the studio.”
Chuck took them off-air, and the anchors were sure to be talking about her engagement on ESPN after that.
Chuck pulled her in for a hug. “Congratulations!”
“Thank you!”
Then, Pace was there, picking her up and twirling her around. “I love you,” he said to her.
“I love you, too.”
He placed her back on her feet.
“I cannot believe you just did that!”
“Proposed?” he asked, as if he were confused.
“On live television!”
He laughed. “What? Did you think you got placed on my game by accident? The studio knew. I cleared it with them.”
“Oh my God, you’re sneaky!”
“Only because I love you so much,” he said before a deep kiss. “And, soon, you’ll be Mrs. Stacia Larson.”
Stacia shook her head, feeling slightly dizzy at the prospect. “That sounds so…amazing. After all this, I’m still going to be a quarterback’s wife.”
Pace laughed. “Well, maybe I’m going to be a reporter’s husband.”
Stacia beamed. “I like that even better.”
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“Fuck,” I groaned. “I get the message.”
I threw my phone on the cushion next to me. No need to torture myself by reading any more of that. I couldn’t even believe my agent would send me those comments. Let alone on a Friday night before she left for the weekend. Even worse that it came through from her assistant with all those horrible notes about my writing.
Was this the writing on the wall? My agent was finally finding out that I was a hack. Two books and two years later with no offers and pile after pile of heartbreaking rejections. Maybe this was the end.
I stared around the beautiful Hamptons beach house I was vacation home–watching this fall. I’d been hired a month ago and shown up only three days prior, determined to finish my next manuscript. It was a dream come true to be here without any distractions—no parents or guys or anything. Just me and my computer screen.
Then, my agent had gone and dropped the biggest distraction imaginable on my plate. I glared at my screen.
Oh, hell no.
Hell. No.
I was not letting these letters set me back. Maybe Told You So wasn’t the book, but the next one might be.
No, I needed to cleanse myself of this bullshit. I didn’t normally subscribe to my mother’s New Age spiritualism. She spent her spare time reading about auras, staring into crystal balls, and divining from the stars. It was a running joke in my life at this point. But there was a time and place for everything. And, if I was going to get something done during the next couple of months, I needed to leave the past behind me.
I knew what I was going to do.
I was going to burn this motherfucker to the ground.
Okay, maybe a little dramatic. Even for me.
But, hey, this was on the publishers. Was it so hard to craft a kind rejection email?
It’s not you; it’s me.
Maybe we can just be friends.
Come on. I’d heard it all from guys. Publishers could have the decency to try not to break my heart.
Ugh, fucking rejection.
But a plan had already formed, and I wasn’t going to back down now.
I set my laptop up next to the printer in the office library with a bay window overlooking the ocean. I’d planned to write at that window nook. And I still wanted to. I pressed print on the computer and left to raid the stocked Kensington family wet bar. I’d have to replace whatever I scavenged, but it felt worth it tonight.
I was only watching the house through the fall season. I’d gotten the job after watching my best friend’s parents’ flat in Paris last summer. Word of mouth moved me around the world from there. From Paris to Turks and Caicos to Aspen, and now, I was watching the mayor of New York City’s summer home in the Hamptons. And the mayor had a damn good selection of alcohol.
“Jefferson’s Ocean: Aged at Sea,” I muttered to myself.
Good enough for me. I grabbed the bottle and went in search of everything else I needed.
Fifteen minutes later, I had the stack of papers, a packet of matches, and the bottle of bourbon. I hoisted a shovel onto one shoulder on my way out the back door. When I hit the sand, I kicked off my shoes, grabbed a fistful of my flowy dress, and traipsed across the beach. My eyes were cast forward, and I moved with a sense of determination. The sun had finally left the horizon, throwing me into darkness, which was good, considering I was about to commit arson.
When I reached the soft sand right before the waterline, I dropped my supplies and dug my shovel into the sand. The first shovelful was incredibly satisfying. I took out my frustration and aggravation on that hole. Driving into the sand like I could erase the words from my brain. The tension in my shoulders intensified as I dug until I hit the wet sand beneath, and then I tossed my shovel to the side.
I reached for the supplies, and with my foot on the pages so that they didn’t blow away, I unscrewed the top of the bottle of bourbon and took a large mouthful. The liquid burned its way down my throat. I sputtered and then took another.
That made me feel steadier. More alive. I shuddered as the alcohol hit me and then put it aside before retrieving the most important part of all of this.
Pages and pages and pages.
Forty-seven pages to be exact.
Forty-seven perfectly polite, perfectly soul-crushing pages.
Every rejection letter I’d ever gotten in the last two years, including the latest batch my agent had just sent over.
My eyes skimmed over the first page before I balled it up and threw it into the pit. A smile stretched on my face as I tossed page after page after page in the sand. Forty-seven pages of kindling.
I grinned wickedly, ready to put all of this rejection behind me.
I snatched up the bottle of bourbon and liberally poured it on the pages, like adding milk to cereal. Careful to move the bottle far enough away so that it wouldn’t blow up in my face, I snatched up the box of matches.
“This is for you,” I called up to the moon. “My ritual burning, my offering of this energy. Just take it away and help me start over.”
I struck the match against the box and dropped it into the pit. When the first spark touched the fuel, the papers burst into flames, sending a jet of flames up toward the heavens. I laughed and danced in a circle around the flames, already feeling lighter.
So, maybe this book wasn’t the one. Maybe this hadn’t changed the world. But maybe the next one…or the next one. And, even if it was none of them, I was a writer. I would never stop writing.
A weight dropped off my shoulders, and I tilted my head back toward the moon. I flung my hands out to the sides and did a poorly executed turn, tripped over my own feet, and landed in a heap in the sand. But nothing could stop the euphoria that settled in my chest. Who knew it would be so liberating to burn my rejection letters?
All I’d wanted was to change my luck and let the past go, but damn I felt like a million bucks.
The flames grew and grew, burning through the last two years of my life. And I rode the high as power threaded through me, leaving me drunk and not just from the bourbon.
Jumping back to my feet, I didn’t even bother glancing down the beach. No one was in the Hamptons during the off-season. That was why I’d been hired to take care of the place during the interior renovation. Just last weekend, wealthy children of wealthy businessmen and wealthy politicians and wealthy celebrities had flocked to these beaches and overrun them at all hours of the day. But tonight, I was safe.
I wrenched at the bottom of my dress and lifted all the many layers of flowy material over my head. Tossing it into the sand, I unclasped my bra and discarded it as well. Then with a cry of triumph, I walked with my head held high straight into the ocean. The water was a bit frigid, and I shivered against the first wave that broke against my naked body. But I didn’t care. I wasn’t here for a swim. I was here for primal cleansing. Burn the negative energy and wash away the last remnants.
I dunked my head under the water and laughed when I breached the surface. This was what it was to live. This was what I needed to remember. Life went on.
The Kensington house was just another job. Just another way to make a living while I pursued my passion. One day, I would catch a break, but until then, I would be damned if I let those publishers bring me down. I’d put one foot in front of the other and make it work.
Confident that the ritual burning and impromptu skinny-dipping had done its job, I hurried back out of the water. My steps were light as air, and my smile was magnetic. Whatever spell my mother’s crazy life-journey had cast over all of this nonsense, it sure seemed to work. Believe in anything enough, and belief would turn into reality.
