Burning Man, page 51
24 ‘unproud, subservient, cringing’: Letters, 7 November 1917
25 ‘succession of musical notes’, D. H. Lawrence, Aaron’s Rod (Penguin, 1996), p. 39
26 ‘secret malady’: Aaron’s Rod, p. 22
27 ‘a fresh, stoutish … pince-nez and dark clothes’: Aaron’s Rod, pp. 27–30
28 ‘Each might have been born’: Aaron’s Rod, p. 106
29 ‘was conditioned, like herself’: Bid Me to Live, p. 155
30 ‘Dis of the under-world’: Bid Me to Live, p. 141
31 ‘I don’t know why you and I’: Letters, 12 March 1918
32 ‘This notebook is a replica’: Bid Me to Live, p. 190
33 ‘it was not England … out of the world’: Bid Me to Live, p. 145
34 ‘Perhaps you would say’: Bid Me to Live, p. 176
35 ‘ghostly presences’: Tribute to Freud, p. 173
36 ‘We don’t want to be kicked out … so unapproachable?’: Bid Me to Live, p. 193
37 ‘Somewhere, somehow’: Bid Me to Live, p. 148
38 ‘they cannot stop you’: Bid Me to Live, p. 165
39 ‘a very visible’: Bid Me to Live, p. 158
40 ‘I have not seen Hilda for some time’: Letters, 18 June 1918
41 ‘on a sort of ledge’: Letters, 3 June 1918
42 ‘the passion of fighting’: D. H. Lawrence, Movements in European History, ed. Philip Crumpton (Cambridge University Press, 1989), p. 117
43 ‘Every man has two selves’: Movements in European History, p. 258
44 ‘an indescribable tone’: Kangaroo, p. 253
45 ‘ill and unhappy’: Triumph to Exile, p. 481
46 ‘I hope never to see you again’: Tribute to Freud, p. 134
47 ‘Poor Hilda’: Letters, 16 December 1918
48 ‘The wind is getting-up’: Letters, 29 November 1918
49 ‘A putrid disease’: Letters, 28 February 1919
50 ‘hail lashed down’: Kangaroo, p. 256
51 ‘not to care’: Richard Aldington, Life for Life’s Sake: A Book of Reminiscences (Cassell, 1968), pp. 233–4
52 ‘a grey, dreary grey coffin’: Kangaroo, p. 258
PURGATORY: PART ONE
1 ‘It was spacious’: Aaron’s Rod, p. 132
2 ‘a sincere half-mocking argument’: Triumph to Exile, p. 536
3 ‘a very good book’: Norman Douglas, Looking Back (Harcourt, Brace, 1933), p. 350
4 ‘The South!’: Letters, 18 November 1919
5 ‘the past is so much stronger’: Letters, 1 June 1920
6 ‘strange to me’: D. H. Lawrence, Introduction to Memoir of Maurice Magnus, in Memoirs of the Foreign Legion by M.M., with an Introduction by D. H. Lawrence (Alfred A. Knopf, 1925), p. 7
7 ‘a mass of café au lait’: D. H. Lawrence, ‘David’, in Sketches of Etruscan Places and Other Italian Essays, ed. Simonetta de Filippis (Cambridge University Press, 1992), p. 185
8 ‘has never … left me in the lurch’: Memoir, p. 7
9 ‘wicked red face’: Memoir, p. 8
10 ‘inspired provincial’: Looking Back, p. 286
11 ‘I don’t like it’: Looking Back, p. 287
12 ‘a touch of down-on-his-luck’: Memoir, p. 8
13 ‘buttoned up in their overcoats … introduce you to Magnus’: Memoir, p. 8
14 ‘best piece single of writing, as writing’: Letters, 26 January 1922
15 ‘just literal truth’: Letters, 26 January 1922
16 ‘deeply disturbed’: ‘Not I, But the Wind…’, p. 99
17 ‘a grrrreat litttttterary period’: Peter Wilson, A Preface to Ezra Pound (Routledge, 1997), p. 44
18 ‘the world broke in two’: Milton Meltzer, Willa Cather: A Biography (Twenty-First Century Books, 2008), p. 112
19 ‘Lawrence’s one attempt at biography’: Triumph to Exile, p. 706
20 ‘just the kind of man’: Memoir, p. 8
21 ‘an actor-manager’: Memoir, p. 8
22 ‘eyed me in that shrewd and rather impertinent way’: Memoir, pp. 8–9
23 ‘all the shortcuts’: Memoir, p. 9
24 ‘didn’t care’: Memoir, p. 9
25 ‘in a castle’: Aaron’s Rod, p. 210
26 ‘strange, vast, terrifying reality’: Movements in European History, p. 7
27 ‘some impression … predict them’: Movements in European History, pp. 8–9
28 ‘offered to man visions’: Movements in European History, p. 165
29 ‘man was alive’: Movements in European History, p. 166
30 ‘When Lorenzo was dying’: Movements in European History, p. 154
31 ‘strange change … burned’: Movements in European History, p. 154
32 ‘like a hot coal quenched’: ‘David’, p. 186
33 ‘Why here you are’: Memoir, p. 9
34 ‘queer smell … just wondered’: Memoir, pp. 10–15
35 ‘Look here … half whimsically about the food’: Memoir, pp. 11–12
36 ‘little pontiff’: Memoir, p. 13
37 ‘heaven knows what … world of men’: Memoir, pp. 13–35
38 ‘just the common … new bird to me’: Memoir, p. 13
39 ‘You aren’t going … good, good food’: Memoir, pp. 15–16
40 ‘as grotesquely and alarmingly’: H. M. L. Tomlinson, Norman Douglas (Chatto & Windus, 1931), p. 6
41 ‘no one had a keener sense’: Cecil Gray, Peter Warlock: A Memoir of Philip Heseltine (Jonathan Cape, 1934), p. 121
42 ‘a natural copy-cat’: David Garnett, ‘A Reminiscence’, Introduction to D. H. Lawrence, Love Among the Haystacks & Other Pieces (Martin Secker, 1933), p. xv
43 ‘demoniacal possessions’: John Worthen, ‘Drama and Mimicry in D. H. Lawrence’, in Lawrence and Comedy, ed. Paul Eggert and John Worthen (Cambridge University Press, 1996), p. 25
44 ‘He would work his congregation up’: ‘Not I, But the Wind…’, pp. 43–4
45 ‘preferred the humorously satirical’: Nancy Cunard, Grand Man: Memories of Norman Douglas (Secker & Warburg, 1954), p. 247
46 ‘On one side sat a tall, flashy…’: Max Beerbohm, ‘Enoch Soames’, in Seven Men, ed. John Updike (New York Review Books Classics, 2000), p. 23
47 ‘Poor D. H. Lawrence’: Joseph Epstein, Charm: The Elusive Enchantment (Rowman & Littlefield, 2018), p. 135
48 ‘He mimicked himself ruthlessly and continuously’: ‘A Reminiscence’, p. xv
49 ‘“Oh,” said Magnus, “why that’s the very time to spend money”’: Memoir, pp. 13–14
50 ‘the ordinary high-handed obstinate husband’: D. H. Lawrence, ‘Autobiograpical Fragment’, in Late Essays and Articles, p. 51
51 ‘mostly … in one or other’: Memoir, p. 14
52 ‘we find pages and pages of drivel’: Looking Back, p. 345
53 ‘Isn’t that all rather Cinquecento’: Grand Man, p. 62
54 ‘malicious pederast’: Vladimir Nabokov, Letters to Vera, ed. and trans. Olga Voronina and Brian Boyd (Vintage, 2014), p. 78
55 ‘Florence is taboo for me’: Mark Holloway, Norman Douglas: A Biography (Secker & Warburg, 1976), p. 355
56 ‘ultimately boring’: Letters, 23 May 1917
57 ‘extremely nice people’: Letters, 24 November 1919
58 ‘world without time’: Stanley Weintraub, Reggie: A Portrait of Reginald Turner (G. Braziller, 1965), p. 189
59 ‘Burn your boats!’: Looking Back, p. 24
60 ‘How lovely your hair is’: Memoir, p. 17
61 ‘Why should I go second?… Do come’: Memoir, pp. 17–18
62 ‘So the little outsider was gone’: Memoir, p. 17
63 ‘thrilled at the fireworks of wit’: ‘Not I, But the Wind…’, p. 98
64 ‘What did you do in the Great War’: Norman Douglas, Alone (R. M. McBride, 1922), p. 15
65 ‘I myself never considered Plato very wrong’: Letters, 19 April 1915
66 ‘I have D. H. Lawrence … remote’: Reggie, p. 193
67 ‘Morning in Florence…’: ‘David’, pp. 185–6
68 ‘a line of Lawrence’: Reggie, p. 191
69 ‘and I was charged with the odious task’: Looking Back, p. 345
70 ‘Gradually the officer had become aware’: D. H. Lawrence, ‘The Prussian Officer’, in The Prussian Officer (Penguin, 1968), p. 9
71 ‘straight in front of him’: ‘The Prussian Officer’, p. 29
72 ‘bluey like fire’: ‘The Prussian Officer’, pp. 9–10
73 ‘enviable flair, an enviable freshness’: Looking Back, p. 351
74 ‘It has always seemed to me possible’: Norman Douglas: A Biography, p. 337
75 ‘flit along’: Alone, p. 111
76 ‘a low cliff, along whose summit’: D. H. Lawrence, ‘Vin Ordinaire’, in Selected Stories, ed. Sue Wilson (Penguin, 2007), pp. 139–45
77 ‘At the Renaissance, mankind, and Florence perfectly’: D. H. Lawrence, ‘Looking Down on the City’, in Sketches of Etruscan Places and Other Italian Essays, pp. 193–4
78 ‘The town lies below and very near’: ‘Looking Down on the City’, p. 194
79 ‘amphitheatre of hills’: ‘Looking Down on the City’, pp. 194–5
80 ‘far-off sadness’: ‘Looking Down on the City’, pp. 194–5
81 ‘the pain which overcomes a man’: ‘Looking Down on the City’, p. 195
82 ‘first primal consciousness’: ‘Looking Down on the City’, p. 196
83 ‘lovely, suave, fluid, creative electricity’: Psychoanalysis and the Unconscious, p. 22
84 ‘the moonlight standing up’: Sons and Lovers, pp. 23–4
85 ‘It happened before he was born’: A Personal Record, p. 138
86 ‘hewing at a piece of rock’: Sons and Lovers, pp. 30–2
87 ‘Oh, you never know what he’s at’: Memoir, p. 14
88 ‘her arms, her wrists, her hands’: Women in Love, pp. 173–4
89 ‘backwards and forwards’: The Rainbow, pp. 180–1
90 ‘I met him in Capri years and years ago’: Memoir, p. 14
91 ‘I know it because I had fixed to leave’: Norman Douglas, D. H. Lawrence and Maurice Magnus: A Plea for Better Manners, in Memoir of Maurice Magnus, ed. Keith Cushman (Black Swallow Press, 1987), pp. 109–10
92 ‘And now … you must’: A Plea for Better Manners, p. 110
93 ‘Here’s your shirt’: A Plea for Better Manners, p. 113
94 ‘Don’t want anyone to know where I am … under book cases’: Norman Douglas Collection, Beinecke Rare Book and Manuscript Library, Yale University
95 ‘Cassino – Cassino – Cassino!’: Maurice Magnus, ‘Holy Week at Monte Cassino’, Land and Water, 29 April 1920, p. 15
96 ‘He was in pensive mood … such convulsions’: Alone, pp. 134–5
97 ‘refinements’: A Plea for Better Manners, p. 114
98 ‘such tremulously tender accents’: A Plea for Better Manners, p. 114
99 ‘the cruel illusion of importance manqué’: Memoir, p. 85
100 ‘so hollow’: Movements in European History, p. 253
101 ‘royal nerves’: Memoir, p. 86
102 ‘littérateur!’: Memoir, p. 78
103 ‘to all my fellow sufferers’: Louise E. Wright, Maurice Magnus: A Biography (Cambridge Scholars Publishing, 2007), pp. 9–10
104 ‘carefully … told me’: Edward Gordon Craig, Index to the Story of my Days: Some Memoirs of Edward Gordon Craig, 1872–1907 (Hulton Press, 1957), p. 276
105 ‘A concert or a lecture to arrange?… he could have done it’: Index to the Story of my Days, pp. 277–81
106 ‘He was not dishonest … weak at the knees’: Index to the Story of my Days, p. 281
107 ‘a saint, an artist, a gentleman, all in one’: Maurice Magnus, ‘Memoirs of Golden Russia’, Norman Douglas Collection
108 ‘persistent, subtle jealousy’: letter to Douglas Goldring, Norman Douglas Collection
109 ‘I was glad to lose sight of him’: Index to the Story of my Days, p. 282
110 ‘seemed to have played him’: Maurice Magnus: A Biography, p. 114
111 ‘the pale crouching Duomo … dull’: ‘Not I, But the Wind…’, p. 98
112 ‘Few places in the West’: Herbert Bloch, Monte Cassino in the Middle Ages, vol. 1 (Edizioni di Storia e Letteratura, 1986), p. 4
113 ‘crouching there above, world-famous’: Memoir, p. 18
114 ‘riseth in height the space of three miles’: Life of St Benedict by Gregory the Great, trans. Terrence G. Kardong (Liturgical Press, 2009), p. 20
115 ‘beyond the world into the pre-world’: D. H. Lawrence, The Lost Girl (Martin Secker, 1920), p. 345
116 ‘It’s a bit staggeringly primitive’: Letters, 16 December 1919
117 ‘everything must be cooked … terrific beauty of the place’: Letters, 16 December 1919
118 ‘It seems there are places which resist us’: The Lost Girl, p. 343
119 ‘turned into a wandering Jew’: Triumph to Exile, p. 546
120 ‘about 4 miles by 2 miles’: Letters, 9 January 1920
121 ‘one of the most wonderful’: Letters, 9 January 1920
122 ‘strange pieces of grey flannel underwear’: Triumph to Exile, p. 568
123 ‘All the island life goes on beneath us’: Letters, 4 January 1920
124 ‘watched him go down red into the sea’: A Composite Biography, vol. 2, p. 21
125 ‘this island at one’s feet, the dark sea all round’: Letters, 12 January 1920
126 ‘the dim, sheer rocky coast’: Letters, 25 January 1920
127 ‘lots of other people’: Letters, 9 January 1920
128 ‘one feels generations of actors’: Letters, 4 January 1920
129 ‘imperfect’: Jeffrey Meyers, ‘D. H. Lawrence and Homosexuality’, in D. H. Lawrence: Novelist, Poet, Prophet, ed. Stephen Spender (Weidenfeld & Nicolson, 1973), p. 139
130 ‘Any chance for me?’: Maurice Magnus to Norman Douglas, 18 July 1920, Norman Douglas Collection
131 ‘The Lord of the Isles’: Letters, 12 September 1921
132 ‘I believe that hate’: Compton Mackenzie, The West Wind of Love (Chatto & Windus, 1949), p. 320
133 ‘Man went off the track’: The West Wind of Love, pp. 251–2
134 ‘where all the souls that never die’: D. H. Lawrence, ‘The Man Who Loved Islands’, in Love Among the Haystacks and Other Stories (Penguin, 1960), p. 99
135 ‘island idea’: Letters, 5 February 1915
136 ‘I don’t know what my next step will be’: Maurice Magnus to Norman Douglas, Norman Douglas Collection
137 ‘I loathe you’: Letters, 6 February 1920
138 ‘on ne meurt pas’: Letters, 10 December 1918
139 ‘a wistful tone’: Memoir, p. 18
140 ‘charity-boy of literature’: Letters, 13 February 1920
141 ‘I felt … I owed’: Memoir, p. 18
142 ‘Your cheque has saved my life’: Memoir, p. 18
143 ‘a perfect selling novel’: Letters, 27 December 1919
144 ‘I can’t stay here all my life’: The Lost Girl, p. 35
