Unbreak Me, page 1
Copyright 2014 EJ Logan
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TABLE OF CONTENTS
Chapter twenty one
Chapter twenty two
Chapter twenty three
Chapter twenty four
Chapter twenty five
Chapter twenty six
Chapter twenty seven
Chapter twenty eight
Chapter twenty nine
An excerpt from Collide with ME
About the author
To my amazing boys. You guys deserve the world
Thank you for all your support in my journey to become an author. I love you.
I'm so excited I can't even sit still. Right now I'm pacing around the airport. Why am I so excited? Well, in about thirty minutes, I will be boarding a plane headed home. I've been away at school, and now I'm finally finished. That's right I'm now the proud owner of a degree in architecture from Yale University. Don't get me wrong. I loved my time at school. I met some great people, including one of my best friends Tess. I also learned a lot, about architecture, myself and what I want out of my life, and at the top of that list is Kyle Lewis and that is why I am so ready to get home.
We've been a couple since we were sixteen, but he's back in Cali and I miss him so damn much it hurts. It's been hard being so far away, but I would come home every break through the years. Like right now it feels like I haven't seen him in forever. When in reality it has only been four months since spring break.
I know he had a hard time with me being away. I feel like this year has been the hardest for him. It's like we've been slowly drifting apart over the last six months. We only talk every couple of days, now. We still always text goodnight and I love you, but we used to talk for hours every night.
Right now I haven't talked to him since Thursday and its Sunday. I tried to call him all day yesterday and only got his voice mail. Around midnight I received a text from him saying, "I love you, you're my everything,” Again I tried to call but he never answered. Hopefully being home will fix all of this.
We've been good friends since he moved to town when we were ten. I remember him sitting next to me on the bus, his first day of school, and as cliché and silly as it sounds, that boy had me at hello. Then on my sixteenth birthday, a group of us were playing truth or dare. When Kyle chose truth, his friend smirked and asked him "Is it true you have a crush on Ari?"
Kyle turned to me taking my hands and looking me in the eyes. "Crush? No, I think I've been in love with Ari since she let me sit next to her on the bus six long years ago," was his reply. Needless to say, we have been a couple ever since that night. Best birthday present ever.
I probably look like an idiot sitting here with a huge smile on my face, but I can't help it. I love that boy so much. He is more than my boyfriend. He is my best friend, and I can't imagine my life without him in it.
In the midst of my thoughts, my phone started to vibrate in my purse. I pulled it out and smiled when I saw Kyle's name and picture on the screen. "Hey sexy, I can't wait to see you tonight," I answered.
It was a few seconds before he replied. "Uh… hey…uh… Ari,”
That's weird he sounds nervous. "What's up, babe? I've missed you. Your phone was off all day yesterday is everything okay?" I asked
Another short pause "Ari I want to tell you this now before anyone else does. God sweetie before I tell you; I need you to know that I love you more than anything,”
Shit; what's going on? He seems so strange. "Of course, I know you love me, Kyle; I love you too, but you're freaking me out. Just tell me, what's up babe,”
It had felt like forever before he spoke again "Well, you know how I was going to that party Friday night over at Becca's house?"
"Yeah," I answered hesitantly.
"Well, I had a lot to drink and I was lonely. I just miss you so much; it's been so fucking hard without you here. Well, I was just chilling, and Becca kept hitting on me all night. I mean she just wouldn't let up. I finally just gave into her. Fuck, I can't believe this; I slept with her," he blurted out.
"W...what?" There is no way I heard him right. He would never do that to me.
"I'm so sorry, sweetheart," he whispered. I started to shake uncontrollably and could barely hold up the phone. Now it was my turn to go silent. "Say something, Ari," he whispered.
I stayed silent for another minute, trying to pull myself together, but I was just pissed. "Why the hell are you telling me this now, Kyle? I'm sitting in a damn airport! Did you not have the balls to wait till I was home and told me to my face?" I asked, fuming at the thought of what he had done to me.
"I'm sorry, sweetie. I just didn't want someone else to tell you before I got a chance. There were a lot of our friends there, and I was so out of it, I wasn't even hiding what I was doing. I'm sorry, sweetie; please tell me that one stupid mistake didn't ruin what we spent six years building. I am so, so sorry. God, I am so sorry;" I could hear the pain in his voice but just couldn't find it in me to care.
"Kyle how the hell could you do this to me? I love you more than anything, and you couldn't even wait a few more days for me to get home, really? A few flipping days!" I yelled looking around to see how big of a scene I was making.
"I didn't mean to, I was trashed Ari, I don't even remember it. I wouldn't have even known if I hadn't woken up next to that bitch. You know how much I've always hated her. I would never have been with her if I were sober,”
I couldn't believe this. He got trashed; that's the best excuse he could come up with. "Do you know how many parties I went to these past four years, parties where I would get totally smashed. I had guys hitting on me all night but not once, not one fucking time did I think about doing anything with them. I wouldn't even dance with any guys. My heart was always yours, Kyle! What am I supposed to do now? We had plans. How could you do this to me, to us?" I cried. I was practically hyperventilating while tears streamed down my face, and I was sitting right in the middle of the airport. Did he really have to do this to me right now?
"Ari sweetie I. Am. So. Sorry," he said punctuating each word. "I love you; please tell me you can forgive me. Pleeeease sweetheart,” I just couldn't answer him now.
"I need some time to think Kyle. I'll call you in a couple days, and we'll talk. I've got to go the plane's boarding," I said hanging up and turning off my phone before he could say anything else.
Shit, how could he do this? Has he did it be
What's pissing me off is that he slept with that slutty ass Becca of all people. Knowing her she probably set this whole thing up. She had her eye on him for years. I swear I better not see that slut anytime soon. By the time I got into my seat on the plane, I was so emotionally exhausted that as soon as I put my headphones on I crashed for almost the entire flight.
When we landed in San Francisco, I felt completely and utterly lost. All I could think is where do I go from here? Making my way to the baggage claim and then to the pickup area. Scanning the people until I saw my ride, waving at me with her long red hair and bright green eyes was my best friend, Callie. We've been friends since first grade when she moved to town. She's amazing; I am so glad mom had to work, and I have Callie here to show me some love. She is the type of girl always to make you smile.
I made my way to her, and she threw her arms around me. "Oh, Ari I heard what happened I am so sorry. What a fucking prick I swear I am going to kick both their asses the next time I see either of them," She growled.
I laughed at her boldness; she is an amazing friend to have. "I love you," I told her.
"I love you too girlie, now let's get you home. We'll order some food and watch a couple movies how's that sound?"
"Sounds great I'm so tired," I replied.
We left the airport and headed home. We talked the whole three-hour drive. We would talk on the phone a lot while I was gone, but it was nice to do it face to face. I've missed her. Once home Callie and I had a good time just watching movies and catching up. A few hours later my mom came home and joined our little party. They made me laugh and helped me to forget about Kyle and what he did, well at least for the night.
The next day I spent unpacking my clothes and a few of my things. My mom and I went for a run in the afternoon. That's our thing together. We both loved to run its calming, and it's an excellent way to clear your head. I still have my phone off, and we've been scanning all calls to the home phone. I think Kyle has called at least a dozen times tonight, but I still wasn't ready to talk just yet.
Callie came back over in the evening and had dinner with us. My mom made her famous spaghetti. Well, at least it's famous at our house. She knows it's my favorite.
We ended up spending that night similar to the night before. Just chilled on the couch watching movies and pigging out on junk. We all finally went to bed around midnight, but I just couldn't sleep. I kept tossing and turning thinking about Kyle. I missed him so much. He had been my everything for so long. So, I decided to get it out of the way and call him.
I wasn't sure if he was going to answer it was almost one a.m., but after about four rings he did. "Ari, Ari sweetheart is that you? Oh, honey god I've missed you. Thank you for calling, I've been going fucking crazy. I just need..,”
I cut him off before he could continue. "Kyle slowdown,” I could hear loud music and a lot of people in the background. "Where are you?" I asked
"I... I'm at my friend Charles house, but I'll leave right now to meet you. I need to see you,” He pleaded but I could tell he sounded a bit off.
I didn't want to see him tonight, and I definitely didn't want to be around him when he was drunk. "How much have you had to drink?" I asked him.
"I'm good sweetie don't worry. Uhhh... shit hold on just a second,” He must have been trying to cover up the phone because the voices were muffled, but I could still hear him anyways.
Oh and I could also hear a slutty drunk female voice. "Hey, Kyle baby, you up for a little fun tonight? I've missed you it's, been two weeks since we last hooked up,” What the heck was going on? Who the hell is this bitch?
"I told you the last time I wasn't interested get it through your head Chrissy. I don't want anything from you!" He yelled.
"I don't know what your problem is Kyle. You can't say it wasn't good, no we were amazing together. Why not just let go and have some fun,” She purred
"I have no idea what the hell you're talking about Chrissy now get the fuck off of me. Now!" I was about to hang up. I did not need to hear this shit, but before I could, Kyle got back on the phone.
"Sweetheart you there? Please say you're still there Ari,”
"Yeah, I'm here," I replied coldly. He was acting weird being so sweet on the phone with me and then blowing up at that slut. I have never heard him so mad, he used to always be so calm and laid back.
"Oh, babe I'm so sorry, this chick wouldn't leave me alone and it was really pissing me off," He growled
"Yeah, I heard" I replied. I just didn't know what to think about it.
"Don't believe that bitch. She knew you were on the phone, and she was trying to fuck things up between us even more,” The question I had was why would she do that, but I didn't even ask. I'm not sure if I'm ready for that answer or if I could even believe whatever answers he gave me.
I sighed "Kyle why don't we talk tomorrow. Come over around noon, mom will be at work. We can talk about everything and go from there. I want the truth though, about everything. Got It?"
"Yeah, sweetie of course. Thanks for giving me a chance to talk to you. You're my world Ari. I don't even know how to go on without you. I love you so much sweetheart,”
"Bye Kyle," I whispered. Then I hung up and turned off my phone before he could reply. I ended up crying myself to sleep remembering all the great times we've had together.
When I woke the next morning, it was already ten in the morning and my mom and Callie had already left for the day. I was about to go take a shower, but all I could think about was that slut Chrissy's words. Had they been together before? Has he been with other women? Deciding to do a little snooping, I logged into his Facebook which I had the password for, since I helped him set it up so many years ago. He had messages from six different girls. One of them being Chrissy herself, and they all thanked him for a good time, some asking for it again and leaving their numbers. There were also a few messages from a Charles who I'm guessing is the friend's house he was at last night. All of them were about some party they were going to and in every message there were references to drugs and hooking up with "hot chicks,”
I was sobbing by the time I finally logged off. Not only had he cheated on me. He had done it multiple times with multiple women. I decided then, and there I was done. As much as my heart broke to not have my Kyle anymore it looks like I lost him a long time ago and just didn't know it.
After a quick shower I put on a cute Yellow sundress, then did my hair and make-up. I guess I just wanted to look nice, for Kyle to see what he had lost. By the time, I went in the living room it was already almost noon. So I just sat waiting and thinking about how much this was killing me. A few moments later I heard a car fly into the drive. Within seconds, there was banging at the door, and Kyle yelling for me to open up and let him in.
I made my way to the door throwing it open. "Keep it down Kyle" I growled.
As soon as I saw him I knew something was off. He looked like shit. He had lost a ton of weight; his skin was sickly pale, and his eyes were bloodshot with dark circles around them.
A smile spread across his face when he saw me. He pushed past me into the house and pulled me into his arms while kicking the door closed. "Get off me Kyle" I cried but he just ignored me.
"God I've missed you Baby. I need you,” He said trying to pull me into a kiss. What the hell was his problem?
After what he told me, did he think we were just going to kiss and make-up? I pushed him back giving him a mean glare "Kyle stop we need to talk,”
He glared right back but agreed. “Okay let’s talk, I'll do anything to make this right. I just need you. You are mine Ari,” I wasn't sure how this was going to end, and I was start
"Let's sit and then you can tell me everything,” I still wondered what he could even tell me I didn't already know. I guess I just wanted to hear the truth from him. He followed me to the couch and sat right next to me.
"Ari baby, I already told you what happened at Becca's do you want to hear it again?" He asked. I didn't, but I needed him to tell me about the rest of them.
"Yes I want to know why and how many women you have cheated on me with,” His face sank a bit at my words, but he recovered it quickly.
"I told you I was only with her once. I was so fucked up I don't even remember it all. I've missed you so much and earlier this year I started to get into some drugs. That's what I was doing that night. I did a bunch of lines and my mind just went blank. It sometimes happens," He said shrugging. I was in shock to say the least. He was, taking drugs, what the hell happened to him? He was always so against drugs.
"You…You're on coke. Are you drugged out right now?" I didn't give him time to answer. "I can't believe you would do drugs like that and I was hoping for the truth," I said shaking my head. I was so angry I just couldn't believe he would do this to himself, to me. "I logged into your Facebook this morning. I saw the messages from your many sluts and your good buddy Charlie. I hope it was worth losing everything we had. Now please leave I don't want to be around you when you're like this,” I stood up gesturing for him to go.
He stood too towering over me, his face showing pure anger. For the first time since I met Kyle over twelve years ago, I was scared of him. "You can't do this Ari," He said grabbing my arm and turning me to him. "You. Are. Mine,” He yelled
"Kyle stop you're hurting me," I cried, but it was like he couldn't even hear me. I wrenched my arm away and started to back away, but he grabbed me and shoved me face first into the wall. It was so hard it knocked the breath out of me and caused my forehead slam into it making my head throb.