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When Your Heart is a Broken Thing
Copyright © 2024 by Helen Whistberry
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All characters appearing in this work are fictitious. Any resemblance to real persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental. No part of this publication may be reproduced, distributed, or transmitted in any form or by any means, including photocopying, recording, or other electronic or mechanical methods, without the prior written permission of the author, except in the case of brief quotations for the purposes of critical reviews and certain other noncommercial uses permitted by copyright law. No part of this publication may be used for AI training purposes. For permission requests, contact Helen Whistberry through their website at: www.helenwhistberry.com
"Vera" originally appeared in "Ravens & Roses" from Quill & Crow Publishing House ©2021. "Knock Knock" originally appeared in "Of Cottages and Cauldrons" from Jazz House Publications ©2020. "From the Diary of Mrs. Madeline Smythe" originally appeared in "Duplicitous" from WriteHive ©2021. "Forgotten" originally appeared in "Autumn Nights: Nine Stories to Nibble at Your Nape" edited by Cass Kim ©2022. "A Tail" originally appeared in "Creating Cinderella" edited by K.A. Miltimore ©2020. "Sisters" originally appeared in "Villainous" edited by K.A. Miltimore ©2021. "The Price" originally appeared in "Autumn Nights: 12 Chilling Tales for Midnight" edited by Cass Kim ©2020. "New Life" originally appeared in "Autumn Nights: 10 Sinister Stories to Skitter Up Your Spine" edited by Cass Kim ©2021.
All interior illustrations, cover design/illustration, and formatting by Helen Whistberry © 2024
Other Works by Helen Whistberry
Standalone Titles:
The Melody of Trees: 10 Tales from the Forest
The Tail of Nightshade
Once Upon a Wave of Witches (with Eli Belt)
The Jim Malhaven Mysteries series:
The Weird Sisters
The Avenging Angel
The Ghostly Groom
To Eli, Ian, Kait, and Jess, stalwart friends all
and to my sister who set my feet upon the path
Contents
Note from the Author
Content Warnings
Illustration: Moth on Lightbulb
1. Prologue: Loud
Part 1: Otherworldly Visitations
Illustration: Vera's Grave
2. Vera
Illustration: Eyes, Shining in the Night
3. Knock Knock
Illustration: The Door at the End of the Hallway
4. The Long Hallway
Illustration: The Dog
5. From the Diary of Mrs. Madeline Smythe
Illustration: The Sock Puppet
6. Forgotten
Illustration: The Dragon Sword
7. Take My Hand at Midnight
Part 2: Fairy & Folk Tales
Illustration: The Sparkling Box
8. A Tail
Illustration: The Fiddle and Bow
9. Cotton
Illustration: The Owl and Fawn
10. Owl and Fawn
Illustration: The Kelpie
11. Kelpie
Illustration: The Love Potion
12. Sisters
Illustration: The Giant's Boot
13. Beanstalk
Illustration: The Bear as Jester
14. The Price
Part 3: Glimpses of the Future
Illustration: Zara and Kevin
15. New Life
Illustration: Crash Landing
16. Howl
Illustration: Fallen
17. The Creaking
Illustration: The Ritual
18. The Guard
Illustration: The View Across the Hall
19. Epilogue: Last Thoughts of a Door
About the Author
Note from the Author
Thank you, dear reader, for giving this story collection a chance! I have long wanted to bring together some previously published favorites as well as stories that never found a home out in the world but that I think are worthy of an audience. I've roughly divided the collection by theme and you should feel free to dip in here and there as the mood strikes. Genres include ghost stories, sci fi/speculative, fantasy, retold and original fairy tales, animal fantasy, folk and general horror. A little something for everyone!
I enjoyed creating an original illustration for each story and hope they add to your experience. I decided to go with a slightly looser, sketchier style for this book and am pleased with the result.
As you might expect from ghost and horror tales, there are some potentially disturbing themes. Please check the content warning list for details.
Content Warnings
Stories may include themes disturbing to some readers so please proceed with caution.
Content warnings as needed by story:
Vera: body and corpse horror, disinterment, violence, murder, spectral visitation
Knock Knock: spectral visitation, mention of mental health issues, violence, body horror
The Long Hallway: murder, claustrophobic theme, spectral visitation
From the Diary of…: animal and child endangerment and death, violence, murder
Forgotten: child endangerment and death, violence, murder, animate toys
Take My Hand…: violence, murder, spectral visitation, animal endangerment and death
Cotton: violence, murder, child death, body horror
Sisters: child endangerment and death, violence, body horror, cannibalism
The Price: child endangerment, animal cruelty, body horror, violence
Howl: death and grief
The Guard: anti-LGBTQIA+ government sanctions in a speculative future, imprisonment, starvation
Prologue: Loud
The house is too loud.
The refrigerator moans. You’re not sure what it’s complaining about. You think maybe it’s too full, so you empty it out, bin all the food, but it still isn’t happy. It hisses at you. You take your revenge by unplugging it.
The heating vents howl and rattle when the air comes on. One squeaks. You try opening them, shutting them, tightening and loosening them. There’s nothing to be done about it, so you shut off the heat.
The house is a little quieter now, but that just makes the other sounds more noticeable. The laptop whirs. You power it down. The router box hums. You cut the cord. The light overhead is blinking and buzzing. You flick the switch.
What is that dripping sound? The showerhead in the bathroom is leaking an infinitesimal amount of water. Enough to form a full drop every 53 seconds that explodes inside the tub like a bomb going off.
…51
…52
…53
…there it goes again. You go outside and shut off the main water valve.
There’s a tip-tapping at the window. Moths attracted to the porch light, a shining beacon in the darkness. You turn it off, then go back inside and switch off the rest of the lights for good measure. The floors creak as you pace around the house, attending to your task. Better stop walking and sit very, very, very still.
There’s enough moonlight streaming in to see by. You look around at the stillness of the house. You have shut down its vital components, but yet it seems to thrum with an energy just on the edge of hearing. You have an urge to burn it down to the ground to stop the noise, but the roaring and explosions of fire, the sirens, the barking of questions would be too much to take.
Uneasy in mind, you arise and stride to the front entrance to study the dark figures looking in at you through the peephole. Their eyes are black pits, dull and unreadable, but they themselves are so quiet—mind-blowingly, miraculously, marvelously silent. How restful.
You open the door and invite them in.
Part 1: Otherworldly Visitations
Vera
“Rough manual labor. Hard worker wanted. Discretion a must.”
Most balked when they answered the newspaper advertisement and discovered the exact nature of the job, but Martin Breedlove was a towering figure of a man and laconic beyond measure, so the work and its peculiar requirements suited him fine.
In truth, he never felt so completely at home as when he walked through the cemetery gates under the cover of night. The dead welcomed him, never lied to him, didn’t judge. Their bones and gristle droned with the sounds of decay, a quiet energy which hummed up through the soles of his hobnailed boots as he hunted for newly-dug graves. Corpses were simply vessels that had hosted a life from start to finish and were now at peace. Most of the time at least.
This night was different. As he stood chest-deep in muck, knocking the mud from his shovel against the coffin lid at midnight, the coffin knocked back. He uttered a loud curse in his deep baritone, then swore again silently at himself. Body snatching was a stealthy business. The authorities were well paid to look the other way, but only if he was discreet and didn’t draw unnecessary attention to his activities.
Breedlove stood listening as long minutes ticked by, debating whether to abandon the grave and start anew, but that would mean hours wasted. It would be nearing dawn by the time he unearthed another body, and he didn’t get paid if he came back empty-handed. He balled one filthy, rough hand into a fist and rapped his knuckles against the coffin.
A faint scratching came from within.
That decided him. He’d never seen any evidence of it himself, but he’d heard tales of tormented souls buried alive, found with fingernails torn off and splinters in their ha
Abundant dark amber hair flowed loose and wild down to a sharply corseted waist. Breedlove swept his hands against his thighs to wipe away the worst of the grime before gently pushing strands of hair away from the face. Staring up at him, all soft brown skin and unblinking hazel eyes, was the most beautiful woman he’d ever seen.
Her skin radiated heat as though she burned with fever. He could feel it even through the heavy satin gown she wore. Cream and French lace and pearl buttons. Not a dress for burying. A wedding dress. He noted the thick band of gold on the ring finger of one of the hands arranged so carefully across her chest, a chest that never moved. No sign of breath or life.
Breedlove was not a superstitious man, nor an imaginative one, but rarely had he witnessed so uncanny a thing. He examined the inner lid of the coffin. There were thin scratches, though her hands were pristinely clean, her fingernails undamaged. He sensed movement from the corner of his eye. One white-booted foot flicked and shifted, but when he looked, all was still.
It is in some sort of stupor, he thought, or else, I am overtired and out of sorts and seeing things. Either way, he knew he would not leave her there beneath the cold and muddy ground, nor pass her on to his employers until he had unraveled the mystery.
She had a womanly figure, no fainting sack of bones here, but he had hefted much larger prizes from the earth and had no trouble lifting and setting her gently aboveground. He swiftly followed and turned to read the headstone. He rarely spared the markers a glance, uninterested in the person that once was, but he had to know her name:
Vera Masterson. Beloved wife and sister.
Vera. An unusual name, yet it suited her. It reminded him of verity, truth. There was a pureness to her expression that fascinated. Even her gown, though constructed of such fine materials, was simply cut and unadorned with the gaudy beading and excessive ornamentation which had lately come into fashion.
He glanced back into the grave and noticed a flash of white. Jumped down to investigate and found a filmy veil edged round with tatting in a simple looping pattern. Hair pins were scattered around the casket. Another puzzle. He assumed her hair had been carefully arranged, the veil attached when she was buried. How had it come undone?
Time was growing short. Dawn approached, and light was not an ally to such furtive work. He slid the lid back in place and returned to the surface, setting to work on pushing the mound of dirt into the grave to hide his handiwork. He couldn’t help glancing over at the bride between nearly every shovelful as though he might catch some sign of life, some movement. But she remained inanimate, skin softly glowing in the moonlight, eyes glistening.
After patting down the last of the soil, he retrieved an old tarpaulin he’d used to hold the dirt so it wouldn’t disturb the grass around the grave. Usually he would wrap the body in it, but he couldn’t bear to sully her dress. He removed his greatcoat instead and wrapped it round her like a shroud, buttoning up the front until it swallowed her whole.
Breedlove folded the tarp and threw it and the bride over his shoulder, his long strides making short work of the walk back to his handcart. He lay her in reverently, setting the empty baskets he used as camouflage against prying eyes gently atop her swaddled form. Instead of heading north toward the medical college, he turned east to the grimier side of town where those deemed less deserving spun out their brutish and all too short lives.
An empty garret room awaited there. Its one saving grace was an old skylight with panes missing and stuffed with rags in a futile attempt to keep out the cold, but it was worth it for the light that seeped in even on gloomy days. On bright ones, he would drag his straw mattress into a sunspot and sleep away the daylight hours, basking like a cat until his next midnight mission.
Working men and women arose early by necessity, heeding the call of workshop and household service, but none gave him a second glance as he unloaded his cart. All had learned to keep curiosity and speculation to themselves while out on the streets if they wanted to survive.
Breedlove carried the woman up three long flights of stairs. Past rubbish and crying babes, arguments and lovers’ rendezvous, the chaotic and muddled business of living crammed cheek and jowl like livestock into holding pens. They made way for him, his scowl and silence and size too intimidating to be worth the risk of asking him what burden he was bringing into their shared abode.
A mattress and a wreck of a wooden chair were his only furniture. He laid her on the mattress, removing his coat from around the body so he could see her face and form, and sat down on the chair to watch her.
Vera.
He turned the name over in his mind. It felt too intimate to think of her that way, but Mrs. Masterson seemed rather formal for a corpse. The bride felt too impersonal, the woman disrespectful.
Vera.
He whispered the name aloud, rolled it around on his tongue to get the taste of it. He swore her eyes flicked over at him as he spoke, but when he bent closer, they were staring straight ahead at the cracked and yellowed glass of the skylight above.
Now they were away from the earthy, moldy stench of the graveyard, he caught a whiff of something sweeter, like walking past the flower stalls at Hightown Market. He straightened her gown, smoothing out the folds before he arranged her hands. Then he took his old gap-toothed comb and ran it through her fine-stranded hair, gently loosening knots and tangles.
He was no lady’s maid, but he’d watched his mother plait his sister’s hair many a time when they were young. The pattern came back to him after a few false starts. He tied the end with a strip of cloth torn from the ragged hem of his shirt and lay the braid over her shoulder where it trailed down to her waist.
She looked peaceful enough, except for those staring eyes. He dug two heavy coins from out of his meager stash and attempted to weigh down her lids, but try as he might, they would not close. He gave up the fight and sat back down so he could gaze at her in what little comfort the rickety chair offered.
No sign of decay or corruption marred her smooth skin, but then her death date was only a few days ago. Give it time. Strange they had the grave marker already prepared and installed. As though they had anticipated her death and made ready. Perhaps a lingering illness, a slow decline. Her face was remarkably serene, if so. He’d seen enough of the ravages of disease to recognize its signs in the newly deceased.
The impulse to save her from her earthly imprisonment and the cruel implements of his employers’ experiments had led them to the tiny piece of the city he called his own, but now what? He could hardly keep her forever, and his masters would be angry he had failed them. But the thought of a scalpel piercing that firm flesh, despoiling her perfect form was intolerable. Better to lose his job than deliver her up to such a fate.
His body rumbled with fatigue and hunger. It had been a long night. He took one of the coins that had failed to weigh down her eyes and bought a couple of hand pies from a street hawker. He wolfed them down in as few bites as possible, meaning to toss the scrap of old newspaper they came wrapped in before an irresistible compulsion overcame him. He returned to his loft, fished a small sliver of coal from the fireplace, smoothed out the greasy paper, and began to sketch.
He hadn’t drawn since he was a boy. It had been an obsession then. He’d dreamed of being a famous artist, a painter, a sculptor. All daydreams too far out of reach for one of his humble birth, but an indulgent mother had sacrificed to buy him scant supplies, and a penniless artist come down in the world offered him lessons as a kindness after noticing some raw talent in the boy.
The skill he’d acquired from hours of practice came back to him now. He knelt by the chair, using it as a desk, while he stared at her face and drew. He’d created a pleasing likeness when he was done. Closer to the reality than he would have thought possible, but inspiration strikes that way sometimes. When creation flows through, rather than comes from, the creator.
