The Second Time is Sweeter, page 6
Interesting that she hadn’t asked him why he’d never filed.
“Hard to believe she never dated anyone while you were gone.”
“There’s something about online dating,” Riley answered with a grunt.
“The kind where you never meet? Sounds like commitment issues to me.”
Not Sophia. She loved with her whole heart. The online guys had commitment issues. Or weren’t even dudes. Who knew.
“She didn’t divorce you because she still has feelings for you.”
“True. She feels hot lava coursing through her veins every time she looks at me.”
“Ah, man. Maybe you two shouldn’t have been married so young.”
“Yeah, thanks.”
Not like he hadn’t heard that one before. A little late now, wasn’t it?
Riley switched places with Mack. “Should I take some weight off for you?”
“Forget it. I can match you.” Mack lifted once, struggling.
Riley took off a weight. Mack had a competitive streak that wouldn’t quit. “Hey, you ever hear about a guy named Richard? Goes by Dick?”
“Lucy’s boyfriend?” Mack asked on the third, and much easier, rep. “Watch your back with that dude. He’s dangerous with the stupid.”
“Yeah, I’ve already seen some of that in action.” One less pound couldn’t hurt. Didn’t want Mack getting too cocky. “He doesn’t scare me.”
“Of course not. But I’m serious, man. Watch yourself.” Mack stopped on the fifth rep and sat up, pleased. “Hey, that’s the easiest it’s ever been for me to press two hundred and fifty pounds. Must be all the time we’ve been spending in the ring.”
Riley grinned. “You think so, huh?”
Mack stared at the weights. He’d only lifted two hundred pounds. “Hey! I told you not to take any weight off.”
“Didn’t want you to tax yourself.”
“You’re dead!” Mack tackled Riley and in two seconds they were rolling around on the mats, Riley quickly gaining the upper hand.
“Hey, you guys. No need to fight over me.”
Riley’s gaze fixated on the feet and traveled up the long legs of the woman who’d spoken.
“Knock yourself out,” Riley said, rolling away from Mack.
He only wanted one woman, but she currently hated him with the heat of a thousand suns. Riley stood and made his way to hit the showers, determined to take a cold one this time.
“He just said, ‘I’m too busy’ and implied I’d have to be the one to do it.”
Sophia stood in the kitchen of Giancarlo’s at the end of another dead Monday. How she hated Mondays. Hardly anyone came to the restaurant except for the occasional drop-in, and it felt like she’d dressed up for a party and no one showed up. So depressing. She really should think about closing down on Mondays, but Angie would hate that. She was convinced that if they closed on Mondays, the top-tier food critic she’d been after for a review would choose that day to show up unannounced.
“So, basically, he’s okay with the idea,” Lizzie said.
Sophia didn’t want to say that the look on Riley’s face had implied he wasn’t okay with it at all, because that would invite all manner of questions and comments. Besides, she was probably wrong about that anyway.
“I guess.”
“Typical man.” Angie slammed the oven shut. “He doesn’t have the time. It’s your job to get the divorce.”
“Your job to do everything,” Lizzie agreed.
“Which means this is never going to happen,” Angie said. “Because face it, honey, you haven’t done anything about this in years. Now that he’s back in the flesh—”
“And he’s handsome—” Lizzie said.
“Right. So what makes you think you can go through with the divorce now? After all this time?” Angie said.
“Because I know I can’t move on if I don’t!” Sophia said. “Diana is pregnant again, and I was supposed to be next.”
“You kinda need a man for that,” Lizzie said.
Angie shook her head. “All you need is the sperm.”
“Does that not come from the man?” Lizzie deadpanned.
“Semantics!” Angie threw up her hands.
“Let me fix you up,” Lizzie said for the gazillionth time.
“She doesn’t want the divorce,” Angie said. “Can’t you see it?”
“I do want—I mean, I think it’s time,” Sophia said. “It’s too late for Riley and me. I don’t love him anymore and I need a real relationship, not an internet one. Bruce will understand. I need to move on.”
“Of course you do.” Angie said. “Let Lizzie fix you up.”
This went on for about an hour, Angie offering up second cousins and distant relatives, Lizzie offering to be generous with her exes, Angie suggesting maybe online matchmaking wasn’t all that horrible of an idea, at which time Sophia was tired enough that she went home. Home to Hershee. No man. Just a man next door that was part of her past and nothing more, nothing less. No matter what, she couldn’t allow herself to consider any kind of future with him again. He’d made his choice and it had been the U.S. Marine Corps and not her.
Sophia wished she could phone her mother in heaven and ask for a small consultation. Surely her mother would have something to say about this. Because Sophia had only been ten when Mama died, they’d never had mature discussions about love and marriage. All Sophia could go by was what her older sisters Anna and Elena said, which wasn’t much, and whatever little morsel she could remember about Mama. Daddy-o, of course, would be of no help whatsoever as he hated Riley. And men in general, unless they were the Turlock brothers. They were okay in his book. But any man who would be interested in his daughter? There had to be something sinister going on.
Sophia pulled up to her driveway. Next door, Riley’s house had no light glowing from inside. He’d likely be spending many hours at work, which would be in line with everything she’d ever known about him, a man who had to prove himself to the world over and over again. The town’s new chief, someone who might not appreciate a strange woman on his porch, currently banging on his front door.
On closer inspection, the woman was Lucy Jacobs.
Sophia hadn’t seen Lucy in a couple of months. The last time she’d dropped by Lucy had made some lame excuse about the bruise on her wrist but Sophia knew better. Lucy had never made good choices. She’d been at her and Riley’s wedding, with some guy who looked like the spawn of Keith Richards from the Rolling Stones. If he’d married a zombie. Sophia didn’t have much in common with Lucy besides Riley, but she’d been kind to Sophia, running down to the market to get her a cold Mocha Frappuccino on her wedding day just so she could feel normal. Being the one person who didn’t suggest that she might be a little too young and inexperienced to get married at twenty-one to, of all things, a Marine who would be deployed any day.
At the moment, Lucy appeared to be sobbing uncontrollably. “Could you please open up?”
“I don’t think he’s home,” Sophia said through her rolled-down window and then climbed out of her car.
That made Lucy whip around, like she’d been caught in the act. “I’m not breaking in. My brother lives here.”
“I know.” Sophia smiled a little, expecting Lucy would recognize her any second. It didn’t help that Lucy seemed to be drunk or high. Maybe a combination of the two.
“Sophia!”
She came closer, and Sophia resisted stepping back when the potent smell of whiskey hit her hard.
“My cell phone is dead. Do you know when he’ll be back?”
“No. But you can wait in my house if you’d like.”
“Really?” Lucy staggered toward Sophia. “That would be so cool.”
Sophia opened up the front door, and Hershee came to greet her, immediately backing up in suspicion at the sight of Lucy.
“Aw, what a cute doggie. I had a cat but my stupid boyfriend is allergic. His name is Dick. My boyfriend’s, not the cat. Isn’t that a great name?”
“Classic.” Sophia picked up Hershee and turned on lights as she went. “Did you drive here?”
Please say no.
“Not with my brother the police chief around. Are you kidding? Speaking of which, if it’s bad to have your brother as the police chief I can’t imagine it’s much better for him to be your husband.” She laughed, but it sounded more like a loud hacking sound somewhere between a wheeze and a cough.
Hershee startled, jumped out of Sophia’s arms and ran for one of the back bedrooms.
“But we’re not like a married couple. It’s just on paper.”
“Sure. He can’t order you around anymore.”
“He never did.”
This was a lie.
He’d just done it again a couple of days ago. Sit down with me. Don’t lie again, he’d instructed little Chloe. Good advice, but still. Given time, he’d try ordering Sophia around again. If she were being honest, she hadn’t minded all of the orders. Kiss me.
Like she’d run out of steam, Lucy plopped down on the couch. “My brother’s not all bad, you know. He’s just a gung-ho Marine. But you can’t blame it all on him. They do something to them over there. Ooh rah and all that. Well, look who I’m talking to! You married him. Am I right?”
But Sophia didn’t exactly want to relive the Semper Fi period of her life right now, possibly the single most painful time.
“Yep, that I did. Hey, you want to use my phone to call him?”
“Thanks!” Using Sophia’s cell phone, she dialed. “Hey, Riley. I’m at your place. I mean, I’m next door. With your wife. Or your ex-wife. Whatever. She’s so sweet. Dick just left me here in town and I walked to your place. Said I mouthed off to him. Can you believe that? Can you please give me a ride home? Oh, okay. Thanks, buddy.”
She accepted her phone back from Lucy. “Is he coming home?”
“Yeah, right now.” She wiped at her raccoon eyes. “I’m glad he’s back. He’s a pain in my neck but he’s all I have.”
“You’re all he has too.” Whereas Sophia hadn’t had a mother for nearly twenty years, she’d at least always had Daddy-o. And over the years, Eileen really had grown on Sophia.
“Not all,” Lucy said, leaning back and closing her eyes. “Riley has people who care about him. Friends. And he has you.”
Sophia didn’t speak. He didn’t have her. Not anymore, but that had been his choice.
“He still loves you, you know.”
Sophia snorted. “I don’t think you’re right about that.”
But Lucy was already snoring on Sophia’s couch. She only wished she could fall asleep that quickly and not have her mind race every night.
What if I never fall in love again?
What if I never have children?
What if I’m an old maid?
What’s the oldest I can conceive and still have a healthy baby?
Does this spot on my hand look like skin cancer?
Did I forget to lock the back door?
Lucy looked cold, so Sophia brought out a blanket from her bedroom. Lucy was actually such a pretty girl and had even modeled a little as a teenager. Like Riley, she had brown hair and a full mouth. Devastatingly long lashes and chocolate brown eyes. Riley had always looked out for his younger sister, not that it had seemed to help much. While he’d pushed and shoved his way out of the dysfunctional lifestyle in which they’d both grown up, Lucy seemed content to stay there.
Riley would be here soon, and because Lucy was now asleep, that meant it would be the two of them. Sophia and Riley. They hadn’t been alone together yet. There was the night in the restaurant, when they’d been surrounded by patrons, and yesterday when they’d been with the girls. Sophia considered waking Lucy up. Being alone with Riley could be dangerous to Sophia’s health and well-being. He always had a way of making her lose her footing, both physically and metaphorically. Something she couldn’t do right now, when she had come to the realization of exactly what she had to do. She would have to take steps to make the separation happen. She’d make it legal.
It would be okay. She’d been a single woman for years in theory.
The unmistakable sound of Riley’s Harley reverberated through her house and the thin walls. Lucy, however, didn’t budge. Hershee came scurrying back out of the bedroom and cocked her head.
“It’s him again. I’m afraid I’m going to have to let him in.”
She looked out her window. What was it about a man in uniform? Riley’s whole cop thing certainly wasn’t doing him any harm in the looks department. Then again, he’d always filled out a uniform well. Some things would never change.
Sophia met him at the door. “She fell asleep.”
“Mind if I get rid of this first?” He opened his jacket and palmed his side arm. “I’ll be right back to get her.”
“Please.”
She didn’t do guns. But poor guy looked tired, and she supposed he would be. She’d heard him start his Harley this morning before sunrise.
A few minutes later he was back minus the gun and the uniform. He had on a pair of black jeans, a black T-shirt and still had on his motorcycle boots. Mr. Cool. Not like she had any business noticing whether or not her husband was or was not still pretty scorching hot. He was, of course. Not the issue.
“Thanks for doing this,” he said once he’d stepped inside.
She took a step back from him and crossed her arms. “That’s okay. I didn’t want her waking up the neighborhood. She’s using again.”
“I know.” He sighed, running a hand across the short bristle on his chin. “I’ll get her back in rehab soon.”
“It’s not about you getting her there. It has to be her choice.”
Riley took a step closer. “Are you the expert now?”
She’d read a lot on the subject because, whether he believed it or not, she too cared about Lucy. “I read. I hear things.”
His lip curled up in a half smile. “What do you hear?”
“The addict has to want the help. Rehab has to be their idea.”
“She always agrees to go.”
“To please you. Make you happy. Not really for herself.”
“I’m supposed to wait until it’s her idea?” His eyes narrowed.
“Something like that. Wait till she hits rock bottom.”
He waved a hand toward Lucy, sprawled out on the couch in her diva boots. “And you don’t think this is rock bottom?”
He had a point. Sophia shook her head. “I’m just trying to help, Riley. You always want to control everything and everyone.”
“Funny you should say that because I’m looking at the one person I could never control.” He was staring at her now, uncomfortably so, and she began to feel like maybe he’d burn a hole in her eyeball before long.
“Sometimes you just have to…let things go. Let it be her—”
“Oh, hey.” Lucy woke and promptly fell off the couch. “Oopsie-daisy. There’s the floor.”
Riley was at her side, helping her up. “Let’s get you home, ‘Grace.’ Maybe you should stay with me tonight.”
“Okay, but don’t tell anybody because this doesn’t look good. Shhhhh,” she whispered to Sophia as she and Riley walked past her toward the front door. “Have to keep up appearances. My brother is the chief of police.”
Once Riley went next door, Sophia breathed a sigh of relief. Hershee also sensed the change and came into the living room to sit at Sophia’s feet. She had one more thing to do tonight. Another loose end to tie and one she’d been avoiding. She opened up her laptop and pulled up her Facebook account to send Bruce a private message.
What do you know about addiction?
Only a couple of minutes later, Bruce replied: Why, honey? Addiction is a terrible thing. Do you think you’re addicted? Sorry to ask, I have a big mouth sometimes.
Bruce often complained he had a big mouth that got him into trouble on a regular basis. Oh God no, not me. She explained. I have a friend. She’s been through rehab twice and it doesn’t seem to work.
What’s your friend’s drug of choice?
I think…meth?
Holy cow, honey, that’s not good.
Tell me about it. But don’t you think it should be my friend’s idea to do rehab? I mean, if she does it just to please someone, that won’t work will it?
Well, maybe this person you’re talking about wants your friend to live. All’s fair when it comes to getting someone into rehab and away from meth.
But I thought someone should hit rock bottom first. That’s what all the shows say.
Save me from those fake doctor shows. If you need to go into rehab, honey, do it! For me, for anyone who loves you!
I’m not talking about me.
Seriously? You really have a ‘friend’?
Okay, well, she could see how that sounded now. She blew out a frustrated breath. That’s what she got for dealing with people who didn’t really know who she was. Time to get to the other, more pressing matter.
Listen, you’ve been so great. I have to be honest. There are things I want in life. And I’m not getting any younger. I’m going to have to start dating soon.
I thought we were dating?
We’ve never even met.
True, I’m so busy.
Still too busy to send her a real photo apparently. Riley was right. How could she have been so blind? Didn’t matter. Desperate women believed what they wanted to believe but not her. No more online love. It didn’t work in the real world. Sure, it was safer in a lot of ways to get to know someone before meeting in the flesh when all those confusing hormones came out to play. Fun to meet people from all over the country. But safe wasn’t going to get her a baby. She would need to move into the world again and date a real man like Riley. But not Riley.
Bruce, I want to break up.
