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If I Had You

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If I Had You

  Also by Heather Hiestand

  The Redcakes

  The Marquess of Cake

  One Taste of Scandal

  His Wicked Smile

  The Kidnapped Bride (novella)

  Christmas Delights

  Wedding Matilda

  Trifling Favors

  The Grand Russe Hotel

  If I Had You

  I Wanna Be Loved by You (coming February 2017)

  If I Had You The Grand Russe Hotel

  Heather Hiestand


  Kensington Publishing Corp.


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  Copyright © 2016 by Heather Hiestand

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  First Electronic Edition: September 2016

  ISBN: 978-1-6018-3579-6

  eISBN-10: 1-60183-579-5

  ISBN-13: 978-1-60183-580-2

  ISBN-10: 1-60183-580-9


  Table of Contents

  Also by Heather Hiestand

  Title Page

  Copyright Page



  Chapter One

  Chapter Two

  Chapter Three

  Chapter Four

  Chapter Five

  Chapter Six

  Chapter Seven

  Chapter Eight

  Chapter Nine

  Chapter Ten

  Chapter Eleven

  Chapter Twelve

  Chapter Thirteen

  Chapter Fourteen

  Chapter Fifteen

  Chapter Sixteen

  Chapter Seventeen

  Chapter Eighteen

  Chapter Nineteen

  Chapter Twenty


  I Wanna Be Loved By You Teaser

  About the Author

  For anyone who feels like a wallflower and wants to join in on the party of life, Alecia’s story is for you. Reach out, turn on some music, get help. There are people out there who will love you. You aren’t alone.


  Eilis Flynn once suggested I write a novel set around a hotel. My editor, Peter Senftleben, suggested I set a book in the 1920s. Without those suggestions, this book wouldn’t exist. Thank you to Judy Di Canio, Mary Jo Hiestand, David Hiestand, Delle Jacobs, Melissa McClone, Peggy Bird, Marilyn Hull, and Madeline Pruett for your assistance and support. Also I’d like to thank production editor Rebecca Cremonese, copy editor Tory Groshong, cover designer Elle Rossi, the rest of the Kensington team, and my agent, Laurie McLean, and the Fuse Literary team for their support of the Grand Russe series.

  Chapter One

  London, midnight, December 28, 1924


  The saxophone wailed and screeched over the piano. A trombone blared in, deepening the rollicking sound. Alecia Loudon’s foot tapped as a female singer sang the words to the newest tune from America. Underneath the music beat the sounds of the nightclub: cups rattling on plates, champagne glasses clinking, and matches being struck for innumerable cigarettes.

  Alecia longed to see the action, but it was hidden from her on the other side of the nightclub’s rear door. Cocooned in the luxury hotel that shared the club’s wall, she couldn’t see the dancing. Styles changed so fast, and she wished she knew the current fads. Of course, the song had about as much relevance to her sex-free life as the dancing. “ ‘My baby don’t love nobody but me . . .’ ”

  No, the life behind that door bore no resemblance to hers. She was a questionably modern secretary of twenty-two who’d never been kissed. Oh, but she’d thought about kissing, fantasized about kissing, daydreamed about kissing one certain handsome man here at the Grand Russe Hotel . . .

  She pushed the thought away and tried the handle of the door. One inch to the right, two inches . . . it caught. Frustrated, she turned the knob again but it only rattled, metal against metal. Securely locked. She considered leaving the safety of the hotel, darting onto busy Park Lane at Hyde Park Corner, going into the alley where the main nightclub door was. But she wasn’t dressed for the nightclub.

  Giggles emanating from a dark corner on the far side of the door stole her away from her thoughts. She peeled away from the wall where she’d been leaning, in what was little more than a service corridor between the nightclub and the newly reopened hotel. Even back here, the opulence of the Grand Russe Hotel continued undiminished. The tops of the walls were stenciled in a forest green and red-brown geometric pattern that reminded her of teeth. Colorful paintings of ballet scenes done by itinerant Russian artists dotted the walls every six feet, uniform in size and frame.

  The hotel’s decorations had been inspired by The Sleeping Princess ballet performed at the Alhambra in Leicester Square a few years ago, but for sure, the couple on the dark velvet sofa in the corner were no Sleeping Beauty and her Prince Charming. The man in the clinch did not meet any masculine ideal. She’d seen a man who did, though, late at night here at the hotel. Alecia ghosted her way through the somnolent hotel in the wee hours, escaping her ever-present nightmares, while he protected it. A night watchman. She’d never spoken to him.

  Dark waves of hair gave him a rakish edge. He possessed eyes of a brown that were closer to amber. Thick chocolate brows overshadowed his eye sockets, making for a fiercely probing gaze. Sculpted, full lips, the rosy bottom just slightly larger than the top. A nose almost too expansive for the face, but imposingly masculine. Angular cheekbones and triangular jaw with a mildly cleft chin. Golden sand-colored skin. A real sheik, though she was no sheba to find herself bent back over his arm and ravished. How she wished.

  Oh God. The mere thought of that man, those broad shoulders and trim hips, six feet of masculine perfection, made her weak in the knees and damp in places her late grandmother had told her never to think about. She ought to set her sights on the kind of man who could take her to the nightclub, but her imagination hadn’t released the night watchman yet.

  The man on the sofa though, leaning over the woman in the revealing champagne-colored French dancing frock, was the type to be able to afford London nightlife. Unfortunately, he was young, balding, stoop-shouldered, and tending to embonpoint around his midsection. The expensive clothes did not make up for this. The gleaming gold bands on the couples’ ring fingers told the tale. A Christmas season wedding, followed by a honeymoon in the most scandalous hotel in London.

  The hotel owners no doubt hoped the complete refurbishment of the place, and the name change, would rescue their investment from the ignominy it suffered as the location of the infamous Starlet Murders of 1922, but even she, living then with her vicar grandfather and younger sister in Bagshot, Surrey, had heard the stories. With all the inns nearby, the London news could not help filtering in. Rumors of gin and cocaine and sex and sex and sex and, well, death.

  Nothing like the quiet life her employers, Richard and Sybil Marvin, had introduced her to when they took up residence here at the hotel, though they, like the rouged and lipstick-wearing murder victims, were actors.

  The bride giggled again as her new husband kissed her décol-letage. The man ra
n his tongue along his wife’s collarbone. Alecia’s eyes widened as his hand went up her knee-length skirt. Were they actually going to have sex, right there on the sofa?

  She cleared her throat loudly, but they didn’t hear her, or didn’t care. The silver tray holding two empty champagne bottles and two overturned glasses explained why these two were in their own world. Drunk as lords. What should she do now?

  When she glanced away, she saw him. The handsome night watchman wore his uniform of gold coat and deep ruby trousers. Black chevrons were appliquéd on his sleeves. All the buttons were gold, matching the trim on his ruby cap. Underneath the bill, his eyes narrowed as he saw her. He heard the moan behind her at the same time she did. They both turned to see the couple on the sofa. The woman’s marcel-waved hair was crushed against the armrest as her husband knelt between her splayed legs and fumbled with his trousers.

  “Hvatit,” the night watchman ordered.

  Alecia didn’t know what the word meant exactly, but knew his intent. Stop that, you sex-starved just-marrieds.

  Her dream lover moved past her. She smelled birch oil. This was the closest she’d ever been to him. Though his coat went almost to his knees, she could see the contours of his well-muscled backside underneath the fine wool.

  “You must return to your room,” he said in a Russian accent. His Rs rolled in a way that set Alecia’s heart to fluttering.

  The woman screamed when she opened her eyes and saw the watchman standing not three feet away from her. Her husband scrambled to his feet, still fumbling under his jacket. Alecia could see the tops of the woman’s stockings, the lace edging on her camiknickers. She was too drunk to close her legs properly. Her husband finished fumbling and hauled her to her feet. Without speaking, the duo stumbled down the hall, past the night watchman, their gazes downcast.

  Alecia still didn’t know if they’d ever noticed she was there. When she lifted her gaze, the night watchman was regarding her steadily.

  “Voyeurism is not polite, even at the Grand Russe.” He said “is” like “ees,” so sexy. The word “polite” rolled off his tongue in a drawl. Heaven. Oh, he was the cat’s meow to be sure.

  “I didn’t know they were there at first. I’ve been listening to the music.” She nodded at the nightclub door and tried to channel her flirtatious sister. “What is your name?”

  “Ivan.” He paused. “Salter.”

  “I’m Miss Loudon,” she said. “I work for the Marvins on the fifth floor.”

  “I know who you are,” he said, each word clipped and disapproving. “If you want to hear the music, you can go into the nightclub.”

  “I don’t have the right clothing,” she said, pointing to the long, shapeless gray frock she’d sewn herself.

  “Mrs. Marvin must have trunks full of suitable garments.”

  “Not for me. I’m just the secretary.”

  “Myshka,” he said, his eyebrows coming together. “That is what you are.”

  “I don’t know any Russian,” she said. “What does that mean? Are you really from Russia, or are you playing a role?”

  He narrowed his eyes. “Do I seem false to you?”

  “No, of course not, but you know how it is. Ladies’ maids and cooks and shopgirls pretending to be French, actresses pretending to be Russian. It’s all the rage.”

  “The rage,” he growled. “Such a funny expression. When you’ve seen true rage, it does not seem so fashionable.” His gaze wandered to a painting of peasants in a yellow field, before returning to her.

  She wondered if he’d been in the Russian army. “At any rate, Salter doesn’t sound very Russian.”

  “It wasn’t always my name,” he said evenly.

  “Ah.” She cast about for something to say, but words failed her. How could she stay with him, keep him talking, so she could watch the way his sensual mouth formed each word? “I fancied that staff was given a handbook of Russian phrases and an accent coach, that you’re really from Islington or someplace.”

  He shook his head. His shoulders relaxed. “I was born in Moscow. But I am English for three years now.”

  “There must be quite a story there,” she ventured.

  A whistle blew in the distance. A summons? His gaze shifted back to the corridor. “I must go. Return to your room, please. It is late for a young lady to be wandering alone.”

  She knew she wandered too much, late at night, but she had to wear herself out completely or she saw the submarine approach in her dreams, the Lusitania sinking, her parents’ drowned faces. He stood, unmoving, until she began to walk again, quick, nervous little steps. He escorted her as far as the bank of lifts, then continued his path toward the Grand Hall at the front of the hotel.

  The lift operator let her out on the fifth floor. She could never remember which direction to turn. The pattern on the wall here, a thick red-brown line underscored by a sharply jagged stripe of forest green, had dots around it, like tiny green berries. A distracting pattern. Staring at it, she nearly stumbled into a fern. She blew a frond out of her face, then noticed the elderly woman standing behind it.

  “What are you doing?” Alecia asked.

  “Good afternoon,” the woman said. She wore a frightfully Edwardian costume, much too rich and decorated for 1924. And a straw boater. And galoshes.

  “It is the middle of the night,” Alecia said carefully, not wanting to frighten the woman.

  “Is it? I seem to have lost my way. On a garden path, are we?” She touched a frond.

  “No, at a hotel. Is there someone I can fetch for you?”

  The elder’s heavily-lidded eyes drooped even further. “Oh dear. A hotel?”

  “The Grand Russe.”

  She made a congested noise in the back of her throat. “Never heard of it.”

  “It used to be the Grand Haldene.”

  “Very dreadful place. One hears things.” She sniffed.

  “Yes, well, it’s been rather quiet lately.”

  “My daughter is a bit of an adventuress,” the woman said. “Too old for it, though.”

  Alecia’s interest pricked. “Is she staying here?”

  “With me. Daft girl. The younger set, all frivolity.”

  “Can I see you to your room?” Alecia asked, since the woman seemed to be making more sense now.

  “It’s just down the hall, ducks. Not to worry. Room 502.” The elder’s gaze lost focus. “Don’t know why I was standing outside. Probably didn’t want to listen to all that tee-heeing. And the cigarette smoke. So vulgar.”

  Her daughter must be having a party. “Yes, ma’am.”

  “Well”—she nodded—“good morning to you.”

  Alecia didn’t correct the woman. At least she had her key out now. Alecia waited until she shut the door, then went down the hall to her own room. She had been housed in the valet’s chamber attached to Mr. Marvin’s room, since he didn’t have a man with him. Mrs. Marvin, however, had a maid, a grumbling, poorly-used person named Ethel.

  Her room held none of the decorations of the public spaces. Only three pieces of furniture were present: a bed, a dressing table, and a chest of drawers. The chair at the dressing table had splinters in the seat, and a door connected her room with Mr. Marvin’s, which was not proper. She kept her side bolted at night and hoped never to hear him knock in the wee hours. Aside from marital fidelity, something she was not sure applied to actors, he was fifty-one, almost thirty years older than her, and had a luxuriant mustache that all too frequently had food in it.

  Nothing like Ivan Salter. She sat down on her bed and removed her shoes, replaying their conversation in her head, reveling in his voice, just as sexy as she’d imagined.

  Greetings from Peter Eyre.

  The next evening, Ivan stood in front of a notice pinned to the employee board in the hotel’s basement. The place was a dank, groaning hive of activity. He suspected the scarred furnishings of the employee dining hall had been in place since the hotel was first opened in the 1890s, but the daily n
otices from the fastidious general manager were always crisp and clean.

  29 December! The increase in petty theft is alarming. Watch for pilferers of ashtrays, glasses, furniture cushions. If you see any Gypsies entering the premises, please escort them out right away. We don’t want them stealing our rugs and chairs. Please report any concerns, or concerning persons, in full detail to your supervisor. Your servant, Peter Eyre.

  “Now we are to man all the doors and still make our rounds to the second?” complained Ivan’s fellow night watchman, Norman Johnson, tucking his pocket watch away.

  “Not you,” Ivan said, pointing to the day’s roster. “You’ve been assigned the top floors. Extra security.”

  Norman squinted at the roster. The habitual expression had left premature lines around his eyes. “Who is in residence?”

  “Some American businessman. A film actress. Lady Cubult,” Ivan recalled.

  “Who is the actress?”

  “I don’t remember. I don’t go to the movies.”

  “You should. What else is there to do?”

  Ivan shrugged. “Family, friends.”

  “You have some? I thought you were from Russia.” Norman straightened his cap and licked his teeth.

  “I came here with my sister.”

  “The rest of your family still there, then?”

  “Dead,” Ivan said through clenched teeth. He didn’t like speaking of them.

  “Awful thing, the wars. My little brother died in the trenches, you know. Don’t know why I survived.” Norman sniffed.

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