Fortress In The Eye Of Time, page 37
Sihh?! their attackers had cried, falling back in consternation. He would never forget that moment, that the enemy about to pour over him had given way for fear of two men, one of them having ridden out unarmed but for a dagger.
Tristen rode loosely now, as if sorely hurt, as if he expected no help, Cefwyn thought, and would rebuff what aid might be offered him. But gingerly he moved his horse forward, while the main column kept the pace it could best maintain.
He rode alongside, met Uwen?s anguished face.., saw Tristen?s profile in a curtain of dark hair. Tristen?s head was bowed against his breast, as if only instinct kept him in the saddle. His face was spattered with blood like his hands, and the black velvet was gashed, showing bright mail underneath. Blood had dried on the velvet, and on the mane and neck and feet of the red mare. Tristen?s hands did not hold the reins. They clenched a naked sword, on which sunset glinted faint fire, and blood sealed his hands to it, hilt and blade across the saddlebow. ?Tristen,? Cefwyn said. ?Tristen.?
The dark head lifted. The pale eyes behind that blood-spattered mask were unbarriered and innocent as ever as they turned to him.
Cefwyn shuddered. He had expected some dread change, and there was none.
?This, too, I know,? Tristen said distantly, and raised the bloody sword by the hilt in one hand. He let it down, then. And without any expression on his face, without any contraction or passion in the features, tears welled up and spilled down his face. ?You saved my life, Tristen.?
Tristen nodded, still without expression, still with that terrible clarity in the eyes, fine hands both clenched upon the sword.
?My father is dead,? Cefwyn said, and meant to say in consequence of that—that he was King. But suddenly the dam that had been holding his own tears burst when he said it, as if with his saying the words, it all became real. He wiped at his face, and the tears dried in the dusty wind, as he became aware of the witnesses closing up around him. ?Are you hurt?? Cefwyn asked.
?No,? the answer came, faint and detached. Tristen?s eyes closed as if in pain, and remained so for several moments. ?Uwen, care for him.?
?Your Highness,? the soldier whispered, and fear was in his eyes as he corrected himself. ?M?lord King.?
Riders had come up behind him. Only the leaders had overtaken him: the column was falling behind them. The pace they had taken was a hardship on the wounded.
?My lord,? said Idrys? cold voice as he reined back with Efanor and
Cevulirn. ?The Sihh? should not precede you, not in this column, not into the town. It will not be understood. You have fostered this thing.
Now it grows. Better it should vanish. Kings need no allies such as he is.
Send him to some quiet retreat where he will be safe, and you will be.?
?He was by me,? Cefwyn replied bitterly. ?He rode between me and the assassins. He almost saved my father. Where were you??
?Serving Your Majesty, not well, perhaps. Better I had left Heryn to others. I deeply regret it. —But, all the same, he should not precede you.
For all our sakes, my lord King.?
It was truth. It was essential, even for Tristen?s future safety. He surrendered, still angry at himself, at Idrys, at fate or the gods or his father for his dying act: he was not sure. ?See to it.?
Idrys rode forward. Cefwyn watched as Idrys spoke briefly to Uwen, and immediately after the pair went to the side of the road and let the column pass.
He could not see Uwen and Tristen, then. He must trust that they would come in safely, that Uwen?s good sense would fend for them both, however far back they had been pushed by the succeeding ranks, and that Tristen would find his way home with the rest of them, when of all persons he most wanted to know was safe, it was Tristen. He was King. And he could not protect the things he most wanted safe.
A wind began to blow at their backs, a chill wind out of the north, kicking up dust in clouds, flattening the grass beside the road and making the broad Marhanen banners crack and buck at their standards, so that the standard-bearers fought to hold them.
Idrys dropped back into place. He said nothing. Efanor was on the other side.
They spoke no words. The journey now did not require them.
The sun was rising as they came into Henas?amef, with the gate bell tolling, and the Zeide bell picking up the note as they rode the cobbled streets.
A Marhanen king, Cefwyn thought, seeing the townsfolk gathered. A
Marhanen king is visiting this town for the first time since the massacre of the Sihh?.
Now the Marhanens bleed.
He had sent Idrys ahead, to deliver word up to the Zeide. But, perhaps uninformed, the townsfolk had run out to gawk and cheer as the column came in with banners flying and numerous strangers to the town. The crowd was excited, then struck silent and sober at the sight of wounds; they muttered together at the King?s banners; and as the cort?ge passed, somewhere a voice cried out, ?The King is dead!? and the cry went through the town, with an undertone of fear—well it might be fear, if the province were held to blame.
And hard upon that, ?Sihh?!? went rippling through all the rumors, beneath the tolling of the bells, until he knew that Tristen had likewise come within the gates—knew that it was more than Tristen?s presence that stirred the people. A Marhanen King was dead and a living Sihh? had ridden in from battle. To them it might be omen, even verging on prophecy.
The Zeide gates up the hill gaped for them; the grim skulls looked down victorious from the south gate, and the Zeide?s many roofs behind that arch were a mass of shadow against a pearl-colored sky. ?I will show you justice here,? Cefwyn said to Efanor as they came beneath the deathly gate. ?I promise you an answer for the treachery responsible for this.?
Efanor did not look at him, nor he at his brother. They preserved funereal decorum as the procession labored its way up and around the front of the Zeide, to the east fa?ade and the holy and orthodox Quinalt shrine where—he had already given orders to Idrys—the body would lie in state within the Zeide?s walls.
?Promise me another answer,? Efanor said finally, when they had come clear of bystanders, in the cobbled courtyard, ?an answer for the questions that brought our father here.?
Now, now the bitterness came out. And the suspicion.
?Was it not enough, what you saw, Efanor? They were lies that Heryn used to lay a trap for you—playing on our family?s cursed suspicions.
There was nothing true in anything Heryn reported. Our own distrust was his ally, Efanor. Do not go on distrusting me.?
?I saw brigands without a crest. I do not know why our father is dead.
But you need not work over-hard to please me, brother. I am obliged now to be pleased at whatever you do.?
It was the bravest, most defiant speech he had ever heard from Efanor as a man. It gave him as thorough a respect for his younger brother?s courage as he had for Lord Gwywyn?s. And it grated on his raw sensibilities.
?Stay by me, Efanor. I beg you. I am asking you. Courage is well enough, but face our enemies with it. Not me. We swore not to be divided. We swore Father should never do it.?
Silence.
?Efanor.?
?I would not wish,? Efanor said coldly, ?ever to leave your side, brother. Never fear I shall.?
Torches were lit in front of the Quinalt shrine. Fire whipped wildly in the dawn. The bier was loosed from the horses, a loose, soldierly thing of spears and belts and cloaks. Men took it up and bore it toward the doors. A priest confronted them, as ritual demanded he do. Wind whipped at his robes, rocking him in his hooded and faceless decorum.
?The King is dead,? Cefwyn said, disturbing the thump and flutter of banners and fire. ?He perished by assassins on the road to this town.
Have it proclaimed. Make prayers for his soul.?
His father?s body entered first. The bearers laid it on the altar and disposed the banners on either hand, those of the Dragon Guard, the Marhanen house, of Guelemara, Guelessar and Ylesuin.
He went inside to burn incense and make prayer, feeling the words for the first time in years. He kissed the worn silver letters set in the stone altar and rose, stopped dead as he saw a dark figure standing in the shrine door, with the flash of the silver Star and Tower on black velvet. A second figure joined it: Uwen.
?Lo, your ally,? said Efanor, at his shoulder.
Tristen waited. Cefwyn limped a step toward the foreboding figure, conscious of Efanor?s witness. The family curse, he thought, feeling trapped. Alive and with us.
?Cefwyn,? Tristen said. The voice was faint and bewildered. He heard only terror, the childlike quality that was the gentle man he knew.
He embraced Tristen as he could not embrace his brother at the moment, he rested his aching head on Tristen?s shoulder, looked up at him then and saw in Tristen?s eyes all the compassion and tenderness he longed for in his own brother.
I have nothing but this, he thought. In all the world there is no gentleness toward me but this. Efanor will not reason with me.
?My friend,? he said to Tristen. ?You should not have come here. -Uwen, take him to his room. I have other business tonight.?
Tristen lingered, but Uwen tugged on his arm and, like a tired child, Tristen yielded and went where he was bidden.
The priests? chanting echoed in the vaulted hall. Torches fluttered and scattered sparks of windblown fire about the bier, stinging where they chanced against living skin.
Cefwyn turned and met Idrys? grim stare.
There was duty. Idrys had something on his mind.
?The messenger,? he remembered then. ?Heryn.?
?Both under arrest,? Idrys said. ?My lord, see to necessities and mourn later. The messenger could not have been going to the ambush on the road.
It was too late for that. It was surely elsewhere he was sent.?
Cefwyn delayed a moment, his eyes on the haze of wind-whipped torchlight and then on Efanor, standing among the silent Crown officers.
The great bell of the Quinalt shrine began to toll, solemn and terrible.
?Learn where,? he said to Idrys.
Chapter 22
There were dreams.
Tristen fled the clangor of metal and the sounds of men and horses, woke, and still heard the iron bells peal out their dreadful sound.
Dark had fallen while he slept. He pressed the heels of his hands against his eyes to drive away the images of the dreams, and at last dragged his aching limbs from the safe and comfortless sheets, shrugged on a robe and went to the hearthside. He stirred the embers and threw on another small piece of wood, for the light, not for the warmth.
The candles had burned down to one guttering stub. He sought others in the cupboards, barefoot on the chill floor. To his relief he found a few, and pulled out the spent candles and set the new ones in the sconces, lighting them, one to the next, so that they chased the Shadows into the corners and beneath the bed and as far as the shutterless window.
Uwen slept, he was certain, since Uwen had not stirred out with his fire-making or his search after candles. He would not disturb Uwen for any reason of his discomfort. Uwen had done too much, and was sore from bruises. So was he, from exertion, and from the unaccustomed riding. He had taken a few bruises: his arm was sore from the shock of encounters, several, as he thought, from wresting a sword from a man.
But that was all. He had no wounds. He had gone to bed soon after reaching his rooms. He could not tell what hour it was.
The sound of riders echoed up off the cobblestones, briefly overwhelming the relentless tolling of the bells. The sound passed and dimmed; the Zeide, a maze of alleys and roofs and wings, echoed sounds in deceptive fashion, but it was a large number of riders going somewhere in the night, by the stable-court, he thought.
He had dimly heard armed men tramping about the halls earlier ... coming and going from Cefwyn?s apartments, he had judged. He had heard, half-waking, the bells ring out from the lower town as well as from the shrines and from the Zeide gate.
He would have stayed by Cefwyn, but Cefwyn had wanted to be alone, except for Annas and Idrys. Cefwyn had most emphatically told him to go to bed and rest.
And perhaps, Tristen thought, it was because he did not understand having or losing a father, or the questions that proper men had to discuss with each other at such times.
He knew at least what it was to lose and to be lost. He would comfort Cefwyn if he knew how—but he had not known how to comfort himself when he had lost Mauryl except by walking and walking until he had to sleep, and by days coming between himself and that time. He supposed that was not very great wisdom, and that he had, after all, nothing but the perpetual difficulty he posed to offer to anyone—which was no great gift to Cefwyn, when Cefwyn was suffering his own pain.
He shivered as he sank down on his knees by the hearth, seeking warmth. The flames had taken the wood and made a golden sheet before his face, bright, moving, distracting him from memory. Almost.
He shut his eyes tightly against the remembrance of the noise, the dust, the faces. He buried his face in his hands and stayed so a moment, not breathing until the need for breath made his head spin and he dropped his hands and gasped like a man drowning—flesh as well as spirit, Mauryl had said.
A naked sword stood in the shadows beside the hearth, leaned point-down against the wall. Uwen had cleaned the blood from it.
It was the sword he had wrenched from a man who had attacked him.
He had carried it away from the field, not of any real purpose at first, only that his hands held it, and eventually his thoughts lit on it, possessed it, and he had not, in the end, cast it away as useless to him: such a thing was not useless, in such events as moiled about him.
He had bathed, among first things when he had come home. Even so, and after all the scrubbing, the reek of blood lingered in his nostrils and he could not, no matter the perfumed oils the servants supplied him, feel clean. He looked at his hands in the firelight, at his arms that bore no wounds to betray the thing that had happened to him. He was dismayed at his own unscarred existence, and was most of all appalled that he bore no mark of it, while so many, many others had taken wounds that would mark them forever.
I do this well, he thought. I do this very well. And through his mind flitted the memory of Ynefel, his untutored hands struggling to write, and soon finding that they knew the art.
Mauryl had approved his work. Mauryl had said- But Mauryl had no longer any clear face in this memory. The whole of Ynefel seemed strange to him and beyond recovery. He was cut off from its good memories. There was no way now back to those days, that innocence. He could not but ask questions, and questions, and questions of men less wise than Mauryl, and the questions led him, every one, farther and farther from home and safety.
Cefwyn said, Idrys said, men all said, and it was probably true, that he was Sihh?; that all the Sihh? had died terribly, and that Mauryl had called him out of death and given him a shape and substance; the servants said, and Cefwyn said, that he did not so much learn things, as remember them.
If I go on, he thought with a shiver, I may remember dying. I would not wish that.
The servants spoke when they thought he was not listening, and he knew that they greatly feared his nature, even if they regarded him kindly. He knew they thought him a wizard. They believed his name had been Elfwyn, and they said that he had died at Althalen.
And perhaps it was true—he thought that they had overheard it from those who knew—but the name of Elfwyn was not a Name to him, although he remembered clearly that Cefwyn had said it to him, trying, he knew now, to discover whether he would remember it—and he had not.
Althalen itself, though a Name, was a place he thought ought to prosper, not lie in overgrown ruin. His thoughts were cluttered with far worse places than that, Names he could not recover, and others—Galasien, Aryceillan, Arachis—Names he had never heard anyone use, hovered on the edge of his awareness, and came near him at sleepy moments, like birds that tried to light, but found no footing in recent memory.
The servants said perhaps he had had his last fit because he had come near a cursed site, and the ghosts that lingered there had made him ill, as ghosts were, he gathered, reputed to do, stealing life from the living. But it was not theft that had afflicted him there. It was no ghosts that had afflicted him at all, but a surfeit of Words, Words in horrid profusion, violent Words that had not confused him at all today, when he had seen Cefwyn in danger. Once he had seen the fighting in front of him, once he had seen the King?s banners all grouped together and the troops helplessly drawn in on each other, with Cefwyn trying to breach that knot, he had known clearly what to do. He had known in the way he had known, once the pen was in his hand, how to write, and in the way he had known, once he had found a horse under him, how to ride. He had known in such clear order the things that had to be done to unfold that foredoomed battle-line and bring it to bear on the enemy again.
He had known not only the use of the sword, but the process and the direction of the battle. He had known where to go, and what had to be done to let that embattled knot break open—and he had seen without a doubt on that field the specific men he had to take down to confuse the attackers and drive them in retreat.
A sweat broke out on him that had nothing to do with the fire. The wind that had swept down on them on the road had been cold, and that wind still blew—he could hear it against the windows.
He had done what he knew to do. He had not read Mauryl?s Book, but he had found a skill in him for wreaking dreadful harm—he had found a capability latent in his hands, in this present sinew and bone that Mauryl had made. He knew that things were still unfolding to him, and that he might discover more things still. He was not the feckless boy who had fallen on Mauryl?s wooden steps, and skinned knees on the stone floors of Ynefel. He was coming to what Mauryl had wished him to be, perhaps, but he was not yet aware of what that was. He did not think his present being was linked as tightly to his past as Cefwyn and the servants feared—he did not think it mattered that much who he had been, though it was a start to knowing who he was to be, and what he might expect himself to do.
