Maniac's Mirror, page 1
Table of Contents
Table of Contents 1
MANIAC'S MIRROR 2
MANIAC'S MIRROR 3
PART 1 4
1. Lost in thoughts, lost in time 5
2. Encounters with the beast 7
3. I have the power 10
4. Mysterious servant 12
5. The Clone supremacy ends 13
6. Misery mayhem 14
7. Act of Creator 16
8. Cosmic connection 17
9. A broken promise 18
PART 2 19
Minion of the unknown power 20
Two cellar doors 21
Catch the Mouse 22
The unknown power unmasked 23
Arizel’s the hunted 24
Secrets revealed 25
Kayle of a galaxy 26
PART 3 The Timebook of Clocks 'Whispers on the wind' 27
Stories from the eventide 44
Author's note 53
to my parents and fufu
By antim abhay
I am thankful to god for creating these following individuals of unique abilities, who played a key role in making this book happen. Some of them are my friends and family and some are my mentors. They brought joy to my life and they are my inspiration. Some of them are now in heaven. I sincerely ask for their forgiveness if I have broken their hearts in anyway. I was living in oblivion but they showed me the path towards happiness.
Mrs. James, Mrs. John, Mrs. Julie Liddle, Mrs. Olive Singh, D.S Kushwah,Psyd Oulkar, Jboy, Jaycee, Umang, S.K Veluri, G Mishra, S Rajgopal, Atul, V.S Iyer, Priya Sharma, Kushagra, R.D Chawala, Charu, Shobha Rana, Asim Thapa, Atul Singh, Late.J.S Rana, D Kanwer, Ratna Kishore Rana, Late.Thaman Dangee, Shrimati Durga Devi, Prabhat Rana and above all the fairy of my dreams, the queen of utopia, Manju fufu.
And I’m also thankful to the public and police in Pondicherry and Vellore (Tamil Nadu, India) and Bangalore police too; and my college teachers, these people helped me when I needed help utmost.
I have adopted few songs of these following music bands Metallica, Iron Maiden, Cradle of Filth, Simon Garfunkel, Slipknot, Black Sabbath, Pink Floyd, Nirvana, Bob Seger, Amorphis, Pantera, Megadeth, Ramones, Judas Priest, Led Zeppelin and P.O.D. and also a poem by Edgar Allen Poe.
Dedicated to my parents and fufu
BEFORE THE FUSION
1. Lost in thoughts, lost in time
My birth credentials:
Country - Gazahbor
Planet - Teargar
Galaxy - Drofolax
Universe - Arindhara
I have arrived here just now and as always I can’t promise to stay. There is this thing I’ am tempted to tell you, I think I’ve never done this before and I wonder what will be the outcome. Whatever you read is what I could gather from my faltering memory and write. I had to pay for making it easier for you all to understand the truth of what I have written but the cruel fact is that nobody will understand it unless and until they are in the right dimension or the right world of thoughts, moreover these dimensions are overflowing. In other words, as there are infinite images when one mirror is kept in front of another mirror in the same way there are many parallel worlds which does not look alike but they are similar in all respects even the actions, only the train of thoughts is different in all of them. We are present in all but aware of only one and it’s all in one place. Everybody here only know of one world of thoughts, they know of only one dimension, but they are present in all the dimensions in different forms and all stay at a single point and aware of only one form. All the entities in one dimension have different identity in each dimensions. During my youth, I developed an abnormality that I cannot stay in one dimension and the same body for long. These dimensions (worlds), they may be a high level one or one from the lower levels, may be old or new.
In old ages there lived those who knew of all the parallel worlds or dimensions they were called Sysandrians, they were not like others divided in many fragments in different parallel universes but all there fragments from different dimensions were united into one and hence they had a single identity present in all dimensions at one time. All other living fell in love with Sysandrians as a Sysandrian could keep track of all their fragments in every dimension, they were consciously aware of them in only that one dimension in which they resided.
If, in any of the world of thoughts (dimensions), that fragment of yours residing in that world disrespects them, they will never meet that part of yours again, and your fragment in that world will never know. Sysandrians were once like you but when they were chosen to become one, there way was paved towards ocean of knowledge, and they began their journey to become a Sysandrian for there was no other path. In your world no one knows about them, but in the world which is above all the worlds, Sysandria, their story is not hidden. The identity of those who are moving ahead on their path is hidden in all the worlds, their appearance is of an ordinary mad beggar. When we see such ones we react in different ways as per our wisdom. Today the ones who do not continue their journey and have taken respite are not heard of and the others are said to be moving ahead on their paths. I once knew a Sysandrian, who came back from her journey for me, her name was Atmi. She was my first master and taught me how to become one.
Remember in all the worlds
The faith in the unknown brings
Desire out of despair
Strength out of frailty
Conquest out of defeat
Rest after wrestle
Peace out of animosity
Forbearance after rebellion
And life out of death
You have made me so vast
Too great for this world
Too deep to be filled by nothingness
Fill my lonely soul
As you alone can speak to my heart
In words you alone can utter
2. Encounters with the beast
When I jump into a new different world, its good as long as I stay hidden because things get out of control when people find me, the time may pass as a blizzard or as snail moves but beware for sometimes it stays still like a rock, its then when I die by your hands, and you never know.
I needed time to think to get the memories from my mind
I couldn’t believe the sight
What I saw that night was real and not just fantasy
Were they reflections of my warped mind staring back at me?
Night was black, was no use holding back.
Hello darkness my old friend
I’ve come to talk with you again,
Neath the halo of a street lamp,
I turned my collar to the cold and damp
When my eyes were stabbed
By the flash of a neon light
That split the night
And touched the sound of silence
Hear my words that I might teach you,
Take my arms that I might reach out to you
But my words like silent raindrops fell
And echoed in the wells of silence
Have you ever felt
The future is the past
But you don't know how
A reflected dream
Of a captured time
Is it really now, is it really happening?
Don't know why I feel this way
Have I dreamt this time, this place?
Something vivid comes again into my mind
And I think I've seen your face,
Seen this room, been in this place
All my hopes and expectation
Looking for an explanation
Have I found my destination?
I just can't take no more
Think I've heard your voice before
Am I still inside my dream?
Is this a new reality?
Something makes me feel that I have lost my mind
I only dream 'cause I'm alive
To save me from myself
I get up put on the light, dreading the oncoming night
Nothing that I contemplate,
Nothing that I can compare
To letting loose the demons deep inside my head
Dread to think what might be stirring
Got to keep away from drifting
Lost – In a dream of mirrors
Lost – In a paradox
Lost – And time is spinning
Lost – A nightmare I retrace
Lost – A hell that I revisit
Lost – Another time and place
Lost – A parallel existence
Lost – A nightmare I retrace
In every life of mine, I try to save the universe from the evil power Kilkanuks who follows me in every parallel world and feeds on the living i.e. the fragment of yours present in that world, but till now in every attempt of mine eventually I get myself neck deep into trouble, and you can’t imagine with how much pain and strife I manage to escape out of such situations. Whenever I am stuck in such conditions, I don’t know how I jump into a world of another dimension, and some of the fragments of the living in that dimension turn into rocks and ashes. The evil follows me and that dimension is saved from extinction, the fragments of the living in that world who survive forget about me and everything that happened during my stay in their world.
I’m waiting in my cold cell when the bell begins to chime
Reflecting on my past life and it doesn’t have much time
Cos at 5 o’clock they take me to the gallows pole
The sands of time for me are running low
When the priest comes to read me the last rites
I take a look through the bars at the last sights
Of a world that has gone very wrong for me
Can it be there’s some sort of error
Hard to stop the surmounting terror
Is it really the end not some crazy dream
Somebody please tell me that I’m dreaming
It’s not so easy to stop from screaming
But words escape me when I try to speak
As the guards march me out to the courtyard
Someone calls from a cell God be with you
If there’s a God then why has he let me die?
When you know that your time is close at hand
Maybe then you’ll begin to understand
Life down there is just a strange illusion.
When I arrive in the new parallel world, a new scenario begins everything is new but the end is the same (it’s no use telling you how long do I usually survive there as time is different in each parallel world). When everything starts getting better I realize I’m again messed up badly, and I am on the verge of dying but because of Arizel’s grace and her miracles, I survive but in the end I am again running to escape from that evil and after a long suffering ultimately I leave that world.
3. I have the power
One day somehow serendipitously I turned two humans into statues, one real rock like and another working one. By working I mean, he was continuously doing one work or some actions repeatedly. This means when I make you a working statue (I’ll call it machine) you will keep on doing the same work which you were doing at the moment when I made you a machine, eventually the machine will work slower and slower as the body loses energy due to the absence of nutrition, but you will keep working till your last breath i.e. until you die. Arizel won’t let you. I bring them all back to life; I can do that by touching anyone of them, but they are unaware of what had happened. Now in the end when I get stuck in the likely situation of getting chased by people, dogs, flies etc. who are under the influence of the evil power, I summon my power and wield it, and when my tormentors touch me they are turned to machines Arizel makes me disappear and transmits me to a new world of another parallel dimension. I had the power to make any being into a machine.
They are scanning the scene
In the city tonight
They are looking for me
To start up a fight
There is an evil feeling
In their brains
But it is nothing new
It drives them insane
And I went on
And I went on down that road
You can’t bury me when I'm gone
You can’t teach me when I'm here
Just as soon as I belong
Then it's time I disappear
Here I go into new days
I'm pain, I'm hope, I'm suffer
In the mist, dark figures move and twist
Torches blazed and sacred chants were praised
As they start to cry
All hands held to the sky
In the night, the fires are burning bright
The ritual has begun
Satan's work is done
Sacrifice is going on tonight
I'm coming back, I will return
And I'll possess your body
And I'll make you burn
I have the fire
I have the force
I have the power to make my evil take its course
4. Mysterious servant
Once I was surprised as I was unable to feel that evil power, then I suddenly disappeared and found myself in a big theatre where there was no one save a man who called himself Taneek, he said that the evil power which was after me has left me that is the reason I was brought in this place which was nowhere, from where everything began and now again I was to start a new journey as a Kayle. Taneek used to serve Arizel in the past. He gave me everything I asked. He told me I could use my imagination to build a new scenario in any one of the worlds I have been through and can enter inside it and leave whenever I want. I enjoyed few moments of leisure when suddenly on the stage a film started rolling on the screen I was surprised to see that it was showing something like a movie on my entire life and all the forgotten dreams I had dreamt. Everything was going on the screen as it had happened in my life earlier; I started missing my friends and family too much. I can’t say it took a moment or a thousand years when I vanished, leaving rocks (machines), from the screen (to arrive in this auditorium) that’s when I saw someone coming from the green room. It was me. I and the one like me both were amazed to see each other. Taneek told me that he was one of the fragments of mine from another dimension, since we shared one body we could never meet in the world from which we came, though we possessed one body but our body had a unique form in each parallel dimension. We all had a different story but related to one. Now all of my fragments will not remain in one body, they’ll get separated as they arrive one by one in this theatre. Each one of us will now possess a distinct body of the same form as it used to be in our dimension. I understood that now we will be a new generation of Kayles. I saw that again the same movie is starting on the screen looking at this I decided to leave. Then I bid farewell to my fragment hoping to meet again in the future and jumped into a new world.
5. The Clone supremacy ends
A fragment of mine that was in Shanur a distant planet in Arindhara was killed by Zuveta a minion of the evil Kilkanuks. Zuveta found out a way to trace us since all of us are connected by an energy field, so Zuveta and his minions started killing my fragments. But Zuveta could not kill me though he tried many times.
Shanur is a planet in the Drofolax galaxy, the Shanurians succeeded in uniting all their fragments in different parallel dimensions into one, a Shanurian which existed in the different parallel dimensions is in one piece now just like Sysandrians. But unlike Sysandrians
6. Misery mayhem
I have been beaten countless times, the Shanurians have made me perform innumerable stunts, they’ve tried to put tattoos on me, and they’ve tried planting chips inside my body. They’ve tried every means that they could think of, in order to mark me so that I can be easily located when I move from one dimension to another (remember except for Shanurians all the rest of the living are still divided in fragments in the parallel universes), but all their attempts against me were in vain as right now I’m not a captive. I am hiding in Teargar my home planet. In Arindhara universe, people gather points by doing good deeds, on the basis of these points they are ranked in their planet and across the universe. With the help of these points, people in this universe control their livelihood, but in Teargar there is no value of these points it is a planet with the maximum crimes and the only planet where money is still being used for living purposes.
Long ago I still remember that once when I asked Arizel to marry me she said she cannot marry me and warned me not to marry anyone willingly. I don’t know whether it matters now or not when she has left me again. Arizel is not just a girl she can come in my life, in any form may be she is still here but I am unable to sense her. She is a song of the seas she’s a myth that I have to believe in.
She seemed dressed in all of me
Stretched across my shame
All the torments and the pain
Leaked through and covered me
I'd do anything to have her to myself
Just to have her for myself
Now I don't know what to do
When she makes me sad
She is everything to me
The unrequited dream
The song that no one sings
She’s a myth that I have to believe in.
While Shanurians were evolving I was in a virtual Shanur created by Arizel where I received vigorous training to defeat Kilkanuks and Shanurians, Arizel never tells me what the use of my training is or how I can apply what I’ve learned, but I always realize it at the time when I face the threat. Shanurians were so much evolved that now they could read the thoughts of other living entities also, and they kept it a secret, so they ruined every work of the clones, made their life miserable.